The Forsyte Saga, Volume 3
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‘You heard that, Yule?’
The little man’s hand, pushed under his arm, pulled at him; the tall figure turned; the two moved away; and Wilfrid was back at her side.
‘Coward and cad!’ he muttered: ‘Coward and cad! Thank God I’ve told him!’ He threw up his head, took a gulp of air, and said: ‘That’s better! Sorry, Dinny!’
In Dinny feeling was too churned up for speech. The moment had been so savagely primitive; and she had the horrid fear that it could not end there; and intuition, too, that she was the cause, the hidden reason of Muskham’s virulence. She remembered Sir Lawrence’s words: ‘Jack thinks you are being victimized.’ What if she were! What business was it of that long, lounging man who hated women! Absurd! She heard Wilfrid muttering:
‘ “The limit!” He might know what one feels!’
‘But, darling, if we all knew what other people felt, we should be seraphim, and he’s only a member of the Jockey Club.’
‘He’s done his best to get me outed, and he couldn’t even refrain from that.’
‘It’s I who ought to be angry, not you. It’s I who force you to go about with me. Only, you see, I like it so. But, darling, I don’t shrink in the wash. What is the use of my being your love if you won’t let yourself go with me?’
‘Why should I worry you with what can’t be cured?’
‘I exist to be worried by you. Please worry me!’
‘Oh! Dinny, you’re an angel!’
‘I repeat it is not so. I really have blood in my veins.’
‘It’s like ear-ache; you shake your head, and shake your head, and it’s no good. I thought publishing The Leopard would free me, but it hasn’t. Am I “yellow”, Dinny – am I?’
‘If you were yellow I should not have loved you.’
‘Oh! I don’t know. Women can love anything.’
‘Proverbially we admire courage before all. I’m going to be brutal. Had doubt of your courage anything to do with your ache? Isn’t it just due to feeling that other people doubt?’
He gave a little unhappy laugh. ‘I don’t know; I only know it’s there.’
Dinny looked up at him.
‘Oh! darling, don’t ache! I do so hate it for you.’
They stood for a moment looking deeply at each other, and a vendor of matches, without the money to indulge in spiritual trouble, said:
‘Box o’ lights, sir?’…
Though she had been closer to Wilfrid that afternoon than perhaps ever before, Dinny returned to Mount Street oppressed by fears. She could not get the look on Muskham’s face out of her head, nor the sound of his: ‘You heard that, Yule?’
It was silly! Out of such explosive encounters nothing but legal remedies came nowadays; and of all people she had ever seen, she could least connect Jack Muskham with the Law. She noticed a hat in the hall, and heard voices, as she was passing her uncle’s study. She had barely taken off her own hat when he sent for her. He was talking to the little terrier man, who was perched astride of a chair, as if riding a race.
‘Dinny, Mr Telfourd Yule; my niece Dinny Cherrell.’
The little man bowed over her hand.
‘Yule has been telling me,’ said Sir Lawrence, ‘of that encounter. He’s not easy in his mind.’
‘Neither am I,’ said Dinny.
‘I’m sure Jack didn’t mean those words to be heard, Miss Cherrell.’
‘I don’t agree; I think he did.’
Yule shrugged. The expression on his face was rueful, and Dinny liked its comical ugliness.
‘Well, he certainly didn’t mean you to hear them.’
‘He ought to have, then. Mr Desert would prefer not to be seen with me in public. It’s I who make him.’
‘I came to your Uncle because when Jack won’t talk about a thing, it’s serious. I’ve known him a long time.’
Dinny stood silent. The flush on her cheeks had dwindled to two red spots. And the two men stared at her, thinking, perhaps, that, with her cornflower-blue eyes, slenderness, and that hair, she looked unsuited to the matter in hand. She said quietly: ‘What can I do, Uncle Lawrence?’
‘I don’t see, my dear, what anyone can do at the moment. Mr Yule says that he left Jack going back to Royston. I thought possibly I might take you down to see him tomorrow. He’s a queer fellow; if he didn’t date so, I shouldn’t worry. Such things blow over, as a rule.’
Dinny controlled a sudden disposition to tremble.
‘What do you mean by “date”?’
Sir Lawrence looked at Yule and said: ‘We don’t want to seem absurd. There’s been no duel fought between Englishmen, so far as I know, for seventy or eighty years; but Jack is a survival. We don’t quite know what to think. Horse-play is not in his line; neither is a law court. And yet we can’t see him taking no further notice.’
‘I suppose,’ said Dinny, with spirit, ‘he won’t see, on reflection, that he’s more to blame than Wilfrid?’
‘No,’ said Yule, ‘he won’t. Believe me, Miss Cherrell, I am deeply sorry about the whole business.’
Dinny bowed. ‘I think it was very nice of you to come; thank you!’
‘I suppose,’ said Sir Lawrence, doubtfully, ‘you couldn’t get Desert to send him an apology?’
‘So that,’ she thought, ‘is what they wanted me for.’ ‘No, Uncle, I couldn’t – I couldn’t even ask him. I’m quite sure he wouldn’t.’
‘I see,’ said Sir Lawrence glumly.
Bowing to Yule, Dinny turned towards the door. In the hall she seemed to be seeing through the wall behind her the renewed shrugging of their shoulders, the ruefulness on their glum faces, and she went up to her room. Apology! Thinking of Wilfrid’s badgered, tortured face, the very idea of it offended her. Stricken to the quick already on the score of personal courage, it was the last thing he would dream of. She wandered unhappily about her room, then took out his photograph. The face she loved looked back at her with the sceptical indifference of an effigy. Wilful, sudden, proud, self-centred, deeply dual; but cruel, no, and cowardly – no!
‘Oh! my darling!’ she thought, and put it away.
She went to her window and leaned out. A beautiful evening – the Friday of Ascot week, the first of those two weeks when in England fine weather is almost certain! On Wednesday there had been a deluge, but today had the feel of real high summer. Down below a taxi drew up – her Uncle and Aunt were going out to dinner. There they came, with Blore putting them in and standing to look after them. Now the staff would turn on the wireless. Yes! Here it was! She opened her door. Grand opera! Rigoletto! The twittering of those tarnished melodies came up to her in all the bravura of an age which knew better than this, it seemed, how to express the emotions of wayward hearts.
The gong! She did not want to go down and eat, but she must, or Blore and Augustine would be upset. She washed hastily, compromised with her dress, and went down.
But while she ate she grew more restless, as if stitting still and attending to a single function were sharpening the edge of her anxiety. A duel! Fantastic, in these days! And yet – Uncle Lawrence was uncanny, and Wilfrid in just the mood to do anything to show himself unafraid. Were duels illegal in France? Thank heaven she had all that money. No! It was absurd! People had called each other names with impunity for nearly a century. No good to fuss; tomorrow she would go with Uncle Lawrence and see that man. It was all, in some strange way, on her account. What would one of her own people do if called a coward and a cad – her father, her brother, Uncle Adrian? What could they do? Horsewhips, fists, law courts – all such hopeless, coarse, ugly remedies! And she felt for the first time that Wilfrid had been wrong to use such words. Ah! But was he not entitled to hit back? Yes, indeed! She could see again his head jerked up and hear his: ‘Ah! That’s better!’
Swallowing down her coffee, she got up and sought the drawing-room. On the sofa was her Aunt’s embroidery thrown down, and she gazed at it with a feeble interest. An intricate old French design needing many coloured woo
ls – grey rabbits looking archly over their shoulders at long, curious, yellow dogs seated on yellower haunches, with red eyes and tongues hanging out; leaves and flowers, too, and here and there a bird, all set in a background of brown wool. Tens of thousands of stitches, which, when finished, would lie under glass on a little table, and last till they were all dead and no one knew who had wrought them. Tout lasse, tout passe! The strains of Rigoletto still came floating from the basement. Really Augustine must have drama in her soul, to be listening to a whole opera.
‘La Donna è mobile!’
Dinny took up her book, the Memoirs of Harriette Wilson; a tome in which no one kept any faith to speak of except the authoress, and she only in her own estimation; a loose, bright, engaging, conceited minx, with a good heart and one real romance among a peck of love affairs.
‘La Donna è mobile!’ It came mocking up the stairs, fine and free, as if the tenor had reached his Mecca. Mobile! No! That was more true of men than of women! Women did not change. One loved – one lost, perhaps! She sat with closed eyes till the last notes of that last act had died away, then went up to bed. She passed a night broken by dreams, and was awakened by a voice saying:
‘Someone on the telephone for you, Miss Dinny.’
‘For me? Why! What time is it?’
‘Half past seven, miss.’
She sat up startled.
‘Who is it?’
‘No name, miss; but he wants to speak to you special.’
With the thought ‘Wilfrid!’ she jumped up, put on a dressing-gown and slippers, and ran down.
‘Yes. Who is it?’
‘Stack, miss. I’m sorry to disturb you so early, but I thought it best. Mr Desert, miss, went to bed as usual last night, but this morning the dog was whining in his room, and I went in, and I see he’s not been in bed at all. He must have gone out very early, because I’ve been about since half past six. I shouldn’t have disturbed you, miss, only I didn’t like the look of him last night… Can you hear me, miss?’
‘Yes. Has he taken any clothes or anything?’
‘No, miss.’
‘Did anybody come to see him last night?’
‘No, miss. But a letter came by hand about half past nine. I noticed him distraight, miss, when I took the whisky in. Perhaps it’s nothing, but being so sudden, I… Can you hear me, miss?’
‘Yes. I’ll dress at once and come round. Stack, can you get me a taxi, or, better, a car, by the time I’m there?’
‘I’ll get a car, miss.’
‘Is there any service to the Continent he could have caught?’
‘Nothing before nine o’clock.’
‘I’ll be round as quick as I can.’
‘Yes, miss. Don’t you worry, miss; he might be wanting exercise or something.’
Dinny replaced the receiver and flew upstairs.
Chapter Twenty-four
WILFRID’S taxi-cab, whose tank he had caused to be filled to the brim, ground slowly up Haverstock Hill towards the Spaniard’s Road. He looked at his watch. Forty miles to Royston – even in this growler he would be there by nine! He took out a letter and read it through once more.
Liverpool Street Station.
Friday.
SIR,
You will agree that the matter of this afternoon cannot rest there. Since the Law denies one decent satisfaction, I give you due notice that I shall horsewhip you publicly whenever and wherever I first find you unprotected by the presence of a lady.
Yours faithfully,
J. MUSKHAM.
The Briery, Royston.
‘Whenever and wherever I first find you unprotected by the presence of a lady!’ That would be sooner than the swine thought! A pity the fellow was so much older than himself.
The cab had reached the top now, and was speeding along the lonely Spaniard’s Road. In the early glistening morning the view was worth a poet’s notice, but Wilfrid lay back in the cab, unseeing, consumed by his thoughts. Something to hit at. This chap, at any rate, should no longer sneer at him! He had no plan except to be publicly on hand at the first possible moment after reading those words: ‘Unprotected by the presence of a lady!’ Taken as sheltering behind a petticoat? Pity it was not a real duel! The duels of literature jig-sawed in his brain – Bel Ami, Bazarov, Dr Slammer, Sir Lucius O’Trigger, D’Artagnan, Sir Toby, Winkle – all those creatures of fancy who had endeared the duel to readers. Duels and runs on banks, those two jewels in the crown of drama – gone! Well, he had shaved – with cold water! – and dressed with as much care as if he were not going to a vulgar brawl. The dandified Jack Muskham and a scene of low violence! Very amusing! The cab ground and whirred its way on through the thin early traffic of market and milk carts; and Wilfrid sat drowsing after his almost sleepless night. Barnet he passed, and Hatfield, and the confines of Welwyn Garden City, then Knebworth, and the long villages of Stevenage, Graveley and Baldock. Houses and trees seemed touched by unreality in the fine haze. Postmen, and maids on doorsteps, boys riding farm horses, and now and then an early cyclist, alone inhabited the outdoor world. And, with that wry smile on his lips and his eyes half closed, he lay back, his feet pressed against the seat opposite. He had not to stage the scene, nor open the brawl. He had but to deliver himself, as it were registered, so that he could not be missed.
The cab slowed up.
‘We’re gettin’ near Royston, governor; where d’you want to go?’
‘Pull up at the inn.’
The cab resumed its progress. The morning light hardened. All, now, was positive, away to the round, high-lying clumps of beeches. On the grassy slope to his right he saw a string of sheeted race-horses moving slowly back from exercise. The cab entered a long village street, and near its end stopped at an hotel. Wilfrid got out.
‘Garage your cab. I’ll want you to take me back.’
‘Right, governor.’
He went in and asked for breakfast. Just nine o’clock! While eating he inquired of the waiter where the Briery was.
‘It’s the long low ’ouse lying back on the right, sir; but if you want Mr Muskham, you’ve only to stand in the street outside ’ere. ’E’ll be passing on his pony at five past ten; you can set your watch by him going to his stud farm when there’s no racing.’
‘Thank you, that will save me trouble.’
At five minutes before ten, smoking a cigarette, he took his position at the hotel gate. Girt-in, and with that smile, he stood motionless, and through his mind passed and repassed the scene between Tom Sawyer and the boy in the too-good clothes, walking round each other with an elaborate ritual of insults before the whirlwind of their encounter. There would be no ritual today! ‘If I can lay him out,’ he thought, ‘I will!’ His hands, concealed in the pockets of his jacket, kept turning into fists; otherwise he stood, still as the gatepost against which he leaned, his face veiled in the thin fume rising from his cigarette. He noticed with satisfaction his cabman talking to another chauffeur outside the yard, a man up the street opposite cleaning windows, and a butcher’s cart. Muskham could not pretend this was not a public occasion. If they had neither of them boxed since schooldays, the thing would be a crude mix-up; all the more chance of hurting or being hurt! The sun topped some trees on the far side and shone on his face. He moved a pace or two to get the full of it. The sun – all good in life came from the sun! And suddenly he thought of Dinny. The sun to her was not what it was to him. Was he in a dream – was she real? Or, rather, were she and all this English business some rude interval of waking? God knew! He stirred and looked at his watch. Three minutes past ten, and there, sure enough, as the waiter had said, coming up the street was a rider, unconcerned, sedate, with a long easy seat on a small well-bred animal. Closer and closer, unaware! Then the rider’s eyes came round, there was a movement of his chin. He raised a hand to his hat, checked the pony, wheeled it and cantered back.
‘H’m!’ thought Wilfrid. ‘Gone for his whip!’ And from the stump of his cigarette he lighted another.
A voice behind him said:
‘What’d I tell you, sir? That’s Mr Muskham.’
‘He seems to have forgotten something.’
‘Ah!’ said the waiter, ‘he’s regular as a rule. They say at the stud he’s a Turk for order. Here he comes again; not lost much time, ’as ’e?’
He was coming at a canter. About thirty yards away he reined up and got off. Wilfrid heard him say to the pony, ‘Stand, Betty!’ His heart began to beat, his hands in his pockets were clenched fast; he still leaned against the gate. The waiter had withdrawn, but with the tail of his eye Wilfrid could see him at the hotel door, waiting as if to watch over the interview he had fostered. His cabman was still engaged in the endless conversation of those who drive cars; the shopman still cleaning his windows; the butcher’s man rejoining his cart. Muskham came deliberately, a cut-and-thrust whip in his hand.
‘Now!’ thought Wilfrid.
Within three yards Muskham stopped. ‘Are you ready?’
Wilfrid took out his hands, let the cigarette drop from his lips, and nodded. Raising the whip, the long figure sprang. One blow fell, then Wilfrid closed. He closed so utterly that the whip was useless and Muskham dropped it. They swayed back clinched together against the gate; then both, as if struck by the same idea, unclinched and raised their fists. In a moment it was clear that neither was any longer expert. They drove at each other without science, but with a sort of fury, length and weight on one side, youth and agility on the other. Amidst the scrambling concussions of this wild encounter, Wilfrid was conscious of a little crowd collecting – they had become a street show! Their combat was so breathless, furious and silent, that its nature seemed to infect that gathering, and from it came nothing but a muttering. Both were soon cut on the mouth and bleeding, both were soon winded and half dazed. In sheer breathlessness they clinched again and stood swaying, striving to get a grip of each other’s throats.
‘Go it, Mr Muskham!’ cried a voice.