Road Warriors (Motorcycle Club Romance Collection) (Bad Boy Collections Book 4)

by Faye, Amy

  They'd tried antibiotics, and he was still on them. But he hadn't made any noticeable recovery. They'd tried antivirals. But he hadn't made any noticeable recovery. They'd tried just about everything short of hiring a spirit healer to come in and cleanse him with crystals, and if they didn't do something soon then she would get started with the crazy stuff.

  The man on the other end of the phone had told her one thing. He'd told her to think hard about how much she loved her son. The thing that he apparently hadn't realized, or hadn't thought about, was that she was already thinking of that.

  The whole reason that she was in this mess was that she thought about her son. Every decision she'd made for ten years had been about him, about whether or not she was doing the right thing for him. Apparently, the guy on the other end of the phone didn't realize that, or he just thought that she needed to be reminded.

  A noise near the door pulled her attention away from the near-scalding heat of her son's arms.

  "How is he?"

  Paul's face looked worried. His hair was a mess. If he didn't get any photos taken, that would be a miracle, because the photos that would have been taken would be plastered over the cover of every tabloid known to man, claiming that he was dying of some form of rare cancer.

  Going into a hospital, for that matter. Headlines galore, and not hard to figure out what they'd say, or why. That sort of rumor was an almost guaranteed sale.

  "He's not good," she told him.

  Paul almost immediately made her feel better. She'd expected that to be the case but she hated that she was right about it. He shouldn't have been the thing that controlled her mood. If Tim was sick then feeling better was just downright wrong. But he made her feel better whether she wanted it or not and she didn't even hate him for it. She hated herself.

  "Do they even know what's wrong?" Lara shook her head. No, they didn't, or if they did then they weren't telling her about it. She looked up at him and he frowned, his eyes on Tim's face. "I could call the chief physician. I think he owes me a favor or two."

  "What would that even do?"

  Paul deflated at the question and Lara immediately regretted having asked it. He was trying his best, she knew, but that wasn't changing her mood. She tried again to convince herself that everything would be fine. Paul was here and he was going to look after her. If not her, then at least Tim.

  She looked at him as he stared at her son. He rested one hand on the boy's cheek, gently. There were a thousand ways she could describe Paul, but gentle had never been one of them. He was powerful, he was authoritative, he was dominating and he always seemed to be in control of himself, in control of everyone around him.

  But he'd never been gentle. With Tim it seemed as natural to him as breathing. Something in her said she should tell him and damn the consequences. Something else reminded her what had happened last time she tried to tell him. Reminded her that as far as he was concerned there was no room for a child in his life.

  He didn't look at her when he spoke next, but his voice had taken on a hard quality. "Tell me about this phone call. Tell me everything. What words did he use? What did he sound like? Did he give his name?"

  Lara recounted the story of her call. She gave the number, as well, but he dismissed that part immediately. It was likely a temporary phone number, he said; you could apparently get apps on your phone that used fake phone numbers now.

  If whoever the caller was hadn't used one of those apps, it was easy and inexpensive to get a pre-paid phone with a hundred minutes or so, and make as many calls as you needed to without having to worry about it ever being traced back to you.

  The idea that Paul knew so much about these things sent a shiver rolling up and down her spine. And the way that he was looking at her son, his face set hard as stone even as his fingers traced the line of Tim's jaw…

  She'd always known that Paul Green could be dangerous if he wanted to. His wife gave him a wide berth, and Helen had always been a hard woman herself, unafraid of putting things at risk if it might put her in a good position.

  To know that he was capable of being dangerous, and to see him with that expression on his face, were two very different things. She didn't like the feeling that wrapped up her gut and started arousal smoldering in it. She was afraid of him, not aroused.

  At least, that was what she had to tell herself, because otherwise she had a lot to think about. With an anonymous blackmailer and a sick son, she already had enough on her plate without having to decide what to do about a masochistic streak.

  33

  Paul looked at the boy because he couldn't look at Lara. If he did then he wasn't sure what he was going to do but he knew right away that it wasn't going to be something he was proud of.

  He was proud when he showed some kind of restraint. He was proud when he knew what he was supposed to do instead of having a big stupid grin on his face. He was proud when he made a problem go away without turning to one of the contacts he'd made that made him feel dirty just talking to them.

  Paul took a breath. There were times that he wanted nothing more than to walk away from all of it, from all of them, but now, from where he was standing it seemed like maybe his black book full of dirty tricks was the best tool at his disposal.

  There were other things to consider first, though. The right tool for the right job, for one thing. And second, when all you've got is a hammer, everything starts to look like a nail.

  Well, he wasn't going to let himself fall into that trap. There must have been another way out, but if he looked at the worry and grief on Lara's face for one more instant then he knew exactly how he was going to react. Or rather, he added sourly, how he was going to overreact, because he was damn sure that he wasn't going to under react.

  The boy was burning up. He'd been like this every day, and it was only getting worse no matter what he did. He went through the list of options again, as if there would be something new. Then he stood, pressed the back of his hand against the boy's head and turned the cool compress on his head. It wasn't cold any longer, but it wasn't as if he had any way of replacing it, either.

  His address book was always dangerously close to being full. As if he was going to suddenly discover that he was too full of people he knew, too full of people who owed him favors. This one, in particular, seemed as if it was going to be favor enough for a lifetime, if it came through. He had to hope and pray it would be enough.

  The phone rang once, twice, and then finally someone picked up the other end.

  "Dr. Richards," the voice said. He sounded distracted until Paul spoke.

  "Doctor? This is Senator Green."

  "Senator. How can I help you?"

  He stepped out of the room and into the hall. It was louder in the hall, but at least then he wasn't disturbing Lara with the call, and with where it was about to go.

  "You've got a lovely hospital, Doctor."

  "Thank you, it's very nice of you to say so. May I ask why you're calling?"

  "I need a favor, and I'm willing to scratch your back if you can scratch mine," he said. He kept his voice amiable. "Of course, I'm sure that I could find someplace else if I had to, but I wasn't lying: I do quite like it here, and I would hate to have to find another place that needed my money more."

  There wasn't much, it seemed, that money couldn't buy. Paul's family had never been short on it. He'd never been short on it. His grandfather had, maybe, once. But that was so long ago that anyone who mentioned it was talking about ancient history.

  The fact that it made it easier to grease the wheels a little, that it made it easier to get ahold of the chief physician of a major metropolitan hospital, was as despicable as it had been before he'd just done it two hours ago, but Paul couldn't make himself regret having done it.

  He took the hallways slow, on the way back to Tim's room. There were always options, always choices. Sometimes it was easier to pretend the choice didn't exist, if the right answer was hard enough. If it was dangerous enough. Nobody wants
to make a hard decision, nobody wants to make a bad decision.

  But when there's no choice? People will do all kinds of hard things. They'll make all kinds of bad decisions, because they have to. There's no other choice.

  This was one of those times that he needed to think of how there was no other choice, because if Dr. Richards was telling the truth then he had a choice to make and either option was going to be hard.

  They weren't being entirely honest with Lara, and he understood why. Tim was sick. He was desperately sick, in fact, and the only answers were… well, surgery was the only acceptable answer. The other answer, because there was always a choice, was to let him fight it himself, and a boy that young never wins those fights. Most people older than him, stronger than him, would never win.

  The answer was obvious because the alternatives were unacceptable, but that didn't mean that the boy had no choice. He could choose to continue on a failing kidney, for example. He could choose to walk out of the hospital right then and there, and stay in a coma until one day he wasn't even in a coma any more. They could choose all sorts of things.

  The hard part was that the more that Paul got involved, the more that he put Lara and her son in an uncomfortable position of having to explain why a sitting US Senator and the current Democratic nominee for President had taken such an interest in them.

  Those were questions that he didn't care to answer himself. Questions that Lara would almost certainly have cared to answer even less than he did, which was impressive because his preference was to ignore the issue entirely until it was impossible to continue doing so any longer.

  He rubbed at his chin, hints of stubble just long enough to give it a little scratchiness rubbing back at the tips of his fingers. And then there was the question of what he was going to do about his wife. She was already furious about the entire thing, and now… the kind of donation it would take to get Tim high enough on the donor list to make a difference was the sort of splash that Helen wouldn't be able to stomach.

  Which meant that whatever she was planning on threatening Lara with, it was about to come down on his lover's head. And if it came down on Lara, it was almost certain to come down on Tim's head, as well.

  Then there was the other thing. The man on the phone. Whatever he wanted, it wasn't something good. He wasn't trying to help Paul out. He wasn't trying to make sure that everything went fine on their end. Whatever he wanted, he was stooping very near to blackmail to get it. More than close enough for the FBI to get involved, since it seemed to involve a Presidential election on top of all the other crimes that the man was intending to commit.

  The list of who he could be working for was small enough that the names came readily to mind. The list was long enough that Paul didn't have an easy answer, at least not right away, and that was just as upsetting as well.

  He took a breath and closed his eyes as he approached Tim's room in the pediatric ward. There was always a choice. The choice was usually obvious when you really considered all your options, and it was only the rare occasion that anything was seriously difficult to choose.

  This time, though, the choice was difficult, and it was difficult because every option seemed to preclude itself, in a roundabout way.

  If he helped Tim, then he was alienating Helen. Helen, who tied him to the seedy underbelly of politics. Helen, who was essentially his trump card when things got bad. Helen, who would do everything she could to make his life a living hell if he tried to push on without her.

  Whoever it was that was threatening Lara, threatening to expose her and essentially ruin her life and her career, would be as safe as can be from any retaliation with Helen gone or angry. She was the one who could hit. Paul didn't hit. He barely knew how to.

  If he didn't… well, the drawbacks of failing to help Tim were so obvious that they went without considering. Which meant that in the end, somehow, he had to help. He had a choice. He had a great deal of choices. He could make Lara disappear in an instant, without ever once exposing himself to any sort of blow back.

  He could make the problems all go away without much trouble, by pretending that there weren't any problems at all until it was too late. It would have been easy. Easier than trying to find a way to make everything work, anyways.

  All he'd have to do would be to go back to his hotel, get a good night's sleep, and the next morning, climb on board his plane. That would be as easy as it could get. Hell, he'd done it more than once. Cheryl's face flashed through his mind. An inconvenience, cut out without a second thought.

  But when one of the choices is unacceptable, then you might as well have no other choice. Whenever the unacceptable options are crossed off, it's easier to pretend.

  And right now, Paul thought, he had no choice but to make something happen. Because he couldn't keep looking at Tim's face all twisted up like that.

  34

  Lara's stomach twisted up, and she looked down at her son again. Every time that she looked away it was because she had to, like she was threatening to suffocate any moment.

  Up until this point in her life, the last ten years, Tim had been her air. The oxygen she needed to live. With him sick, and the doctors seeming to know nothing, seeming to do nothing, he was slipping under the surface of the water and she had no way of helping, nothing that she could do at all but watch him slip further and further away from her, further and further from shore.

  She rubbed her eyes and clamped down her jaw and pulled open a book. She read out loud. It was something she hadn't done in a long time, not since he was five or six and learned, bit by bit, to read to himself. But when he was a baby, when he couldn't read, it had been every day. She sat by the crib or by the bed and read out of whatever she was reading at the time until he was old enough to understand.

  She switched over to things that would make sense to a child, after that. Picture books, with short and simple and sweet stories written for a young boy. But there was no reason to read him anything like that now. Lara had a copy of Good Housekeeping and that would have to do. She wasn't sure that he could hear her anyways. Thinking about it only made her feel worse, so she made sure not to.

  A nurse stuck her head in as she waited for Paul to… do whatever it was that he did. Whatever it was that he was going to do. If he didn't want to be there then she wasn't going to force him. She didn't know why she cared whether he was there at all. He hadn't been there for any other point in Tim's life except the one where he was made.

  Why would it matter that he was there now? The answer was obvious; it didn't matter. So why was she getting so uptight about it?

  It made no sense. More than that it pissed her off. But there was nothing else to be done for it but accept that she was nervous, that she wanted him with her, and that was how it would be.

  "Ma'am?"

  Lara's eyes shot up and she noticed the nurse for the first time seriously. "Yes?"

  "Is there anything we can get for you? Cup of coffee? Something?"

  "No, I'm fine," she answered, though she felt anything but fine. There should have been something inside her. Grief was supposed to feel like you were being torn apart by sadness. But she didn't feel anything like that. No sadness to speak of. No tearing apart. Nothing.

  In fact, that was everything she felt. She felt nothing. She thought nothing. Everything was just sucked into the black void in her mind, regardless of what it might have been.

  Everything else fell into that pit, as well. She could feel something where hunger should have been. Her stomach was empty and it gnawed at her, but she didn't really feel it.

  At this point they were going to release him, and he was just going to stay overheated, with his mother trying desperately to change ice packs on his head, until nature took its course. Lara could see it in her mind. That was swallowed up by the void, too. Everything was going wrong, she knew. And there was nothing that anyone could do about it.

  Her phone rang. Lara looked at it like she'd never seen it before. The phone number that it
showed wasn't connected to any contacts, but she had seen that before. She would have frowned if she could feel anything. It wasn't an appropriate time, but she was too tired and too drained to feel anything about it.

  "What?"

  The voice on the other end of the line was the same this time, as well. "Have you had some time to think?"

  "What do you want from me? What are you offering?"

  "I thought we discussed what my offer was. My offer is, you don't have to spend the rest of your life having to convince people you weren't Paul Green's little whore."

  "And what is it that you want in exchange?"

  "That's a good question," the voice answered. He sounded like he was trying to be menacing, and if this were all happening three days ago then she would have been afraid of him. Instead she just wanted the conversation, the call, and all of it to be over. He could threaten her with whatever. She didn't care. Whatever happened to her didn't matter, anyways. Not if her son didn't get better. "What are you willing to offer?"

  "Your offer is too low for me to have any ideas. I don't care if you publish whatever you've got on me."

  "And your son? What about him?"

  There was something inside her, she realized. The darkness flared white-hot and burst out of her before she knew any better.

  "Tim is the only thing that matters right now, and no matter how much I think about that, it doesn't fucking matter. He's got to get better before I fucking think about his feelings!" It wasn't until she fell silent, her hands shaking, that Lara realized she'd been shouting into the phone, holding it up. Her throat hurt from the shrill shrieks at the end. The pit inside her went dark again, and with her hands still shaky she let out a long breath and the anger went away as suddenly as it had come on.

  "I want you to talk to your boyfriend, and I want you to find out what it would take to get him to leave. Do you think he knows? That it's his son?"