Sinner: A Reed Security Romance

by Giulia Lagomarsino

  “What would you do if you could no longer work at Reed Security?”

  I blew out a breath. “I don’t know, Doc. It’s not like I can get another job using weapons and my military training just anywhere. As terrible as the shit I saw overseas was and what I’ve dealt with here, I wouldn’t trade it for the world.”

  “Even if it means that you can no longer have a sexual relationship with your girlfriend?”

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  The doctor’s last question bugged me the whole way home. Was this life really worth what it cost me with Cara? Why was I okay with asking her to stay with me knowing that I might get hurt or die, but I was questioning it all now that I had an issue with sex? What made it so different? I didn’t have the answer and I wasn’t sure I ever would. Of course, everything between us was on shaky ground anyway. As a couple, we were rock solid, but I knew that if nothing worked to get little Sinner up and running, I was going to have to seriously think about how this would all end.

  I pulled into Cara’s driveway and hauled my tired ass out of the truck and inside where I planned to take a long, hot shower. Cara walked out of the bedroom with a big smile on her face.

  “How was your training session?”

  “Good. I had to see a psychologist to get cleared first. I won’t know anything until Sebastian calls me back.”

  “Why don’t you go ahead and jump in the shower. I have something different I want to try tonight.”

  I sighed and went to the fridge for a beer. “Can we not do this tonight? I don’t have it in me for another fail tonight. Let’s just take a break.”

  “How about this, you do everything I ask for tonight and if it doesn’t work, we’ll do things your way from now on? I won’t pressure you in any way.”

  I studied her for a minute and saw the hope in her eyes. I didn’t want that to dim, but I also didn’t want to deal with another night of feeling like a failure.

  “Fine. Just tonight.”

  She nodded and I headed off to the bathroom, stripping my clothes along the way.

  “Take your pill now,” she shouted from the other room. I popped the blue pill and cursed myself as I stared in the mirror at my flaccid penis. It had only been two weeks and I was tired as fuck of trying already. I didn’t even pray for it to work because it seemed pointless.

  I turned on the water and stepped inside, leaning against the wall and letting the water pour over me. Hands slid over my back and wrapped around my stomach. I held my hand over Cara’s soft one and rubbed small circles as she ran her other hand up to my nipple.

  “Cara,” I whispered and grabbed her hand.

  “No, Mark. My way tonight. Just let me try.” My body felt so disconnected as I felt the tightening in my nipple, but nothing in my groin. She continued to rub and then she trailed a hand down to my thigh, rubbing along my inner thigh, but never touching my flaccid penis. She stepped back and I turned to see her standing on the other side of the shower massaging her breasts and pulling her nipples. One hand trailed down to the apex of her thighs and slipped between her legs.

  Her chest heaved as she breathed heavier with every stroke of her finger. The viagra started kicking in and my cock grew fatter and longer as I watched her. I wasn’t sure if it was the medicine or seeing Cara caress her body, but either way, I was enjoying the show. Her fingers moved faster and faster as she rubbed her clit and I absentmindedly reached down to stroke my cock. The shocker was that I actually felt something. It wasn’t a strong feeling, but it was definitely different.

  Her eyes were glued to my cock as I ran my hand up and down the length.

  “I want to come,” she whispered.

  “Pinch your clit. I want to see your beautiful face when you come apart.”

  I stroked myself harder and harder, knowing that the sight of it drove her crazy. Her fingers moved in a frenzy until she finally tipped over the edge and came with a scream. I moved instantly, knowing that she had just come hard and would likely feel weak after. I caught her in my arms and kissed her passionately, needing to show her how much I loved her.

  She grabbed my hand when she was steady on her feet again and pulled me out of the shower, handing me a towel to dry off with.

  “Go lay down on the bed on your belly,” she demanded.

  I smirked and followed her orders. Though slightly uncomfortable with a woody, I beared it for her. Her silky skin slid over my body as she covered me with hers and started nipping at my earlobes and then kissing down my neck. Her hands caressed my shoulders and down my back in a sensual move that made my skin tingle. Her fingers massaged over the tattoo on my back and then her lips were there, pressing kisses across my shoulder blades and down my spine.

  When she reached my lower back, her tongue left wet circles and she added pressure with her thumb that left a strange feeling in my groin that almost felt like pleasure. She massaged the small patch of skin for a few minutes and the pleasure built, but before I could explore the sensations further, she moved down my ass until she was placing wet kisses along the skin right under my butt cheeks. I’d never considered that particular area to be pleasurable, but it was. Her fingers trailed down the backs of my thighs to the backs of my knees. It tickled at first, but then I felt it again, the pleasure building in my groin. What the hell was happening?

  Her hands moved up my inner thighs until I could feel her fingers near my sac, but then they were gone. I heard a lid open and some squirting and I turned my head to see what she was doing. Squinting, I saw she was holding a bottle of lube.

  “What do you think you’re doing with that?”

  “I want you to trust me.”

  “If you think you’re shoving something up my ass, you’re dead wrong.”

  “Not something, my finger. Did you know that men have a g spot also? It can be reached best through your ass.”

  I shook my head at her. “No way.”

  “If you let me do it, I’ll let you do it.”

  Challenge accepted. I laid my head back down and grimaced when I felt her wet finger slowly penetrate my ass. I squeezed my ass cheeks together, knowing this was not right and she shouldn’t be anywhere near that hole.

  “Relax, Mark. It’ll hurt if you don’t loosen up. As I push in, you push out.”

  How many times had I told a woman that? I already knew that was what was supposed to happen. It was totally different when it was happening to you. Once I started to push out, the pain subsided and her finger slid easily inside me. She pumped her finger slowly in and out, giving me a chance to adapt to the foreign intrusion. As she picked up the pace, I felt a burning begin, but since I was still numb in spots and I was lying on my cock, I couldn’t place where the feeling was. Then she ran her finger in the space between my sac and my ass hole and pressed harder.

  I jolted upright at the amazing feeling. Shit, I could swear I felt like I was close to orgasm, but I didn’t want to get my hopes up. Her finger pumped harder inside me and my breathing increased every time she hit that spot that was supposedly my g spot.

  She ran her other hand over my sac, not grabbing my balls, but massaging along the seam and playing with the skin. I got up to my knees and she moved with me. I fisted my cock and pumped, feeling a little more this time than any time before.

  “Oh God, Cara, I think I might..” I didn’t finish as I squeezed my cock and pumped harder and harder. She hit that spot twice more before I felt the familiar pull on my balls and moments later felt warm liquid cover my hand. Panting, I looked down to see that I had spewed my semen all over my hand. Her finger slipped from my ass and then she came around to my front with a big grin on her face. I expected her to shout out about how it had worked, but instead, she lifted my hand to her face and licked every drop of my cum from my hand, her eyes never leaving mine.

  “Holy shit,” I whispered. She grabbed my hand and dragged me in the shower to help me clean up and then we laid down in bed together.

  “How did you know what to do?” I asked
as she rested her hand on my shoulder.

  “I did some research on male erogenous zones. I thought that maybe if I built up the sensations in the other areas first, it would feel more intense by the time we got to the best parts.”

  I kissed the side of her head and smiled. “You’re amazing.”

  “How much were you able to feel?”

  “I could feel it everywhere but the upper half of my cock. It’s not there yet, but it’s getting better.”

  “So we just have to stay creative until we get there all the way.”

  “Cara, if I didn’t already love you, I would have fallen in love with you tonight. What you just did for me was..”

  “It was the same thing you did for me. That’s what this is all about, right? Helping each other through the tough times and knowing when the other one needs a little extra.”

  There were no more words I could say to her to make her realize how wonderful she was. She had just saved my sanity. To think, I might have pushed her away again and never discovered how great things could have really been. I wasn’t an idiot like Sebastian. I knew a good woman when I had her and there was no way I would ever be letting her go.

  CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX

  Cara

  “FUCK ME HARDER!” I screamed at Mark as his cock slammed into me over and over. He grabbed my hips and dug his fingers in as he pummeled into me three more times before stilling and jerking inside me as my own orgasm washed over me. When he collapsed on top of me, I could feel his heart jack hammering against me. Not able to hold his weight, I collapsed onto the mattress like a wet noodle.

  “Jesus, I think you might have fucked me silly.”

  “I don’t think you should use Jesus in the same sentence as fuck.”

  “Says the sinner.”

  “Only with you, Lollipop.”

  His phone rang and he quickly got up to answer it. He walked into the other room stark naked and I admired the way his muscled body moved, glistening with sweat. Mark had been living with me for three months now and we were in a comfortable routine of me going into town to watch my niece and him heading off to work every morning. He always had someone follow me if he wasn’t able to, though he didn’t realize that I knew. Seeing as how I had been kidnapped once before, I never really lost the urge to keep a close eye on my surroundings. That feeling hadn’t faded just because Mark came into my life.

  Mark had taken a few jobs where he was out of town for a few days, but mostly he was home with me every night. Once we discovered how to make him have an orgasm, we did tons of research and came up with creative ways to help him get there. He had gained back most of the sensation in his cock, with just numbness here and there. Having explored his body so thoroughly, he thought it only fair he do the same to mine and it wasn’t much later that he introduced me to anal sex. While he only allowed me to go near his ass because it helped him achieve an orgasm, once he had most of the feeling back, he made it very clear that we would not be doing that any more. When he took my ass the first time, he said that the tightness made it more pleasurable for him, but I didn’t know if he was telling the truth or using his numbness as an excuse to have my ass whenever he wanted. After what he had been through, I’d let him have it if it’s what he wanted.

  He also continued to push me to go out and try new things to push my boundaries. I was getting better little by little, but I still had setbacks that had me running to the bathroom. Every time, he came and sat down next to my stall until I was calm enough to come out. Even Sean had to admit that Mark was good for me and he eventually apologized to him for the things he’d said to him that day outside my house.

  “Lollipop, I have to get to Reed Security. Cap just called and requested my presence.”

  “At eleven o’clock at night?”

  “Apparently, Freckles got herself into a little trouble while she was gone.”

  It hadn’t taken Maggie long to head back to Pittsburgh after her trip to New York. Mark told me that this was a long time coming and if Cap didn’t find a way to fix things, she would be gone for good.

  “Why does that not surprise me? Be careful and call me when you know how long you’ll be gone.”

  He leaned over me and gave me a soul searing kiss. “Always. I love you. Remember that while I’m gone.”

  “I’ll be waiting.”

  “Right here and naked, I hope.”

  I threw a pillow at him and then watched as he walked out the door. Sighing, I fell back asleep as I listened to the sounds of him getting ready in the other room. When I awoke the next morning, he was gone, but he left me a note on his pillow.

  Lollipop,

  Since I can’t lick you to get the good stuff, I had to settle for an actual lollipop. I picked some up for you and left them in the other room.

  Sinner

  I walked into the other room and stopped dead in my tracks. Spread out on the living room floor were giant lollipops that spelled out,

  Marry Me Someday.

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  For The Love Of A Good Woman Series:

  Jack: A romantic comedy

  Cole: A romantic thriller

  Logan: A revenge novel

  Drew: A new beginnings romance

  Sebastian: A mystery/thriller romance

  Sean: A Love Triangle Romance

  Ryan: A Contemporary Romance

  The Reed Security Series:

  Sinner: A Military Romance April 18, 2018

  Cap: May 2018

  Cazzo: June 2018

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