Honor 06 - Honor Under Siege

by Radclyffe

  There had been a time when the slightest touch from Blair would have made Paula blush. She could not believe that eight months had passed since the few ill-advised hours shed spent in the intimate company of the first daughter. The lapse was one of a potentially career destroying magnitude, and although she regretted her irresponsible behavior, she did not regret the private moments they had shared. Now, it seemed like the interlude had taken place in another lifetime, when she had been another woman. In the few scant months since then, shed seen Cameron Roberts almost die, Blair narrowly escape assassination, and the nation that the entire world had considered unassailable become the victim of terrorism. She didnt blush.

  “ I do understand. But the doctor said she needed another few days before she could start walking, and the inactivity is wearing on her.

  Blair knew the problem was more than just inactivity. Renée, along with many of the New York based FBI and Secret Service field agents, had been in the World Trade Center at the time the towers had been hit. Shed seen the devastation and horror firsthand. “Its going to take some time, Paula. Shell heal.

  Paulas eyes revealed what she couldnt say. Wouldnt say, out of respect for her lovers privacy. “I know.

  “ She has the one thing she needs most of all, Blair said gently. “You.

  “ Oh, man, Paula said softly. “I hope thats enough. She wished she could feel certain, but she feared that something in Renées soul had been irreparably broken and neither time nor love would heal it.

  Blair stood. “Trust me, it is. She set a mug of tea at an empty place for Cam. “I think right now the people we care about might be all that matter.

  “ Iuhhow are you doing? Paula asked as Blair poured their coffees.

  Everyone knew how private Blair was, and it wasnt really her place to ask personal questions. But since September 11, the world as they knew it was gone and some of the old rules no longer seemed to apply. Paula understood the necessity for viewing the subjects she protected as critically valuable individuals, while at the same time avoiding any kind of personal involvement, even friendship. But theyd all been through so much together that the usual professional detachment seemed impossible, especially when Blair had been the object of a nearly successful assassination attempt in her own heavily-fortified home. What was once considered inconceivable now fell within the realm of the probable. It could happen again, and Paula had to see that it didnt.

  “ Sometimes I still cant believe that any of it really happened, Blair said quietly.

  “ I know. Paula took a deep breath. She was still trying to understand her new role as Blair s security chief and what the boundaries were. Most of the time when she wasnt certain, she followed her heart. That probably wasnt the way the commander did things, but she would never be the commander. “We werent prepared for what happened in the Aerie, but we will be now. They failed, which just shows you how good your security was, even against the unexpected. Now it will be even better because we know the game has changed.

  The game has changed.

  Blair suppressed a shudder. Yes, the rules of engagement had definitely changed, and she was an unwilling player in a game where the stakes were higher than shed ever imagined. She glanced toward the door as Cam walked in. Her black hair was wet and slicked back, making the sharp planes of her face stand out even more. Even in a loose black T-shirt and blue jeans, her body looked taut and fighting ready. Blair could tell from the set of her jaw that shed heard the last part of the conversation; she had that intense, hard expression she always got when the subject of Blairs vulnerability came up.

  “ Im not worried. Blair said, “We have the winning team.

  Cam leaned down and brushed a kiss over her cheek, then regarded the tea with a raised eyebrow. “Is that for me?

  “ Yes, Blair said with exaggerated seriousness. “And theres honey on the counter. Put some in. It will help your throat.

  “ I think coffee will do fine.

  “ Cameron. Blairs eyes glittered dangerously.

  “ But tea is probably better, Cam amended as she retrieved the jar of honey.

  Paula watched the exchange with apparent interest, then looked quickly away as Cam gave her a pointed stare. She rose without finishing her coffee. “Ill be in the command center.

  “ Wait, Paula. Blair kept her gaze on Cam, thinking how much she loved going to sleep with her every night and waking up with her in the morning and having her around during the day. Just being with her. Not being guarded by her, not being worried over. Just being in her company. But this week had been an anomaly, and they both knew it. Softly, she said, “Ready?

  Cam nodded.

  “ Paula, Blair said. “I think we better make that call.

  Chapter Two

  I just sent a transport plane to Lexington for you. In her usual rapid-fire fashion, Lucinda Washburn continued, “It should be there in two hours. Come on over to the office when you get in.

  “ Hi, Luce, Blair said sarcastically. “Hows your day going?

  “ About the way theyve all been going for the last month.

  Blair was surprised by the weariness in Lucindas voice. She couldnt remember ever seeing her tired. In fact, she wasnt certain shed ever known Lucinda to actually sleep. “Is everything all right?

  “ As all right as can be expected. A small, impatient sigh filtered down the phone line. “Come home. Well talk.

  Home. The White House would never feel like home to Blair, because it wasnt, even though her father and Lucinda were there. True, she had no other family home. Her father had sold the house she had grown up in when her mother died. Blair was twelve at the time, and after that she had lived in the governors mansion or whatever other house came with her fathers political position. Lucinda had always been like family. Shed been a close friend of both Blairs parents before Blairs mother died, and shed been a constant figure in Blairs life ever since. Not a mother figure, but strong and capable and comforting, for all her demands. But Blairs home was her loft in Manhattan, and that had been nearly destroyed in an attack that had come at the same time as the devastation at the World Trade Center. She didnt have a home now, and the memories of terror and death chilled her. She glanced at Cam, who watched her pensively. Cam. Cam was home.

  Blair pushed the images of loss away. “It will take us a while to arrange transportation to the airport.

  “ I can get State Troopers to escort you.

  “ God, no, Blair said with barely suppressed horror. “Ive got all the protection I need. Just tell the pilot he may have to wait.

  “ All right then. Ill see you this afternoon.

  Blair ended the call and handed the phone back to Paula. “Were leaving.

  “ Ill let the teams know, Paula said.

  “ Ill call Tanner and arrange for drivers. Cam hesitated, casting a questioning look in Starks direction. “If thats all right with you.

  “ Its fine. Thanks, Stark answered on her way out the back door.

  Cam set her tea aside and slid her arms around Blairs waist. “Whats up?

  “ I dont know. Blair kissed the tip of Cams chin. “But Lucinda wants to talk.

  “ Uh-oh.

  Blair sighed. “I know. She rocked her hips lightly against Cams. “Have you heard anything from Stewart?

  Cam shook her head. Assistant Director Stewart Carlisle was her immediate superior in the Department of the Treasury, but since shed most recently been on special assignment reporting directly to the president, she hadnt been under Stewarts command for some time. “I dont actually know who Im reporting to anymore. She glanced through the back door to the guest house visible partway down the slope to the beach. Blairs security team was there. The nerve center of all that went into protecting Blair was there. And she wasnt. “Especially since Im not on your security team anymore.

  Blair leaned back, hooking her thumbs in the loops of Cams jeans. “It bothers you, doesnt it. That Stark is in charge now.

  “ Starks a good agent.

 
; Blair laughed. “Cameron. Dont even try.

  Cam forced herself to unclench her jaw. “Yes, it bothers me. I didnt want to be switched from investigation to protection when they first assigned me to your team last year. But you know what? She kissed Blair lightly. “Im good at it. And Im motivated. I like She shrugged. “looking after you.

  “Oh, darling, Blair murmured. “You do look after me. In all the ways that mean the most to me. You love me, and thats what I really need. I dont need you throwing yourself in front of me if some crazy person decides they dont like the color of my dress.

  “I know thats not what you need. Cam ran a hand through her hair. “But its kind of what I need.

  “I know. Blair hugged her tightly. It was rare that she could touch Cam without being aroused, for which she was pleased and grateful. She hoped that never changed. She couldnt imagine not wanting her. Just at the moment, though, she wanted to comfort her because it was so unusual for Cam to be unsure about anything. And she could sense Cams unease and uncertainty. “We all need time to get adjusted to the changes, Cam. But Im always going to need you.

  Cam smiled and rested her forehead against Blairs. “And Im always going to need you.

  * * * * *

  Paula hurried down the twisting path to the guesthouse. Under other circumstances she would have taken a second to appreciate the unseasonably warm early October morning, but her mind was totally consumed with the myriad details of her job. She felt the full weight of her new responsibilities intensely, but beneath the low-level hum of nerves, she was also aware of the surge of excitement that always accompanied any operation when Egret, as Blair was officially called, was on the move.

  “Listen up, she said as she pushed through the front door into the living room. “Egret is flying. She shed the windbreaker shed grabbed earlier on her way down to the beach and rolled up the sleeves of her white button-down collar shirt. She headed straight for the dining room where theyd set up their computers and communication equipment. “Im going to call DC to arrange ground transport.

  Felicia Davis, a statuesque African-American with features that suggested she might be descended from an ancient Egyptian queen, sat in a rattan chair sipping coffee. “Shall I arrange accommodations?

  “Yes. The usual hotel. At least for a night until the commander until I determine Egrets immediate schedule.

  Pushing numbers on her cell phone, Felicia rose and walked to the French doors leading to a wide deck with a view of the beach.

  “What about me? Renée Savard reclined on a sofa with her left leg propped up on an overstuffed hassock. A blue fabric knee immobilizer with wide white Velcro straps was wrapped around her knee. “Can I tag along?

  Paula held up one finger as she spoke into the phone and simultaneously entered information into the computer. A minute passed, then she disconnected and returned to the living room to sit next to Renée. She skimmed her fingers through her lovers shoulder length golden-brown hair. “Hows your leg?

  “ Other than the fact that it feels as heavy as a tree trunk, and about as functional, its fine, Renée said edgily. Her blue eyes narrowed. “It would feel a hell of a lot better without this immobilizer.

  “ Just for a few more days.

  Renée waved her away. “Go take care of what you have to take care of. How soon are you leaving?

  “ ASAP.

  “ Well then, dont waste time asking me about my stupid leg.

  Paula kept her expression neutral. She knew Renées leg hurt, and she knew that her bad temper was more than pain. “Do you want to hang out here while were gone? I can get Tanner to arrange a private car to take you back to Manhattan if you dont.

  Tanner Whitley, heir to the Whitley corporate dynasty and the owner of Whitley Island, was one of Blairs oldest friends from prep school. She also had one of the best private security forces in the country. Her crew had been providing perimeter protection during Blairs stay, ensuring that no one approached the house from the main road that bisected the island. Stark trusted Tanner completely.

  “ I dont want to go back to Manhattan. Renée sounded uncharacteristically petulant. “Not when I cant work. Not when youre not there. She leaned back and stared at the ceiling. “Jesus, listen to me. Im pathetic. Im sure you dont want me underfoot while youre working.

  “ I dont know how long well be in DC, or where well be going after that, Paula said. “But

  “ Just go, Paula. Ill call Tanner later and arrange my own

  “But, Paula continued as if she hadnt been interrupted, “if it turns out were not staying in DC, its just as easy for you to head back to Manhattan from there as from here. Come with us.

  A crooked smile broke the smooth caramel plains of Renées cheeks. “Sometimes I wish you werent so sweet when Im being cranky. It makes me feel guilty, which just makes me crankier.

  “Id be cranky too, Paula whispered. “Im sorry its so hard for you right now.

  Renées eyes filled with tears and she looked away. “Jesus. I need to do something. If I sit around much longer, Im going to really be crazy.

  “Officially youre still part of the commanders team, even though youre on sick leave, Paula said with conviction. “So, youre coming with us. You need help packing?

  Renée grabbed the crutches that leaned against the sofa next to her. “No. I can manage. You go take care of things, Chief.

  “Yeah, okay, Paula said, unable to keep her face from flushing. Chief. It sounded good.

  * * * * *

  Blair left her suitcases by the front door and walked outside to take a last look at the ocean. She wasnt sure when shed be able to come back to the island and she already missed it. The solitude was good for her art. Shed been able to paint here, despite everything that had happened to her and the rest of the world. She had asked Tanner to investigate the possibility of her purchasing the house; the current owners only used it as a rental property. The location was perfect isolated, easy to defend, and close to Tanner, whom she missed and never managed to visit enough. It was also near enough to Manhattan that Diane Bleeker, her art agent and best friend, could easily visit.

  She sat down on the top step of the rear deck and punched in a number on the disposable cell phone Cam insisted she use. She was half surprised when the call was answered.

  “Hi, where are you?

  “Still in Manhattan, Diane replied. “How about you?

  “About to head south. There was no reason to think that her calls were being monitored, but after the constant admonishments of her various security teams, Blair had reluctantly accepted the necessity of caution. She avoided mentioning the specifics of her travel plans in phone conversations. Diane was used to filling in the blanks.

  “Ah, Diane said, “back to the real world.

  “Yes. Do you have the gallery open?

  “Ive postponed the next show at the artists request. He didnt think it was the best time, and I tend to agree with him. It will take a while until its business as usual back here.

  “So are you going to take a trip? Blair asked lightly, although she waited for the answer with a sense of misgiving. Diane had recently become romantically involved with a CIA agent who had disappeared under mysterious circumstances, and Blair worried that Diane was somehow going to try to find her. In all the years theyd known one another, Blair had never seen Diane truly in love before. Now that Diane had fallen hard, only to be left just as abruptly, she was suffering. It pained Blair to know that her friend was hurting.

  “I havent decided yet. Im waiting forinspiration.

  Shes waiting for Valerie to contact her , Blair mentally translated. “Well if that occurs, youll be sure to let me know.

  A beat of silence ensued. “Of course.

  “ I mean it.

  “ How about that other matter we were discussing? Diane said, overtly changing the subject. “The celebration Im going to be planning.

  Blair smiled, thinking about the wedding. Her wedding. Hers and Cams. Something shed never anticipated
wanting. A commitment to one woman for life. A formal commitment, a statement to the world. The idea had once seemed intimidating. But now, when the world had proved itself to be untrustworthy, capable of shifting dangerously at any moment, now more than ever she wanted that commitment. “Im going to discuss that later on today. Ill get back to you with a timetable.

  Diane laughed. “I wish I was going to be there to hear it.

  The wind had died down and Blair was warm in the sun. She shrugged out of the black leather blazer shed pulled on over a scooped neck navy T-shirt and jeans. “You could come down for a few days. I should stay for a while once I get there, and I could use the company.

  “ Really?

  “Yeah, Blair said softly. She wanted to say more, that right now it felt good to be surrounded by the people she loved and who loved her, but she couldnt. She didnt want to remind Diane that Valerie was gone, not when she knew how hard Diane was trying to hold on to the belief that Valerie still cared for her. That Valerie hadnt simply abandoned her after a short, convenient affair. Worse, that Valerie hadnt used her as part of her cover story. “Say youll come down.

  “Im not stayingyou know where.

  The White House . Blair laughed. “Oh, believe me, neither am I.

  Well stay with a friend. With Cam.

  “Oh goody, Diane said, sounding like her old self for the first

  time. “Sooner or later, Im going to get to watch.

  “You just keep on dreaming, honey. Everyone needs a dream. After a pause, Diane said, “I know. I just discovered that.

  * * * * *

  Five hours later, the Air Force jet that Blair and the others had boarded at Lexington Air Force Base northwest of Boston began its descent to Andrews Air Force Base in Prince Georges County, Maryland, a few miles southwest of DC. Ordinarily Blair and her team traveled by corporate jet, but with the heightened security, Lucinda had dispatched the same transport usually reserved for the president, the vice president, high-ranking dignitaries, and other VIPs. It was another change in Blairs life that didnt make her particularly happy, but she understood the need for it.