Storm the Author's Cut

by Vanessa Grant

  She remembered seeing a flash of fire in his eyes that morning. She had seen it and known he would let her fly with him.

  "You terrified me," he said, "but I couldn't have sent you away."

  "That night on Hot Spring Island you didn't avoid me." She met his eyes boldly now, not afraid any longer.

  "I tried," he told her, laughter now in his voice. "I did try, but how could I resist such a seductress?"

  "Seductress! I didn't—"

  "You did." There was no doubt in his voice. Her face flamed, remembering how she had invited him into the water with her. "I thought I would die, holding you in my arms—like my dreams, but more. I wasn't really sane that night. In my mind, you'd been so close to me for so long. I thought you'd come to me, that you were mine."

  She remembered his voice in the night afterwards, telling her he loved her. She had told herself it was a dream.

  "The next morning, when you told me you were engaged, I—"

  "I belonged to you even then," she insisted, needing to erase the memory of pain in his eyes. "You turned my world upside down. It took me a long time to realize what had happened."

  "You've got to be sure."

  "Why did you leave me alone so long? So many weeks?"

  "Do you have any idea what it does to me when I hold you in my arms, make love to you, only to have you walk away from me afterwards? It's not enough."

  Every time he left her, it hurt as if something tore away inside her. How many times had she stood in the doorway, watching him leave her?

  "When I started working on the radio, John told me to talk to the person closest to me, so I wouldn't be nervous. I thought he was a dream man, not real. I pretended I loved Ken, but I didn't know what love was until I saw you. You were the man I talked to. I'm sure, Luke."

  She reached a hand to touch him. He was only a step away. "I need you. I love you. Please don't ever leave me again."

  "Laurie—"

  She laced her hands in his hair. He was too slow, too cautious, this wonderful lover of hers, but his eyes warmed as she touched him.

  "Are you planning to seduce me again?" he asked.

  She lifted her lips to his. "Are you going to let me?"

  He pulled her to him, bending his head to her for a long moment.

  "I want more," she told him in a whisper.

  "What do you want?"

  She whispered, "To love, honor and cherish; until death do us part. In sickness and in..."

  His lips smothered her words.

  He kissed her deeply and she shuddered with desire. Her fingers clutched his hair as she strained against him, returning his passion. When he lifted his head, only his arms around her kept her from collapsing.

  "I love you, Luke. It's taken me a long time to realize it, to stop being afraid of it. I thought what happened to us on Hot Spring Island was a part of the storm and the crisis, but I've realized it was us—the chemistry of you and me together. It's as if I've known you forever, as if I know all about you without your having to tell me. If I believed in reincarnation, then I would believe we had been lovers before."

  "We have." His words were a breath on her lips. He explored her back with his hands.

  "Everybody's been talking about us," she told him, moving her body against his. "Your truck at my house every night."

  "What do you want to do about it?" He loosened her buttons and found the parts of her that she so badly wanted him to touch and love.

  "I think we should get married. I already have the house for us to live in. I'll share it with you."

  "Monday," he told her, drawing her away from the edge of the sea, towards the trees.

  "We can't get married on Monday. You have to wait five days for the license and—"

  He sank down on to the sand, pulling her down with him. "Not if you're getting married in California."

  "California's a thousand miles away!"

  "Six hours in the Goose. Now hush."

  And he kissed her, touching her, loving her so that she couldn't have said a word if she had wanted to. And why should she? Flying to California to get married was just the sort of insane, impulsive idea she might have thought up herself.

  There was no one to see them, only the ocean and the sky. She surrendered herself into his arms, eagerly.

  The End

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  Vanessa Grant

  Prologue

  He left her alone in the car, ten miles outside town with darkness all around. She was seventeen years old and it was the first time in her life she'd ever been alone, no walls around her and not a building in sight.

  "There's a light up there," he said. "A house. I'll phone for help."

  After he'd gone, Emma sat in the car and shivered. She wished she had insisted on going with him, but he'd been so impatient.

  "You think your dad will kill you for being late?" he'd asked. "Mine's going to flip when he learns I've blown up the damned car."

  After he left, she realized how lonely it was out here. She fought off fantasies of all the things that could happen to a girl alone in a car.

  She wished she could turn on the lights, but Paul had warned her not to, muttering that he didn't need a dead battery on top of everything else. So she sat in the dark, feeling the way she had when she'd been lying alone in a hospital bed the night before surgery. When she heard a sound from outside, she rummaged in her purse for her glasses, and then put them on so she could see the shadows better.

  She was reciting a long soliloquy from Shakespeare when she saw car lights up ahead—maybe someone going to the dance she and Paul had left half an hour ago. Or maybe Paul, returning with help. Or—

  The headlights swung away into the trees as the car crossed to her side of the road, spreading a halo of light. Wheels crunched on the gravel road, then the driver's door opened.

  A man got out. A big man.

  Someone else got out the passenger side of the car and Emma rolled down the window a couple of inches.

  "Paul? Is that you?"

  "Stay in the car, Emma."

  It was Paul. She let out a sigh of relief.

  "In the trunk," said the stranger, his voice was deep and gravelly. "I'll get them."

  Emma pushed open the door and stumbled out onto the gravel shoulder. She couldn't see the man with Paul, just his shape standing in front of the headlights, all glare and shadows and broad shoulders.

  "Why don't you get into my car and stay warm?" the stranger said. "My heater's on."

  "I have to get home." She hugged herself as a breeze penetrated her thin dress. "I'm already late."

  "For Pete's sake, Emma!" Paul's long shadow swam out of the darkness. "What the hell do you expect me to do? The car's trashed. You'll get home when you get there."

  "I'll get tools," the stranger said.

  She followed his shadow with her eyes until it disappeared behind the other car. A trunk opened, then closed. Shadows shifted around the two cars. Emma hugged herself tighter and wondered why she hadn't had the sense to bring a jacket.

  The stranger lifted Paul's hood. From their conversation, she decided he knew about engines.

  "So that's that," Paul said in a truculent voice.

  She cleared her throat. "If I'm late, my dad's likely to call the police."

  "Emma, give it a rest!"

  "I could give you a ride," said the stranger.

  As she pushed her long hair behind one ear, the light from his headlights in her eyes.

  The stranger said, "I'll leave the tools and the work light with you, Paul, then drop your girlfriend off and come back. I'll pick up some oil while I'm gone."

  Emma was swallowed by sensation, as if she were already alone in a car with the stranger. Being alone with Paul had never felt intimate. Exciting, yes, because it was new having a boyfriend when she was seventeen and had only recently been permitted to date. But thi
s, the thought of a car surrounding two people and shutting out the world, looking across the length of the front seat and finding him staring back at her...

  She didn't even know what he looked like, only his shape with the light behind, and his deep, take-charge voice.

  "Let's go," he said. "I'm taking you home."

  "Who are you?"

  Paul made an impatient sound. "For God's sake, Emma! You wanted to go!"

  "I'm Gray MacKenzie."

  So this was Paul's best friend, the one who had spent the summer prospecting up north in Canada. She pushed her glasses up on her nose.

  "I'm Emma Jennings."

  "I know."

  * * *

  It was quiet inside his Chevy. She studied Gray's broad jaw, frowning mouth, and wavy brushed-back hair that looked as dark as the forest outside. As he drove, his heavy brows cast shadows where his eyes should be. He didn't speak until they arrived at the junction with the highway.

  "Where do you live?"

  "Oak Street." She twisted strands of her hair around one uneasy finger. "Across from Connaught School. I—thanks for driving me home."

  He turned and looked at her. She stared back. From Paul, she knew Graham MacKenzie was in his second year at the community college, taking science courses for transfer to the University of Washington next year. She also knew he shared an apartment with a father who spent most of his time prospecting for gold up north.

  You had to be determined to do what Graham MacKenzie had done. He'd won scholarships to pay his way through two years at the local college, was heading for university next year with nothing behind him but brains and determination—because according to Paul, Graham MacKenzie's father was perpetually broke.

  When he broke their locked gazes and pulled his car out on the highway, she felt the shock of withdrawal.

  "You're not what I expected," she announced in a husky voice.

  "Has Paul been giving me bad press?"

  "No."

  When he laughed, she stole another look. Gray's shoulders made her feel crowded even though they weren't touching. She had only a hazy idea what prospecting might be like. Paul had talked as if it were a game, but hard muscles flexed in Gray's forearms as he turned the wheel to take a sharp corner.

  "Paul's jealous of you."

  He laughed as if he didn't believe her. "What time were you expected home?"

  "Ten o'clock."

  "Will you be in trouble?"

  When she grimaced, it turned into a laugh that he shared. He threw her another one of those quick glances, assessing her in fast snapshots. When he looked away, she realized her heart was pounding uncomfortably.

  "My dad's pretty strict. He worries."

  "Dr. Jennings?"

  "You know Dad?"

  "I went to him for a broken leg last year."

  He kept glancing at her and she wanted to take her glasses off, but was afraid he'd realize she wanted him to think she looked pretty.

  "We had a difference of opinion," said Gray.

  "Over your leg?"

  "Yeah."

  "How did you break it? Is it okay now?"

  "Just fine. Why does your father worry about you?"

  She shifted uncomfortably. "I'm trying for scholarships this year. He's strict about my getting home early."

  "What are you planning to study?"

  "Medicine. I'm going to be a doctor." She pushed her hair back again and shoved her glasses up. She felt fiercely self-conscious. "I don't usually tell people."

  If he stopped now they would be in the middle of nowhere. If he turned to her and pulled her close and pressed his mouth to hers, would his lips be cool the way they looked, or hot like the flush she felt on her cheeks?

  She pressed her palm against the side of her face and bit her lip hard. Thank heaven he couldn't know her thoughts. There was no way he could know she felt naked in the silence between them. She could feel the purr of his car engine in her veins. She stared at the trees whipping past outside, then closed her eyes and saw the breadth of his shoulders, felt the way his size made her feel restless and uncomfortable. She thought of the heated lovemaking in the pages of the romance novel beside her bed at home and her body flushed.

  Of course he wouldn't touch her. Why was she even thinking it?

  "Why don't you tell people you want to be a doctor?"

  "My father says I'm too weak."

  "Are you?"

  "No!"

  "I believe you."

  The unexpected gentleness of his voice startled her.

  "I was sick when I was younger." She didn't want him to think of her as sick, but couldn't seem to stop herself telling him. "I had this thing—my leg. I was on crutches for a long time. Then I had operations."

  "Does this thing have a name?"

  She smiled shyly toward him. "Legg-Calve-Perthes disease. I'm fine now."

  She'd been in and out of hospitals; twice to Seattle for surgery. All that was in the past. The only thing left was the slight limp if she let herself get tired, but her father watched her like a hawk.

  "I want to help children who can't walk properly." She clenched her hands together in her lap. "I'll take a science degree at the University of Washington. Then, if my dad won't help me go on to the University's School of Medicine, I'll find a way on my own."

  "If you want something enough, there's always a way."

  "I hope you're right."

  The miles slipped away as they talked, and she forgot to glance at her watch or think of the angry father waiting for her until they reached the outskirts of the city and lights flickered through the interior of the car.

  "I've been talking too much."

  "I asked the questions."

  They were almost at her house. In a minute she'd be inside and he would be gone. She might see him when she was with Paul, but that would be public. Tonight they were friends driving through the dark. She could tell him anything and he would listen. She studied his face, harsh in the glow from the dash lights. She felt as if she'd known him forever, deeply and in secret.

  "I want to know about you," she whispered.

  "You're almost home."

  She saw her corner, her house.

  "Don't pull in the driveway!"

  He made an impatient sound. "You want me to hide around the corner?"

  "You must think I'm juvenile."

  "I think you're afraid of your father."

  She liked the way he smiled and wondered if his smile would show in his eyes. What color were his eyes? She didn't even know what color his hair was. It could be anything from light brown to dead black and she wouldn't know. He was all shadows and silhouettes.

  She scrambled out of the car.

  He got out, too, and she opened her mouth to tell him not to, but couldn't get any words out. Somehow she was standing in front of him, staring up at him, her heart pounding with a fierce desire to kiss him.

  The feeling from inside the car was gone. This was no intimate friend. He was a stranger and her blood was heavy with pulsing suspense. His lips would be hard. His body...

  She jerked and stepped back with a gasp.

  "What about Paul?" he demanded harshly.

  Warm panic crawled along her veins. If her father looked out, she'd be in trouble, leaving with one boy and coming back late with Graham MacKenzie.

  Gray's gaze dropped to her throat. When his fingers touched her chin, her heart went crazy and his face turned even harsher.

  "Are you serious about Paul?"

  She shook her head mutely.

  "Then stop seeing him."

  "Are you saying I'm not good enough for—"

  The husky whisper of her voice broke when his thumb brushed the underside of her chin. "Don't be stupid, Emma. You know damned well I want you."

  "Graham?"

  "It's Gray. Not Graham." He released her and turned away. She saw him put one hand on the hood of his car, then her glasses slipped down her nose and she couldn't seem to move to push them up
.

  "Gray... will I see you?" Her own voice sounded frail on the night air.

  "Paul's my best friend."

  From the house, her father called out, "Emma! Get inside right now!"

  Graham MacKenzie wanted her, and he meant more than dancing and Friday theater dates. He meant touching, things she'd never let any other boy do. She was still standing there when his car turned the corner, leaving behind the echo of his engine revving too high.

  If she was going to be a doctor she had to remember every minute that she had a purpose, that he wasn't the kind of boy a girl let near if she wanted to keep control of her own life. She'd be crazy to let herself become involved with Graham MacKenzie.

  Crazy or not, she broke up with Paul the next weekend.

  Chapter 1

  Twenty years later...

  Emma was in the examining room with Jenny Davidson when her beeper went off. Jenny was seven months old, gurgling as Emma probed her left leg.

  "Good girl," said Emma, lifting Jenny upright. To Jenny's mother, she said, "Her left leg is almost as strong as the right. The bone has healed, and the muscles are gaining strength rapidly." She smiled and received a tremulous grin in return. "Keep taking her to physical therapy. I'll see her again when she starts walking."

  "Walking?" Jenny's mom was breathless.

  "Within six months. It's okay, Jenny's doing great."

  When Emma left Jenny and her mother, she slipped into her office and called the number displayed on her pager. Her eyes searched the surface of her desk for a pink message slip telling her Chris had called, but there was no message.

  Chris was supposed to call today. August twelfth at the latest, he'd promised.

  "Dr. Garrett," she announced when the hospital answered her call.

  "Dr. Kent wants to know if you can attend in the E.R."

  * * *

  Dr. Alexander Kent met Emma as she left the elevator.

  "Nine-year-old boy," he said, "Timmy Jones. Skateboarding on Heather Street, shot out from the stop sign. The guy who hit him never saw him coming. Left ankle and foot. I've got pictures. They're prepping O.R. Two for you."