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Wolf Tongue

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by Barry MacSweeney


  as the swollen argent river sweeps across the tumblestones.

  Grog demon biceps leaving me moan groggy, foggy-bonced,

  pouring lunarstruck salt, sel de mer, coarse white pellets

  scuttle-funnelled on MacSweeney’s stuck-out begging tongue:

  Tongue stuck out like raw begging hand in the mall, sticking

  out straight, single digit filthy message signal up yours tongue,

  in the air bloated for booze upright needle Cenotaph tongue,

  grovelling, whining, soliciting, pleading, eyes imploring,

  thirst, thirst, thirst, craveache, pinecovet, itchneedlust,

  but on comes the salinating, saliva-droughting insult, Sahara

  mouth an agony O, my Lot’s wife tongue, rough orange fur tongue,

  tongue examined by Dr Guo in needle room number two,

  bladderwrack tongue late of the ebbingtide pools, salt on the rocks,

  tongue of the deep sea trawler lick hull clean department,

  tongue out on rent as a dog’s public park hard-on, for

  artists to paint in glory of its pinky stiffness and quality

  as blotting paper for anything as long as it’s a double on the rocks.

  Blot, blot, blot, blotting me out: moan, moan, take me

  from the slake tide to lake or snaky clean river, before

  the endless chained pails of salt end me, tireless demons

  happy in their work: a regular seven dwarfs scenario,

  whistling darkly all the way to the daily saltbeds as

  they pour, pour, pour, and the demons’ capped gaffer,

  fancy Dan Demon Man, who shall always be known as

  the one with the Mouth of Rustling and Relentless Blades,

  swaggers barely into focus from my throne in the gutter,

  one hand filled with bottles and the other with scran.

  Just one more, sir, for the road?

  Demons In My Pocket

  Arrest me asleep, crashed out

  under the eye of the borage: So what? I’m

  just pissed as a primrose posy

  beneath an April shower. I’ll do.

  At least I’m speaking in cogent sentences

  from the back of nowhere below an argent moon.

  At least I’m not a replicant Labour Party goon.

  I sold my fancy suits for vodka and a copy

  of The Russian Experiment in Art.

  It was the only way I could get near

  Kazimir. I stood proud alone

  in the Stalingrad rain and read

  the legend headlines: Fiend Poet

  Shot Dead With Broken Hat. Scald

  Of The Steppes Before Firing Squad

  Accused Of Dawdling On Lithic Tuff

  With Shattered Socialist Heart – Gun

  Seized. Friend Of Few Flees Not So

  Lengthy Life With Unpunished Book.

  But they were all too long or badly

  bust and the typeface choice at least

  debatable. So much in my oddly spring-

  like foreign guises – Swanne, Ludlunatic,

  MoonySwooney, Madstag, Lenin Wolfboy or

  swiftly skilful terrace tantalising

  push and run teaser fan pleaser Sweeno –

  I yearned for 200-point Cyrillic caps

  across seven cols or in cirrus strands

  and to be a bloodred flower too, guts &

  heart upon my sleeves and not a pinko posy!

  Not to be out in rainy Nevsky Prospekt

  but here I am at the back of nowhere

  under a fickle sickle harvest five-year

  plan pearly Shirley shiny moon, dreaming

  in my railway sidings way of tiny toes

  and teeming tumblestones twined without

  torment in greeny locks and coronets

  of cushy crushed footfall meadow cowslips. In

  the dimmed and dimming day when it

  will be dark along the river and always

  dark and Othello will pad freely demented

  a panther in my sickened heart, I feel

  the gutter twisting, hard-fortuned

  carrier of water and nitrates to the

  unholy earth, and it all, all, yes, all

  of it, howls in the basement bowels as

  the gale gets up its fatal goat. Starlings

  thrash the sky at dawn in feathered

  shoals, quitting nightrest rooftop

  cat-free safety of the city centre Odeon.

  Truly, I do have 20/20 Vision: She’s

  gone, she’s gone, but what can I do? What

  drives me to you is what drives me

  insane. Mental rental idiots in hatred

  uniform pursue me through fire

  escapes to arrest once and forever

  before the racing sails of my heart

  can capture her eyes of borage blue.

  They’ll drag me away from B&Q the

  gall and spite and malice crew, to

  filthy demon paperwork and drinkwork,

  to slurword work, collapse hardwork,

  to tonguebite drudgery grand mal jerkwork

  and far away, my fingerfast, from you.

  All my rotten reeking shrieking shreds

  are speaking fast now, sledging off my

  funnybone tongue. The very last words

  sung, they’re exploding and expanding

  as they hit the croaking creaking rhizome

  rats’ tail ground. Outbreak! Outbreak!

  Thousands dying and thousands dead! It’s

  more an incurable curse than a human

  tempest clashing in the midnight blue

  of the outer outskirts of Murmansk.

  All human malevolence planned, sewerage,

  invade my hair and lips and lovely

  blue far horizon cloud cotton-soft eyes.

  Killer virus in my brain bane, this liquid

  poison potion passion pestilence for which

  I have shown so little prayerful penitence

  coughs its infection into my lovely kitten

  drunken face. Spikes, brads, studs and welds

  bussed up the bombed-out road from Nixville

  to empty eager waiting bottle-holding hands.

  Nailbite squall-stirring helicopter gunships

  of darkest green – it is dark now along the

  moonless river and dark and always dark –

  descend to drop the flogging hammers in.

  Tell Anne she can have her wildest pills

  again tonight and the devil be on look-out.

  My rattlechain hands go out unshaking now

  in feverfew frenzy, big Russian tarragon

  twister tornado as it whips its Monroe hips,

  in the hostile thunder bellow days alone away

  from you my lovegun, my bullet to the heart.

  The violence universal of all you warders,

  white coats or blue: needle room number two,

  Chinese doctor grinning at me Manchurian

  Candidate with her needles and punctures,

  bars or no bars, mashed spuds or no spuds.

  In single mode I speak out clearly astride

  the argent turquoise starre system which

  beams in your eyes. No log-in further

  sequence needed. To log-out now means to die.

  And the terrible gutters move again aching

  with gargoyle gushing rain above the graves

  dug by those who will lie in them horizontal.

  The moon’s awesome gaping craters lean in

  and the lurid savage cranberry sunne muscles

  up inside its squadron of burning over and above

  the iceblue rims of the fabulous fjords. Is that

  Kazimir, John or Percy in the railway sidings

  astride or in or beneath or moving through

  the water? It is the streaming dark water,

  for the water is dark and it is alway
s dark

  and the night is dark and cold is the very ground.

  The emerging lanceheads of the chives are so

  beautiful tonight, by offshore rigs, mainland

  bridges and cranes, and humans walk beneath

  the stars by the streaming dark water where

  in the land of tumblestones it is dark and always

  dark. Hear the roots of the flowers stress even

  the mighty earth and cry. Feel the mad planet

  buckle at the soul and knees. This memo to all:

  I am 72-inches tall, yet when I go to meet John

  and Percy and Kazimir and Pearl, stick me in

  an oven and burn me just the same. Then I will

  be a true Jew, a poet through and through.

  The Horror

  The horror of the hospital for us both.

  Demolished eager hopes and trudges up the bad

  steep hill in your dun winter clothes: to be

  refused information. Not your bright red

  party jacket not your guitar badge and

  funny pinned on chrome figure. Just

  petitions and pleas – how’s that man

  of mine? That badly displaced fellow

  on 50 mils a day and what, what for

  god’s sake, is he eating, and I don’t even

  believe in gods – or that one from

  Cecil B. De Mille. For when the Wall,

  and I don’t mean the tourist attraction

  touted in China, when the Wall was

  chipped to bits it broke my stern heart

  and it broke his, my man, and I know

  you are breaking his and mine now.

  And you are breaking me to uphill

  trudge bits and episodes – like poor

  hammered toffee – and I cannot eat

  myself and I am being distracted

  my heart itself once an oven of love

  turned into a rainy asylum alone

  in the bleak upland rains. How

  much better it might be in summer,

  recovering our seasons released

  upon sensational sun-peeled skin,

  boats and oars and oarlocks and

  handlocks and kisslocks locked

  right in place, pure juice from

  Spanish oranges, Miró suns pouring

  endless light over grief of my walk

  across the spated river, touching

  the black painted bridge lamp after

  dark, made in Brum, near where

  Nazi airmen torched my childhood

  cathedral; me in a shelter, afraid

  of flames and fire, as you are now,

  flames in your heart, O darling

  don’t let them be extinguished now,

  it is the smashed cathedral of your

  life sweeping up in utter flames

  to the frozen ground: torched and

  charged with terrible destruction.

  For many days, my man, you were

  a man with a many-layered mask.

  You did not want to know me and

  again as I arrived and arrived you

  bent your head and heart away and

  did not want to know me. My own

  heart a haunted husk without you.

  But always I put my hand out and

  want to and always did and do. We

  have been driven to distractions

  by a long revelation of deprivation

  madness which triggered me to

  trudging, loving you, pursed lips

  grim in every worried step back

  to your haloed bed in wardlight.

  Your northern arms around me

  not browned by Miró’s molten suns,

  and you held me strong and lovingly,

  northern hands, tight, tight, tight,

  forearms around my ribs and spine,

  making me shudder in happiness

  and unbroken realms of loving safety,

  so paleness of spirit left me undaunted;

  a queen of hearts and a warrior of love!

  Yet once more I am at the hospital door.

  Once more you will be completely

  off-centre and pilled up, caustic tongue

  not lazy. Once more betraying my heart

  your illness clinging like oak-roots.

  I pray the trees will lend you strength.

  The time has come to palm aside all

  images of lost sheep and willows weeping.

  In my bad dream you climbed to the wet

  roof of the lunatic asylum, through barred

  windows, determined to be demon free.

  You said you were a magpie and would

  fly to me. But your flight ended in a fatal

  swan-dive into the Yorkstone yard. O

  mendacious reel of bad fortune, let

  sun’s pollen-gold wake me to a saner world

  so fleet already without this torment too.

  Demons Swarm Upon Our Man

  And Tell The World He’s Lost

  Smartism seems to be the best deal

  in these broken-fire days, honed up

  with barely held apologies, not the

  Suprematism of monumental Kazimir.

  He’d weep seven broken plates at its

  purity of abjectness, lack of muscle

  tone. Not for us now to stand upon

  the steps in a revolution’s moment,

  with Miró’s crown of sun and stars.

  All the demonic graffiti is quite certain:

  I’m the abjuring man.

  I’m the abdicating man.

  I’m the strangely dislocated

  disconnecting disconnected man.

  I’m the storm-tossed tosser

  on Earthquake Street, mindblown

  dead on arrival sprawled on

  Richter Scale Prospekt, found

  crying wolf beside the troikas.

  I alone in detox itch and fury

  test the temper of sunbeams

  and angels. I flee across the shiny

  floor – believe me, it is shiny –

  headbackward pursued by flying

  animals and objects each

  with forktail cocktail blazing. Endless anger

  only is my recompense for

  first-rate pistolage now she’s

  fled these shores for sanity.

  O my wires keep dropping out.

  Let loose my stumble in the darkness.

  Fling my face into brooding earth.

  Trample forward onto footloose ground.

  Watch the devil’s tarpit veil smother me.

  Who today will fetch my idle drinkless

  hands a king whose neck wants wringing?

  Who will set me free from strapdown

  to deliver Sexton’s necessary utmosts?

  It will be the last house-call after all.

  No, no, it is all drinkless dole and drollery,

  regime of hysterical tomfoolery.

  Why can’t you get helium on the National Health?

  Because the Tory Government has taken it all.

  It is dispensed every day to Cabinet ministers.

  Now they are gone completely myxomatosis bunny funny.

  May the demons track them down

  as they tracked me. Relentless pursuit

  and capture their family’s fantastic method

  code and motto. O, SAS where are you now?

  Gone to an alcohol oasis every one.

  Blackhand gangs through every window

  leapt craving my wit from ice-wagons – every day

  was Drink More Pour More Day.

  May they sting their heads and hearts

  and sap their very strength and breath.

  Am I alone in my symmetrical vision

  of this unequivocal stupidity? Look

  at the Labour Party too & roar with laughter.

  All, all, all, clowns of conceit.

  S
hafted & driven intolerant on spewground

  wearing only an orange Cuba baseball cap

  say then this: Lift one much exercised

  right arm more used to shifting Russian

  vodka, drunkenly saluting naked and badly

  bruised Albion and that failure St George,

  declaring in soaking mattress rawness –

  that’s the ugly nation you have made.

  And that’s the nation of me too: each of us

  in very separate parts brought to our knees.

  Hooray Demons Salute The Forever Lost

  Parliament Of Barry And Jacqueline

  Now it is time to put aside and forget

  the decadent period of fast red cars &

  slothful attitudes towards boldness

  and moral mettle except in entering

  the National Lottery, the greatest

  con yet wrought by the Tory Party –

  worse than cheap gin for quelling

  here in the Great United Quelldom

  where tomorrow never comes fast

  enough for win ticket announcement.

  I have been admiring the caked

  menstruation blood you left

  on a pillow before we parted.

  It was the most tender

  moments of our days.

  We laved and laved the blood away

  and you helped me with my broken leg.

  It’s amazing what we did considering.

  Nothing remains now.

  World in smithereens.

  4:56, sun rising after me,

  swoon alone in the garden

  at lilac and azalea fumes

  thanking heaven inside

  the utter madness for

  nasturtium you planted

  before fleeing from

  my darkriver drinking.

  Rain, alone in the rain,

  rain and the train and

  the river darkly summoning

  towards its source my heart.

  All the buttercoppes

  flush like forests ankle-high.

  I am so glad to live at the

 

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