Unliving Love

by Jason A Grimm

  Chapter 18

  Last of the Entries

  02/09/2009

  I have decided to buy the old house. Things with Emily and I have been going very well and I’ll need a place so why not just buy it. I spend most of my free time there anyway so it just makes sense. I turn eighteen soon, so on my birthday I am going to go down and buy the house and spend my birthday night there and surprise Emily. She has asked me to get a few things for the night, which has my mind racing. She knows I wanted to spend the night there that night already but I haven’t told her exactly why. Me buying the house is a surprise as much for her as it’s something for me and I can’t wait to tell her. She said she has a surprise for me too but I’m not sure exactly what. Like I said she gave me a list of things to get it’s a very small list but still. It’s some candles and some matches. Maybe she’s making me a cake, though she wants the full size ones and the holders so guess I will have to wait and see.

  I’m pretty sure me buying the house will be exciting but I’d like to fix it up. I will have all summer off before I start med school and would like to get some of it done then. I’m not the handiest of men so I’m guessing I’ll be hiring people. I just don’t know how that will go over with “Him”. I have only had a few more incidents with him but none as bad as the first one. I know that people have issues when they renovate a house that is supposed to be haunted, it upsets the spirits inside. They feel like someone is messing with THEIR house and I know “He” thinks it is still HIS house. I’ve been thinking about looking in to different things to maybe confine him in his room or get rid of him completely with some kind of spell or magic or even maybe an exorcism. I’m worried about the exorcisms though. I don’t like the idea of it doing something to Emily so I’m trying to focus on him alone. Think my best option would be someone who can cast a confinement spell (If it’s even a real thing I mean I’m not even sure what to believe is real anymore. With the things that have happened in my life as of recently, I don’t think I’d blink twice if a vampire came flying through my window right now) but I don’t know what all our options are. I’ll have to try and figure that out, I’m afraid to ask Emily right now till I get more info. I know she is afraid of “Him” so we’ll talk once I get more info on it all.

  03/19/2009

  Well I went down and talked to a realtor about the house and it is for sale. Like I said before a couple bought it years ago and they have never been able to sell it, so not only can I buy it but I’ll get it for a steal too. The realtor said they tried living in it years ago but it only lasted a month. They had bad experiences in it and moved out shortly after. I bet they did have bad experiences there.

  Emily never told me about them, we’ve never really talked about past owners or how long she has been there for that matter. Anytime we start to talk about her death she stops. I never pry I am sure that it is upsetting for her to have to think of the day it all ended and she became what she is now. I love everything she is now but I still feel bad for her not being able to live her life and have a family. All of that has already been taken away from me but I think it would be harder for her. The way she talks about her family I can tell she was very family orientated, apart from her father anyways. She hasn’t mentioned much about him since we first started talking. I am sure that it has taken a long time to come to terms with it though and from our talks it seems like she has. As well as anyone could that is.

  Back on topic though… I can buy the house now if it is a cash sale, which is what it will be so the house is pretty much mine. I have to go tomorrow and finalize the papers and sign them. I won’t get the deed right away though but I can show her the papers that show I own it and I am sure that will have the same surprise factor as an actual deed would. Hope she is happy I would imagine she would be but it’s truly hard to say for sure. In the process of deciding to buy it I came up with a couple reasons she would not be happy I bought it. They seem like I’m fishing for reasons. I am going to have to go with she WILL be happy and I am excited about telling her. Now I just have to not let it slip.

  7/20/2009

  Well yesterday was my birthday and I am officially an adult now. It was a really good day and an even better night!

  The first part of my day was very nice. My parents threw me a party and had family there but the coolest thing was Mike was there. His parents were there too so I’m not sure if they dragged him along, or he chose to come but it was nice either way. We talked a good bit at the party. I didn’t bring up anything about the house or Emily. We were talking about school and college. He is in negotiations with three different schools. He’s trying to figure out which one would fit for him and where he can further his football career. I think he will do fine no matter what but he’s worried. He was asking me about starting med school and how awesome it was that I’m only eighteen and already starting. I swear if I hear another Doogie Howser comment I’m going to hit someone. Do they not realize that is way before my time anyways.

  It was your typical family party with gifts, cake, and ice-cream. It was very nice and hanging with Mike like the old days was… Well I can’t really put into words how it was, nice doesn’t do it justice. After the party died down and everyone went home I stayed and talked to my parents for a while then they turned in a little early from all the excitement. I grabbed my papers from the purchase of the house and snuck out and headed over to the old… MY house going to have to get used to saying that well actually OUR house since I really bought it for Emily and me. I don’t necessarily have to sneak out the idea that my parents have never noticed me out late is absurd but I would rather avoid that conversation. I am pretty sure my mother suspects there is someone special but how do you explain that to your parents? “Mom dad this is Emily she’s a spirit and we are in love.” I don’t see us having an engagement party thrown in our honor.

  Back to the topic... I went over to see Emily like I had originally planned. I dropped the stuff off that she had asked me to get for her a couple days ago. When I went in the room next to the one with the drawings, the room I have pretty much made into my bedroom all of the candles were spread in a circle around my makeshift bed. When I walked in the room she appeared at the head of the bed and wished me a happy eighteenth birthday. She told me to sit in the middle of the bed and when I did the candles came to life all at once. She said that she was feeling exceptionally strong today. I smiled (I didn’t tell her that the power to the house was on so there was electricity coursing through the house) trying not to spill my secret yet. She told me to close my eyes and try to clear my mind. As I sat there unable to see anything I could feel her coming closer and closer then I knew she was right beside me when she whispered in my ear. “Happy Birthday” My mind went blank and it almost felt like someone poured warm water over my head. A second later she told me to open my eyes.

  I was in the house but not in the actual house it was lit and all the dust was gone. I stood up and looked out the window and I could feel the sun shine warming my skin as it came through. It was the strangest sensation everything felt so real even though I knew in the back of my mind it wasn’t. That’s when I heard her from behind me “What do you think?” she asked. When I turned to look at her I think I almost collapsed. There she was but not pale and spectral she was pink skinned her eyes were the most amazing shade of green I have ever seen and her long wavy hair was a light brown. She wasn’t just a spirit here she was flesh and blood her cheeks reddened as I approached. “I can’t do this for long but it will give us some time together.” I didn’t know what to say I was the speechless kid again unable to speak out of pure amazement. When I touched her hand I could feel the warmth of her. It was amazing. I raised my hand to her cheek, amazed at the warmth yet again. I stared into her eyes as she stared back into mine. I felt as if they were peering straight to my soul, the feeling was indescribable. Knowing we didn’t have a lot of time I mustered all the courage I had and just went in for the kiss.

  I kissed her on her l
ips my right hand still pressed against her cheek. She wrapped her arms around me kissing me back. Her lips were so soft and they sent bolts of electricity through my body as they touched mine. I Kissed down to her neck and I felt her arms tighten around me. I carefully walked us backwards to the bed in the middle of the room. I glanced at the candles as I maneuvered between two of them and I noticed that they were frozen, the flames weren’t flickering they looked more like photos of candles as opposed to real ones. We made our way to the middle of the bed. I kissed her lips again and I ran my hand through her hair. She reached up and felt my cheeks and smiled. “I love you.” She said. I returned the comment then leaned in for another kiss. She pushed me back a little adding a bit of space between us, which I wasn’t sure how to handle unaware of what she was doing. She reached out and pulled my shirt off over my head. “Time is short.” she said with a saddened smile. I reached up and slid the shoulder straps of her dress off her shoulders and it fell to the floor. She stepped out of it and kicked it to the side. She reached back and unsnapped her bra, slid it off and tossed it on top of her dress. I slowly raised my hand and ran the back of my fingers down her breast and over her nipple.

  I couldn’t get over the warmth of her skin, this is way further than I had ever gone with anyone so it was all new territory and as much as I wanted to savor every inch of her warm smooth skin I knew She was getting weaker by the minute and we wouldn’t be able to do this for long.

  She reached up and ran her hand over my chest. I leaned in and kissed her on the lips again then kissed my way down past her neck and began to kiss her breast one at a time then kissing her nipples in the same manner. I heard her let out a moan as she reached out and ran her hands around my back. She pulled me closer to her and I couldn’t help but take her nipple into my mouth.

  I began to slowly lower her down to the bed and I was now between her legs.

  I leaned back and brought myself to my knees. I put my hands on her legs and ran them up past her knees and over her thighs till my hands reached her white cotton panties that had a little pink bow at the top. I pulled them off and tossed them near the small pile of the rest of her clothes. I fumbled with the button of my pants and she reached up to help me. (I was in somewhat of a stupor at how I managed all this without fainting or something else even more embarrassing was beyond me.) I pulled my pants and underwear off and tossed them to the side. There we lay, our warm naked bodies pressed against each other.

  “I love you so much Emily.” I told her as I looked into her piercing green eyes, and once again I felt them stare back all the way to my soul. “I love you too Wesley.” she returned. I leaned down and began to kiss her reaching up to massage one of her breast. She let out another moan into my mouth as we kissed. She reached up and wrapped her arms around me and pulled me tight…