Undead Ultra Box Set | Books 1-4

by Picott, Camille

  It’s the first time I’ve been alone today. Bella has hardly left my shadow since I rescued her in the battle. But when Alvarez asked for volunteers to help dig the graves for our dead, she stepped up. I’ll find her later and check on her.

  I tread water, letting the swells of the ocean lift me up and down. When a wave crashes over my head, I don’t even care that my eyes sting from the salt.

  One by one, I watch the zombies drop over the side of the cliff. It’s a sheer drop onto body-shredding boulders. It won’t be long now before every last one of them is gone.

  The freezing water continues to rush up and down my body with each surge of the ocean. I close my eyes and let it drench me to my core. The cloudy sky turns the skin of my closed eyelids a light pink.

  I don’t know how long I float there. It feels like forever, and yet not long enough.

  Behind me are footsteps on the sand. I hear the soft grind of grains. It’s barely a whisper. But even soaking wet in the ocean and with the battle behind us, my senses are still on high alert. I turn.

  “Hey.” Alvarez stops ten paces away from the water. “It’s just me. I was looking for you.”

  “Looks like you found me.” I turn back toward the water. Maybe if I’m not friendly he’ll get the hint and go away. I’m not in the mood for company.

  He doesn’t.

  Instead, he sits down in the sand. “How are you holding up?”

  I decide not to pretend. Pretending is a waste of time and quite frankly, time feels like a precious commodity today.

  I turn around and face him, swimming close enough to shore that my feet touch the ground.

  “I was a mess before the apocalypse. Then I lost my kids. I was raped seven times in one day. I lost Shaun. I’m really fucked up, Alvarez.”

  His gaze is steady. When he looks at me, I feel like he sees all the way down.

  “I don’t pretend to know what you’ve been through. But I guarantee you I’m every bit as fucked up as you are.” He looks away and sighs. “Why do you think I work so hard for this community? I can at least sleep when I’m exhausted.”

  “You don’t really expect me to believe that you pour your heart and soul into this community just so you can sleep at night?”

  A smile curls the corner of his mouth. “You don’t believe me?”

  “No,” I say flatly.

  He shrugs. “It feels good to build something in the midst of all the destruction.”

  Yes. That was the truth of it. His work at the fort feeds his soul. That’s something I can understand. I felt the same thing every morning when I cut off the crust from Claire’s sandwiches. I felt it when I ironed Shaun’s shirts. I felt it when I measured and cut yarn for Claire’s Kindergarten class.

  Maybe Shaun was right. Maybe Alvarez and I aren’t so different.

  I exit the water. Alvarez’s jaw drops at the sight of my naked body. He scrambles to his feet, trying to figure out where to look. He settles for looking at my pile of clothing, discarded next to a rock. He makes an awkward attempt to hand them to me.

  I wave them away. “I’m burning those.”

  “Oh.” He drops them as if the fabric might burn him. “Do you have any other clothes?”

  “Back in the fort.” I hadn’t thought to bring any with me. When I walked out here, the only thing on my mind was getting clean.

  I sit on the sand and let the surf wash over my toes and calves, not caring that I’m completely exposed. I’ve been seen by nothing but dogs and monsters in the last twenty-four hours. It feels good to be seen by someone who is neither of those things.

  I feel him fretting over my nakedness. I ignore him. I’m comfortable. A few hours ago, I wasn’t sure if I’d ever be comfortable again. No one is going to spoil this feeling for me. Even if I am starting to shiver from the cold.

  Something warm drops over my shoulders. Alvarez’s blue flannel shirt. I pull it around me, softly inhaling his scent.

  “Is that enough? Are you warm? Do you want me to go up to the fort and get anything else for you?”

  “No. This is fine. Thank you.” I fasten the buttons, wistful to realize that I wouldn’t mind wearing Alvarez’s shirts on a regular basis. Too bad I’m so much older than him. Among other obstacles.

  Still ... there was that thing Shaun said. I haven’t been able to completely forget about it.

  Alvarez waits for me to finish securing his shirt before sitting down next to me. He doesn’t speak. We sit in easy silence, watching Kate drop zombies over the cliff. The moment is as perfect as I could ever hope for.

  “I’m going to light a few bottles of wine on fire and drop them over the cliff when Kate is finished,” Alvarez says. “Incinerate the bodies before the tide comes in.”

  “You should drop Rosario and her assholes over the edge, too.”

  “I plan to.”

  I like the ferocity in his voice.

  “What did Shaun say to you?” I ask.

  “What do you mean?”

  “Before he opened the gates to Fort Ross and let Rosario in. What did he say to you?”

  It’s not that I don’t believe Shaun. It’s that I want to know for sure if his words really had the effect he claimed they had on Alvarez.

  Alvarez picks up a handful of pebbles and tosses them into the ocean, one by one. He doesn’t move or even react the first time the surf rushes past his shoes, soaking his feet.

  I wait. I’m not letting this go.

  Alvarez throws twenty-seven pebbles into the water before he finally makes eye contact with me. “He asked me to look after you.”

  As the words leave his mouth, I finally see what Shaun saw: the way Alvarez looks at me. Not as just another sheep in his flock. When he looks at me, I feel like I am his flock. I can’t remember the last time someone looked at me like that.

  “I’m going to kiss you.” I deliver these words the way a captain tells his crew the ship is sinking. I give Alvarez to the count of three to protest or make a run for it.

  He just looks at me, eyes round with surprise. When I get to three and he’s still sitting next to me, I grasp the back of his neck and pull him toward me.

  The kiss is salty and warm and sweet. I marvel at the feel of it. It’s so much more than pure physical sensation. Something deep stirs inside me at the contact. It’s been so long since I’ve felt anything beyond anger that I can’t put a name to what it is I’m feeling.

  Then a huge wave barrels into us. Stinging water flings us sideways. I’m knocked to the ground and end up with a mouthful of saltwater. Alvarez’s weight rolls over me. A large abalone shell grinds into my ribcage.

  I sit up, spitting and wiping at my eyes. I peel long strands of hair away from my face.

  A sound tickles my ears. It takes me a moment to register it for what it is: laughter.

  Alvarez sits up next to me, chuckling as he wipes saltwater from his face. He grins at me.

  His mirth and good humor are infectious. I can’t find laughter within me—not yet, anyway—but for the first time in a long time, I find myself smiling. He pulls me close and kisses me again. There’s sand between our lips this time. I couldn’t care less. Maybe Shaun was on to something.

  I’m the first to pull away. “You know I’m fucked up. Like, really fucked up. You could not pick a worse woman in the fort.”

  “Don’t care.”

  “I could have an STD.”

  “Maybe. Maybe not.” He shrugs. “We can deal with it, whatever the case.”

  “I’m older than you ... how old are you, anyway?”

  “Twenty-four.”

  The air swooshes out of me. “I’m nine years older than you.”

  “Don’t care.”

  “There are a lot of women in the fort who would be better for you.”

  This raises both of his eyebrows. I stare at him, willing him to see the truth of everything I’ve said in the past thirty seconds.

  I make up my mind not to be disappointed if he walks away. It
would be for the best.

  “You forgot to mention you might be pregnant,” he says after a long beat. “I don’t care about that either, Jessie. I’ll love any baby that comes out of you.”

  My hands move on their own accord. They cover my belly and squeeze.

  What I wouldn’t give to have another child. Children. I always wanted more children.

  The notion of having babies with Alvarez sets me on fire. I swallow and look away, not wanting him to know how much his words mean to me.

  My voice is hoarse when I at last speak. “I—I don’t think any of those assholes got me pregnant. I have an IUD.”

  “Either way, it doesn’t matter.” He reaches out one hand and brushes a wet, salt-encrusted strand away from my face. “What happened to you in that RV with those—those fuckers doesn’t change the way I feel about you. We’ll deal with the consequences together.” The side of his mouth quirks. “Nice job killing them, by the way. Shaun mentioned you were an animal on the tennis court. Thanks to you, tennis rackets are now on the short list of favorite zombie weapons.”

  I. Will. Not. Smile. I. Will. Not—

  Against my will, I smile.

  “Do you remember that day we cleared out those houses on Mountain House Road?” he asks.

  I remember that day. “We found all that flour and sugar in the caterer’s house.”

  Alvarez waves a dismissive hand. “I’m not talking about the food. Remember when Steph went into the barn and nearly got herself bitten by a zom that fell out of the hay loft? You pushed her out of the way.”

  Steph. Her name invokes pain in the deepest part of me. “I did that because I wanted the zombie to fall on me. I wanted to die.”

  “Bullshit. It was because you cared.”

  I don’t respond, replaying that day over again in my mind. It’s impossible for me to forget the way my chest seized when I saw that zom falling from the loft straight for Steph. Just like it had back in the fort when I saw what would happen to her and Bella if I hadn’t volunteered.

  “When Rosario asked for volunteers, Bella told me you were the only one who raised your hand.”

  I open my mouth to protest, but Alvarez quiets me with a gentle hand over my lips.

  “You are the bravest and most selfless woman I’ve ever met. I never said anything to you because Shaun was my friend. I considered him a brother. He told me about Richard, but I knew he still cared about you.”

  “Not in the way you’re talking about.”

  “I didn’t know that at the time. I didn’t want to risk my friendship with Shaun so I stayed away from you out of respect for him.” Sadness flits through his eyes. I know he’s missing Shaun.

  I’m missing him right now, too.

  “I want to see where this goes, Jessie. You and me.” Alvarez’s index finger points back and forth between us. “We risk our lives just by waking up every day. I don’t want to die never knowing if we could have something.”

  Have something. A fissure breaks open in my chest. Emotion overwhelms me. Tears sting my eyes.

  I wipe them away in shock. I haven’t cried since the day May and Claire died.

  I grab onto Alvarez, pulling myself into him. His arms come up and he holds me while the waves wash over our feet. I cry softly into his shoulder.

  I cry for Shaun, for May, for Claire, and for Steph. I cry for everyone we lost in Fort Ross. I cry for myself and the horror of my twenty-four hours in the RV. Hell, I even cry for Richard.

  As the tears flow, a new feeling rushes into me. Something I haven’t felt in a long time: hope.

  I hold onto that feeling, never wanting to let it go.

  41

  The Real Dead

  KATE

  One day after the battle at Fort Ross, we gather to bury our dead.

  The bodies are lined up in two rows beside the well. Eighteen in all, including those who had been partially fed to the zombies before the battle started.

  I kneel beside Eric’s body, gently wrapping it in a sheet. With me are Ben, Caleb, Ash, and Reed.

  We’ve all been patched up. Ash was shot in the shoulder. The graze I took in the arm turned out to be deeper than I thought. The two of us now sport stitches. She and Ben are covered with bruises and cuts from their beatings. Caleb has a long gash across his thigh and several cuts on his arm. Lucky for us, there’s a real doctor in Fort Ross who tended us.

  Only Reed escaped the battle without physical wounds, but he’s barely spoken since Eric died. My light-hearted, jovial Reed hasn’t cracked one joke. It breaks my heart to see him this way.

  I finish securing the sheet around Eric.

  “I got him, Mama.” Reed scoops up the body of his brother and carries him out of the fort. I follow with Ben, Caleb, and Ash.

  Alvarez leads the residents of Fort Ross. The stronger men and women carry the bodies of the dead, all of them wrapped in blankets and sheets like Eric.

  We drift in a long procession through the broken wall on the southern side of the fort, heading toward an old graveyard for the original Fort Ross residents.

  Ben takes my hand as we walk, squeezing my fingers. He walks with a limp, his right leg badly swollen and bruised from the beating he took from Rosario.

  We enter the graveyard. Russian Orthodox crosses, each one crafted from wood, spread out around us. At one time those crosses had been in straight rows. Time has shifted them. Now they rise up from different directions. Some have fallen over completely.

  Eighteen gravesites have been freshly dug. Reed selects one on the end and sets Eric’s body inside. I put my arm around Reed and kiss his cheek. He stands stiff beside me, unresponsive. I hug him anyway.

  Across the graveyard, I watch Alvarez. With him is the tennis player. Jessica is her name. She and Alvarez have never been far from one another since the battle.

  I heard rumor of what she endured in the twenty-four hours that it took us to get to Fort Ross. Of what she volunteered for to protect her people. The memory of her beating a man to death with a tennis racket is forever burned into my brain. It’s impossible not to admire her. I can see why Alvarez likes her.

  Not far behind Alvarez and Jessica is the dark-haired teenage girl. Bella is her name. I dimly recall Johnny talking with someone named Bella on the ham. This is likely the same girl. She dogs Jessica’s heels like a little sister.

  One by one, bodies are placed in the graves. Silence descends on the tiny hillside cemetery. The ocean hums in the distance. I inhale the salty air, wishing it could flush out the grief I carry in my heart.

  Alvarez makes his way to one side of the graveyard. He stands on top of an old tree trunk, looking out over his people. Jessica stands a few paces behind him.

  “Today we lay to rest our fallen.” His voice, ripe with emotion, washes over me.

  Eric. I squeeze my eyes shut at the sudden surge of emotion. I don’t fight the tears. Ben puts his arm around me and kisses the top of my head.

  “There are a lot of ways to live in this new world,” Alvarez continues. “Some chose to live like Rosario. They find security in breaking things. That’s not how we do things at Fort Ross. We have chosen to live differently.”

  His dark gaze sweeps the gathered crowd. It makes me proud to see the leader Alvarez has become. There isn’t a dry eye among us. Even Ben knuckles his eyes.

  “We find security in building rather than destroying,” Alvarez says. “We find security in each other. In friendships and family. That’s how we do things in Fort Ross. Our friends died honoring the way we’ve chosen to live. Never forget that. We all do our part to hold back the darkness. Whether that means fighting zombies in our backyard or protecting the community we’ve built, we’ve all chosen to make a stand against the darkness. Always remember those who sacrificed everything so that we may have a future that’s built on community and family. Never forget that we are a family. Every last one of us. We are brothers and sisters of the apocalypse. We are strong. Together.”

  A sound emerge
s from Reed’s throat. This time, when I pull him in for a hug, he doesn’t fight me. He hugs me back and sobs into my shoulder.

  “I’m so sorry,” I whisper to him.

  He says nothing, just hangs onto me like I’m the only thing keeping him from blowing away in the breeze.

  42

  Strong

  KATE

  “Have a little more.” Alvarez fills my cup with another splash of wine.

  “Thanks.” I take a long swallow and pass the cup to Ben, who sits beside me.

  His injured leg is propped up on a rock. “I forget this is considered wine country.”

  “We’re on the fringe of wine country,” I reply. “The town where Carter and I lived before the apocalypse is true wine country. Vineyards everywhere.” I take the cup as Ben hands it back to me. It’s been a long time since I’ve enjoyed wine. I sip the zinfandel, savoring the flavor.

  We sit around one of several large bonfires. Large kettles of stew sit over the fires, filled with rehydrated meat scavenged early in the apocalypse. Alvarez pulled out all the stops for the wake. He insisted on it, even if it plundered half of their supplies.

  “We can scavenge tomorrow,” he firmly told a woman who protested. “Tonight, we celebrate being alive and honor those who are no longer with us.”

  Alvarez even authorized the use of an iPod and a small portable solar charger. Music plays near the well. People dance and laugh.

  Ash and Caleb are with them. I watch their silhouettes, arms entwined. They haven’t left one another’s side since the battle. I like seeing them happy together. The barrier that sat between them for all these months has finally been broken.

  Even more amazing than the food, music, and wine are the showers. Alvarez has no less than six solar showers in Fort Ross. I made sure I had my turn under the warm water. It’s nice to have grime-free hair and a body free of blood splatter. All of us are officially the cleanest we’ve been since we left Creekside.

  Ben helps himself to another portion of stew. “We really need to get some cows at Creekside. We need to eat real meat once in a while.”