Sand Castles

by Antoinette Stockenberg

  Laura Shore has fled her humble past on Cape Cod and made a name for herself on the opposite coast. But when she returns and joins forces with her two siblings to try to save Shore Gardens, the failing family nursery, she finds that she hasn't left the past behind at all. Kendall Barclay, the town's rich son and her childhood knight in shining armor, lives there still, and his hold over Laura is as strong as ever. Like a true knight, he's attentive, courteous, and ready to help -- until a murder is uncovered that threatens the family, the nursery, and Laura's deepening relationship with him.

  About the Author

  USA Today bestselling novelist Antoinette Stockenberg grew up wanting be a cowgirl and have her own horse (her great-grandfather bred horses for the carriage trade back in the old country), but the geography just didn't work out: there weren't many ranches in Chicago. Her other, more doable dream was to write books, and after stints as secretary, programmer, teacher, grad student, boatyard hand, office manager and magazine writer (in that order), she achieved that goal, writing over a dozen novels, several of them with paranormal elements. One of them is the RITA award-winning EMILY'S GHOST.

  Stockenberg's books have been published in a dozen languages and are often set in quaint New England harbor towns, always with a dose of humor. She writes about complex family relationships and the fallout that old, unearthed secrets can have on them. Sometimes there's an old murder. Sometimes there's an old ghost. Sometimes once-lovers find one another after half a lifetime apart.

  Her work has been compared to writers as diverse as Barbara Freethy, Nora Roberts, LaVyrle Spencer and Mary Stewart by critics and authors alike, and her novels have appeared on bestseller lists in USA Today as well as the national bookstore chains. Her website features sample chapters, numerous reviews, many photos, and an enchanting Christmas section.

  Visit her website at antoinettestockenberg.com to read sample chapters of all of her books.

  TIDEWATER Sample

  Antoinette Stockenberg

  "A spellbinding thriller that is both intense and riveting."

  --Romantic Times

  Newly married to a man of wealth and reputation who's very willing to be stepfather to her child, Sara Bonniface would seem to have all she's ever wanted. But her young daughter has other ideas, embarking on a crusade to learn more about her birth father. And that's where Sara's life begins to spin slowly out of control ....

  Prologue

  Abigail. It seemed like such a good name at the time.

  "Source of joy," that's what the word meant according to the baby-name booklet that Sara had picked up at the checkout register of her grocery store. Four months later and with no man at her side, Sara had cradled her seven-pound, two-ounce Abigail and marveled at just how much joy she was holding. That was twelve long years ago.

  It seemed like such a good name at the time.

  Chapter 1

  The black night and pounding rain were doing little to improve Sara's mood. She was rattled to the point of fear.

  When had she last filled the tank?

  It had to be over a month ago, and yet here she was, still rolling along on three-quarters full. Obviously she must have stopped recently at a gas station—but when? Where? The effort to remember consumed her: she drove straight through a red light and got pulled over immediately by a cop.

  Where had he come from? Sara didn't know the answer to that one, either. Her hand was shaking as she handed him her license and registration through the partly rolled-down window.

  "I'm sorry, Officer, really," she said, wincing under the lash of driving rain. "I was totally preoccupied. I never saw the light."

  "Is that the reason," the cop muttered.

  He beamed a small flashlight on her Massachusetts license and the now-damp registration. It was clear that he resented being forced out of the dry warmth of his car for the sole purpose of ticketing someone else's absent-mindedness. If Sara had been rushing to an emergency room, maybe, or returning home from a wake ... but all she was doing was driving home on a tank of gas that seemed too full. It would be pointless to try to explain.

  "It's my gas tank. I don't understand it; it never seems to go empty anymore," she said, powerless to stop the stream of her babble. "I can't remember when I last filled up. I'll have to, to, you know, start using American Express, start keeping records of, you know, everything I do—you know? Start taking notes and things like that?"

  The ponchoed officer gave her an appraising look, then went off with her documents back to his squad car, presumably to fetch his Breathalyzer.

  Good grief, Sara, get a grip

  The only thing worse than going crazy was announcing out loud that she was doing it.

  She drummed her fingertips nervously on the leather-bound steering wheel of her Mercedes while she waited. The sound was louder than the pound of the rain, louder than the beat of her heart. The message in it was earsplittingly clear: shutup shutup shutup shutup!

  The officer returned.

  "You can go, Mrs. Bonniface," he said, handing her back her license. "Please drive carefully. The roads are slick. You could easily get in an accident on a wild night like this." He nodded a dismissal and then beat a retreat through the pouring rain.

  It was an about-face. Apparently he had figured out who she was: the wife of one of the most well-regarded men in Farnham, certainly the most generous, a man beloved by all. Sara had been married to Rodger Bonniface for nearly a year and she had known him for five years before that, but every day she learned a little more about the depth of affection—and influence—that he enjoyed around town.

  Or maybe the officer was just being nice. Sara slipped her license into a glove-soft wallet and tossed the registration on the passenger seat.

  And then she reconsidered. Better to put it back where it belonged, in the glove compartment, right now, while she was thinking of it, before she forgot. The way her mother had once begun to forget. First the little things. Then the big.

  Who are you? Who said you could be here? Get out right now, you, or I'll call the cops. Get out! Out!

  Sara could still hear her mother's voice, shrill and terrified; could still see her mother's eyes, round and green and blank with paranoia. The day that her mother hadn't recognized her had been the single most shocking of Sara's life. For years now, and probably until the day she died, Sara's mood would plunge whenever she herself forgot the most trivial thing—the name of a movie she'd just seen, or the outfit she'd worn to work on the preceding day.

  Or the last time she'd topped off the tank.

  Sara pulled into the flow of traffic with ridiculous caution. The patrolman could well be watching her, after all—unless, of course, she was just being paranoid.

  Rain hammered the roof of her wagon and swept over the windshield in sheets as she continued on her way in a slow crawl home. Puddles of water pooling on the shoulder rose up in high arcs as she drove through them, anxious to show up before Rodger became worried.

  Her husband had seen firsthand how forgetful she'd been lately and was doing his best to reassure her that her state of distraction was perfectly normal. His most recent try had been at breakfast.

  "You're about to open your own shop, for Pete's sake," he had said as he cracked the fat end of an egg with a spoon. "There are a million things to do, contractors to oversee, more antiques to acquire—what did you expect? Of course stuff is slipping past you. You can't remember every little thing."

  "The store won't be ready to move into for weeks," she had pointed out. "I'm not all that busy yet."

  There was a silence—far too long for Sara to feel comfortable with it.

  "Well, then," Rodger had said in a softer, more tentative voice, "maybe you should look somewhere else for the reason you're so distracted. Could the reason be Abby?"

  The name was a hot coal on a raw nerve. "Abby? Why Abby?"

  It was such a dumb question. The man wasn't deaf; obviously he had been hearing the recent arguments between his stepdaughte
r and his wife.

  Rodger had shrugged offhandedly as he scooped the oozy egg with a monogrammed spoon into a porcelain bowl. "She's growing up, your little girl; it's bound to be hard for you to let go. That's natural, Sara," he had said, looking up with a quick, sympathetic smile. "You've raised her yourself. You two have always been a team. You've done—you're doing—a great job. But Abby's twelve now, and feeling her way."

  Sara had responded with a vehemence that surprised even her. "She's not just feeling her way, Rodger; she's roaring like a freight train toward a washed-out bridge!"

  "It's only a phase, Sara," he had reassured her, and then he had come around to her side of the table and had wrapped his arms around her in a show of support. "She's at an age when knowing about her birth father is important to her. You can't really blame Abby," he had said. "If you're going to blame anyone, blame the teacher who dreamed up the family-tree project. Personally, I've never been a fan of assignments like that; they can be unnerving for some parents. Family skeletons aren't always six feet under, after all."

  He had kissed Sara's cheek in sympathy and added, "It's hard on a kid when a parent dies before the child is old enough to remember him. Sooner or later Abby will have picked your brain all she can, and then she'll stop. Trust me. It's only a phase."

  Instead of being grateful to him, Sara had snapped, "Don't tell me what phase Abby's in, Rodger; I'm her mother!"

  And then she'd wrenched free of him, grabbed her purse and jacket, and left him standing flabbergasted on the quarry-tiled floor of their two-hundred-year-old kitchen.

  That was this morning, and although Sara had called her husband at the Academy later in the day and apologized, she was still feeling guilty. He'd been trying to help. She'd behaved like a shit.

  She glanced at the low-lit clock on the dashboard: seven fifteen. So much for the chicken with citrus sauce. The fixings for Rodger's favorite dinner were sitting uncooked in two brown bags behind her.

  She drove down dark and winding River Street, then pulled onto the graveled drive of the wine-red, gambrel-roofed house, known all around as Tidewater, that Rodger had lived in all of his life. Lights were on both upstairs and down, pouring their soft glow through multipaned windows onto fat-budded rhododendrons and leafing summersweet that lined the granite foundation.

  Sara glanced up at her daughter's bedroom. She's at that damned computer again, she realized with a sinking heart. Her daughter's obsession with the Internet had become a source of constant bickering between them. Sara wanted to allow Abby enough access to be stimulating but not too much to be addictive. It was a tricky balancing act.

  The light was on in Rodger's study downstairs. He was either slogging through a pile of papers or he was on the phone, managing some crisis or other. Sara didn't envy her husband his position as headmaster of Faxton Academy. It entailed a ridiculous amount of stress and pressure, more so because he was grandson to the academy's founder: he couldn't walk away if the going got tough, or accept a better offer at another boarding school.

  Probably the only thing more stressful than managing kids with attention deficit disorder was managing privileged kids with ADHD: Rodger was always meeting with their high-powered parents, who were themselves impatient, demanding, and used to getting their way. After working in the headmaster's office for several years, Sara had seen firsthand how well Rodger was able to keep his cool. Still, the stress factor at the exclusive academy—either despite its small size or because of it—was sky-high.

  Poor Rodger. She wasn't making his life any easier.

  "Sorry, sorry, sorry," she said to her husband at the door, handing the grocery bags to him. "I stopped to check on the shop. The contractor was still there and he had a lot of questions. I would have called—"

  "But you left your cell phone on the kitchen counter," Rodger said with a wry smile on his handsome face. He set the bags carefully on a marble-topped table that sat in the hall, then pushed his reading glasses over the top of his receding hair and arched his back, easing out the fatigue.

  "I was worried about you," he admitted as she hung up her rain-spattered jacket. "I think you ought to have a second cell phone, this one just for the car."

  "Oh, one is enough—really," Sara said. I won't forget it again. I won't.

  Wanting to move past the painful issue of her breakfast tantrum, she hugged her husband and said, "You're right, I think; it is Abby." On tiptoe, she gave him a kiss on his cheek. "She's driving me cr—up a wall lately, and I'm taking it out on you. I'm sorry."

  Rodger kissed the top of her rain-dampened hair and said, "Nothing to be sorry for. I never should have put in my two cents."

  "But I want you to put in your two cents! We're both her parents now, you as well as me—I. And think of all the kids that have passed through your doors. Who knows more about children than you do?"

  He answered quietly, "Just about any real father."

  He hadn't had children of his own during his first marriage, but it was still hard for Sara to believe he felt so humbled by the fact. "Oh-h, you know that's not true," she said, reassuring him. They had been trying to have children for nine months now, which wasn't very long; it would only be a matter of time.

  She ran her fingertips across his cheek, already stubbly with the day's growth. She preferred him this way—slightly rumpled, without his tie, a man instead of a headmaster. He seemed more approachable. It made it easier for her to accept the astonishing fact that she was his wife now, and not merely the assistant to his secretary.

  Sara had a sudden, vivid flashback to the night of his proposal. She had been working late, determined not to drop the ball while she filled in for his ailing secretary. Rodger had offered to take Sara to a late supper, but she had declined because Abby was alone at home and waiting for her.

  Despite having worked at the academy for four years, Sara had been uneasy about spurning her employer's friendly offer. But far from taking it personally, Rodger had shrugged and said, "If we were married, Abby wouldn't be alone and on her own right now."

  Sara had no answer to that except ... yes. After a whirlwind engagement, they were married in a small, tasteful ceremony. She was so grateful to Rodger for her new life.

  She shook herself free of the memory. "You must be starved," she said, taking up one of the grocery bags.

  Rodger picked up the other and followed her into the kitchen. "Actually, I figured Abby might be hungry, so I heated up the stew from last night for us."

  "Oh, good."

  "But she didn't come down. She said she would later."

  "What? Rodger! You have to put your foot down with her. She can't just—"

  "Yes, she can, Sara," he said, shrugging. "I won't go ordering her around," he added as he took out a bag of oranges. "She has to come of her own free will."

  "Baloney! She'll come to dinner when she's called, period. Damn it, I wish you'd take my side just once whenever—"

  She was doing it again, picking a fight again. She reined herself in and changed the subject altogether. In a more offhand tone she said, "Any good mail?" and picked up the stack on the counter.

  Rodger, in a mild snit of his own now, said, "I've taken all of my mail out; the rest is yours. Well, I've got work to do." He left her to put away the groceries herself.

  Sighing, Sara began flipping through the hefty pile, surprised again at how a marriage to someone of stature could instantly quadruple her mail. The day's haul included Art and Antiques, Colonial Homes, a dozen upscale catalogues, appeals from three or four charities, an equal number of VISA applications, an invitation to a lecture on historic architecture, another one to dinner—and a bill that she'd just paid, returned for lack of postage.

  She stared at the envelope, to which she clearly remembered attaching a peel-away stamp. It would take a fireman's hose to get one of those things off.

  I did stamp this envelope. I did.

  Didn't I?

  Sara felt a familiar rush of heat to her cheeks. She lai
d the envelope carefully back on the pile and, just as deliberately, finished emptying the second bag of groceries. After that she turned a low fire under the pot of stew still on the stove, and whispered in a shaking voice to no one in particular, "Abby will come when she is called."

  ****

  Abigail Johnson Bonniface sat hunched like an elf owl in front of her computer, searching through cyberspace for only God knew what.

  Standing in the doorway of her daughter's room, Sara had to make an effort to control her rising irritation as she said, "It was rude not to come down after your father heated up supper especially for you."

  "Oh, please," Abby said without turning around. "Speaking of rude, don't you ever knock anymore?"

  Sara gritted her teeth and said, "Fair enough. I'll knock from now on. But it would be a lot easier to be nice to you if you were nice to others."

  "When am I not nice?"

  "Right now. By not looking at me when you speak to me."

  She saw her daughter's shoulders rise and then fall on an aggrieved exhale.

  Bracing herself on the arms of her swivel chair, Abby spun it slowly around to face her mother. Intelligence and anger flashed from heavily lashed blue eyes.

  "Tell me who my father is."

  Here we go again. "I've told you, Abby. Many, many times. A man named Nick McElwyn."

  'Then why was our name Johnson instead of McElwyn until you got married last year? Why were you using your maiden name all my life?"

  "I've told you that, too: lots of women had begun to keep their own names by the time you were born."

  "Then why did you all of a sudden decide to take the name Bonniface when you got married this time?"

  "Because your stepfather isn't like your birth father. Rodger wanted us to share his name."

  "So my real father was ashamed of us, is that what you're trying to say?"

  Surprised to find herself in new, dark territory, Sara said carefully, "Your father just never insisted the way Rodger did. And I'm a different person now than I was then."