For Love & Torture_A Submissives’ Secrets Novel

by Michelle Love

  I can have any woman I want. And my wants have been all in one area for the last few years. And they still are. But I want to bring this little young thing into my world and make a place for her in it. I think her curiosity about BDSM is a thing I can shape and sculpt into a reality.

  If she wants to write about things of that nature, isn’t it better to have lived them?

  No, thank you, Pierce. I do appreciate your invitation, though, she finally sends me.

  “Damn!”

  Typing furiously, I send, I could come to you.

  Her response is quick and to the point, My flat is tiny, and I have neighbors on all sides. I’m quite sure if you came to me and we did the dirty deeds you surely have in mind, the authorities would be called and on my door step before you were through with me.’

  I have to laugh and shake my head. She’s witty. I have to give her that. But I have a remedy for that situation. I’d get us a hotel. A very beautiful one. I’d wine and dine you before I showed you what you’ve been missing.

  Such a fantastic liar you are, Pierce!

  Slamming my fist on my desktop, I roar, “Fuck!”

  She has no idea who I am or how much money I have. I could be with her in mere hours, holding her, caressing that pale skin of hers, and showing her what it means to feel the sting of my whip.

  My cock thumps again as I think about her hanging from ropes attached to the ceiling, naked, except for the cord that crisscrosses her body. I could send her mind to a place it’s never been, a place she never even knew existed.

  Can I make a video of a submissive and me to show you how it is in reality, Jade?

  That might be great, actually. Would you really do that for me?

  I laugh and say to myself, “I think I’d do anything for you, Jade.” But I type, I would do that for you, if you would consider seeing me sometime in the near future.

  Pierce, I’m not into pain. Now, if you’d like to meet and have drinks and see where that leads, I might be into that. But as far as getting into your world, no, thank you.

  Drumming my fingers on the desktop, I think about my response, then write, I want you to work out your fantasy and write it all down for me. Then I’ll find a woman who wants to play it out. We’ll play out your scene, Jade. You’ll see how erotic it is to make a whole scene up. And I encourage you to use ropes, whips, paddles, and maybe some hot wax too when you write your scene.

  I have no idea where to start with that, Pierce.

  With a sigh, I find myself enthused that she and I will write the scene together. I will write it with you then. We can work through the night to get it hashed out. Are you up for that?

  Only a short pause is made before she answers, I am up for that. Let me grab some lunch. Then I’ll get back on here, and we can do that. Okay?

  Okay, I’ll be waiting.

  Not hungry yet?’ she asks.

  Not for food. I laugh and lick my lips as I look at her picture again then say to myself, “But for you, I’m ravenous, Jade Thomas!”

  Before I go, can you give me an idea of how we’ll be writing this?

  I ease back in my chair and type, Jade is kneeling outside my playroom door, waiting to be dominated for the first time. Her body is covered only by thin lines of black leather. One line covers the nipples of her pert breasts; one line runs between her legs, hiding her sweet box. And one line joins them. Her body is pink with excitement and nervous energy. An energy she will give to me, her Dom. I will take that energy and transform it into pleasure the likes of which she’s never experienced in her life. How does that sound to you so far, Jade?

  Damn, Pierce! You’re good at this.

  So I’ve been told. Go eat your lunch, then take your clothes off and climb into your bed, and we’ll get going on this project. You’ll most likely want to bring that vibrator with you. Things get pretty steamy when discussing scenes. I’d hate for you to leave this conversation sexually frustrated.

  Me too. This is so crazy! But I’m going to do it, Pierce! God! Be back soon, naked and ready to make up some sick shit.

  Her words do anything but satisfy me. I don’t want her to think of anything we do as sick or twisted. I want her to open her mind and see it for what it is: beautiful and mind expanding. Her life will be changed by the end of our scene. She’s unaware of the seed I’ve planted in her mind. The seed will grow and grow until she’s begging to see me. I have no doubts about that. None, whatsoever!

  Jade

  Curtains closed, lights dimmed, vibrator on the nightstand next to a bottle of lube, and I think I’m ready to get back to Pierce. If he’s even still waiting for me, that is. I can’t help but believe that this is too good to be true.

  I went online to search for some answers and somehow ended up doing some kinky shit with an actual Dom. Now we’re about to write a scene, as it’s called in the realm of BDSM. Wow!

  When I open my computer, I see he hasn’t sent me a thing, which has me a little worried that I’ve gotten my hopes up for nothing. And then my mind comes back to reality. I’ve let him drag me into a fantasy world!

  Staring at my computer screen, I see our back and forth messages and have to wonder how I got to this place. The screen blinks, and then I see Pierce has written something.

  You’re back.

  I guess it came up that I’m back online. And now here I am, caught. I could close the computer. I could walk away and stop all this insanity. But deep inside I want to know what this scene writing is all about. So, I type, I am. You still want to do this with a lowly, vanilla virgin? I’m sure to disappoint you.

  I highly doubt you will. And I’m your guide through it all. If you disappoint me, that’ll be my own fault for not teaching you correctly. I have my pen at the ready to write down your ideas. Have you thought about what you’d like me to do to you?

  I’ve thought of little else for the last hour while making and eating a ham sandwich. Thoughts of ropes, whips, paddles, and other things I deem wild. Another ding has me looking at my computer to find he’s written, Anybody there?

  I’m here. Just nervous and thinking I’m being dumb about this whole thing.

  You said you want to be an erotic author, Jade. This is just writing.

  Fuck. He’s right, and I know it!

  I type back, Okay, let’s get going on this then. I think I’d like to hear what you’d suggest to a newbie who’s a virgin.

  Let’s pretend you aren’t a virgin for this, shall we? he writes. If I can ever talk you into anything for real, I plan on fixing that little problem promptly anyway.

  I squirm on the bed as I get more comfortable and giggle at the thought. Even though I don’t believe the man in the picture he sent me is him, it’s still rattling around my brain that a guy like that one would be my first lover. It’s just too crazy!

  Okay, Romeo, so in this scene, I’m a mature lady with miles of sex behind me. A real sex maniac. And I’m looking for some tough love. I stop and laugh at the idiotic words I’ve written.

  Seriously, Jade. This will be so much better if you act like it’s really going to happen to you. Are you ready to stop playing around and get to it?

  Damn, he is bossy!

  I type, I’ll get serious, Pierce. So where would we go from here?

  I left you kneeling at the playroom door. You have on bits of black leather, and I’m wearing loose-fitting black pants and nothing else.

  Do you have defined abs? I ask as I move my face closer to the screen as if I could see him.

  A full six pack and some perfect pecs that I work on daily. My biceps have been called monstrous. And I’m about to use my powerful body to bring yours into a state of complete submission.

  K, I write back, as I’m having trouble breathing. The thought of him, whether it’s true or not, is making me hot.

  Striding past you, I make my way to a couple of long ropes that are hanging from hooks on the ceiling. I will tie your body with the ropes, suspending you off the floor at a horizontal ang
le at just the right height so I can fuck you once I’ve got your endorphins buzzing.

  Oh, I write as my heart races. And what can I do for you?

  You can accept my rule over your body. You can allow me to play with it and make it do things you never dreamed of. I would appreciate you also letting out howls or moans.

  So, pretend you hear me doing that then. In real life, I’d most likely bitch him out if he actually walloped me.

  I will keep that in mind. Once I’m at the ropes, I will call to you to come to me. You will do so with your head bowed. And do you know why you are bowing?

  No clue, I admit.

  You are doing it because you want to. Not because I’ve told you to. You’re already getting prepared to transfer your energy to me by keeping yourself wrapped up in a neat little package until I untie you. Get it?

  Um, I’m being calm and untalkative as I’m saving up my energy for what’s about to happen. Is that close?

  Very, and I have to commend you on figuring that out all on your own. You are a very good girl, Jade.

  Thank you, I say, and feel a little bit of pride. I don’t know why I do. The man just talked to me like I’m seven years old!

  Okay, once you get to me, I will instruct you to hold out your arms, which you will do with no hesitation because you’re a good girl and know you can trust me with your body and your mind. I wrap one of the ropes around your arm, making sure that weight is distributed in such a way that you’ll feel weightless. The ropes will almost cradle you. Do you believe me when I tell you that if you let your mind soar, you will feel the way I’m describing?

  I do believe that. I’m kind of on pins and needles as I wait to see what’s next.

  Good. Limb by limb, I tie you up until you’re completely suspended as I described before. Is this all working for you, Jade?

  It is, I answer.

  If anything isn’t, you must let me know. This is supposed to be your fantasy, but since you’re so out of touch with this kind of thing, I’m helping you. You will soon be able to come up with your own ideas. You’ll see. And then you and I will make scenes together. And that will be something.

  Sure. For this time, please go on.

  Once I have you completely strung up and at my mercy, I’ll taunt you. You’ll be in a relaxed state as the ropes hold you, and I’ll end that by moving the ropes in such a way that your body will swing, taking you away from that ease of mind.

  Why? I have to ask. Why not allow me to feel comfortable and safe in the ropes?

  Because that’s no fun. You’d soon fall asleep, and where’s the fun in that?

  Oh, you’re most likely right. Go on then.

  I’ll swing you, and you’ll begin to feel vulnerable. Your mind will fill with the idea that you might fall. You won’t, though. I’ll tie you in such a way that you could struggle for hours and still wouldn’t fall.

  Or set myself free, I add, as the thought occurs to me. I will be at your mercy as you stated before.

  That you will, Jade. Back to our fantasy. I’ll swing you around and add in some more torment. An occasional whip will crack around you, but it won’t touch your flesh at this time. It will sizzle through the air and make your nerves buzz with the anticipation of the sting your flesh would feel if I accidentally hit it. But I won’t. Only your brain will not allow you to have that much faith in me at that time. You will be afraid. And you might even shout obscenities at me, which I’ll ignore and continue with what I’m doing.

  And you won’t want to punish me for shouting at you?

  No. It’s not as if you can control that action. Not when you’re new to this kind of thing. I’ll actually be delighted to get a great reaction from you. But my face won’t show it. If you look at me, if I allow that, I might wear a mask. That’s one thing you have no control over. Your Dom can wear a mask if he so desires. But what would you like, Jade? Mask or no mask?

  Um, how about you don’t wear one? ’Cause that picture of you is hot, and I’d like to look at that handsome face. I pick up my cell and look at the pic he sent me again. He is yummy!

  No mask then. For this, I’ll let you decide. But only for you, Jade. Now, I’ll continue to snap the whip around until you stop swinging. You’ll buck in the ropes in a vain attempt to escape at that point.

  You sound sure about that, Pierce.

  Because I am sure. You’ll be cussing and shouting at me to let you down, and I won’t do it.

  Unless I say the safe word. Which is?

  Red, but you won’t do that at this point. You’d miss out on the best part.

  And that is?

  Feeling my cock inside your tight pussy, Jade.

  I gulp, then type, Oh! So, go on. I’m nearly panting with his words and feel so hot, I toss the blankets off me.

  I suppose this would be a good time to let you know the words that will work on me. Red means stop, completely. That will shut it all down. Yellow means ease up. And green means you’re screaming like you’re about to give up, but you’re really not. I’ll ask you throughout the scene for the color you’re feeling at times. You’ll answer accordingly. Understand?

  I do. So, I’m bucking and trying to get free while screaming at you and calling you a cocksucker, just so you know. I giggle and wonder if he’s laughing too.

  Such vulgarity, Jade. Naughty girl. Now I’ll use two more ropes. These will secure you like a hammock, not allowing much movement to occur so that I can safely hit your body without you jerking around and making the paddle fall on a part of you that would really hurt you.

  Paddle, huh?

  What would you prefer?

  There’s this short whip thingy with lots of soft looking strands. I think that one would be okay.

  A flogger, then. I can use that. And just so you know, that makes a thud on the body. A light thud, but still a thud. The longer I go, the more your ass will feel. Or would you like me to use it on your breasts? Or both your ass and your breasts?

  Hell, go for it, use it on both, I type as I laugh. It’s not like this will ever actually happen anyway.

  I think it will. And what’s more, another woman will be subjected to this scene. Keep that in mind, Jade.

  Oh yeah! Um, the ass only, please.

  Ass only it is. And I’ll limit it to ten strokes since you’ll be new at it. Once I’ve finished that round, you’ll be panting and maybe even crying a bit. That’s normal. So I’ll leave your ass alone and start fucking around with your tits. Small clamps will come into play, I’ll lick and nibble your breasts until they’re as hard as they can get, then I’ll clamp them. It’s the kind of sensation that sends endorphins flooding your body. You see, when women breastfeed, their nipples become highly sensitive. That first pull from a baby’s little lips hurts like a motherfucker. Hence why nature gave you the natural reaction to that kind of unpleasantness.

  Oh, that’s clever, Pierce!

  It is, isn’t it? So, on to the next step. You’ll be kind of wiped out at that point. Your body will be somewhat numb, and your head will start to get a bit loopy. And that’s when I’ll introduce you to my massive cock. All nine inches of the fat thing will penetrate your cunt. You will suck in your breath and try to move, perhaps wanting to touch me or hit me. One can never be sure at that point.’

  But you’ll leave me bound, and I’ll only be able to watch you fucking me, won’t I?

  That’s right. You’ll watch me use your body for my own pleasure. I’ll say nasty things to you. Try to make you mad at me.

  Like what? I ask as I reach for my vibrator. I lube it up and turn it on, rubbing my clit with it as the idea of Pierce fucking me in any way at all is arousing.

  Things like you’re my whore. I own your ass. Your pussy belongs to me. Things like that. And I’ll keep doing it until you agree that you belong to me. Then I’ll let you know what a hot, great cunt you have and how it was made for my dick. And then I’ll pull out, leaving you panting. You will beg me for more, and I won’t give it to you. I�
�ll place my cock on your lips and tell you to kiss it.

  “Shit!” I moan as I push the dildo into my pulsing pussy. “This guy has me on fire!”

  Which you do as you look me in the eye. You take it in your mouth and lovingly lick and suck it. By the way, read up and watch some videos on how to give a blowjob, Jade. I can’t wait to feel your mouth wrapped around my cock.

  Um, okay. Will there be a test? I ask, laughing a bit at my joke.

  Yes. When you have my cock in your mouth, that’s the test. So, I begin to skull fuck you and you’re making exquisite moans and groans. Then I pull my cock out and walk away, leaving you hanging.

  Why would you do that?’ I ask as I stop pushing the dildo in and out.

  To let you cool down a bit. You’re getting too hot and bothered and will orgasm too soon. I want this to last a while. Don’t you?

  Sure.’

  I pull the dildo out and wonder what he’s going to do next.

  This guy is like a sexual guru or something. I wonder if all Doms are like him or if he’s exceptionally good?

  Pierce

  With our scene finished, after a long night of editing it to perfection, I’ve come to the Dungeon of Decorum to find a sub who might want to do this with me. If I can find someone, then I’ll pay for a video to be made in one of the private rooms and share it with Jade. I have my fingers crossed that she’ll see what actually happens and accept my invitation for her to come for a visit.

  Before we ended last night’s conversation, she told me she has the next couple of months off from school. She could come to me if she decided to. I threw in the enticement of getting a remote cabin for the summer and said that I’d take a vacation too. We could spend the entire time together, finding her limits.

  She’s still nervous, just as most people who first start this are. I did tell her how much of a better writer she’ll be if she took this on. Her mind would open so much more, and she’d have personal knowledge she could use to create better stories.

  Grant sees me and waves as I come into the poker room. “Over here, Pierce.”