For Love & Torture_A Submissives’ Secrets Novel

by Michelle Love

  “Okay,” she says in a raspy breath. “Pierce?”

  “Yes, Jade.”

  “If I ask you to fuck me, will you?”

  I ponder her question. That wasn’t the plan for today. But the pink color that’s covering her body has my dick hard, and I’d imagine it’ll get even harder as I strike her perfect ass. “If you want.”

  “Okay,” she says, then I see her holding her lips in a tight line.

  “Try your best not to hold your ass cheeks tightly. Try to let the flogger do to you what it’s supposed to. Tension lessens the reaction,” I let her know. “And how about we add the blindfold now?”

  “Do you think it’s really a good idea?” she asks.

  “I do. It’ll help you get out of your head easier.”

  “Then do it,” she says and sighs. “This is kind of out of my comfort zone.”

  “I know that, Jade. This isn’t about staying in that zone. It’s about evolving.” I get a black lace blindfold and put it over her eyes, then kiss her cheek. “I’ll go easy on you.”

  She nods and sighs again. “Let’s do this.”

  As she requested earlier, I go to the speaker and turn the music up louder. Then I go get the flogger and run it up her leg so she can feel that I have it. Her skin pimples and I see her body go tense. “Take a deep breath.”

  She does as I’ve said and I run my hand over her exposed ass cheek. As much as I crave watching her ass grow in color with every strike, I know she needs some cushion between her and the flogger. I take a wrap-around skirt of spandex and tie it on her, covering her ass.

  Six strikes are what she wants. Without letting her know I’m about to start, because I’m sure she’ll tense up, I start the process. Using a figure eight motion, I deliver alternating strikes to each cheek and find her screaming from the first one. “Ow!”

  When I’m done, I move to her face. “Are you okay?”

  “Give me six more, please,” she answers.

  “Jade, I don’t …”

  “Pierce, I was just getting into it, then you stopped. Six more, please.”

  Shaking my head as I go back to her ass, I grin. She totally has what it takes, and I can see a future of all kinds of cool shit with her.

  Too bad this can only last a couple of months!

  Jade

  Heat fills me as Pierce flogs my ass again. Each hit is a thud and sends dull pain through my lower region. And for reasons I can’t explain, it has my pussy wet and wanting. The loud rock music, full of electric guitars, has my head fuzzy, and I feel as if I’m tipsy.

  “Can you add in some more, Pierce? I’m craving more.”

  “Damn, baby! It’s like you were made for this,” he says with excitement.

  The blindfold still covers my eyes, leaving me seeing only dark shadows in the dimly lit room. I feel the lower leather strap release my pussy, and then his tongue moves over it. Then he’s gone, and the ropes begin to move. My body’s spun around, and I think I’m facing up. The blood leaves the front part of my body and starts to pool in the back of it. And that leaves my ass pounding.

  It didn’t hurt this much before!

  Pierce is back, licking my cunt as I begin to pant from the pulsing of my entire ass and the sensation his tongue is giving the front part of me. “Ahh …” I moan.

  He grips my ass, making me groan with a mixture of agony and pleasure. It makes no sense at all to my logical mind. My body cares nothing for logic. It’s running on pure adrenaline.

  Pierce’s harsh words hit my ears like rocks being thrown at my head. “You’re my bitch, Jade. My little whore!”

  I try not to let his words agitate me. He means them to, and I try hard not to listen to him. It’s intended to rile me, and he says that makes things better, but I can’t wrap my head around that at the moment.

  His teeth nip my clit, and I scream, “No!”

  “Your cunt is mine, bitch! I’ll do to it what I want,” he growls at me. “You’ll shut the fuck up and take whatever I give your ass. One more outburst and you’ll feel the sting of my whip on your tender flesh.”

  I hear his bare feet as they pad across the wooden floor, then I hear him take something off a hook, and then the sizzle of a whip has my body shaking. “No, Pierce! This wasn’t in the plan!”

  “You’re the one who wants to keep going, Jade. I’m just doing what you said to,” he says, with a sinister tone to his voice. He sounds as if someone has taken him over. Someone who sounds evil and scary.

  My trust in him is faltering fast as the whip snaps around my body. It pops so close, I can feel the air off it. “Pierce!”

  I hear a thudding sound, then feel his hands on my waist. His cock touches the edge of my vagina as the skirt he tied on me is torn off. A solid smack of his hand has my sore ass pounding again as he shoves his fat cock into me. “You’re soaking wet for me, Jade. You like it! You want it!”

  His cock feels so good inside of me. All I can do is moan as he pulls my body to his, making hard thrusts into me. I should feel like a piece of meat being used to satisfy him, yet I don’t. I feel like a part of him in a way I didn’t know I would.

  I could never have guessed that I’d feel this way. I’m flying back and forth as he takes me. His cock slams into me, making me gasp, and plead for him never to stop. And my words have him doing what I begged him not to. He’s gone!

  “Pierce?”

  I feel him removing the leather that’s covering my breasts. His mouth takes one as his hand moves over the other, then I feel a clamp close on it and scream, “God! No! Pierce!”

  “Color, Jade?”

  I try to breathe and seem to be scanning my entire body. I find it’s on fire, but somehow it’s not only bearable, it’s also fascinating, and I don’t want the feelings to stop. “Green.”

  “Good girl,” he hisses in my ear. “Fuck, you’re incredible, baby.” His tongue moves into my ear and I moan with how lusty it feels. “I’m going to skull fuck you now.”

  My mouth waters as I think about his dick in my mouth. I can hear him walk around me, then his hands are on either side of my head and his cock hits my lips. I open my mouth and gag as he plunges into it.

  I feel it go all the way in, down my throat, and he groans with the feeling. He holds my head still as he thrusts his juicy cock into my mouth. It’s not like the blowjobs I’ve given him. It’s so different, and now I do feel used. But being used by him is okay in my mind.

  Pierce can use this body any way he wants to!

  Just before he cums in my mouth, he pulls out and kisses me. “My cock makes your mouth taste even better, baby.”

  One hand cups my other breast and I tense up, thinking he’s about to clamp it too. Instead, he kisses it, then sucks on the nipple so hard I scream again. His laugh as he leaves my tit and runs his mouth down my body makes chills go through me.

  “You want my cock in you, Jade?”

  “I do,” I moan.

  “I want to hear something out of you first. Then and only then will I end your torture. Tell me what I want to hear.”

  I’m quivering with need and my words come out shakily, “I’m yours. Yours is the only cock that will ever be inside of me. I’ll never take another dick into my mouth or my pussy. I am yours and only yours, Pierce Langford.”

  “Good girl,” he groans as his hands move all over me, then my blindfold is taken off. “Watch me fuck you, Jade. Watch me as I take you however I want to. You are mine.”

  My heart is about as revved up as I believe it can get. I watch him move back to where he’s between my legs. He grabs my waist and slams his cock into me as we look at each other. His eyes are dark as he takes me, daring me to say a word.

  He looks dangerous and I should be afraid, but I’m anything but that. I’m on top of the world. The animal between my legs is something I’ve created, and when I want him to be easy, he will be. I can give him this thing he craves, as he’s making me crave it too.

  Pierce is falling—he mo
st likely has no idea how far he’s falling—for me!

  Somehow, I manage to move my legs and wrap them around him, pulling my body even more to him. I grit my teeth as the ropes pull at my skin and burn it as I must be closer to him. He gives my ass a slap. “Release me. You’re hurting yourself!”

  “I don’t care. I want to be closer to you,” I snap back at him.

  “Do as I say or I’ll be forced to punish you, and your ass is already red!”

  “No!”

  I hold him tight, and he grabs my ankles and makes me let him go. “You’ve earned yourself time in the cage, Jade.”

  I’m left unfulfilled as he pulls his cock out of me and walks away. I watch him as he goes to unlock the cage under the bed, then comes back to me. “No, Pierce!” I shriek.

  “You’ve disobeyed me and hurt yourself.” He painstakingly unties me and shows me the rope burns I made when I pulled myself to him.

  One by one, he takes the ropes off, and the nipple clamp, then pushes down on my shoulders to make me kneel. I do as he’s made me and wait as he walks away then comes back with a small tube in his hand. He pulls me up and takes me to sit on the bondage bed.

  I watch him as he silently rubs the ointment over the burning places on my arms and legs. The red looks angry and I think I’m in real trouble with him. “Pierce, I’m sorry.”

  “Save it.” With the last mark covered in the pain-killing ointment, he gets up and takes me by the hand, pulling me to stand. “Get in.” He points to the cage under the bed.

  “Pierce …”

  “Get in.” He gives me a stern look.

  “For how long?” I ask before I give into him.

  “Until I deem fit.”

  Somewhere inside of me I trust him, and get on my hands and knees and climb into the small cage. “I am sorry, Pierce.”

  “I’m sure you are.” He closes the cage and locks it, placing the key on the table next to the bed. Without another word or a look in my direction, he leaves me alone.

  I hold the iron bars in both hands as I watch the door shut behind him. I’m all alone and feel that way. I have no idea how mad he is at me. No clue if we’ll still have what he did before I went too far.

  How is it that he can smack my ass until its red, clamp my nipples, causing serious pain, and talk to me harshly, but I can’t inflict any pain on myself? Not that I was doing it on purpose or felt any pain as I was pulling him closer to me. I felt only the need to have him in my grasp, however that had to happen.

  I start to cry as unanswered questions stab at my brain. The only thing that makes any sense is that I did something he doesn’t like. I caused injury, however slight, to myself, and he hated it. He hated it so much he locked me away so he doesn’t have to deal with me. He left me here, alone, and I have no idea if things will be as they have been.

  What have I done?

  Pierce

  When I saw the long, furiously red marks covering Jade’s arms and legs it made me sick to my stomach. I moved too fast and thought she was ready and understood things. I was wrong and now she’s hurt herself because of it.

  Those places on her pristine skin will cause her more pain than she realizes. Like any burn, they take time to heal, and if not taken care of properly, can leave scars. I want no scars left on her body!

  Pacing in the hallway outside the playroom, I fight myself not to go set her free from the cage I put her in. I had no other choice. If I’d told her to sit on the bed and take a time out, she’d never have done it. Jade would’ve followed me, trying to argue with me that it wasn’t so bad what she did.

  It wasn’t that she was bad, exactly. I mean, she was, as she didn’t listen to me and she took on things we’d not discussed. But it was me who was in charge of the whole thing. It was me who went further than we’d planned for this time. It was me who was her Dom and the one who’s supposed to keep her from being really hurt.

  And with that thought, I have to admit to myself that the woman will cause harm to herself to get me close to her. As close as she wants me. And that’s a fact that has me worried.

  I can’t allow her to do things that hurt herself in any way, physically or mentally. While I love the fact that she’s so trusting of me and will do anything for me, I must realize what this really is: a short amount of time that we have together, and if she’s this insistent on having me where she wants me, what’ll happen when the time comes for this to end?

  Will she cry and throw herself on my mercy to keep things going? Will she put her pride aside and stalk me? Or, even worse, will she leave this broken and depressed?

  I can’t have any of that. Jade needs to learn to maintain who she is without handing me all of her power. It’s supposed to be an even exchange. Not one where I get it all and she’s left with nothing!

  I go back into the playroom with my mind settled. “Jade, we need to talk.”

  “I know,” she says with a weepy voice. She looks up and I see her eyes are swollen. Her cheeks are red and tears have left trails down them.

  Unlocking the cage, I help her out and sit her on my lap. She buries her face in my neck and puts her arms around me. “Jade …”

  She bursts into another fit of tears as she cries out, “I’m so sorry! Please forgive me! Please let things go back to how they were before! Please, Pierce. I’ll be good. I’ll never do anything against your will again. Not ever!”

  Running my hands over her back to soothe her, I whisper, “Hush, baby. It’s me who’s sorry. I went too fast and too far. You had no idea you’d even hurt yourself. I could see that. And that’s brought something to my attention. You’re giving me too much. You’re willing to hurt yourself in more ways than one to give me all of you.”

  She sniffles and pulls her head up weakly. “Don’t you want all of me?”

  “Not to the point that nothing is left for you, baby. This is my fault. I haven’t explained things well enough to you. When we’re in the playroom, it’s not a time for you to venture out on your own. It’s the time to go by the plans we’ve made. And you have yet to become self-disciplined enough to handle that.”

  “Will you give me another chance?” she asks me with drooping eyes and quivering lips.

  “After we talk a lot more about what this really is. This isn’t about me taking you over in every aspect of your life. I want you to leave this time we’ve had together with a higher respect for yourself, not a dependence on me.” I pick her up and carry her to our bedroom. “I’m going to make us a bath where we can soak in the warm water and talk more about what I want you to get from this.”

  I leave her sitting on the bed and feel the sadness that’s radiating off her. I don’t know what I’m going to do about the fact she’s falling in love with me.

  As I start the water, I run my hand under the flow and adjust the temperature until it’s perfect. Then I get some chamomile bath beads to soothe Jade’s flesh and pour them in. My heart feels heavier than it has in a long time.

  I have to let Jade go and I know it.

  The flames that have begun to burn inside of me for her have to be doused. There’s no way I can hurt her the way I surely will if I keep things going the way they have been.

  Sharing a bed has to stop. I’ll sleep on the sofa. The outings have to stop too. I need to make this more unappealing to her. I need to show her more of who I am in real life.

  Going to the door, I say, “Come in here, Jade.”

  I pull my pants off and climb into the tub as I wait for her. Her eyes are red-rimmed as she comes to the door. “Pierce, I …”

  “Don’t, Jade. Just get into the water. We have a lot to talk about.”

  She nods, slips in between my legs, and lays her body back on mine. It feels so damn good, it makes me want to hold her in my arms and tell her things I can never make happen.

  Things like, I love her and will always keep her with me. I can’t do that!

  “I can’t ever fix this, can I, Pierce?” She moves her hands over the si
des of my thighs.

  “There’s nothing to fix.” I pull the rubber band out of one of her braids and unfurl her dark hair, leaving it in waves. “You and I have lives that will never mingle any more than these next couple of months.” I undo the other braid and take in a deep breath of the clean smell of it. “And I’m afraid you’re going to have a hard time letting go if we keep things up the way we have been. I’m supposed to be showing you the world of BDSM. Instead, you’re falling in love with me.”

  “When are you going to admit that you’re also falling in love with me?” Her words cut me deeper than I believe she meant them to.

  I have to stop and get my head under control and watch what words come out of my mouth. Rubbing her shoulders, I say, “Maybe I am falling in love with you, Jade. The fact that you hurt yourself just to get me closer to you is a thing that’s hurting me far more than it should be.”

  She turns and looks at me as her body moves against mine—a thing my cock is acutely aware of. “The only thing that needs to change is my self-discipline. I get it now. If I move or do a thing that we haven’t talked about and planned, then I can get hurt, and when I get hurt, it hurts you. That’s the last thing I want to do, Pierce. I don’t want you to be hurt. I didn’t know what I was doing, but now I do. I can get more control of myself. I can prove that to you.”

  I run my arms around her, holding her close. “There is the little fact that I know you’d do anything for me and that’s bad.”

  “I don’t see how it is. I think that’s what people in love do for one another. Anything the other needs them to do, right?” she asks, then kisses me with a light kiss. “And now I know you need me to listen to you and do only as planned. Isn’t that how things work? I did something wrong. You corrected me and I’ve learned from it.”

  “How are you so sure you can handle all of this?” I ask her as I watch her eyes twinkle. “How will you handle things when this is over?”

  She cocks her head to one side and asks, “How will you handle things when this is all over, Pierce?”