Into The Deep

by T A. McKay

  “Rocco. Please move.” His head falls against mine and he whispers.

  “Give me a minute, Makenzie. Please. It’s been so long and you feel so good. I’m trying to get control.” I feel happy that I am making him feel so good but he is making me go insane. I move my hips under his, making him move out of me slightly. Rocco must gain some control and he pulls out of me. My muscles clench as he leaves, missing him already. He pushes back into me gently, before pulling out again. It feels like I have waited my entire life for this moment, nothing that I have been with before compares to this, but I need it harder, faster. I place my hands on Rocco’s cheeks and look him in the eyes.

  “Harder.” Pulling out of me he thrusts back in. Hard. Little lights start going off behind my eyes as he continues his hard thrusting, his pace getting faster. I can feel my muscles start to tighten in my stomach, the pressure at my core getting ready to explode.

  “Oh God, Rocco. Yes. Harder!” I scream as he continues to pound into me. He starts to lose his rhythm, his thrusting getting erratic. He thickens inside me and it is that that finally sends me over the edge. I grip onto his biceps and my back arches of the bed, my inner muscles grabbing him as I scream his name. It only takes a few more thrusts and Rocco is joining me in pleasure, groaning my name into my neck.

  We both lie there for a few minutes, trying to catch our breath. I can’t believe how amazing being with him is. My body still feels like little fireworks are going off throughout it. I run my hands up and down Rocco’s back, feeling his scars under my fingertips, and smiling at myself. I can’t believe I’m finally holding this man in my arms, every imperfect but perfect inch of him. He raises his head from my shoulder, leaning on his arm he uses the other to push some hair from my forehead. He leans forward and gives me a gentle kiss on my lips.

  “That was…wow. That was just wow.” He says to me, his voice sounding a little rough.

  “Yeah. Wow is a good word for it. I have waited a long time for that to happen with you, Rocco.”

  “I’m sorry.” I look at him with a glare.

  “I swear Rocco, if you apologise for this happening before you ru…” My words are cut of as his lips land on mine, kissing them away.

  “I mean, I’m sorry it took so long to do this. That I kept running away. I should have claimed you as my girl a long time ago.” He says placing small kisses over my cheeks.

  “I have been your girl for a while now, Rocco. I think the first time I saw you I started to fall for you. And every time I saw you after the park I tried to forget you, especially when you kept pushing me away. But now you’re stuck with me, for however long you want me.” I need to let him know I’m his. I’m not going anywhere.

  “Is forever ok?” He whispers.

  “We can start with forever and then play it by ear.” He laughs at my answer, I know it’s cheesy but I just don’t care. It’s the way I feel. I have lost my heart to this man, and I want to be his forever. I want to be his wife and give him the family that he wants. I want all my good times to be with him, and him to hold me through all my bad times. I want to be his strength, his friend, his lover and his life. I can’t imagine being anywhere but with him. I reach up and kiss him gently on the lips, the feeling of love and security embracing me while I lie in his arms. This is it for me, he really does have my heart. Rocco is looking at me but I can’t make out the look on his face, I think he looks happy.

  “Rocco, are you ok?”

  “I need to tell you something. And I should have told you before now but it was never the right time.” My heart rate increases and I can feel it beat against my ribcage in panic.

  “Makenzie. I have been broken for so long, that I forgot what it feels like to be whole. To feel my heart beating without pain and doubt rushing through it. To know that there is someone out there willing to love me, accept all my scars. You have made me realize what I’ve been missing this whole time.” My heart rate is still fast but for a different reason this time.

  And then he says the words that I want to hear, the ones that make my heart skip a beat.

  The ones that will make life never be the same again.

  The ones that I have wanted to hear for so long now.

  “I love you, Makenzie.”

  Epilogue

  Rocco ~ Eight months later.

  This is the biggest swim race of the year. I need to try and focus and get my head on straight, but I know that this isn’t going to happen anytime soon when my eyes move over to the spectator’s area looking for her. Makenzie. My girl. I still can’t believe that I can call her that. My eyes land on her and my breath gets stuck in my chest again. I don’t think there will ever be a time when she doesn’t take my breath away. She is so beautiful. I have never known a girl like her before. Her love and compassion have left me in awe of her. If there was ever an example of beauty on the inside as well as the outside, it is Makenzie. I smile to myself as I watch her talk to Matt. She is on the pool side of the dividing glass and I know what a big step it is for her after everything. My mind flashes back to the moment I nearly lost her, it is officially the scariest moment of my life.

  Nothing I have been through compares to it.

  But she’s here and she is working through her own demons, and I will be here to help her like she helped me. With my eyes wandering over her body I see that she is wearing my favourite dress again, she calls it my lucky dress and wears it at all my races. The dress ties around her neck, leaving her back completely bare, and I know that's why I love it, because it shows her tattoo. The one she got in memory of her sister. She may not have physical scars like me but this tattoo is a reminder that she still bears internal scars, the weight of her past is still with her. This is something I can understand. My tattoo is there to hide the scars on my body, trying to pretend that they aren’t there. I just didn’t know until I met her that it was my internal scars that I was letting take over my life.

  We have been together now for eight months and so much has happened. We are living together and I know when I win this race today, I am getting down on one knee and asking her to be my wife. I think back to the first time I saw her, sitting on that park bench. I remember the feeling I got in my gut when I heard her shout out, there was no way I could just walk past, I needed to see who owned that voice. When she jumped up and turned I swear my heart skipped a beat. I know how corny that sounds but it really did. That was the day I thought that maybe I could feel again.

  I start to stretch out my body but my eyes never leave her. I watch as Mason walks over to her and she hits him on the chest. I can only imagine what he has said to her, he’s lucky he’s my friend and I'm not the jealous type. There are only so many times someone should ever hear their best friend proposition your girlfriend, but that is just Mason. There is something happening with him lately and I need to find out what. He seems…different. I can’t quite put my finger on it. We’ll go out and have a drink after my brother, Noah arrives tonight. He’s flying in for my proposal tonight, and he’s going to stay on for a little while.

  Makenzie turns and looks at me. Maybe she can feel me staring, again. Whenever we are in the same room my eyes are drawn to her. I just want to be touching her all the time. I walk about with a permanent hard on, my body can’t seem to have enough of her. She jokes that it’s trying to make up for the year I went without, but she’s wrong. It’s her. Just pure and simply her.

  She gives me that smile she always gives me when she is thinking naughty thoughts, and damn if my body doesn’t start reacting to it. My cock starts to harden, knowing what usually happens after I get that smile. Shit! I look away as quickly as I can hoping it’s not too late to get back under control, standing in front of all these people wearing just skin-tight tiny swim trunks is not a good thing. Nope, not a good thing at all. A loud laugh reaches me and I look towards it. Mason has obviously worked out what has happened and he finds it extremely amusing. His laughter is loud through the quiet pool area and people are starting to
look. I really wish he would stop, before I have to go over and smack him. On the upside, his laughing has made me lose the semi I had been sporting in my trunks.

  The whistle sounds and it’s time for me to go to the start for my race. I stand at the side of the pool waiting on the other swimmers to get into place, but I can’t resist looking over to Makenzie one last time. And there she is, watching me get ready to swim. She gives me a little wave and mouths ‘I love you’. And its times like this that I know she is it.

  She’s the only one who could have saved me.

  She’s the only one I could ever want. The only one I could ever wish for.

  She’s mine.

  Forever.

  The End

  Acknowledgements

  Sarah Elizabeth: You were there when I was crying and ready to throw the whole story in the bin. You have been my support since day one of my project. And even though you had so much on your own plate but you were always there for me, on the computer or on the phone. I love you lady more than you will ever know. Here is to finally to meeting this year and being able to fan girl together. But for your support and love you will always be one of my best friends.

  Megan Noelle: You introduced me to this whole “book” world and even though there are some days that I could kick your butt for it, I love being here. You were one of the ones who told me I needed to tell my story and pestered me until I started! So you know if this book stinks, I totally blame you! I want to thank you for letting me rant at you even though you knew nothing about what I was going on about, and for letting me bitch and just laugh with me. You are a part of my life without even trying. I love you my American friend!

  Claire Louise Harker: For being there to read about Rocco even when it was a poor imitation of what the book is now. You looked past the typos and saw the story I was trying to tell. For giving your time and feedback I thank you more than I ever can say.

  Carrie Statdler: You lady need a big thank you. You took the slack in the blogging world when I had to disappear for days. You have been on my cheering squad telling everyone who would listen about this book. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

  To my betas who have read sections of this and given me their honest feedback…thank you! Jane, Claire, Faye and Grace!

  To all the blogs who helped me get my name out there, however little the share was, to help me when you knew nothing about my work meant so much!

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  For all the authors who pimped out my stuff without reading a word I had written! You all rock and I love you all.

  K. Langston, S.K Hartley, Megan Noelle, Sarah Elizabeth, Britni Hill, Courtney Cross and Writer Jude Ouvrard.

  And to everyone who has taken time to read this book, I thank you! You have made a first time author very happy. I hope you love the story and I hope you love Rocco as much as I do.