Secret Life

by David M. Jacobs

  During the entire abduction experience, communication between aliens and abductees is telepathic. The abductee either “hears” the communication or receives an impression in her mind. She knows she is being addressed and what the Beings want from her. The alien’s communication to her is almost always reassuring. For instance, she may ask, “Why are you doing this?” and the answer might be, “We are not going to hurt you” or “You will be all right.” The Beings deflect the subject’s questions with palliatives and do not give substantive answers. Usually the abductee receives only an “impression” of what the Beings are communicating and has difficulty repeating specific words and sentences, although some people “hear” sentences in their minds and can recall not only the sense of the communication but the words as well. So far no cases have emerged whereby Beings and abductees communicate mainly through sound waves.

  The aliens bring the abductee into the main examining room. Although disoriented, she can still observe what is happening to her. She sees frightening-looking Beings who are busily going about their tasks, seemingly paying no attention to her. But other aliens are waiting for her. They are small—about three and one-half to four feet tall. These Small Beings are usually gray, tan, pale white (not Caucasian), or “colorless.” They have bald, bulbous craniums. Their immense eyes are dark, with no pupils or corneas. They either have no nose or it is so slight that it is unnoticeable, and their small, slitlike mouth does not move. They have no ears. Their bodies are very thin. They either wear nothing or what appears to be form-fitting clothing.

  The examining room is small and circular. It might contain a ledge or “walkway” around the perimeter that appears to be part of the wall itself. Sometimes apparatuses or machines are in the room, often attached to the walls and ceiling. The room lighting is diffuse. It can range from bright to dim, but the origin of the lighting cannot be seen. The entire room closely resembles a hospital operating room. It is serviceable and functional; it is neat and clean. The dominant colors of the “metallic” walls and floor are white and gray.

  The central feature of the room is the table. It is made of a “metallic” or plasticlike material supported by a pedestal. Stationed around the table are carts that contain instruments and other machinelike devices. There might be from one to four tables in a small room and up to two hundred in a large room.

  When the aliens escort the abductee into a very large room, she silently passes other tables containing naked humans lying in rows in various stages of examination. It is eerily quiet. She hears only the clanging of instruments, the shuffling of feet, and an occasional moan from the victims.

  The Small Beings lead the abductee to the table and, if she still has her clothes on, assist her in removing them. They allow the clothes to fall to the floor and remain there for the duration of the experience. She then gets up on the table and lies down. Karen Morgan was escorted to a table in a typical way in 1981.

  They take me around the corner. I hate this room. There’s tables. I only see four tables, but I think that there’s more… . This room seems more like an operating room than any of the others.

  How so?

  Mainly because I’m trying so hard to pay attention. I’m able to see more shelves, the shelf that runs around the room, and instruments and stuff. This room is much more in focus. I think they’re going to do that physical examination again. Oh, they take off my clothes. They’re all moving in unison.

  You mean everybody’s having their clothes taken off at the same time, or… ?

  I mean exactly at the same time. Allowing for the fact that some people have more buttons, or whatever, than others…. I am wearing a red shirt. I really did like the shirt. And they take it off. I won’t put my arms over my head.

  How did they get it off?

  They pull my arms up. I always have the impression they’re saying, “Come on, come on, come on,” like that. I remember they unfasten my blouse. I remember everything.

  Do they untie your shoes?

  They pulled them off my feet. I don’t think they untied them.

  Are you standing, or are you sitting?

  Sitting on the table.

  How do they get your jeans off?

  They turn me around, and lay me down. They pull off my jeans, my underpants. They strap me onto the table.

  (Karen Morgan, 32, 1981)

  Lynn Miller was told to get her clothes off herself.

  Does anybody say anything to you?

  I’m told to undress. I don’t want to.

  Do they help you get undressed then?

  They’re sort of pulling my clothes.

  What are you wearing?

  A nightgown.

  And what happens next?

  They force me to take my clothes off, and they make me get on the table.

  (Lynn Miller, 31, 1986)

  Sometimes the Beings place Velcro-like (and often metallic) restraints around the abductee’s upper arms and her legs. From the position on her back she gets a good look at the ceiling, which might be smoothly domed or have “ribs” or “latticework” on it. In the center is a circular area that is “buttonlike” or shiny. Sometimes she can see windows around the dome of the ceiling.

  Her mental state is altered. She has no concern for what she was doing before the abduction. If she is abducted with her son or daughter and they are no longer in sight, she may quickly forget about their plight. Brothers and sisters may forget about each other. Although the victim may have had many abductions before, she has only a limited sense of familiarity with the situation she finds herself in. Almost everything that is happening to her during the abduction is forgotten as her attention is continually fixed on the present. Some abductees have more of a continuity of memory, but it is severely restricted at best. Janet Demerest explained it: “When I’m there it’s like one thing happens, then the next thing happens. I completely forget about the first thing that happens. I have no sense of who I am.” While she is in this state and trying to get her bearings, the Small Beings begin the physical examination.

  THE PHYSICAL EXAMINATION

  Between two and four Small Beings surround the abductee while she is on the table. She is powerless to move or to speak. But, although she may be confused and terrified, she still has her wits about her. Her eyes are open, and she is able to observe and record what is happening.

  The entire examination may not last much longer than ten to twenty minutes. The Small Beings work fast. They are dedicated to performing their tasks. They are quick, efficient, and focused. They target specific anatomical sites for a poking, feeling, “touch procedure” type of palpation. Their fingers move rapidly. One abductee said it was like they were operating a typewriter on his body.

  The standard pattern is to begin at the feet. The aliens carefully observe and touch the soles of the abductee’s feet. Sometimes they take a sharp instrument and scrape it down her soles, causing her feet to curl in an apparent reflex test. They quickly touch her ankles and twist her foot from side to side. They push and press against her calf muscles. Sometimes they squeeze hard and painfully between the bone and calf muscle. They look closely at her knee and bend her leg a few times as if they are observing the action of the joints.

  During the examination of the legs and knees, the Small Beings might make a painless incision in the calf, thigh, back of the knee, or arm. The incision may be in the form of a scoop, or a long, thin cut, or a wide, messy cut. The abductee usually reports no blood and no prolonged healing process. A scar forms almost instantly. The subject may be vaguely aware of what the aliens are doing at the time, but after the abduction she does not remember how she got the mysterious scar.

  The Small Beings palpate the abductee’s thighs and separate women’s legs. They conduct a quick gynecological examination of women. A Small Being might “scrape” the vaginal or uterine wall and extract the material with an instrument in a manner similar to a Pap test procedure. He uses instruments that sometimes resemble butter knives. Some
times he only palpates and observes. Men’s and boys’ genitals are palpated, lifted, and carefully observed.

  After the genital exam, the Small Beings closely look at the subject’s ribs and rib cage. Sometimes the aliens make a small incision on the abductee’s left side. They then raise the subject’s arms over her head while they examine and palpate her underarms and possibly her lymph nodes. When they are finished they return her arms to her side.

  For women a breast examination is next. Sometimes the abductee feels a powerful and painful squeezing around the nipple as if the Beings were trying to express fluid. If the woman is not pregnant and some fluid is expressed, the aliens collect the fluid onto an instrument and either put it into a container on the table or take it out of the room. Sometimes women feel “heat,” “heaviness,” or swelling in their breasts during and immediately after the palpation. The Small Beings also express milk from pregnant women; even women who are not pregnant have reported that they inexplicably begin to lactate.

  The Small Beings now concentrate on the subject’s head. One of them places his hands on either side of the abductee’s temples and carefully rolls her head from side to side. Next they examine the ears with an instrument similar to an otoscope, and look into each eye, usually with a light-emitting device like a physician’s ophthalmoscope. The Small Beings then open the abductee’s mouth and look in. Frequently they insert something into her mouth and scrape the back of her throat. They may jam a large wad of material into the subject’s throat and then withdraw it, causing her to gag and cough. They then examine the abductee’s teeth and gums. They feel inside with their fingers. They might excise a piece of gum for examination.

  The Small Beings next palpate the neck and carefully feel around it, giving the thyroid glands special attention. The abductee might gag a little when this happens. Sometimes it is unnerving because the victim thinks she is being choked. Usually the Beings do it gently, causing little discomfort.

  After the abductee’s head examination is completed, the Small Beings lift her up, as several abductees have stated, “like a rag doll,” to a sitting position. Her muscle tone is still almost nonexistent. Her legs are out in front of her, and the Beings balance her so that she does not fall to one side. Once she is in this position, the Beings carefully examine her back and vertebrae. They might take a tissue sample from her back, but more often they continue the palpation that is a constant feature of the entire physical examination. They methodically touch and press each individual vertebrae from the neck to the coccyx; they may repeat this process several times. The Small Beings pay very careful attention to the coccyx, and several of them may palpate it in turn. They take a long time with the vertebrae as their fingers manipulate each bone structure.

  After they have examined the vertebrae and back, the aliens roll the abductee onto her left side. From this position the Small Beings may once again examine and feel the vertebrae. After this, they conduct a rectal examination. They use a variety of instruments, one of which resembles a small wire whisk. They insert the instrument and withdraw it. When the rectal exam is over, the Beings roll the woman completely on her stomach. They once again examine the back of her legs. They may take tissue samples, especially in the area behind the knee. Frequently the abductee reports that she thinks the Beings are “measuring” her from her hip to her heel or up her side. Finally the Beings turn the abductee on her back again.

  Essentially this ends the examination. But many variations exist. The Beings may start at the head and work down and then back up again. They may begin with the gynecological aspect of the exam. They may begin with the examination of the vertebrae. Wherever they begin, they work systematically around the body until the exam is completed.

  If the subject has been abducted before, any significant change in her physical status since the last examination immediately draws attention. For instance, Melissa Bucknell had part of her black hair dyed blond, and this instantly aroused the Beings’ concern; after much feeling and examining, they decided that she had been ill and needed treatment. In her late thirties, Karen Morgan was fitted for braces on her teeth; during a subsequent abduction experience, the Beings immediately focused their attention on her braces and asked her what they were for. When she refused to tell them, they cut out a small triangular-shaped wedge of tissue from her gum for analysis.

  I see them with the instrument. Cutting it out… It doesn’t hurt. I can’t believe this. This is absolutely unbelievable. There is actually a discussion going on about my braces….

  What are they saying?

  Honest to God, I thought… I can’t believe this! They’re saying, “What are these?” They’re looking at them. And I think, “You jerks, I’m not going to tell you what they are. You figure it out!”

  How do they respond to that?

  They don’t pay attention to me. They say… it’s almost like somebody’s saying, “You shouldn’t be afraid by now!” or, “You shouldn’t be afraid.” Of course, they always tell me that. And I say, “I know you guys do this to me all the time, but if I don’t remember it I won’t care.” Because I haven’t remembered it ever, really.

  Are you standing up?

  Oh no, I’m lying down…. They’re cutting out a piece of my gum. I’m terrified, just terrified. I’m absolutely terrified. And yet I know… I can’t describe all the emotions I’m feeling by now. I feel absolutely terrified. I feel like this is psychological torture, but I’m not afraid for my life. And I’m furious. There are no words to describe how mad I am because I feel like they’re just torturing me. And I’m saying, “This has got to stop.”…

  Did they tell you why they were taking this sample of your gum?

  I say, “Don’t you guys have enough of me by now? What do you want?” I said, “How long does it take you to study somebody?”

  And what do they say?

  They say it can go on for years.

  (Karen Morgan, 38, 1987)

  Scabs, infections, or other body marks and changes attract their curiosity. For instance, a woman who had given birth by cesarean section had new scars that drew the attention of the alien who told her this was not the way they did it. In another instance, Jill Pinzarro had fallen off her bike when she was eleven years old and was later abducted:

  They’re looking at my knee, and the reason is, I think is, I fell off my bike, and there’s a bad scab there. They seem to know about it because it’s the first thing looked at, they’re just looking at it.

  Is this your right knee or your left knee?

  Left. Got all sorts of dirt and gravel in it. They’re just looking at it, look at it, touch the edges of the scar where it’s a little infected probably. It’s kind of pus-y, it’s a bad scrape. But they cover it up [with a “sheet”].

  (Jill Pinzarro, 11, 1960)

  Such changes often elicit discussion among the Small Beings as they try to discover the origin of the change on the abductee’s body.

  Implants

  Toward the end of the examination, the aliens either implant a small, round, seemingly metallic object in the abductee’s ear, nose, or sinus cavity, or remove such an object. The object is as small as or smaller than a BB, and it usually is smooth, or has small spikes sticking out of it, or has holes in it. The function of this device is unknown: It might be a locator so that the targeted individual can be found and abducted; it might serve as a monitor of hormonal changes; it might facilitate the molecular changes needed for transport and entrance; it might facilitate communication.

  The ear is a commonly described place for the implant. The abductees report that Small Beings will insert the object with a long, thin instrument far into the ear canal, sometimes rupturing the ear drum, and leave it very near the brain. When asked during hypnosis what the aliens are doing, abductees frequently reply that they “know” the aliens are placing an implant there. How they know this is not apparent, but sometimes an abductee describes a small object shaped like a ball bearing on the end of the instrument that i
s inserted; when the instrument is withdrawn, the ball is gone.

  The nose is another place for tiny implants to be left. Abductees say that the aliens insert an instrument way up in their nasal passages between their eyes. Sometimes nosebleeds occur after this procedure. Both child and adult abductees have seen physicians for nosebleed problems, and have discovered odd holes inside their noses. Several abductees have reported that a ball-shaped object either dropped out of their nose or was expelled when they blew their nose. All of these expulsions happened before they knew they had been abducted; in each case they thought that they had inexplicably inhaled something and discarded the object or lost it.