Secret Life

by David M. Jacobs

  (Karen Morgan, 38, 1987)

  Ken Rogers had intended to ask a predetermined question in several abductions but found it was too difficult to remember. Based on the idea that the aliens appear to be attracted to anything unusual on a person’s body, he decided to put dots on his chest with a washable marker. He hoped that the aliens would be drawn to the marks on his chest, and that their interest would in turn prompt his memory, and he would ask the question. The question he was to ask was similar to Karen’s: “How long are you going to continue to do this?” Nothing happened for a period of weeks. Then he was abducted. As predicted, the aliens immediately focused their attention on the dots. After the examination, they sat him up on the edge of the table and, while the Small Beings watched, the Taller Being pointed to the dots and asked him what the marks were. Instead of asking the question, however, Ken became a little bit frightened and simply stated, “They are dots.” The aliens tapped his chest and looked a little more. When he was leaving, several more Taller Beings approached and he had to lift up his shirt while they carefully surveyed the dots.

  Determined to gain enough control to ask the question, Ken decided to try again with a new query, “Do you sleep?” Once again he had an abduction experience, and once again the aliens were drawn to the marks on his chest. This time he asked the question. The answer was evasive. “We are always sleeping.” After this event, however, Ken was led into a special room off to the side of a large examining room where several Taller Beings carefully examined his chest and performed Mindscan procedures on him. Ken was convinced that the mental activity was related to the marks.

  Other abductees have attached various objects to their bodies in the hope of causing the aliens to depart from their routine and contend with the new object. One abductee wrapped a piece of masking tape around her arm and went to bed. That night she woke up and had the strong urge to take the tape off, which she did. An abduction event followed. At another time she wore a special bracelet that a friend had made for her that had battery-powered flashing lights on it. When the abduction event began, she could see the aliens carefully detaching the bracelet from her arm before they took her. Later she had an extremely “penetrating” Mindscan that she felt was directly related to finding out what the bracelet was for.

  Will Parker decided to write a letter to the aliens telling them, in essence, to leave him alone. He folded the letter up; on the outside he drew a picture of a smiling alien’s head and wrote, “Have a nice day.” He taped the letter to his lower leg on and off for several months, but he had no abduction events. Then one day he woke up and the letter was gone from his leg. He frantically searched the room and his apartment for more than two hours for the missing letter but could not find it. Two days later, he awoke and was stunned to find that the letter was taped to his leg again in exactly the same place as before.

  We conducted a regression session about these two episodes. The first abduction event was odd. Instead of the characteristic sense of rising up out of bed, Will distinctly felt as if he was sinking down. He found himself lying on a table, with a Taller Being looking into his eyes, but this Taller Being did not have the sense of familiarity to him that was usual. He could see two others doing something to his legs. Suddenly one of the Beings abruptly and painfully pulled the letter off his leg. Another Taller Being put the letter right up to his face and stared at the picture of the smiling alien as if he were doing Mindscan on it. The aliens said nothing and asked him nothing about it, but, according to Will, the Mindscan procedure was particularly “deep.”

  The second abduction was with the familiar aliens, ones with whom Will had been involved for some time. In this episode, the Taller Being communicated something to the effect that a mistake had been made and that “everything was going to be put right, the way it was before.” Then when Will woke up he was dumbfounded to find the letter taped to his leg again. The letter appeared not to have been opened and the seal was intact.

  Some adventurous people have used more direct methods of intervention. Risking the possibility of injury, Janet Demerest tied herself to the lamp one night; the only thing that happened was that she succeeded in turning around in her sleep and knocking the lamp off the table and breaking it. Ken Rogers tied his ankle loosely with a bathrobe cord to his bedpost, and although we are not sure if any abduction occurred, he received the distinct impression that for a while the aliens were annoyed at what he had done and then simply slipped the cord off his ankle and continued with the abduction.

  Resistance

  Resistance to the aliens’ procedures occurs infrequently because most abductees are so closely controlled, both physically and mentally, but when it does happen it offers us an unusual opportunity to observe the aliens when all is not going according to plan. The most common type of resistance is simply to try to get away. Although all abductees sometimes think that they should run, few have the opportunity to do so. Nevertheless, once in a while an abductee bolts. Generally, the Small Beings run after the abductee and retrieve her. Evelyn Livingston was being taken on board the UFO when she managed to run down a hall a little way before she was stopped.

  I get up, and I look, and I start to try to run, I think. Down there’s a hall or something, there’s a passageway, and I start to run away. I’m trying to get away, and I thought I’d see something they wouldn’t want me to see, and then I’d be able to do something. They would take me out, they would let me get out if I did something that I wasn’t supposed to do. I could get away. So I was running.

  So you have enough muscle control to do that?

  Yes. I get a little way.

  Is this off to your right, or… ?

  It’s like on the right.

  Is this a passageway… ?

  Kind of something like that.

  This is directly off the room, then, or the area that you kind of came in on your knees?

  It’s right in the middle of that part. And it was like we were in a passage.

  How far do you get?

  I don’t get that far. I get a little ways.… I’m trying to run, and I can’t…. Then I’m up against the wall, because I can’t move. I’m pressing against something. They say, “Don’t be afraid.” And then…

  Do they run after you?

  Just the one is walking toward me, but he doesn’t even look at me; he says, “Don’t be afraid,” but there’s not any expression on his face. He just is walking toward me….

  How many steps did you get, do you think?

  Maybe twelve, fifteen.

  So you got quite a ways, actually.

  I got a little ways down the hall. It felt really good to get away….

  What happens next?

  He’s walking beside me, in front of me a little bit, and I try the other thing, to go backward, instead of running forward to resist it backward, but it’s even harder to do that. And I push, kind of kick backward. And kicking against it, I can’t do that either. Just with my right foot, I tried to kick.

  Kick the… ?

  Kick the force, or whatever it is. It’s like I’m on a… moving along, and I can’t even control it.

  (Evelyn Livingston, 19, 1980)

  Patti Layne was in the process of being examined when she discovered that she could resist physically more than usual. She used the opportunity to jump off the table and run. Before the regression she had wondered about where she had gotten several “burn” marks on her back and arm.

  It seems to me that at some point I got a second wind, then I got up, and I don’t think they wanted me to do that.

  While they’re doing the examination?

  Mm-hmm, like it took every ounce of will that I had. I got up off the table. I just kind of pushed past them. They’re not physically strong, but there’s some other kind of control they have to use, and I think I was really fighting it.

  What was he doing when you got up?

  I think he was preparing to look up inside of me, but I think I decided I had had just about enough
of it.

  Do you see yourself actually getting up off the table?

  Mm-hmm. I had to push past a couple of little ones.

  Do you swing your legs around and stand up?

  Mm-hmm. It was kind of wobbly, but I just had to put forth all of my energy and my will to move.

  You pushed past them, then?

  Mm-hmm.

  Are they heavy?

  No, they’re very light. If you punched one you could probably send it flying.

  When you push past them, do they fall off balance, or do they just move aside?

  They don’t really attack you that much. They just kind of backed off a little. They tried to stand in my way, then they backed off.

  … So how far do you go?

  Not very far, I start walking across the room. I think I walked out the door and into another area.

  Alone?

  Well, they were close on my heels, but I was trying to move fast.

  You were calling the shots, though?

  Pretty much. And I was in another area, another control kind of area where they had the window and the machinery. And there was something in the middle of the room. It was like a big round thing sticking up that was luminous, it was lit up. And there was a little bar that went around it, but I found myself being cornered into it. A couple of ones had left their areas in this room, and they started cornering me, like you corner a cat or a rabbit.… But I got my back against it…. And I just got my shoulders pinned up against it.

  You say it had a rail around it.

  Yeah, but that wasn’t far away from it, and that pressed into the small of my back, kind of like it was drawing me toward it, pulling me back. Maybe it’s magnetic or something, but I guess there wasn’t any metal on me. But I pulled away from it, I felt like it shocked me or burnt me or something. I kept inching around the rail, but they kept moving in…. I kept inching around and around this rail because they were coming at me initially from one side, but then they just surrounded the thing. They came up, and somehow I felt like something just came over me and I was sitting down on the ground by it. I wasn’t touching it, but my head was where the rail was. And there was one of them doing something to my head again.

  How do you mean?

  I don’t know, I felt like he was sticking something into my head, like up in here.

  And he was touching your head with something?

  Yes, he was poking something into it. It didn’t really hurt. It wasn’t like somebody was trying to drill something into your head, but you could feel something sticking in and the initial sting.

  This is over up above your ear, or… ?

  Up in here [she points to a spot above her left ear]. Come to think of it, I had a bump up here too that I didn’t know where I got it. It was sore for a couple of days.

  How does that make you feel, or does it at all?

  It felt like there was a flash of light in my head, but then I started to feel kind of soothed and tingling all over, like I had just been drugged. I couldn’t really tighten any of my muscles.… Then they put their hands over me and I just started floating again. They floated me up, and back into the examining room. I couldn’t move really, I felt like Jell-O….

  What happens next?

  I couldn’t move then, and they were busy putting my feet up in stirrups, little raised areas. And he [the Taller Being] starting doing a very intense pelvic procedure.

  (Patti Layne, 26, 1988)

  Similarly, Will, during an abduction with his wife, also found him self with more muscle control than usual. He was able to run down a hallway with his wife in tow.

  I just grabbed Nancy, turned, and went out the door.

  Does Nancy say anything to you?

  No, she’s not saying anything to me. She’s not talking to me. But I say, “Come on,” and I’m pulling her and she’s going with me.… I turn to my right, I pull her behind me, and we go out the door opening.… There’s a wall on the right, and then that wall bends back and we’re in the big room now. But I keep bending right, like I’m going along the wall there. And there’s another opening, we go in there. That’s where it’s like another room like the first one but there’s no bed in it, no counter.…

  Are you holding on to Nancy?

  I’ve got her by the wrist.

  She’s cooperating?

  Yes, she’s coming with me. I mean, if I pull, she comes. But she’s still not saying anything, it’s like she’s in a trance still.… I keep having the sense that all of this is staged. It’s like they want me to think I’m getting away. Like it’s, it’s like I’m thinking I want to get out of here, and so they’re going to let me think that I can get loose.

  Okay.

  I don’t know why I’m thinking that, because I keep thinking I’m going to get into this damned room. I don’t even know how the hell to get out of here. They’re going to get me anyway, but it’s like you’ve got to do something. I’ve got to get the hell out of here.…

  You go through the big room into…

  Well, I go along the edge of the big room, alongside the wall, and I go into the first door 1 find.

  What’s in that room?

  Nothing. It’s like the room that they had the bed counter in, but there’s no bed in it. It’s just empty. But there’s the same rectangles on the wall and everything. It’s the same thing except for no bed in it.

  Is there anybody in this room?

  No, I don’t see anybody. But there’s an opening there. I keep thinking it’s like a cellar, it’s all dark inside. It’s real dark. I remember turning to Nancy and saying, “ That’s not a very good idea. I don’t think we can get out of there.”

  Does Nancy respond?

  No, she doesn’t. She’s not saying anything.…

  Do you walk into the room, or do you just look into the room?

  I ran into the room.

  [Will said he had the sense that aliens were following them. Then two Taller Beings caught up with them in this room and immediately began to exercise control over Will.]

  Yeah, there are two tall ones, just two tall ones, that’s all.

  Okay. Do they come over to you?

  Yeah. They, it’s like I feel myself getting limp, like I’m losing mobility. It feels like, it just feels shitty. I’m losing the ability to move out of there. I have the sense that they’re not amused.

  Do they communicate with you?

  I have the sense that they were telling me that I could have caused serious problems if I had gone the wrong way. I’m thinking, “What do you mean? This is serious enough.” But they’re saying it was very serious if I had not stopped.

  Okay.

  They said, “Highly serious.” They said, “You would be no more if you had not stopped.” And they are not happy at all. They are definitely not very happy about it.

  What happens next?

  They’re up in each of our faces, both of them. And I can’t fight it. They might as well do what they’re going to do….

  Do you get a sense of what happens next? Do you just sort of stay there near the edge of this big room?