Delicate Scars

by Alta Hensley

  “No, I’m fucking over that shit.”

  Jillian casually crossed her arms against her chest and gave an alluring grin. “So you say. You are a damn junkie, Axel. Not just for the drugs but for the fame. Deny it all you want.” Jillian took a long pause as she scanned her eyes along the full length of my body. “You may be sexy as hell, but you are no better than a crack head begging for change on the street. You need me around.”

  My jaw locked, and I knew my expression grew fierce. “Jillian, you have a dark ass soul. You are so ugly on the inside that it’s starting to seep out your pores. I want nothing to do with you. Please face that fact.”

  “Face what? The fact that you will never find this fantasy of a perfect woman? You’re crazy to think that this no name suburban Barbie is the girl for you. We were good together, Axel. Power, control, ecstasy—our sexual need was always met… in all ways. Is this the life you want to leave for some unrealistic expectations? You want to run off and play house?” Jillian took a few steps closer toward me. “You can’t possibly think that bartender is the woman of your dreams? Unless your dream is to end up bald, fat, and stuck with two kids in a three-bedroom house that threatens to swallow you whole. You don’t want the misery of settling down and you know it.”

  I clenched my teeth, holding all my fury within. Her voice grated on my nerves.

  Jillian smiled. “She’s fascinated with your fame and your sexual reputation. The bad boy, drug dealing, son of a rock star.” Jillian released a soft but evil laugh. “She just wants to use you like every other fucking female in your life.”

  “What I do from now on is none of your concern. I’ve asked you to back off and leave me alone. I will not ask again.”

  “Go to hell, Axel!” She began to storm off. After only a few steps, she stopped and turned around. “And don’t flatter yourself. You don’t have to worry about me speaking to you ever again.”

  “Thank you.”

  With that, Jillian spun around and walked away in a huff. All things considered, it had gone a lot better than I had hoped. I walked out of the bar feeling as if an enormous weight had been taken off my shoulders. I desperately hoped my problems with Jillian were over.

  Axel

  I looked forward to the photo shoot for a new, local social magazine. It was supposed to be a “What’s Hot in LA” type of rag. I hadn’t hung out with the guys alone in a while. I needed some good, quality bro time, and this gave us an opportunity to do so without the club lights and loud music. We took photos, laughed, and goofed around. Even though the shoot was technically work, we always made things fun.

  I had just finished the last shot with Knox and Teddy when I saw Jillian rush toward me, looking very determined.

  “Can I talk to you?” she asked.

  “What happened to you never talking to me again?”

  “Axel, this is serious.”

  I walked over to the makeup table to remove the pound of cosmetics on my face. “Go ahead.”

  “I mean alone.” She glanced at Knox and Teddy. They both turned to me as I shrugged.

  “We’ll be over here.” Knox pointed. They didn’t go too far, choosing to sit at a table nearby.

  “How dare you dismiss me just like that?” Jillian crossed her arms and stood in front of me, forcing me to stop. “As if I never meant anything to you.”

  I bit my tongue, not wanting any more drama, but I had Quinn to think about. “Jillian, I’m seeing someone now. I can’t be dealing with you.” I waved my hand up and down in front of me. “With all this craziness.”

  “She’s lying to you. She is trying to do and say whatever you want, just to get close to you. I heard she got the job at Wicked just so she could stalk you.”

  I laughed, though I didn’t find this conversation funny at all. “Trying to dig up dirt, I see. Don’t you have better things to do with your time?”

  “That’s what everyone is saying. I’m surprised you haven’t heard. She’s never bartended before. But she used her connections to get into Wicked knowing you were a regular. This has been her sick plan all along. People are talking about it. How a nobody from nowhere somehow lands with Axel Rye.”

  “I don’t pay attention to petty gossip.” I did everything I could to control my temper. I didn’t like hearing Quinn talked about.

  “I don’t mean to hurt you, Axel. I just thought you should know.”

  The inflated attempt to sound sympathetic infuriated me. The blood curdling in my veins made me want to scream.

  I glared at her. “You could never hurt me, Jillian. I’d have to care about you for that. You know nothing about Quinn, so mind your own business.”

  Jillian shrugged. “She’s using you. She’s using you for your fame.”

  “Using me like you?” I asked.

  “There was something special between us. I didn’t use you.”

  “Bullshit!” I spat. “There was never an us, Jillian. And you know it. You made up all that crap to try to gain notoriety.”

  “I stood by you!” she screeched. “I was there every step of the way during your trial!”

  “Yeah,” he smirked, “signing autographs and posing for pictures the entire time. Not to mention feeding the press leaks about wherever I was.”

  “How dare you!”

  The tears welled up in Jillian’s eyes. I rolled my eyes and backed away. “Stop with the dramatics. Don’t play the abused victim card. You manipulated me far too many times. I see through you now.”

  I turned and began to walk toward Knox and Teddy.

  “You lusted after me, you asshole! We had sex, over and over again! We made love into the morning hours!” she yelled. “Don’t you remember that?”

  My stomach churned. I spun around and charged toward Jillian. I could see her eyes open wide in alarm, but Jillian stood her ground. I walked right up to her face and spoke through my teeth just loud enough for Jillian to hear, but my words were strong and cutting. “We never made love. We had sex: cold, meaningless sex. That’s what happens when I get high and you take advantage of the situation. You knew what you were doing. We had one fucked up mistake! You used me, you took advantage of me, and then you tried to play games with me. You are a fucking whack job. I’m done, Jillian. Stay the hell away from me.”

  With her mouth half open, she stared at me. “I hope your vanilla girlfriend makes you happy. Because when I’m done talking shit about you, your career will be over. I’m going to say that you are manipulating her and forcing her to take drugs. I’ll say you are actually abusing her. Sweet innocent girl turned to the dark side by Axel Rye. Now’s she a junkie and it’s all because of you. People won’t want their names tied to you. I’m going to make you look like an abusive ass, and no one wants that around. I’ll even say how you got me hooked, but I was too scared to say no to you because of how violent you got. How’s the public going to take hearing that you beat women?”

  “Blackmail won’t work either, Jillian. But nice try.”

  “Fuck off!” Jillian turned and hurried away, face red with fury.

  I took a deep breath and walked back slowly toward my friends, ignoring the whispers and staring faces of everyone who had just witnessed the scene. I was sure it would show up in the tabloids within the hour.

  Teddy shook his head. “It’s about time you told that bitch off.”

  I nodded, still feeling a little shaky. I hadn’t intended to get in a fight. It wasn’t my style, but I couldn’t take another minute of her. I stood there, still reeling from what Jillian had threatened to do about Quinn. I didn’t want my friends to notice that Jillian had gotten to me, but I couldn’t even force a smile.

  Knox seemed concerned. “Are you okay?”

  I shook my head. “She said that Quinn is using me.”

  “Quinn? Is she?” Teddy asked. “She seems totally into you.”

  “You and her are a couple, right? Jillian’s a lying bitch,” Knox said.

  “Quinn’s lived a sheltered life before
me. I think this whole fucked up fame thing is new to her,” I explained, still feeling slightly beaten by the fight. “But I don’t think she is with me because of the fame. I’m not even sure she really likes it.” I sighed. “She never did drugs before me, though. I fucking feel bad as fuck for that.”

  Teddy shook his head, eyes closed. “Ah, Axel. You shouldn’t have got her into that shit. You know how it turns out. Are you sure she isn’t with you now because of the drugs? You know how powerful that need gets.”

  I shook my head. “No, it’s not like that. It’s different between us. Quinn and I have fallen in love. It’s more than just drugs and partying.”

  Teddy paused before speaking. “I hope so. I like Quinn a lot, and she seems to make you happy. I just hope this doesn’t end up destroying your heart.”

  “And screw Jillian! Who cares what bullshit she comes up with?” Knox added.

  I eyed them both. My buddies had a way of always making me feel better. I could act as tough as I wanted, but deep down I needed their strength in my life. Feeling exhausted, the only thing I wanted right now was to be in Quinn’s arms.

  Quinn

  An evening at Axel’s home was exactly what I needed. I had fun at all the clubs and bars, but I really missed the peace and quiet. When Axel and I got to his place, he led me to the couch and threw his keys and phone down on the coffee table.

  “I’m dying for a drink.” He walked toward the kitchen. “Would you like a glass of wine?”

  “Yes, that sounds really nice.”

  He walked to the kitchen and grabbed two glasses out of the cupboard. The open floor plan of the loft allowed me to watch his every move. I loved watching the way Axel carried himself. He had a level of domination mixed with casualness that made every action alluring.

  “How was your photo shoot?” I asked, still watching him as he opened the bottle of red wine.

  He shrugged. “The actual shoot was a lot of fun. I like doing things like that with Teddy and Knox.” He smirked. “Maybe that makes me an arrogant ass.”

  “But? I get the feeling you had a rough day.”

  He poured the wine into the glasses and walked back to the living room with one in each hand. He handed the wine to me before saying, “Jillian showed up.”

  I stared at him. The words stung.

  Axel sat down next to me and slouched back against the leather couch, placing both feet on the coffee table to relax. “I’d already talked to her last night when you were at work, telling her to back off and leave me alone. I called her out on the stupid games she’s been playing. I thought that would be the end of it,” he said. “But I should’ve known better. Jillian has to make a bigger deal out of everything.”

  I turned so I could search Axel’s eyes to see if there was more to the story.

  He took a sip of his wine slowly and then sighed. “She made a scene after the shoot.”

  “A scene?”

  “A classic Jillian move. She loves the limelight.” Axel hugged me tightly with a heavy sigh and pushed me back gently on the sofa. “Quinn, it’s nothing. I wouldn’t have even brought it up, but I didn’t want you to hear about it from someone else.”

  “What did she say?”

  He tried kissing me, but I pulled away. “Babe, let’s not do this again. Seriously, the only thing that matters is that I straightened things out, and she won’t be bothering you or me anymore.”

  “Are you sure?”

  “Yes, she’s taken up entirely too much of our energy as it is. I’m not going to let her antics get in the way of us. Jillian is out of our lives.”

  I stared at him for a moment, hoping he was right. “Okay.”

  Thankful the conversation hadn’t turned into another dreaded discussion like the night before, I moved forward and buried my face into his neck. I pressed myself against the warmth of Axel’s chest. I smiled and calmed a bit. Being this close to him made my heart do flips. I grabbed both glasses and placed them out of the way on the table. I moved forward so I was inches from his face and softly kissed him.

  I gasped as his mouth crushed passionately against mine, taking control over the kiss. I clung to his shoulders, pulling him closer. Opening my mouth to the smooth feel of his tongue, I ached to feel his bare skin against my own. Sitting back, I slowly unbuttoned my shirt, my eyes never leaving his as I shrugged it off my shoulders and tossed it aside. His fingers easily undid the front clasp of my bra, parting it to stare at my breasts for a long moment that had my nipples going rock hard even before he pulled it off and threw it after my shirt.

  A shudder rippled through me as Axel pulled his shirt off as well and then reached to gently caress my breast. He continued to ravish my mouth as his hands explored every part of my now exposed chest. I moaned as a hot surge of hunger rushed through me. I joined in by running my hands across his chest, softly moaning as my fingers stroked his nipples.

  He pulled me closer than I thought possible. The heat between our bodies aflame, he groaned, “God, I want you. I need you.” Placing hot, wet kisses along my collarbone, Axel whispered, “I’ve wanted you all day. I’ve needed you. I hate being without you for even a second.”

  I clung to him, panting for air. The heat of the moment, the fervor between us, was almost too much. My mind spun and my body pulsated.

  “I’m taking you right here, right now. I can’t fight this any longer. I want the taste of you against my tongue.”

  I looked into his blazing eyes and nodded. “Yes… yes. I don’t want you to stop.”

  In an instant, I found myself lying beneath Axel on the soft leather of the couch, both of us completely nude. He kissed his way down my body inch by inch until his lips made contact with my yearning sex. I arched my back as he eased my legs further apart. Little by little, he began to place soft kisses along the inside of my thigh, gradually making his way to his ultimate target. I tensed as his tongue flicked the sensitive bud, causing me to moan in pleasure.

  A wavering burst of intensity slid into my stomach. He continued to suck and lick, pleasuring to my very core as he used his fingers to part the folds of my sex, heightening my bliss, bringing me closer to complete ecstasy.

  I tensed again. Wary of letting go completely, I tried to fight the wave of passion threatening to overcome my entire being. Having Axel in such an intimate position battled against my insecurities.

  He continued to circle his tongue along the outer edges of my moist entrance. With a thrust of his finger deep within my heat, Axel whispered, “It’s okay. Let go. You’re safe with me. Trust me.”

  His soothing words, mixed with his sensual ministrations, brought me over the edge. Light flashed, heat conquered, and hunger satisfied. I could do nothing but release a heavy gasp.

  With greedy need and a mischievous smile, I managed to roll Axel onto his back so I could trace a hungry trail down his body. I kissed, I licked, I tasted my way down to the hardness waiting between his legs. I moved my way lower and lower until the tip of my tongue touched the tip of his cock.

  With Axel’s hips rising to meet my seduction, he moaned. “I want to feel your mouth wrapped around me.”

  I followed his command and took his cock past my lips, and gently sucked, swirling my tongue in small circles as I took in the scent of Axel’s intoxicating desire. His groan, his shudder, and the way his hands grabbed at my hair only drove my need to please even higher. I worked my lips up the slickened skin, then drove them back down in a rhythmic motion. I pushed myself to meet Axel’s demands. Licking lightly, I worked his body, intensifying his pleasure. Slowly up, then plunging back down, I worked until Axel’s control snapped. His breath hitched and his moan reverberated through his entire body as he climaxed in my mouth.

  The moment ebbed, satisfaction blanketing us both. He pulled me in close as I wrapped my arms around him and clung. I was his. I would always belong to Axel Rye.

  A knock on the door had us both jumping up and scurrying for our clothes.

  “Just a minute!�
�� Axel called out.

  I quickly buttoned my shirt and pulled on my pants. “Were you expecting someone?”

  Axel pulled the last of his clothes on. He leaned over and placed a quick peck on my lips. “I’ll get rid of them.”

  Axel opened the door to Teddy and Knox standing with beer and hot wings in hand.

  “Are we interrupting something?” Knox chuckled.

  They both walked past Axel in the doorway and went straight to the kitchen. “Did you forget about the game tonight?” Teddy asked.

  “Ah, shit. I forgot.” Axel turned to look at me apologetically.

  I nodded and smiled. “It’s fine,” I mouthed to Axel.

  “Hi, Quinn. You look… glowing right now. It’s a good look for you.” Knox laughed, continuing the tease.

  I tried to fight back the blush threatening to conquer my face. I couldn’t help but laugh. “Hi, guys.”

  Teddy grinned. “If we are interrupting something, we can leave.”

  I stood up and walked to the kitchen. “No worries.” I opened the box of wings to see how many they had brought. “As long as you don’t mind me crashing your party.”

  Knox had already grabbed the remote from the table and was flipping through the channels. “Help yourself.” He looked back at Axel. “Come on, grab a beer and settle in. Tonight’s going to be a good game.”

  Axel glanced at the TV and then at me. “Are you sure?” he whispered.

  I winked at him and nodded. “It’ll be fun.”

  Axel and I grabbed some wings and made our way back to the couch. We settled down, snuggling close. I had never really been into sports before, but I tried to follow along as best I could. Though Axel didn’t make it easy, with all his continual kissing and groping.

  I pulled away giggling from Axel’s ear nibbling. “Axel, I’m trying to pay attention. You’re distracting me,” I said while I laughed.

  “Cut it out. You two are like a Hallmark card over there,” Teddy ribbed.