Food of the Gods

by Cassandra Khaw

  Anyway.

  I swallow, glance over to the sea, a muddied brown that inspires no desire to wade into its depths. I suppose I could have found a more inspiring spot. “I see.”

  “This one meant no harm. At least not to anyone other than her beloved spouse. The Furies seemed like the perfect option. Certainly, the local nobility trusted them.”

  “I—” I falter. Murder victims usually aren’t quite so apologetic about the violent crimes, but normal employers rarely participate in grandiose chess matches, utilizing ancient spirits and domestic dissatisfaction as game pieces. There’s no template for me to pin a response, really, so I shove that line of thought aside. “Why did the Furies off you too?”

  “It was mariticide,” Xiao Quan explains, edges shimmering. She collects her hands over her belly. I don’t recognize her garments from her corpse. They’re simpler than what I would picture; cotton rather than silk, pale oceanic colors bare of complicated embroidery. “The Kindly Ones could not allow for it. This one had to die, if they were to fulfill this one’s request.” She hesitates. “But they were kind. It did not hurt for long.”

  I nod. The God of Missing People has wandered off towards the shore, still clutching its sacrificial plastic sack. Flashing us both a curious stare, it drops to its knees and begins listlessly scooping at the beach with its fingers.

  “Will you tell this one’s father she is sorry? This one was tired. After so many thousands of years, this one simply desired to cease.”

  “I—” I purse my mouth, but incline my head. There’s nothing more to be said here. At this point, any criticism about her life’s decisions feels unfortunately moot. Lacking the right words, I delay my answer by looking over towards the God of Missing People, who is locking fingers with a spectral hand it had just unearthed. “Yes. But, don’t you think it would be better to tell him yourself?”

  “No,” Xiao Quan replies, fading into intangibility. “Not at all.”

  I almost let her go. Almost. The exhaustion in her gaze digs like a hook. I know that look far too well. But even as Xiao Quan diffuses, fading into the pale curve of a smile, I chatter another incantation, an ugly barrage of consonants. Her outline snaps back into hard focus.

  “What?”

  “I’m sorry.” I fold into a half-hearted shrug, feeling somewhat like an adult challenging a toddler to a test of arms. “I sympathize. I do. But you’re going to tell your father about what happened so he’ll call this whole thing off. And please,please can we avoid mentioning the bit with the ghouls? I don’t want to be a bastard, but if you tell, I will make sure it goes just as badly for you as it will go for me.”

  THE ENCOUNTER IS less dramatic than I expected it to be, less a meeting between two reptilian divinities, more a pow-wow between father and daughter. Ao Qin wears his human shape throughout the muted conversation as they stand with their foreheads pressed together, the Dragon King’s forearms rested on his daughter’s shoulders, Xiao Quan’s fingers loose about his wrists.

  My daughter my daughter my daughter his memories have lightened to hazy watercolour figments in my head, barely distinguishable from a dream. But I feel the afterimage of his agony, his guilt still twinges like an old injury.

  Hours later, or maybe minutes, the two separate. Xiao Quan bows low as, shooting a hurt look in my direction, she finally dissolves into air, leaving Ao Qin to goggle at the space she occupied. Three long breaths later, he marches up to me, carrying the smell of salt and death.

  “Thank you.”

  I nod.

  He pauses. You can almost see the words hanging suspended in the air: the apologies, the reassurances, the vocabulary of comfort. But I’m just a man, and he’s a god with a questionable grasp of the value of a human life. Such limitations prohibit wanton brotherly love. “We need to know: was anyone else involved?”

  “No.”

  His lamplight stare burns molten. “Are you certain?”

  “We are. I mean, I am. One hundred percent.”

  Ao Qin’s expression remains placid, although his skin does not. Patterns writhe with unverbalized emotion. I glance away just as it reaches his eyes. The God of Missing People is wisely keeping its distance, more preoccupied with the ghost it found in the sand than my predicament. Typical.

  “Your daughter had her reasons. Bad ones, definitely, but this is something she wanted. No foul. You have your evidence. You have a confession. I have a confession. Bring it to... to god court, or whatever you call it. I did my job. Now”—the words catch as I hold out the tape recorder for his inspection—“let Minah go.”

  The Dragon King says nothing, only regards the device in my palm with what appears to be mild befuddlement. I’m briefly wracked by concern. What if he—

  “Thank you.” The gratitude comes stiff, unpracticed. He takes the machine, pockets it, then snags my hand in a rough handshake. “We will have a word with the Furies and their masters. This is more than sufficient for what we require.”

  Not trusting myself to speak, I respond with an equally graceless nod. It’s not every day that you catalyze a war for a woman’s sake.

  Ao Qin glides sidelong, taking a step back towards the ocean. “Are you certain there’s nothing else you wish to tell us? No further details?”

  Karma feels like the weight of the world compressed into a single pin, its point impaled upon the middle of my forehead. I suck in a breath. The universe is watching. This is one of those moments that you clearly recognize as instrumental in the charting of history. One of those decisions that divide reality into parallel dimensions, that defines centuries to come. I clutch that breath like a lifeline. The right thing to do would be to prevent the risk of global conflict.

  “No.”

  You know what they say. Love makes fools and warmongers out of all of us.

  “HOW DID IT go, Rupert?” the boss queries, effervescently delighted.

  “Wonderful. I started a war for you.”

  He laughs. “Excellent, excellent. Excellent.”

  I meander up the hill side, back onto the road. Several metres away, a black sedan sits purring, its driver nonchalantly reclining against its frame. “You sent a ride?”

  “Of course. And a change of clothing. We’re told you absolutely reek.” He laughs quietly. “Make sure to change before you come in today. We already have to deduct your pay for your absences. We’d rather not have to cut it any further because of your inability to maintain personal hygiene.”

  I don’t ask how he knows, or even why he cares. The boss isn’t exactly someone who should complain about offal, given his predilections. I nod towards the driver, yet another Aryan bombshell. “Sure, boss.”

  “We have lamia in stock today, by the way. I hope you’re prepared for the challenge.”

  “Sure, boss.” Just another day in paradise for Rupert Wong, cannibal chef.

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN

  “CAN I CALL you back? Cooking for dear life here. I—yes, no—yes, I guess it’s an euphemism. No? Yes. I—”

  Oil fountains through the air as my new iPhone performs a ten-point dive into the wok, slipping from where it was wedged between cheek and shoulder to bury itself in a hell of pumpkin croquettes. I jerk back away from the splatter and sizzle of a few thousand ringgit gone the way of good bacon.

  There is no time to curse, though, or even think. I’m on a tight schedule here. I toss the pan a few more times, drop it on the counter, and then spin about to slice up slivers of large intestine. It’s definitely not the best prepared length of meat my knife has seen. Bits of decomposing waste material blink at me from between puckered folds, shot through with dying tapeworms like fistfuls of wanton noodles. But the boss says the detritus of the human digestive system gives character to a meal. Who am I to argue with the monster who pays my rent?

  (He has ghoulish tastes, ang moh. Get it? Get—anyway.)

  Across the stage, my opponent is in trouble. He’s standing impaled in the spotlights like a Scandinavian Jesus before a R
oman tribunal, fishmouthing all the while. In front of him, set in a bed of wilting roses, are the remains of a Brazilian pornstar, megawatt grin sutured in place, final million-dollar erection jutting proudly from a death-bruised pelvis.

  The crowd is chanting, pounding its feet. They want him to do something with that colossal penis. Suck it, cut it, flay it, pickle it in chocolate syrup and make it into a meat eclair—anything, so long as he does it dramatically. But language barriers and terror keep the Swede from capitulation. Instead of putting on a show, he clumsily saws off a leg and scuttles off to the oven. Bad move there, Thor. Briefly, I contemplate volleying advice in his direction, but it’s do-or-die here.

  Literally.

  I turn back to my own counter. I’ve got my own porn star neatly split into eight portions. There’s barely any blood on the wood. Most of it’s been drained into separate containers for later use in my sambal-laced black pudding and the rosewater popsicles I’ve got planned for dessert. The ghouls of Kuala Lumpur might be sophisticated by the standards of their species, but they’re still bloodthirsty predators. No gore, no talk.

  I cut the epidermis from the stomach with a scalpel, before carefully smearing the exposed muscle with salted egg yolk, mango extract, and a glazing of soy. Then I replace the skin, sew it together at the ends, drizzle the surface with caramel and put the amputated torso in the oven. If this was any other situation, I’d have marinated the meat for at least a day, but c’est la vie, as the Europeans say.

  Or something.

  The gong booms. Two hours. Behind me, I hear the Swede swear, hear a pan clatter onto the floor, and something sizzle through the air. Another yelp, louder, pain-whetted. Guan Yin help me, this isn’t going to end well for our blond friend.

  I peek quickly at the audience as I go for the peeler and the bone saw. Our spectators are gathered in concentric rings around the stage, identities concealed in the penumbra, craning forward like dogs on a leash. They’ve stopped talking entirely now, and it’s disconcerting, I tell you. You never really notice the sound of breathing until it is gone.

  Of course, I probably shouldn’t be listening for it. I should be hacking—carefully—through this perfectly-shaped cranium. And maybe doing something with the scalp, even if the whole concept is ethically questionable.

  What am I saying? Everything I’m doing is ethically questionable.

  IT GOES BETTER than I expected.

  Not only do I extract the brain intact, I am ameliorated of some of my lingering existential guilt. The porn star’s gray matter is a road map of early-death risks: brain lesions, abscesses, even a tumor, no larger than a small child’s tooth. He was going to go, anyway, right? Right.

  The slurry of neural tissue goes into a pan with ghee and caramelized onions, turmeric and chilli and garlic paste. Almost instantly, the fat begins to crackle, and I watch it like a hawk, pulling the pan away the instant the meat begins to smoke. Too much time on the fire, and you get charcoal. Too little, and it’s just an unappetizing mush. (Don’t ask how I know these things. We all sacrifice something different for our careers.)

  A quick glance at the clock informs me that I’ve about half an hour left, and I spend it injecting globs of lime-laced honey into chilled eyeballs before plating it carefully amid passion fruit foam and clots of lemon curd.

  The minutes slip by.

  “Time.”

  I drop my utensils with a clatter of iron, jumping back a heartbeat before a lithe, black shape bumps against the back of my knees. The Swede does not and I hear a whine of pain, sharp, quickly cut down to ragged gasps. I glance sideways: someone’s split his palm open and blood is pooling on the stage. I lick my lips nervously. Not good.

  The spotlight comes back on, the phosphorescent blaze drawing all eyes up to an alcove in the walls. Like everything else with the ghouls, the ornate balcony is strange, a bizarro arrangement of whatever might have interested the maker at the time: Parisian balustrades, Roman columns, a patchwork of Banksy paintings redone in polished sea glass.

  There’s a figure staked in the light, his silhouette haloed against a revisionist nightmare of the Water Margin, intimating a saintliness that I know is undeserved. If there’s anyone in this spectacle of murderers that’s a proper bastard, it’s the Boss. He grins, all teeth, slicked-back hair and arrogant posture, the Armani-armed image of Malaysian patriarchy. He’s power and he knows it.

  “Two contestants walk in. One walks out.”

  A murmur of appreciative laughter slithers through the crowd.

  “The winner will receive all he desires”—liar—“and the loser will regret his inadequacy.”

  The audience chuckles again. Terror batters against my temples. No matter how many times I’ve been conscripted into this horror show, it still gets to me. I think it’s the theatrics, the aping of normalcy, the pantomime of reality talk show innocence. I wipe my fingertips along my gore-streaked apron and straighten my back, bladder clenched against the escalating dread.

  “Our judges”—more polyps of light break against the murk, and three new faces become illuminated: blandly attractive, utterly forgettable—“will now sample the meals. The participants will be judged on taste, timeliness, versatility, and command of ingredients.”

  Another susurrus of noises, now with an undercurrent of savage. The Swede’s eyes are glazed, his forehead slick with sweat, although in retrospect that could be blood loss rather than terror.

  I walk my gaze over his flotilla of food: only seven dishes, not the prescribed nine. No desserts, either. Around the ledge of his shoulder, I spot his biggest error: he’s amputated the penis but done nothing significant with it, leaving the organ to lay deflated in a puddle of congealing cranberry sauce. You’d think he’d be wise enough to make it the centerpiece.

  Yeah, I can’t see this ending well.

  “Will the contestants bring their dishes forward?”

  I WIN.

  Of course I win.

  I’ve never not won. We wouldn’t be having a conversation if I’d ever lost. The terms of the tournament are simple if never advertised, a de facto knowledge secured through survival.

  The winner acquires employment. The loser gets served on a plate.

  THERE’S PLENTY THAT I dislike about Chee Seng. His haircut, his voice, his indifferent hygiene, his penchant for public earwax excavations. But I can’t fault his professional technique.

  Chee Seng is fast and very, very discreet. The Swede barely notices his exsanguination. He surrenders the barest expulsion of air, almost a sigh but infinitely more ephemeral, before he sags onto his knees, Chee Seng’s arm suddenly crossed over his breastbone. And then carefully, with more strength than you’d anticipate from a chubby Chinese man in a wife-beater, he guides the giant down. Blood tendrils across the stage, an abattoir masterpiece.

  The Scandinavian spasms—once, twice—before he begins to thrash, bellowing like a cow, but no matter how hard he struggles, his bulk stays pinned under an expertly positioned knee. Chee Seng drones scriptures with a practiced flippancy; the ghouls demand halal treatment of their meats, even if their preferred cuisine itself is sacrilegious in every Abrahamic faith. I make eye contact with Chee Seng, who shrugs. The air colors with the stink of urine. The crowd roars.

  Eventually his quarry’s convulsions subside, muscles slackening. The odour of piss picks up a fecal undertone, and I grimace. Hopefully, they’ll have Chee Seng prepare the carcass as well, an ordeal that he tolerates but I flat-out loathe.

  As the last of the Swede’s life bubbles away, Chee Seng and I raise our gazes, like Dobermans trained to a nod. His smile is patronizing, calculated. I tense.

  “Thank you for the assistance, Chee Seng.”

  Motherfucking chee bye chui.

  “Rupert.” And here, the Boss’s grin spreads. The seams at the corners of his lips undo, widening, revealing jaws that span his head. “If you’d like to do the follow up...”

  No. No, I don’t. “Y-yes, boss. But Chee Seng�
�s way better than—”

  “We prefer the personal touch of a chef.” His voice is an oratory wet dream, the baritone of a radio announcer or a successful politician, and it booms across the auditorium without enhancement. Despite the honeyed enunciation, the subtext is clear: there’s no room for negotiation here.

  “Of course, boss.” Asshole.

  He maintains his grin. Ghouls aren’t telepathic, but I’m putting no effort into disguising my revulsion. The boss loves dissatisfaction in his employees, though, especially since he knows mutiny is an empirical impossibility. So, for now, we’re cohabiting a page.

  Irradiated by halogen, the last breathing human in an ocean of the dead, I grab the tools of office—bone saw, cleaver, a toolbelt of kitchen knives in different sizes—and march towards the fallen behemoth. If anyone ever tells you that the life of a cannibal chef is glamorous, punch them in the scrotum for me.

  CHAPTER FIFTEEN

  BEACH CLUB IS as cavernous as memory supplies, an altar to ringgit-driven debauchery and piss-poor, pricy alcohol, the first ill-advised port of call for gullible sex tourists. I push between two rotund Australians, their skinny legs sunburnt and bowed under monumental bellies, then duck from under the arm of a malignantly smiling drunk, phenotype largely unidentifiable. A pair of gorgeous women, palm-sized skirts tasselled and moderately see-through, blink impassively from under heavy, artificial lashes.

  The thing about Beach Club, really, is that it’s stratas upon interlocking stratas of accidental subversion. On the surface, it’s a place to mingle and drink, a venue for predator and prey and play, ostensibly indistinguishable from any other club. Here, flabby Caucasians court SPGs aka Sarong Party Girls aka ‘women who allegedly covet white dick,’ a misnomer in many instances because at least half are escorts, prowling for an easy mark. Not that the men ever seem to realize, pickled in their own ethnic supremacy, blithely sure that Asian damsels are obsessed with melanin-free meat.