The Complete Farseer Trilogy Omnibus

by Robin Hobb

  Someone knelt beside me, ran competent hands over me. Burrich? No. That was a dream from long ago. This man had blue eyes and the nasal twang of a Farrow-man. ‘He’s bleeding a lot, King Regal. But we can stop that.’ Someone put pressure on my brow. A cup of watered wine held against my cracked lips, splashed into my mouth. I choked on it. ‘You see, he’s alive. I’d leave off, for today, your majesty. I doubt if he’ll be able to answer any more questions before tomorrow. He’ll just faint on you.’ A calm professional opinion. Whoever it was stretched me out on the floor again and left.

  A spasm rattled through me. Seizure coming soon. Good thing Will was gone. Didn’t think I could keep my walls up through a seizure.

  ‘Oh, take him away,’ Regal said, disgusted and disappointed. ‘This has been nothing but a waste of my time today.’ His chair’s legs scraped on the floor as he left it. I heard the sounds of his boots on the stone floor as he strode from the room.

  Someone grabbed me by the shirt front, jerked me to my feet. I could not even scream for the pain. ‘Stupid piece of dung,’ he snarled at me. ‘You’d better not die. I’m not going to take lashes over the likes of you dying.’

  ‘Great threat, Verde,’ someone mocked him. ‘What are you going to do to him after he’s dead?’

  ‘Shut up. It’ll be your back flayed to the bone as much as mine. Let’s get him out of here and clean this up.’

  The cell. The blank wall of it. They had left me on the floor, facing away from the door. Somehow that seemed unfair of them. I’d have to do all the work of rolling over just to see if they’d left me any water.

  No. It was too much trouble.

  Are you coming now?

  I really want to, Nighteyes. But I just don’t know how.

  Changer. Changer! My brother! Changer.

  What is it?

  You have been silent for so long. Are you coming now?

  I have been … silent?

  Yes. I thought you had died, without coming to me first. I could not reach you.

  Probably a seizure. I didn’t know it had happened. But now I am right here, Nighteyes. Right here.

  Then come to me. Hurry, before you die.

  A moment. Let us be sure of this.

  I tried to think of a reason not to. I knew there had been some, but I could no longer recall them. Changer, he had called me. My own wolf, calling me that, just as the Fool or Chade called me a catalyst. Well. Time to change things for Regal. The last thing I could do was make sure I died before Regal broke me. If I had to go down, I would do it alone. No words of mine would implicate anyone else. I hoped the dukes would demand to see my body.

  It took a long time to get my arm from the floor to my chest. My lips were cracked and swollen, my teeth aching in my gums. But I put my shirt cuff to my mouth, and found the tiny lump of the leaf pellet inside the fabric. I bit down at it as hard as I could, then sucked on it. After a moment, the taste of carryme flooded my mouth. It was not unpleasant. Pungent. As the herb deadened the pain in my mouth, I could chew at my sleeve more strongly. Stupidly, I tried to be careful of the porcupine quill. Didn’t want to get a quill in my lip.

  It really hurts when that happens.

  I know, Nighteyes.

  Come to me.

  I’m trying. Give me a moment.

  How does one leave one’s body behind? I tried to ignore it, to be aware of myself only as Nighteyes. Keen nose. Lying on my side, chewing diligently at a lump of snow wadded up in the space between my toes. I tasted snow and my own paw as I nibbled and licked it away. I looked up. Evening coming on. It would soon be a good time to hunt. I stood up, shook myself all over.

  That’s right, Nighteyes encouraged me.

  But there was still that thread, that tiny awareness of a stiff and aching body on a cold stone floor. Just to think of it made it more real. A tremor ran through it, rattling its bones and teeth. Seizure coming. Big one this time.

  Suddenly, it was all so easy. Such an easy choice. Leave that body for this one. It didn’t work very well any more anyway. Stuck in a cage. No point to keeping it. No point to being a man at all.

  I’m here.

  I know. Let us hunt.

  And we did.

  THIRTY-THREE

  Wolf Days

  The exercise for centring oneself is a simple one. Stop thinking of what you intend to do. Stop thinking of what you have just done. Then, stop thinking that you have stopped thinking of those things. Then you will find the Now, the time that stretches eternal, and is really the only time there is. Then, in that place, you will finally have time to be yourself.

  There is a cleanness to life that can be had when you but hunt and eat and sleep. In the end, no more than this is really needed by anyone. We ran alone, we the Wolf, and we lacked for nothing. We did not long for venison when a rabbit presented itself nor begrudge the ravens that came to pick through our leavings. Sometimes we remembered a different time and a different way. When we did, we wondered what had been so important about any of it. We did not kill what we could not eat, and we did not eat what we could not kill. Dusks and dawns were the best times for hunting, and other times were good for sleeping. Other than this, time had no meaning.

  For wolves, as for dogs, life is a briefer thing than for men, if you measure it by counting days and how many turns of a season one sees. But in two years, a cub wolf does all a man does in a score. He comes to the full of his strength and size, he learns all that is needful for him to be a hunter or a mate or a leader. The candle of his life burns briefer and brighter than a man’s. In a decade of years, he does all that a man does in five or six times that many. A year passes for a wolf as a decade does for a man. Time is no miser when one lives always in the now.

  So we knew the nights and the days, the hunger and the filling. Savage joys and surprises. Snatch up a mouse, fling it up, eat it down with a snap. So good. To start a rabbit, to pursue it as it dodges and circles, then suddenly, to stretch your stride and seize it in a flurry of snow and fur. The shake that snaps its neck, and then the leisure eating, the tearing open of its belly and nosing through the hot entrails, and then the thick meat of the haunches, the easy crunching of its backbone. Surfeit and sleep. And waken to hunt again.

  Chase a doe over pond ice, knowing we cannot make such a kill, but rejoicing in the hunt. When through the ice she goes, and we circle, circle, circle endlessly as she battles her hooves against the ice and finally clambers out, too weary to evade the teeth that slash her hamstrings, the fangs that close in her throat. Eating to satiation, not once, but twice from the carcass. A storm comes full of sleet to drive us to the den. Sleeping snug, nose to tail, while the wind flings icy rain and then snow about outside the den. Awake to pale light glistening in through a layer of snow. Dig out to snuff the clear cold day that is just fading. There is meat still on the doe, frozen red and sweet, ready to be dug from the snow. What can be more satisfying than to know of meat that is waiting for you?

  Come.

  We pause. No, the meat is waiting. We trot on.

  Come now. Come to me. I’ve meat for you.

  We’ve meat already. And closer.

  Nighteyes. Changer. Heart of the Pack summons you.

  We pause again. Shake all over. This is not comfortable. And what is Heart of the Pack to us? He is not pack. He pushes us. There is meat closer. It is decided. We go to the pond’s edge. Here. Somewhere here. Ah. Dig down to her through the snow. The crows come to watch us, waiting for us to be finished.

  Nighteyes. Changer. Come. Come now. Soon it will be too late.

  The meat is frozen, crisp and red. Turn our head to use our back teeth to scissor it from the bones. A crow flies down, lands on the snow nearby. Hop, hop. He cocks his head. For sport, we lunge at him, put him to flight again. Our meat, all of it. Days and nights of meat.

  Come. Please. Come. Please. Come soon, come now. Come back to us. You are needed. Come. Come.

  He does not go away. We put back our ears, but still w
e hear him, come, come, come. He steals the pleasure from the meat with his whining. Enough. We have eaten enough for now. We will go, just to still him.

  Good. That’s good. Come to me, come to me.

  We go, trotting through the gathering darkness. A rabbit sits up suddenly, scampers away across the snow. Shall we? No. Belly is full. Trot on. Cross a man’s path, an open empty strip under the night sky. We fade across it swiftly, trot on through the woods that border it.

  Come to me. Come. Nighteyes, Changer, I summon you. Come to me.

  The forest ends. There is a cleared hillside below us, and beyond that a flat, bare place, shelterless under the night sky. Too open. The crusted snow is untracked, but at the bottom of the hill, there are humans. Two. Heart of the Pack digs while another watches. Heart of the Pack digs fast and hard. His breath smokes in the night. The other has a light, a too-bright light that shrinks the eye to behold. Heart of the Pack stops his digging. He looks up at us.

  Come, he says. Come.

  He jumps into the hole he has dug. There is black earth, frozen chunks of it, on top of the clean snow. He lands with a thud like deer antlers on a tree. He crouches and there is a tearing sound. He uses a tool that thuds and tears. We settle down to watch him, wrapping tail around to warm front feet. What has this to do with us? We are full, we could go sleep now. He looks up at us suddenly through the night.

  Wait. A moment longer. Wait.

  He growls to the other, and that one holds the light to the hole. Heart of the Pack bends his back and the other reaches to help him. They drag something from the hole. The smell of it sets our hackles ajar. We turn, we leap to run, we circle, we cannot leave. There is a fear here, there is a danger, a threat of pain, of loneliness, of endings.

  Come. Come down to us here, come down. We need you now. It is time.

  This is not time. Time is always, is everywhere. You need us, but perhaps we do not want to be needed. We have meat, and a warm place to sleep, and even more meat for another time. With a full belly and a warm den, what else is to be needed? Yet. We will go closer. We will snuff it, we will see what it is that threatens and beckons. Belly to snow, tail low, we slink down the hill.

  Heart of the Pack sits in the snow holding it. He motions the other away, and that one steps back, back, back taking his painful light with him. Closer. The hill is beyond us now, bare, shelterless. It is a far run back to hiding if we are threatened. But nothing moves. There is only Heart of the Pack and that which he holds. It smells of blood. He shakes it, as if to worry off a piece of meat. Then he rubs at it, moving his hands like a bitch’s teeth go over a cub to rid it of fleas. We know the smell of it. Closer we come. Closer. It is but a leap away.

  What do you want? we demand of him.

  Come back.

  We have come.

  Come back here. Changer. He is insistent. Come back to this. He lifts an arm, shows up a hand. He shows us a head lolling on his shoulder.

  That?

  This. This is yours, Changer.

  It smells bad. It is spoiled meat, we do not want it. There is better meat by the pond than that.

  Come here. Come closer.

  This is not a good idea. We will come no closer. He looks at us and grips us with his eyes. He edges closer to us, bringing it with him. It flops in his arms.

  Easy. Easy. This is yours, Changer. Come closer.

  We snarl, but he does not look away. We cower, tail to belly, wanting to leave, but he is strong. He takes its hand and puts it on our head. He holds the scruff of our neck to still us.

  Come back. You must come back. He is so insistent.

  We cower down, digging claws into the snowy earth. Humping our back, we try to pull away, struggle to take one step backward. He still holds onto the scruff of our neck. We gather strength to wheel and break away.

  Let him go, Nighteyes. He is not yours. A hint of teeth in those words, his eyes stare at us too hard.

  He is not yours, either, Nighteyes says.

  Whose am I, then?

  A moment of teetering, of balancing between two worlds, two realities, two fleshes. Then a wolf wheels and flees, tail tucked, over the snow, running away alone, fleeing from too much strangeness. On top of a hill he stops, to point his nose at the sky and howl. Howl for the unfairness of it all.

  I do not have a memory of that frozen graveyard that is my own. I have a sort of dream. I was wretchedly cold, stiff, and the raw taste of brandy burned, not just in my mouth, but all through me. Burrich and Chade would not leave me alone. They didn’t care how much they were hurting me, they just kept on rubbing my hands and feet, careless of the old bruises, the scabs on my arms. And every time I closed my eyes, Burrich would seize me and shake me like a rag. ‘Stay with me, Fitz,’ he kept saying. ‘Stay with me, stay with me. Come on, boy. You’re not dead. You’re not dead.’ Then suddenly he hugged me to him, his bearded face bristling against mine and his hot tears falling on my face. He rocked me back and forth, sitting in the snow at the edge of my grave. ‘You’re not dead, son. You’re not dead.’

  Epilogue

  It was a thing Burrich had heard of, in a tale told by his grandmother. A tale of a Witted one who could leave her body, for a day or so, and then come back to it. And Burrich had told it to Chade, and Chade had mixed the poisons that would take me to the brink of death. They told me I had not died, that my body had but slowed to an appearance of death.

  I do not believe that.

  And so I lived once more in man’s body. Though it took me some days and time to remember that I had been a man. And sometimes, still, I doubt it.

  I did not resume my life. My life as FitzChivalry lay in smoking ruins behind me. In all the world, only Burrich and Chade knew I had not died. Of those who had known me, few remembered me with smiles. Regal had killed me, in every way that mattered to me as a man. To present myself to any of those who had loved me, to stand before them in my human flesh would have only been to give them proof of the magic I had tainted myself with.

  I had died in my cell, a day or two after that final beating. The dukes had been wroth about my death, but Regal had had enough evidence and witnesses to my Wit magic to save face with them. I believe that his guards saved themselves from the lash by testifying that I had attacked Will with the Wit, and that was why he lay ill so long. They said they had had to beat me to break my Wit hold on him. In the face of so many witnesses, the dukes not only abandoned me, but witnessed Regal’s coronation, and the appointment of Lord Bright as castellan for Buckkeep and all of Buck’s coast. Patience had begged that my body not be burned, but be buried whole. The Lady Grace had also sent word on my behalf, much to her husband’s disgust. Only those two stood by me, in the face of Regal’s proof of my Wit taint. But I do not think it was out of any consideration for them that he gave me up, but only that by dying ahead of time, I had spoiled the spectacle that hanging and burning would have afforded. Cheated of his full vengeance, Regal simply lost interest. He left Buckkeep to go inland to Tradeford. Patience claimed my body to bury me.

  To this life did Burrich awaken me, to a life in which there was nothing left for me. Nothing save my king. The Six Duchies would crumble in the months to come, the Raiders would possess our good harbours almost at will, our folk were driven from their homes, or brought to slavery while the Outislanders squatted there. Forgings flourished. But as my Prince Verity had done, I turned my back on all of it, and went inland. But he went to be a king, and I went following my queen, seeking my king. Hard days followed.

  Yet even now, when the pain presses most heavily and none of the herbs can turn its deep ache, when I consider the body that entraps my spirit, I recall my days as a wolf, and know them not as a few but as a season of living. There is a comfort in their recalling, as well as a temptation. Come, hunt with me, the invitation whispers in my heart. Leave the pain behind and let your life be your own again. There is a place where all time is now, and the choices are simple and always your own.

  Wolv
es have no kings.

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