Right Kind of Wrong

by Shelly Jones

  “Don’t you even dare get me going before I have to go to work.” “Harlie, you look awesome!” I turn my attention to her.

  “Thanks, so do you!” She smiles.

  “You picking her up today or do you want me to bring her home?” I turn to Xander.

  “Can you bring her home? We’re setting up for the party, and I’m not sure if we’ll be done in time.”

  “That’s fine.”

  “Thanks, Babe.”

  “Well, I’m out of here. I will see you at school.” I kiss Harlie on top of the head, “And I will see you when you get home or whatever.” I walk over to him.

  “I’ll walk you out.” He grins.

  “Of course you will.” I roll my eyes and walk out the door.

  He grabs my arms and turns me around, “Is it wrong that I want to give you a proper goodbye?”

  “It is when I’m on my way to school.” I put my hands on the crotch of his pants, “And you being like this and going to the bar where those skanks show up randomly, doesn’t make me feel all that great.”

  “Oh stop it. I love you and only you.” He pins me up against my truck and kisses me.

  “Bastard.” I laugh against his lips.

  “I love you too.” He kisses my nose.

  “Yeah, I love you. I’ll see you tonight.” I get in my truck and leave.

  The school day went fast. I forgot it was a half-day, so we got to have our Halloween party all day. Reese flipped out when she saw my ring. She said it was the coolest thing she’s ever seen. I still can’t stop looking at it.

  Harlie comes into my classroom, “Hey sweets, how was school?”

  “It was ok, that jerk made fun of me again. I almost punched him.”

  I let out a sigh, “I’m sorry. On Monday, I’ll see what I can do, ok?”

  “Ok, can we go now?”

  “Yeah, let’s get out of here. Should we go surprise Daddy at work, or just go home and start getting ready for trick or treating?”

  “Home.” She says quietly.

  “Alright, let’s go.”

  By the time Xander got home at 4pm, Harlie and I had the table set and dinner made.

  “Dinner smells good,” He says walking in.

  “Thanks,” I walk up to him and kiss him. “How was work?” I ask.

  “It was work. Just set up for tonight. Should be a good time. How about you?”

  “Glad it was a half day.”

  We sit at the table and eat dinner. Harlie talks about the boy in her class that has been picking on her. I still can’t get use to the ring on my finger, and I keep staring at it. I’m looking forward to celebrating tonight with our friends.

  After dinner, Xander cleans the kitchen while I help Harlie get into her devil costume.

  We take her out for a couple of hours and then she’s done. I go back to the house and Xander takes her to his parents.

  I’m freshening up my make-up when he comes in, “You ok?” He stands behind me, wraps his arms around my waist and stares at us in the mirror.

  “Yeah, I’m fine.”

  “You worried about tonight?”

  I turn in his arms, “How can you tell?”

  “You get really quiet and very stand-offish when you’re uncomfortable. So what or who are you worried about?”

  “I don’t know. Just everything. Ever since we ran into that skank the other day, it’s been bugging me.”

  “Well, don’t. Tonight is about us, and our engagement, and nothing else matters. Ok?”

  I give him my best smile, “Ok.” I turn and finish getting ready.

  I quickly change into my distressed jeans, brown cowboy boots and white tank top.

  “You look hot, Baby.” Xander says and he’s look hot himself. Jeans, grey shirt and his converse shoes and a black baseball cap on backwards. Fuck, I love it when he looks like this. “Should we go?” I ask. He nods and we walk outside. We opt for the bike tonight, my favorite.

  We get inside and the place is packed, “There’s Reese and the girls.” I point to him and we start walking to their table. “I wonder when they’re going to get here. I wanna see that fucking ring!” I hear Dani say. The girls didn’t even dress up.

  “So you mean you wanna see this fucking ring?” I throw my hand in the middle of the table.

  Dani squeals, “Holy shit! Yes, yes yes!” She pulls my hand and looks at the ring.

  “Em, damn girl, this is so pretty.” Kayla says.

  “What do you want to drink?” Xander leans in.

  “Whatever. I’m not picky.” I wrap an arm around him, taking my claim on my man. I noticed a few girls turn and smile at him when we walked in.

  “I’ll be right back,” He kisses the top of my head.

  “He did good! I’m impressed.” Sam says looking at the ring.

  “Yeah, he did. I feel pretty damn lucky.”

  “And you should,” Xander says coming back with my drink. “Fireball shots for everyone.” He puts the tray down and hands me my beer.

  “Thanks baby!”

  The guys have come over to congratulate us, and Xander goes over by the bar to talk with the guys, but keeps a close eye on me.

  I walk over to the jukebox and put money into it. “This Is How We Roll” By Florida Georgia Line is the first song that comes on. My girls and I dance and sing the shit out of this song. The guys stand back and watch us dance and shake our asses off. Next song on my list is “Country Girl (Shake It For Me) by Luke Bryan. “You really feel like shaking it tonight don’t you?” Reese leans in.

  “Just making sure his eyes stay on me and only me.” I smile at her.

  “Uh oh,”

  “Yeah.”

  “You two are so fucking cute, but hey, what are the wedding plans?”

  “I don’t have a clue. We haven’t even had any time to think or talk about it. I’m hoping this weekend we can get started. The sooner the better!”

  “Well let me know, I’ll help ya!” She smiles and grabs my hand, “Let’s go dance!” “All About That Bass” by Meghan Trainor comes on. “We need to get a karaoke machine in here!” I tell the girls.

  “Yes!” Kayla says.

  When this song ends, the last song I paid for comes on. I walk over to Xander, “Dance with me?” I ask.

  “Sure,” He takes my hand and we walk over to where everyone is dancing. “Perfect Kiss” by Marie Hines plays. He wraps me in his arms and we sway to the song. We both just listen to the lyrics, “Wow, this is us.” He says.

  I look up at him, “It is.” I say.

  “Holding On To Heaven” By Nickelback follows my song.

  “Yep, I am holding on to heaven when I’m holding you.” He grabs my face and kisses me.

  “Awe, Mr. Romantic,” I gaze into his eyes. Those eyes that started it all, the eyes that I will never get tired of seeing looking back at me.

  “Only for you babe.” He kisses me again.

  After we danced, he went and helped out behind the bar for a bit. I keep scanning the bar. There’s four girls who can’t seem to keep their eyes off of him and they don’t seem to be with anyone either. “Do you know them?” I ask Kayla.

  “Just some random bar whores, I’m sure.” She shrugs her shoulders.

  “Stop!” Reese says in my ear.

  “What?”

  “You know what. Doesn’t matter if they are. You have his heart and you will soon have his last name.” She tells me.

  “I know, but still.”

  “Don’t start shit that’s not there. We all have a past. He’s a bartender/owner of this place. It’s going to happen. As long as he keeps it in his pants and comes home to you every night, that’s all that matters. Besides, I like it when they think Blake is hot, because he is, but he’s mine.” She shrugs her shoulders. “You start to worry or make a scene, you’re just going to start shit and there’s nothing to worry about. Ok?”

  “Can I say I’ll try? Cuz that’s about as good as it gets right now.” I look at Xand
er laughing and talking to a female customer, but he doesn’t look at her the way he looks at me. He catches me watching him, he mouths “I love you” to me and gives me that cocky grin that he knows I love. Instead of saying anything I get off my stool and I walk to the corner of the bar. He walks towards me and before he has a chance to say anything, I lean up and kiss him.

  I pull back and look him in the eyes, “I love you too.”

  We stayed until the bar closed. Hanging out with our friends that we haven’t gotten to spend time with in a while is nice. I miss it.

  “Can I take you home?” He asks me.

  “I thought you’d never ask!” I say goodbye to what’s left of our group, He grabs my hand and we leave. The rest of the night was amazing, we got home crawled into bed, watched movies and had sex, lots of it.

  November 4th 5am

  I wake up to my phone ringing and it’s Mel ringtone. I changed my tone, just for her number, so when the baby comes, I can be there for her. “Mel?” I answer.

  “I need you! It’s time. I’ve been having contractions all night, but they’re now eight minutes apart. Doc wants me at the hospital.” She’s out of breath.

  “Ok, I’ll be there as quickly as I can.”

  “Ok, I’ll see you there.” She says and hangs up.

  “What’s wrong?” Xander wakes up.

  “Mel’s having her baby!” I squeal. “I’m going to call the school and let them know I won’t be in.” I get out of bed and grab my black and pink yoga pants and matching shirt. I rush to the bathroom and throw my hair in a ponytail and go back to the bedroom.

  “Will you call me and let me know when she has it?” He asks.

  “Of course. I’ll be sending you pictures. Ok, I’m going to get out of here. I love you and I will see you when I see you, I guess.”

  “You’ll see me when that baby is born.” He smiles at me and kisses me. “I love you too.”

  “Bye, Babe.” I get up and grab my shoes and socks. Get to the kitchen put my shoes on, grab my purse and keys and go to my truck. I call the school while I’m driving to the hospital. When I get to the hospital, Mel is just getting into her room. I walk in and when she sees me, she starts to cry.

  “Hey,” I walk over to her and hug her.

  “Thank you for coming.” She says in between sobs.

  “Like I would miss this? There’s no way in hell I’d miss this day.” I put my hand on her belly.

  “I’m scared.”

  “You’ll be fine, you’re going to be a kick ass mom, and you will make this delivery your bitch.” I laugh.

  “See this is why I need you around. You know what to say.”

  “Hey,” Scott says.

  “Oh fuck you! It’s your fault, you know?” She scolds him.

  “Yeah, you tell me a million times a day.” He rolls his eyes.

  “Alright, you two knock it off.” I tell them both. “You know, we’re all going to be happy when this baby is out. You’re kind of an evil bitch when you’re pregnant.” I say walking back a little.

  “I know I am, I even hate myself. I’m surprised he hasn’t left me yet.”

  “Trust me I’ve thought about it, but I’d be more miserable without you.” He says and kisses her.

  “Awe, look at you being all sweet and romantic.”

  “Son of a fucking whore!” She shouts and grabs our hands.

  The doctor finally comes in and gets her settled. Meds are in and she’s now comfortable for the most part. Scott and I take turns taking naps and being up with her.

  Mel’s water finally broke at 5pm and we thought for sure she would give birth any time after that, yeah right. It’s finally around 11pm when the doctor came in and checked her. “You’re ready to start pushing.” She smiles at my cousin.

  “Yes!’ Scott and I say at the same time.

  They get the room ready and the doctor and nurses get ready to deliver my godchild. Scott and I take a side of Mel. She looks at me, “I’m not sure I can do this.”

  “Yes, you can. You can do this. Remember what I said. You’re going to make this delivery your bitch. Now let’s get this baby out. I’m dying to meet him.”

  Thirty minutes of pushing later, Jagger Scott Davis entered the world at 11:45pm. With a head full of black hair and a set of lungs on him, he’s screaming and letting everyone know he has arrived. Scott goes over and cuts the cord and does the daddy duties.

  I’m crying, Mel’s crying. “He’s beautiful, Mel.” I kiss her on top of her head.

  “He is, isn’t he? Now, it’s your turn.” She grabs my hand and squeezes it.

  Scott brings Jagger over to Mel so she can meet him. “Let Em hold him.” She says. The doctors finish taking care of Mel, and I get some baby time.

  “Hey, little man.” I say crying.

  “Where’s your phone?” Scott asks. I reach into my pocket and hand Scott my phone. He takes a picture of just little man and then takes a picture of Jagger and I. “I’m pretty sure your godmother is going to spoil you rotten.” Scott says looking at him.

  “Hell yes, I am” I stare at this little man in my arms and it makes me wish I had never miscarried. I want a baby and I want one badly. “Ok little man, I’m going to let your mommy hold you now.” I walk over to her bedside. “I am going to love you and spoil you, and anytime you want to get away from your mom, just let me know. I’ll come get you.” I say to him, kissing him one more time before handing him over to Mel.

  I send Xander the picture of Jagger and I and wrote “My godson. But I really think we need to have one of these.”

  His response was “Whenever you’re ready, I’m ready.”

  I hang out for a little while longer and then I head out. Mel, Scott and Jagger need their time together. I kiss Mel and Jagger goodbye and hug Scott goodbye.

  When I get to my truck, I lose it. My hand goes to my stomach and I look at my tattoo. “I am so sorry.” I say out loud sobbing. This was harder than I thought it was going to be.

  December - 19th — Christmas break

  I TOOK THE day off to get all the Christmas stuff out of the storage shed. Even though we’re not going to be home for Christmas, I still want to decorate and put up my tree. My parents are going to take Harlie tonight and tomorrow, so Emily and I can finish Christmas shopping and have a little time to ourselves.

  I start opening boxes and find a Santa hat, when an idea hits me. I run back to the bathroom, take off all my clothes and put the hat on. I grab my phone and angle it just right, give her my grin she loves so much and take the picture. The reflection in the mirror is my bare ass and I know it’s one of her favorite body parts. I send the picture to her and write, “You coming home soon? Santa wants to know if you’ve been naughty or nice.” And I hit send. I get my clothes back on and act like nothing’s happened. She responds with an “OMG! Umm, I’ll be home in an hour or so. Doing something and I can’t tell you what! Love you though, oh and tell Santa I’ve been very naughty.” I love this girl so damn much. She puts a smile on my face, like no one else could.

  “Daddy I’m home.” Harlie announces and she walks in with my mom.

  “Hey, how was school?”

  “It was fun. We just read books and watched a movie. Can I go to Grandma’s tonight?”

  “Sure, but don’t you want to help decorate the tree?”

  “Nah, Dad. You and Emily can do it. Besides, will Santa even bring gifts here, since we’re going to be in Wisconsin?”

  “Yeah, of course he will. I told him where we were going to be. Maybe he’ll drop some off at both places.” My parents are going to be put our presents under the tree right before we get home. I’m only bringing a couple of things for Harlie and Em, the rest can wait til we get home.

  “So can I, Dad?”

  “Yeah that’s fine. Go get your bag packed and you can go spend the night with grandma and grandpa.”

  “You’re the best!” She squeals and runs down the hallway.

  “When do you g
uys leave for Wisconsin?” My mom asks.

  “Our flight takes off at 8am on the 23rd and we’ll be back on the 27th at like 9 at night.”

  “Ok, well you guys won’t be gone that long then. We’ll do Christmas with you guys on the 28th.” My mom says, I can tell she’s not very happy about this, but it’s gonna happen. Emily’s family wants us there for Christmas, so we’re going.

  “You going to be ok with this?” I ask her. Not really caring if she is or isn’t.

  “Yeah, I’ll be fine. Just weird, you not being here.”

  “I know, but I wanna see where she came from, and I want to meet the rest of her family.”

  “I know. Your mother is just being selfish right now.” She tells me giving me a hug.

  “Well, knock it off. You’re getting your wish. I’m happy and I’ve finally found someone worth spending my life with.”

  “And because of that, I couldn’t be happier for you and Harlie”

  “Thanks mom.” I kiss the top of her head. Harlie comes out with her bag and announces she’s ready. I give her a hug and tell her I’ll see her tomorrow or the next day. They leave and I’m left looking at this bare Christmas tree when I hear Emily pull in. She comes inside and is shocked when she sees the tree up.

  “What’s that doing here?”

  “Santa needs something to put the presents under.” I smile at her.

  “Oh, ok. I didn’t realize Santa was bringing gifts here, too.”

  “He’s only bringing a couple of gifts to Wisconsin. The rest he’s delivering here, so we have something to open up when we get home.” I say wrapping my arms around her waist. I lift my hand over her head, dangling the mistletoe above her head. “I think its bad luck not kiss while standing under the mistletoe.” I lean in and kiss her.

  “Where’s Harlie?” She pulls back and asks.

  “At Mom’s for the night.”

  “So, we’re home alone?”

  “It would appear so, why?”

  She smiles and bites her bottom lip, “No reason . . .” she trails off.

  I pull her close, so she can feel my erection through my jeans, “Wanna sit on Santa’s lap?”

  Her face goes red, she licks her lips, and her breath becomes labored. Oh this girl is so turned on I’ll bet she’s soaking wet too.