Right Kind of Wrong

by Shelly Jones

  When I wake up, I look to my right. My Xander is holding our son, sitting on the ledge in the window with his legs propped up. Nate is laying in a semi upright position and they’re just looking at each other. I lay there in total silence, watching this moment between a father and a son. I don’t think I’ve ever seen anything so beautiful in all my life.

  Xander catches me staring, “Morning, Mommy,” He smiles.

  “Hi,” I say softly. Nathan must sense me being awake, because he starts to get fussy.

  “Nurse said if you wanted to, you could try and breast feed him or we can give him a bottle. I told her I had no idea what you, what we were doing.” He looks embarrassed.

  “It’s ok, I don’t even know what I’m doing. I guess I can try and breast feed him.” I sit up. Xander brings Nathan to me and the nurse comes in to check on us.

  “Good, you’re awake.” She says cheerfully, then asks me how I plan to feed my son. I decide to give breastfeeding a try. She goes over everything with me and helps me get started. Nathan latched on and my heart overflowed with emotions.

  Later in the afternoon I FaceTimed my dad and introduced Nathan to him, Danny, Kathy and Hilary. I know my mother was there, but she never showed up in the picture. I could hear her crying though.

  Xander’s parents brought Harlie to the hospital, and we introduced them to Nathan.

  “Mom, Dad. Meet your grandson, Nathan James.” He holds back tears.

  His mom looks at him and then looks at me, “Nathan? You named him after your brother.” She sucks in a breath and wipes tears from her eyes.

  “Yeah Mom, we did.” Xander says.

  “I don’t know what to say.” His dad speaks up crying along with his mom.

  “You don’t have to say anything. When I found out I was pregnant, and you and Xander danced your mother-son dance at the wedding, I knew right then that Nathan’s name would live on. Whether it was a boy or girl. This baby was going to carry that name.” I reach for her hand. Xander looks shocked. I never told him any of this.

  “I love you Emily. Thank you for everything you’ve done for this family. Not only did Xander get lucky, we all got lucky when you walked into our lives.” She leans in a hugs me.

  “I love you too.” Is all I can say. I’m in shock. I look over at Harlie, she’s next to Xander looking at her little brother. “So what do you think Harlie, think he’s a keeper?”

  She looks at me and giggles. “Yeah, but I’m not changing poopy diapers!”

  We all start laughing. “Well darn it, guess that will be Daddy’s job then.” I giggle. Xander looks at me like I’ve lost my mind. “Don’t look at me like that. I carried him for nine months, delivered him and I’m feeding him. You can be on diaper duty.” I stick my tongue out at him.

  “She’s got a point. I think you’re screwed, Xander.” His dad says. In my head I’m dancing saying, I told you so, I told you so!

  It been six weeks that we’ve home from the hospital with baby Nathan. Harlie couldn’t wait to start helping with Nate and she’s the perfect big sister. I ended up not liking the whole breastfeeding thing after all, and we switched to bottles. Harlie likes it, because she gets to help feed her little brother now.

  Harlie is on the couch holding Nate when I look over at her, “Now that’s a picture.” I say out loud, Xander brings me the camera. He’s in his diaper wrapped in a blanket passed out, she has her cheek on his head, “I love you Nathan to the moon and back.” She closes her eyes. I take the picture and she looks up at me.

  “I love you, Harlie.” I smile proudly at her. I am so honored and proud to be her mom. Still can’t believe she’s actually my daughter now. That was one of her Christmas presents, well mine and hers. We finally got to make it legit.

  “Well, Meadow will be here in an hour. You ready?” Xander walks in.

  “Hell yes, I’m ready. I’ve been ready for this.” I get off the couch.

  “Me too.”

  Xander and I are getting matching tattoos on our wrist. His on his right, mine on my left, below my cross. We’re getting the infinity circle, but our fingerprints make a heart. X and E will be in each circle and est. June 28, 2014 will be written on the centerline.

  I can’t wait for this, it’s been something him and I have wanted to do since our wedding day, but I wasn’t able to get tattooed while being pregnant.

  Meadow comes in and of course she swoons over Nathan, “So, who wants to go first?” She asks. I don’t give Xander a chance, I go first.

  She gets us both done in an hour. “This is probably my favorite couple’s tattoo I’ve ever done.”

  “Thank you so much for this.”

  “No problem. Let me know when you’re ready for more.” She says hugging me. We say our good byes and she leaves.

  “I’m going to go take a shower.” I announce. He looks at me with the sad eyes. I know he wants to join me and fuck I’d love it to, but Harlie just went to bed, it’s almost feeding time for Nate, so yeah, it won’t happen.

  “Sorry babe, maybe we can get your parents to watch the kids for an hour or two tomorrow. Since our six weeks are finally up!” I wiggle my eyebrows at him.

  “I’m texting them right now.” He says locking up the house. I grab Nathan and carry him to our room where we have the portable crib set up for him and lay him in it.

  “Mom and Dad are set to take them tomorrow, so you and I can be naked.” He comes up behind me, puts his nose in my hair. I can’t help but bite my lower lip.

  I turn to him, wrap my arms around his neck, “Good cuz I’ve missed your hands on me and I’ve missed you in me.”

  “Want a quickie?” He laughs, “Never mind, I want to take my time and kiss every inch of you and I’m gonna fuck you slow and soft.” He whispers.

  “You’re a fucking tease.” I step away from him. I stare at him and get the evil thought in my head. I walk over and close the door. I take my shirt and yoga pants off and throw them at him.

  “And I’m the tease?” He asks and it’s almost a growl.

  Without saying a word, I slip off my panties and walk toward him, unlatching my bra and hand them both to him and walk to the bathroom. His eyes are burning into me. Holy fuck, is it hot. I get to the bathroom and turn on the shower. I’ll make it a cold shower I think.

  I get out of the shower and get dressed, I open the door and start laughing. Xander is laying on the bed asleep with Nathan asleep on his chest. Xander managed to get him dressed in his grey pants, blue and grey stripped shirt and matching hat and sock. Nathan’s arm is hanging over Daddy’s side. These two are passed out cold.

  I walk over and stare at them both. “My two boys, the loves of my life. I’m one lucky ass girl.” I say out loud.

  “Yeah, you are.” Xander startles me.

  “Thought you were sleeping.”

  “Nope, just resting.”

  I lay on my side with my hand on Nate’s back, “I cannot believe this is our life.”

  “I know, we’ve come full circle haven’t we?” He opens his eyes and turns his head, “I love you, Baby.”

  I lean in and kiss him, “I love you more.” I pull back and smile at him and kiss him again. “Can we have another one?”

  His eyes pop open even wider. “Another baby?”

  I nod my head yes.

  He starts laughing, “You’re crazy.”

  “Crazy about you, Babe.” I kiss him again.

  He lets out a sigh, “Fine, we can have another . . .” He starts to say something more, but I kiss him hard. I love this man so much and I will do anything and everything for him and nothing will ever tear us apart. My life is now complete being Mrs. Hunt.

  The End

  Green Day—When I Come Around

  My Darkest Days—Porn Star Dancing

  One Direction—Kiss You

  Lady Antebellum—We Owned The Night

  Blake Shelton—Footloose

  The Black Eyed Peas—I Gotta Feeling

  One Directio
n—Best Song Ever

  Lady Antebellum—Compass

  One Direction—What Makes You Beautiful

  Theory Of A Deadman—Bitch Came Back

  Katy Perry—Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F.)

  Luke Bryan—Drink A Beer

  3 Doors Down—Kryptonite

  Nickelback—S.E.X.

  Miranda Lambert—Somethin’ Bad—[duet with Carrie Underwood]

  Thomas Rhett—Get Me Some Of That

  Skillet—Awake and Alive

  Sugarland—Want To

  Jake Owen—Alone With You

  Florida Georgia Line—Stay

  3 Doors Down—Here Without You

  Nickelback—Someday

  Jason Aldean- Why (not on Spotify playlist)

  Linkin Park—In The End

  Nickelback—Trying Not To Love You

  Daughtry—Start of Something Good

  Thompson Square—I Can’t Outrun You

  Trisha Yearwood—She’s In Love With The Boy

  Blake Shelton—God Gave Me You

  LeAnn Rimes—The Right Kind Of Wrong

  John Mayer—Who You Love

  Carly Rae Jepsen—Call Me Maybe

  One Direction—Better Than Words

  Taylor Swift- Shake It Off (not on Spotify playlist)

  One Direction—One Thing

  Jesse McCartney—Beautiful Soul

  Florida Georgia Line—This Is How We Roll

  Luke Bryan—Country Girl (Shake It For Me)

  Meghan Trainor—All About That Bass

  Marie Hines—Perfect Kiss

  Nickelback—Holding On To Heaven

  Rascal Flatts—Bless The Broken Road

  Ed Sheeran—Thinking Out Loud

  Lifehouse—You And Me

  Heartland—I Loved Her First

  Van Morrison—Brown Eyed Girl

  Bon Jovi—Thank You For Loving Me

  To the readers, this would not be possible without you all! I hope you all enjoy Xander & Emily as much as I enjoyed telling their story!

  Thanks to my family for being here for me. Your love and support means the world to me. Without you this dream of writing would not be coming true!

  Kathy as always, you are my voice of reasoning, my venting stone, my bestie. You’re always there when I need you and you’re there even when I don’t even know I need you. Every day I am thankful for you being in my life! You are without a doubt my soul sister. I love you hun!

  Mel, you make me smile and laugh every day. I love our late night talks (well day time for you, late night for me) and how we have our lives planned out, even if we are dreaming. I’m still wishing on Colorado! Thank you for everything you’ve done and do for me. I love you! Xoxo!

  Tami, yet again your strength amazes me and I still don’t know how you do it. There’s not much that needs to be said about how I feel about you because you already know. You’re amazing & I love the hell out of you! Thank you for being here with me! Xoxo

  Andrea, You my friend have been a pleasant surprise this year! Thank you for everything you’ve been doing for me. Thank you for letting me throw music off you. You & I are connected by music, I have no doubt about that. You tagging the phrase “Author incest” I still almost die laughing every time I think about this. But sorry, not sorry, Xander is mine! Lol I love you girl!

  To my betas-

  Kathy, Mel, Andrea, Chrissy, Angela, Tami & Anita. You girls are my rocks, my pushers, my cheerleaders. There’s not enough words to thank you all for everything you’ve done with this book. I love you and thank you for loving Xander & Emily as much as I have.

  To my editor Jody Pardo- I am so happy we met and I am so happy you agreed to take me on! You’re one of the most amazing people I’ve come a crossed. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me. Right Kind of Wrong would have never happened without your help and omg that photo-shoot. I loved that you were there for it. Thank you so much for everything you’ve done and do for me. I Love you hard woman!

  Shauna Kruse- You are the most talented chick I’ve ever had the privilege to “meet.” You took my half assed vision of this book and turn it into a master piece. Thank you so much for the beautiful, beautiful, pictures. Here’s too many more shoots and covers!

  Lance Jones- I went from “Fan girl” to having you on the cover of my book, OMFG how did that happen?? LOL. Thank you for being “Xander” and making this cover amazing. Thank you for everything you’ve done! I look forward to actually meeting you soon!

  Alexandria Hardesty- The moment T.H Snyder sent me your picture, you were my “Emily!” You’re beautiful inside and out. Thank you for making my vision come true. I adore you girl and cannot wait to meet you. Phoenix 2016!

  To the Book Girls group I’m in. . . . you all know who you are. I love you girls! Thank you for the daily laughs, for the daily hot men and for the daily support. There’s a lot of amazing women in that group and I so happy I can call you girls my friends!

  A huge thanks for all the authors who have supported me, answered my “stupid” questions and for inspiring me to keep writing! You girls rock! t.h. Snyder, T.J. West, R.L Griffin, Dawn Robertson, Michelle Iannarelli and the list could go on forever . . .

  I’m sure I’m missing people so. . . . If you’re in my life and have somehow supported me, loved me or just been a part of this process. Thank you, I love you all. <3

  Shout out to the blogs for sharing and pimping Right Kind of Wrong out! You all rock!