Ties That Bind

by Marie Bostwick

  Waldo Smitherton was the only exception, but he’d slept through the whole thing. He always does and then he always stops to wring the minister’s hand and bellow, “Wonderful sermon, Reverend! Wonderful! Enjoyed it very much!”

  Once I asked Reverend Tucker if that bothered him. “No,” he said. “I think he really does enjoy it. At Waldo’s age, a nap is as good for the soul as a stern rebuke.”

  After saying the same to Philippa, Waldo started to totter away, then spun around to face her again. “Wait a minute. You’re Reverend Clarkson?”

  Philippa nodded. “Yes, sir. I am.”

  He hobbled back and shook her hand a second time. “Waldo Smitherton—oldest member of the congregation. Stick around and you may get to preach at my funeral.”

  Philippa smiled. “I hope not. Not for many years to come anyway.”

  Waldo looked Philippa up and down, narrowing his eyes. “Huh. You don’t look like your dad. Anyway, I thought they were sending your brother.”

  “No, Mr. Smitherton. I don’t have a brother.”

  “But Philip Clarkson is your father?”

  “He is, sir. My adoptive father.”

  Waldo considered this.

  “Well. If you were raised by the Reverend Clarkson, we can’t have gone far wrong calling you.” He bobbed his head approvingly. “He’s a good man. Though, I hope you won’t mind me saying, you’re a darned sight prettier than he is. A darned sight prettier!”

  Philippa laughed. “I don’t mind at all, Mr. Smitherton. Merry Christmas, sir.”

  “Merry Christmas to you, Reverend,” Waldo said and toddled off, cane in hand.

  I was next in line.

  “Well, at least I’ve won over one member of the congregation,” Philippa said, still smiling as Waldo retreated. “One down, four hundred and ninety-nine to go.”

  “Only four hundred and ninety-eight,” I said. “I’m already a member of your fan club.”

  “And you can add our names to the rolls as well,” said Charlie as he put out his hand. “I’m Charlie Donnelly and this is my wife, Evelyn Dixon Donnelly.”

  Charlie put his arm around Evelyn’s shoulders and beamed. Charlie and Evelyn have been married for more than a year now, but it’s clear to anyone with eyes in their head that the honeymoon is far from over. They’re so sweet together.

  “Very nice to meet you,” Philippa replied, gripping Charlie’s hand, then Evelyn’s. “You’re Margot’s boss, aren’t you? She’s told me so much about you, all of it good. I feel like I know you already.”

  “I feel the same way about you,” Evelyn replied. “And for the same reason. Welcome to New Bern, Reverend. I hope you’ll drop by the quilt shop sometime.”

  “I intend to. I’m hoping to make the rounds of all the businesses and meet the merchants after I’m settled in a bit.”

  “Fine idea. Be sure and drop by the Grill. Some of my staff could do with a dose of religion.” Charlie winked. “Seriously, come by the restaurant for lunch. My treat.”

  “I might just take you up on it. Margot says the Grill is the best restaurant in town.”

  “It is,” Charlie said stoutly. “I’ll not deny it.”

  Evelyn gave Charlie an affectionate glance before returning her attention to Philippa. “We’re having an open house at the shop in January to kick off our winter classes. I’d love for you to drop by. It’d give you a chance to meet the teachers and a lot of very nice quilters. Who knows? You might even decide to enroll in a class yourself.”

  Before Philippa could respond, Charlie jumped in. “Come for the food, if nothing else. I’m making basil chicken skewers with peanut dipping sauce, mini-quiche with Gruyère and dill, pea pods stuffed with shrimp, and some of those horrible little cocktail wieners wrapped in bread dough that Evelyn likes so much. What do you call those things?” he asked, turning to her.

  “Pigs in a blanket,” Evelyn replied, ignoring Charlie’s eye rolling.

  “Pigs in a blanket.” He made a face. “Terrible. How did I fall in love with a woman who has such plebeian taste in appetizers? Anyway, you should come, Reverend. The chicken skewers alone are worth the price of admission.”

  “Thank you,” Philippa said. “I’d like to. It sounds like fun.”

  “Good!” I said. “It’s the third Tuesday in January. Is that night good for you?”

  Philippa grinned. “At the moment, my dance card is wide open.”

  “That’ll change,” Charlie assured her. “And quickly. New ministers are always in demand. You’ll see.”

  “I hope you’re right,” Philippa said. “It feels strange being new in town.”

  By this time, the church was nearly empty; everyone had rushed off to celebrate Christmas with family and friends. It occurred to me that, perhaps, her arrival being so unexpected, no one had thought to invite Philippa over for Christmas.

  “Philippa, I know it’s short notice, but do you have plans for the rest of the day? Why don’t you come over and have dinner at my house?”

  “Oh,” she said hesitantly, “you’re sweet, but … I should really go home and catch up on some things, finish unpacking. I couldn’t impose on you.”

  “Don’t be silly, woman!” Charlie barked, using his traditional rebuke, and then turned red as he remembered whom he was speaking to. “I mean … Reverend … Pardon me. It wouldn’t be an imposition. We’d be honored to have you join us.”

  “He’s right,” I agreed. “We’ve got plenty of food. Virginia, Evelyn’s mother, was supposed to join us, but she came down with a cold. It’s thrown off my whole seating arrangement. You can’t spend Christmas alone.”

  “She’s right,” Charlie agreed. “That won’t do at all. So get your coat and come along. I won’t take no for an answer.”

  Evelyn laughed. “That settles it, Reverend. When Charlie makes up his mind about something, there’s no point in resisting. Charlie is quite irresistible,” she said in a slightly flirtatious tone, taking his arm. Charlie grinned and stood up a bit taller.

  “Well, since you put it like that …. Just let me run home to change out of my party frock,” she said, glancing down at her clerical vestments, “and take Clementine for a walk. Can I bring something?” she asked and then laughed. “Not that I have anything. I haven’t had a chance to do much grocery shopping yet, but if you need some low-fat blueberry yogurt, I can help you out. Or dog kibble. I’ve got a fifty-pound bag of that.”

  “Just bring yourself,” I said.

  “And an apron,” Charlie added.

  Evelyn rolled her eyes. “Charlie! Reverend Clarkson is a guest!”

  “What? She can chop vegetables, can’t she? Anyone can do that. Besides, giving guests something to do helps them feel at ease.”

  10

  Philippa

  I stood at the cutting board in Margot’s cheery kitchen, wearing a borrowed apron and chopping onions.

  “Good knife work,” Charlie said as he looked over my shoulder. “You can always judge a cook by the way she handles an onion.”

  Margot, who stood at the stove, stirring an enormous pot of mashed potatoes, turned to look at me. “Wow. You should feel very proud, Philippa. I’ve known Charlie for years and he’s yet to say anything nice about my cooking skills.”

  Charlie walked over to the stove, picked up a spoon, dipped a tiny taste of potatoes from the pot, and frowned. “And today will do nothing to change that, Margot. You need more salt in these potatoes and more butter. A lot more butter. Christmas is a full-fat holiday. There’ll be no watching of waistlines today. Not in my kitchen.”

  “Technically,” Margot said as she tossed a palmful of salt into the pot, “it’s my kitchen, Charlie. But I’m not trying to keep down the calorie count. I ran out of butter.”

  “You ran out of butter?” he gasped. “On Christmas? How is that possible?”

  “I had it on my list,” Margot said defensively, backing away as Charlie elbowed past her to turn off the burner under the potatoes, “but t
here was so much to buy ….”

  “Never mind,” Charlie said, holding up his hand. “I’ll run to our house and get some more. Leave the potatoes until I get back. Take the rolls out of the oven when the timer goes off.” He slipped his arms inside the sleeves of his coat.

  “Hey, Charlie? As long as you’re going out, check the temperature in there, will you?” Margot jerked her head toward the living room. “I don’t know where my sister could be. Dad hates it when people are late.”

  “Don’t worry,” Charlie replied. “Evelyn’s on top of it. She’s used to dealing with grouchy old men. Anyway, your sister’s not late. Not yet. The way things are going it could be hours before we’re ready to serve.” He gave the swinging door that separated the kitchen from the living room a push and disappeared.

  “Very funny!” Margot called before turning to me. “I know he sounds awful, but that’s just Charlie’s way. He’s really just a big teddy bear.”

  As if to confirm this observation, the kitchen door swung in the opposite direction and Charlie stuck his head through it. “By the way, Margot, what you lack in culinary skills, you more than make up for in presentation. The table looks beautiful,” he said and, without waiting for her response, popped out just as quickly as he’d popped in.

  “See? Charlie’s a bit rough around the edges, but he has a good heart.”

  I nodded. “He’s fine. I’ve always enjoyed a good curmudgeon.”

  Margot giggled. “You came to the right town for that. Wait until you meet Abigail. She makes Charlie look like a poseur but, if she likes you, you won’t find a better ally in this town than Abigail Spaulding.”

  “Then I guess it’s a good thing she wasn’t at services. Don’t think I made many allies today.”

  Margot carried the wastebasket over to my side of the kitchen. “Don’t talk like that,” she said as she scooped up the detritus of my handiwork, a pile of papery onion skins, and dumped them into the trash. “It was fine. I thought you made some very good points. It was fine,” she repeated, as if saying it twice would make it true and as if fine was the same as good.

  “Waldo Smitherton was very taken with you, and Charlie spoke well of your knife skills. Coming from him, that’s a real compliment. I’m not kidding.”

  She stood next to me, staring at the cutting board as I took the last onion, made six quick, deep cuts into the flesh, another six crossways, then chopped through the onion with a speed which was, I’ll admit, a little show-offy. But I think I can be forgiven for that. I’ve spent hours watching celebrity chefs perform this dazzling bit of showmanship and even more hours mastering it. Until now, I’d had no opportunity to display my skills to anyone besides Clementine. She hadn’t seemed that impressed.

  “Wow!” Margot said. “Where’d you learn that?”

  I shrugged, unwilling to admit how many late nights I spend watching Emeril and Rachael and Jamie. After Tim died, cooking shows became my sleeping aid of choice.

  “I’ve always liked to cook. Tim used to say it was my beef bourguignon and chocolate lava cake that convinced him to marry me.”

  Margot made a sympathetic little noise. I’d told her about Tim when we met at the parsonage, right after she’d told me about her breakup with her old boyfriend. Every psych textbook I’ve ever read says that the best way to draw someone out is just to listen, but I don’t think that’s always true. Sometimes, when a woman shares a secret, especially one you can tell she didn’t plan on sharing, it makes her feel better if you tell her one of your secrets in exchange, as a sort of pledge of good faith. There’s probably an official phrase for this in textbooks about interpersonal communications, but I’ve always called it “trading hostages.” That’s what I did with Margot.

  I wasn’t surprised that she’d shared personal information with me and so quickly. People have always told me their stuff, even before I was ordained. Maybe I’m easy to talk to. I hope so. Sometimes people just need a safe place to unload their troubles.

  Don’t get me wrong, telling Margot about my broken heart, how Tim’s death left me in mourning not just for my best friend and lover but the death of all the plans we’d made for children, a home, life as we had thought it would and should be, wasn’t just for her benefit. Sometimes I need to share my stuff too. A minister has to choose her confidantes with care. However, Margot seemed trustworthy and entirely honest, guileless even. More importantly, I liked her.

  It was sweet of her to invite me to Christmas dinner, especially at the last minute. But as I stood in Margot’s kitchen chopping vegetables, I felt emotional, almost teary, and not because of the onion.

  Christmas is a day for celebration and hope and gratitude. I know because I just preached a whole sermon on the subject. I have every reason to feel hopeful and grateful. God gave me a church for Christmas—a lovely church in a charming Norman Rockwell village filled with kind-hearted people who take in stray pastors and invite them to Christmas dinner at the last minute. I should be happy. Instead, I am suddenly swamped by loneliness and longing. I miss my family and I miss Tim. I miss all those connections and complications that make life such a struggle and give it such meaning.

  This is a nice town, but I don’t know this place, these people. I am a stranger here and it feels strange. Things will look brighter after the holidays, I suppose, when my work will begin in earnest. On the other hand, maybe they won’t. The reaction to my sermon was, unfortunately, about what I’d expected it to be. That doesn’t bode well for my future in New Bern. But one way or another, I’ll soon be too busy for introspection. What a relief. It is more blessed to give than to receive and, for me, usually much easier.

  Contrary to Charlie’s prediction, Margot’s sister was late for dinner. Very late. Repeated calls to her cell phone went unanswered. Margot’s dad grew increasingly irritated as the minutes ticked past. He paced in front of the fireplace, clanking his ice in his glass, occasionally fishing out a piece and chewing on it, and grumbling.

  “Margot, did you tell her that dinner would be served at two?”

  “Yes, Dad.”

  “Well, why isn’t she here? It’s quarter to three. And here we all sit, waiting, while the turkey dries out.”

  “Not at all,” Charlie assured him, though we both knew it wasn’t true. “The turkey is on schedule. Can I refill your glass, Werner? There’s plenty of eggnog.”

  “I’ll do it,” Margot said, taking her father’s glass and scurrying into the kitchen.

  “I’m sure she’ll be here soon,” Evelyn said. “She probably ran into traffic.”

  “The roads were so icy coming down here,” Margot’s mother said, turning to Evelyn. “There were spots where we couldn’t go more than fifteen miles an hour.”

  “We got here,” Werner harrumphed. “Right when we said we would.”

  Margot returned from the kitchen with her father’s glass. Werner stood directly in front of the fire with one arm crossed over his chest, tossed back half his eggnog in one gulp, and started chewing on another ice cube. I’ve never known anyone who drank eggnog on the rocks, but I suspected, for Werner, the ice was more about giving him something to do than keeping his beverage cold.

  “I tried Mari’s cell again,” Margot said. “No answer. Maybe we should go ahead and eat.”

  The table was pretty, with a long, low line of white poinsettias wrapped in gold paper and ringed by white votive candles for the centerpiece and set with gold-rimmed china and tall crystal goblets that sparkled in the candlelight. Charlie and Evelyn had brought a bunch of white and gold Christmas crackers to the party, a gift sent by Charlie’s sisters in Ireland, and put one next to each place setting.

  Charlie demonstrated how to pull on the strings to open the cracker. The resulting pop made everyone jump, and the sight of Charlie wearing a pink paper crown on his head made everyone laugh, easing the tension. For a few minutes the room was filled with sounds of popping paper and the sight of adults looking silly and pleased in their own paper crowns,
showing off the cheap plastic trinkets they found inside the paper tubes.

  Margot filled goblets with champagne. Charlie carried the turkey in from the kitchen and placed it on the sideboard, carving knife at the ready. Though it was his daughter’s table, Werner instinctively placed himself at the head of it. When everyone was seated, he bowed his head to bless the food, but his wife laid a hand on his arm.

  “Werner, perhaps Reverend Clarkson should say the prayer?”

  He looked at me, frowning. We were all members of the same denomination, but Werner Matthews seemed uncomfortable with the idea of a female minister. He’d barely talked to me all day. It didn’t bother me; I’d run into that sort of thing before and would again.

  “Please, Mr. Matthews,” I said, bowing my head slightly, “you go ahead.”

  After Mr. Matthews prayed, Charlie carved and served the bird while the rest of us passed bowls and platters from hand to hand, filling our plates until there wasn’t room for so much as an additional cranberry. The turkey was a little bit dry, but that didn’t seem to make any difference to anyone but Charlie, who grimaced slightly when he took his first bite. Everything else was delicious. Now that the food was on the table, Margot’s father was more relaxed, which seemed to come as a relief to Margot.

  He was an interesting man, bristly, but clearly dedicated to his family and just as clearly used to being in charge of everything—his business, his wife, and his daughter. Margot was forty, a woman with a home of her own and a successful career, yet her father spoke to her and of her as though she were still a girl, a good girl and the apple of his eye, but a girl just the same. And Margot responded in kind, deferring to his opinions.