by Lauren Wood
Anna looked around a bit, but she wouldn’t leave the room without me. “Are we going to explore this place, or what?”
I was surprised by the request but agreed to a little exploration. I did want to check the place out because I’d heard lots of things about it. It was most likely a place that guys got drunk and tried to scare each other. It certainly was in a good location for that and I wanted to see if I could do the same to Anna and get her back in the sleeping bag with me a little quicker. Then there would be only one way to spend the time and that’s what I was looking forward to.
We didn’t get far before it was clear that Anna wasn’t going to go for it. She was clinging to me, but she wasn’t getting turned on, just getting more scared. Having enough of it since it wasn’t working, I convinced her that it was time to go back to the front entrance where the sleeping bag was.
Anna agreed, and I could tell that she was done being here. Now I just had to sidetrack her enough. It certainly wasn’t impossible. I had a one-track mind tonight and getting inside of her was all I could think about.
When we got back to the sleeping bag, she got in first and didn’t take off her clothes. I asked her about it and she refused to get naked just in case she had to run out of the house suddenly. There was nothing that I could do about it and I had to go along with it. I got in behind her in the sleeping bag and zipped us up in it. There wasn’t much room, but that was okay because my hardness was able to press against her butt cheeks without me having to do anything. The excuse was that I really had nowhere else to go.
“What are you doing Matt?” Her voice was strained, and I liked the way it sounded. She knew exactly what I’m doing.
“Isn’t it clear what I’m doing Anna? I thought you knew me by now.”
She giggled. “Yeah, but you’re not going to get far with my clothes on, so I don’t know why you’re setting yourself up for failure.”
I snorted my answer and then tried not to do it again. If she thought that I couldn’t get passed a few layers of cotton, then she didn’t know me all that well at all. That wasn’t going to stop what was going to happen between us next.
“I will get far enough.” My pants were already unzipped, and my cock was pressing up against the fabric that was supposed to stand in my way. I was going to just pull it all to the side and slide in that way, knowing she was wet twenty minutes ago, but I wanted her to be the one that took them off. I wanted it to be Anna that made it happen just because she was so damn horny. This was all I could think about and even though I was dying for it, I wanted her submission this time in full.
Pushing forward, I angled towards her need and she whimpered as I pressed against her hole, moving in slightly as I pushed the panties upwards. I knew well enough that Anna wanted me as badly as I wanted her and after a few thrusts that got me nowhere, she whined that it wasn’t right what I was doing.
“I can’t get passed the clothes.”
She huffed out some air and pulled her panties down, along with her shorts. I didn’t even let her get them off her legs before I was surging forward, deep inside of her.
Anna made a whining sound when I wouldn’t let her legs free to get the shorts off. It kept her legs pressed together and gave my dick more stimulation as I pushed in between her legs repeatedly. It was only when I wanted to feel more of her and to push deeper that I finally let her legs free and she kicked them off. Anna bent her legs and stuck her ass out to take all of me and the change was like night and day. It felt like I’d been fucking two different people.
My hand moved around and played with the closest tit that I could get my hands on. I pinched her nipple and rolled it in my fingers. She gasped, and I felt her coming with nowhere to go in the small sleeping bag. I just kept pumping into her until she cried out for the fifth time and I was unable to hold back any longer.
I thrust forward a few more times before stopping deep inside of her. I came hard, sending my rushing fluid inside of her. She pushed back against my chest and I knew she’d had enough.
We were sweating when we unzipped the sleeping bag and looked around. The house didn’t look so scary anymore she told me, and I figured that it had to do with the fact that she’d been screaming the place down for an hour. If there were ghosts here, I had to think that they would have taken off. My plan had worked.
“So, do you want to stay here all night?”
She crinkled her face up. “Don’t tell me that you’re still scared.”
“No, nothing like that. It’s just I have jizz on me and I would like to take a shower. Round two at the dorms?”
She was a girl going after my heart and I was thankful to get her mind off things. I know that she was worried about me leaving, that I wouldn’t be able to wait, but I’d known for a long time that Anna was the one. We had a chemistry that was undeniable and the more I was with her, the surer I was. I wanted her to finish her degree and then come to me. I could wait and knowing that I would be gone soon was hard to talk about. I was going to miss this.
“Sounds like a plan.”
Picking up the sleeping bag, we made it to the car from down the dirt path. It was easier to see as our eyes had become accustomed to less light and we talked, and she giggled on the way. The house was no longer creepy and scary apparently.
“You know, I could see why someone would want to live out here. It’s so peaceful.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah, and I can scream as loud as I want to when we fuck, and no one is bothered.”
Her words reminded me about round two. We wouldn’t have the freedom at the dorms, but I was going to make sure that she had a lot to hold in. Fuck I was going to miss her.
Anna
I was getting bitter. After the failed almost-marriage with Jesse, I started to question everything. I’d thought he was the one, but now I knew better. He wasn’t the one at all. He cheated on me with god only knows how many people. It left me not believing anything was real.
Going to bed after my best friend’s wedding, I knew that there was going to have to be something new for me. I didn’t want to think about how everything had turned out the way that it had. I needed to think about what could be better. I went to sleep thinking about the old days and how my future was going to look now that I wasn’t going to be married. I was still trying to figure that one out while I watched Callie marry the man of her dreams.
My mind knew better than me and instead of going to the future, my brain went to scenes of the past. Back when things were easier. I missed college and the easy lifestyle that came from it. I missed old boyfriends, one that had always made me feel like I was the only girl in the world.
My mind was going straight back to the what-if in my life that I still wondered about.
“Where are you going Anna?”
I had a buzz and I kind of shrugged lopsided with my shoulders. “I don’t know. Where are you going?”
He grinned at me, those perfect white teeth flashing between his lips. “I’m going to California in the morning, but for now I’m right here with you.”
The reminder made me scowl and I pouted from the refresher. “What am I going to do with you gone? I’m going to miss you. I’m going to be completely lost without you Matt.”
Matt waved me off and kissed me to make me forget. “You are going to have plenty to keep you busy Anna. You still have a year of school for your degree. That will keep you busy. I just hope that you still come to me when you’re done here.”
I promised that I would, and I promised a lot of things to Matt. I loved him as only a woman can love her first. He wasn’t the first man I was with, but he was the first one that made me think that there was something to love in general. He made me believe in it and he had made me come more times than I probably would the rest of my life without him.
His mouth moved to my neck while I worried about the future and I felt a chill run through me. I don’t know what it was about Matt, but he always knew just where to touch me to make me h
is. I was always trembling after a moment with him and I could feel all the doubts leaving my body. When we were together, it was just us. The rest of the world didn’t exist.
Pulling me down into his lap, I felt the hard need pressing up against me and it made me moan. Not only did it feel good crushing against my core, but it was also the sweet knowledge of how he was going to feel stuffed inside of me moments from now. That’s what I was thinking about and that was what got me so hot and wet. It was all that I could think about when he was touching me. I wanted him inside of me straight away, pushing against every barrier that I had for him with his thickness.
“Don’t go Matt. Please don’t go. Stay here with me forever and make me feel the way you do.”
I was going to regret it in the morning, but tonight I was not above begging. I wanted him to stay because I somehow knew that if he left I would never see him again. I clung to him as he lifted me up and made sure that I was indeed as ready as I said I was. His fingers pushed deep as my eyes closed and my head went to his shoulders. I was already so needy that I couldn’t stand to sit upright like he wanted.
“Oh. Yes.”
“Don’t think about it right now Anna. It’s only about this moment and how I feel inside of you.”
Just like that he was pressing deep with his member, thrusting up from his seated position. I was hanging onto him for dear life and I knew that there was something going on. This wasn’t just sex. It was so much more than that. When Matt was inside of me, it felt like we were finally as one and I was finally complete.
The screams heard were my own, drowning out the sexy little grunts with each push in. I loved the way he sounded when he was turned on and inside of me, but I was lost in my own bliss tonight. Closing my eyes to block everything else out, my head went back as my whole body exploded for him. Matt knew it better than I knew it myself and I was always amazed how he could make me feel with not much effort on his part.
Matt never stopped with one though. I would finally beg him to stop, to come, anything to give myself a moment break from the mind shattering way he felt inside of me. It was always more than I was able to take with him, but I tried relentlessly to one day match him. Back then, he was the one that controlled my body like it was his own.
When I couldn’t take anymore, really couldn’t, several minutes after I thought I was done, Matt pulled me down and kissed my lips as he came inside of me. The throbbing of his cock mixed with the sudden heat of his seed pushed me over the edge. I was stuck on him and he wouldn’t let me up. Each time I moved, it only sent more pleasure to both of us. I had to break the kiss, so I could breathe. He was taking the very air out of my lungs.
I slipped off him and onto the bed beside him. My whole body was shaky, and my bones felt rubbery. It was this feeling of pure satisfaction and something else, something far more than physical.
“I mean it Matt. Don’t go.” I felt a tear coming to my eye and running down the outside of my eye to my hairline. It was gone, never to be seen, but I could feel it and it made me sadder. I had to get a grip.
“I have to go Anna. It’s something that I’ve always wanted to do, and I must. You know that everyone in my family went into the military. It’s always been the plan. I didn’t imagine you in it, but one year is nothing to the lifetime we are going to spend together. You can’t wait that long?”
I told him that I could, and I wanted to believe it, but I knew then that I would never see him again. I knew deep down that this night was going to be our last night together. It killed me inside, truly did and I didn’t want to think about it. I didn’t want to look into his eyes and say something that I knew deep down wasn’t the truth. We wanted to believe that it was all going to be okay, but at the end of the day, I really wasn’t sure. I knew I was going to miss him and tears ran down my face while I laid on my chest, puddling underneath me as I went to sleep.
Morning came, and he was gone. I knew that he would be. He had an early flight and I knew that there would be one of his sweet notes on the night stand, telling me goodbye and how much he loved me.
I looked at the envelope for a long time and I could never bring myself to read it. It was all lies of being together forever. But I knew it wasn’t true and I couldn’t do it to myself. All I remember feeling was the most suffocating emotion of sadness that I’d ever encountered.
I woke up with a start and felt the exact same way again. Why was I thinking about Matt? He was the man from my so distant past. He was the first love and for some reason, I was still thinking about that letter he left. I never did read it and now I had to. I had to find that note and see what it had said all those years ago. There had to be a reason I was thinking about him, right?
Anna
That got me up and out of bed. I wasn’t too much into mystical stuff, but I had to think that Matt popping up in my dreams happened for a reason. I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to rest until I read that note. Maybe there had been something inside of it that would have changed everything. I hadn’t really thought about what I was going to do after that. I was just going in one direction because I really needed that now. I needed forward motion.
All my things from high school and college were at my mom’s place. She hoarded everything and wouldn’t let me throw them away. I’d wanted to, all of it because it was a past that I left behind, but I knew that my room was going to be full of all my things and all I had to do was go there and find it. No easy feat knowing my mom and her ways, but I was determined to go find what I was looking for. Why did I think this note was going to change anything?
It was silly, but I was up for a road trip down memory lane. I hadn’t been home in several years and when I called, my mom was happy to hear that I was coming. I wasn’t going to tell her why of course, but I was looking forward to seeing her as well as finding the letter. I don’t know why, but for once since I’d found about my cheating fiancée, I felt like things were going in the right direction. It was an unexpected one, but after watching Callie fall for an old flame, it was easy to wonder if the same could be true for me. But I wasn’t going to wait around for fate to thrust us back together. I was under the impression that sometimes fate needed a bit of a jumpstart. Sometimes, we must make our own fate and that’s exactly what I was going to do.
I hugged her and looked around the house as I did. This wasn’t the same mom that I knew, and the house was almost empty. I was used to walls of boxes and ‘treasures’ as she called them. Now, there were very few nick knacks and the place was all spic and span.
“What have you done with the place?”
She grinned at me. “I’ve been wanting to show you for a while Anna, but you never come home. I didn’t want to tell you on the phone. I thought that it was a little too big for that or that you wouldn’t believe me.”
I was speechless as I walked in. I’d really thought that I was going to have to walk through the trails of things that I had before. There had been rubbish and everything else on the ground. I hadn’t expected this. This was more than I could imagine. What was going on here?
Hugging her again, I felt emotion coming through. “I’m so happy for you. Good for you mom. I didn’t think I would ever see the house like this again. How did you do it?”
I really wanted to know because I’d tried so many times to help her clean it up, but she’d been resistant. Something had changed, and I wondered what it was that made all of this happen. What was the secret answer?
“I wouldn’t have been able to have done this without my new doctor. He’s helped me tremendously.”
There was a sparkle in her eyes and I smiled back at her. “Oh really? How is this doctor helping you mom?”
She blushed, and the answers were crystal clear. She was in love with her doctor.
“We started dating a year ago and he moved in a couple of months ago. I had to have it cleared out before he came.”
“Wow, a lot has changed since I’ve been home.”
“You should co
me more often. I miss you. I didn’t even know about the wedding until it ended, and Callie called me.”
I started to give her an excuse, but she waved me off. “You’re here now and that’s all that matters.”
Looking around, a thought struck me that was purely self-centered. If she cleaned up everything, did that mean that she threw away the letter as well, the whole reason I was here?
“So, does all of the house look like this now?”
I was asking without really asking.
“Most of it, though I didn’t mess with your room yet. I wanted to give you the opportunity to see if you wanted anything. You know that I didn’t want to get rid of your school things or anything that has memories for you. I don’t want to throw yours away. I know how hard it was to get rid of mine.”
“So, are you happier?”
I was breathing a sigh of relief. It was untouched and that meant the letter was still there.
“Yes, Charles is a very good man and he’s helped me tremendously. I’m too old to worry about how serious it gets, but he’s a good companion and he keeps me from bringing in more stuff. I don’t even go to the thrift store anymore.”
That was a miracle and I hugged her again. It was good to see her, but after the four-hour drive, I needed a nap and some time to find what I came here for.
“I think I’m going to run upstairs and lay down if that’s okay.”
She beamed at me, “Of course it’s okay. I’ve missed you Anna and I’m not going to spoil it by asking how long you’re going to stay. I’ll make lamb stew for dinner. I at least know that you’ll stay around for that.”
I already felt guilty for my lack of visiting, but she was making it worse and she knew it. Karen was the best at it and she was showing her true colors now.
“I’ll definitely be here for that.”