Rails Under My Back
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Gooseneck streetlamps drop nooses of slow swinging light. Mosquitoes pop and ping against hot, illuminated glass. The sun is still hours away. He will be gone by then.
Memory ambushes him, a drama of familiar names, faces, and scenes, which he translates into fact and feeling. He sees his own birth, the first flash of being, emerging from red ‘Sippi clay. He sees his lungs, great bellows, stoking his first fiery words. Sweat gathers next to his eyes. Quickening moisture. He counts every hair of his former sickness with mathematical precision. Carries it all back to the old place, a distant well. He will not remember. He will not dream.
Entire, the Red Hook buildings stand close together like friendly neighbors. He is surprised at the ease it takes him to return to Birdleg’s secret nest. A maze before when Lady T brought him here. A map now. He finds clean clothes—red—on the bare steel floor, neatly ironed and folded, waiting for him. He removes his old clothes. No use to him now. Naked, burns them in the center of the steel floor. Blood angers the fire. Flame rises tall and ragged, bear and claws. His body swells into open space around him. Red giant.
He wraps himself in the new clothes. They become him. A good clean color. His reflection wiggles and waves through the walls, red fish. He chuckles at his ability to multiply. A single red wave reinforced by another red wave and that wave reinforced by still another and on and on. All possibilities and probabilities.
Miles of switches, wire, and cable promise a glad net for the master fisherman. Glittering dials and buttons watch him like big frog eyes. He watches back with a renewed force of vision. Metal rubs against his hands, persistent and teasing, hungry dogs. His hands respond with heavy grace.
His naked feet rumble. Fire. Flame. Force. Foundation splinters. Concrete powders. Motion overpowers his stomach. He steadies himself. The city’s roar sinks away, subsumed by silent rising. Birds arrow by, shaking space easily from their wings. He waves his hands at stars that begin to show over the trees. He directs his eyes down at the lamplit city miles below his bare powerful feet. Tar Lake no larger than a tear. Twelve rivers all threadthin. Rhythmic cornfields like yellow waves.
Red Hook pulls away from the earth.
12/12/90–3/6/98
New York, Chicago, New York
JEFFERY RENARD ALLEN is a professor of creative writing at the University of Virginia. He taught for many years in the writing program at the New School as well as at Columbia University and New York University. Allen is the author of five books, including the novel Song of the Shank, which is loosely based on the life of Blind Tom, a nineteenth century piano virtuoso and composer who was the first African American to perform at the White House. It was a finalist for the PEN/Faulkner Award. Rails Under My Back won the Chicago Tribune’s Heartland Prize for Fiction, and Allen’s short story collection, Holding Pattern, received the Ernest J. Gaines Award for Literary Excellence. He is also the author of two collections of poetry. Allen is the recipient of a Whiting Writers’ Award, a grant in Innovative Literature from the Creative Capital Foundation, and a Guggenheim fellowship.
Born in Chicago, Allen holds a PhD in English (Creative Writing) from the University of Illinois at Chicago. He is the founder and director of the Pan African Literary Forum, and is the fiction director of the Norman Mailer Center Writers Colony.
www.jefferyrenardallen.com
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