CLAIMED BY THE BAD BOY_The Road Rage MC

by Paula Cox

  “Only that I was in prison for two years and now I’m back you wanna put shackles on me again, Boss.”

  “Don’t talk to him like that, you insolent shit!” Clint screeches, making as though to strike me.

  Grizzly holds up his hand, glancing at Clint like he wishes he, as well as Bri, was not here. “You want to make a name for yourself in the club,” Grizzly says.

  I think about these past years, the powerlessness, being told what to do, where to ride, who to kill. If I was VP . . . “More than anything, Boss.”

  Grizzly allows himself a smile at that, but a small, bitter smile. The sort of smile a man might give you before stabbing you in the stomach, as if to tell you he respects you, but he has to cause the damage anyhow.

  “But you have reservations about the club,” Grizzly says, watching me closely.

  I think about keeping them to myself, but this is the time, if there ever is going to be a time, to tell him what I think is going on. I swallow, knowing that this could cause me to be cast out from the club. “Boss,” I say, “I think Clint’s gathering men around himself in an attempt to take power away from you. Just think about it—”

  “Now hang on a minute!”

  “Just think about it,” I go on, louder, talking over Clint. “Why does he always have his own personal guard? Why does he have men who will go to him before they come to you? Where does he get his arrogance from, his sense of entitlement? The way I see it, Clint is trying to make it so the club doesn’t need you anymore. He’s trying to make it so, one day, he can make a bid for President.”

  Clint blusters all through my speech, but I just raise my voice and talk over him. Grizzly watches me with an unreadable expression. Clint makes to speak when I’ve finished, but Grizzly swipes his hand, silencing him. For a long time, Grizzly watches me, and then he says, “You two.” He turns to the two goons standing behind Clint, like two guardian angels who’ve been in the ring a few too many times. “If I were to tell you, right now, to beat Clint until his legs didn’t work, what’d you do?”

  The eight-fingered man mutters, “We’d do it, Boss.”

  “And if I were to tell you,” Grizzly goes on, “to put a bullet in the back of Clint’s head, what would you do?”

  The scarred man says, “Do it, Boss.”

  Clint, shifting uncomfortably, murmurs, “Let’s hope it never comes to that, Boss.” He smiles, but it’s forced, false.

  “You see?” Grizzly says, facing me again. “If that’s not loyalty, what is?”

  When I try to speak, Grizzly swipes his hand again. That’s the power this man has . . . but his power has blinded him, I see. He thinks he’s invincible. But still, he is the Boss, and I need him on my side if I’m ever going to get anywhere in the MC.

  “You want to advance,” Grizzly says. “Fine. Good. Then do it like your father did it. Not by throwing around baseless accusations, but by working hard, climbing up the ranks.” When he mentions my dad, memories rush into me, the way they will when they’ve been ignored for a long time. I remember crying when Dad died, weeping like my eyes were burning with acid, and then I remember Grizzly, brown-haired then, lifting me up and telling me it’d be okay, telling me he’d take care of me. I remember this man, my new father, making good on his promise. I remember him schooling me, teaching me, raising me. I remember hundreds of times looking to this man for guidance, and so right now, I cannot just ignore what he’s telling me. The roots go too deep.

  “I’m doing that, with the men, the warehouses . . .”

  “Yeah, and you’re doing a damn good job. But I need you to deliver a package to another club. I need you to be a courier one more time.”

  I bristle, annoyed, but I can’t exactly say no. The deck has been stacked against me, bringing me here like this. “What club?” I ask, not that it matters much.

  “The Flaming Skulls MC,” Grizzly says.

  I take a step back, memories hitting me again, but dark, warped memories, memories dripping red.

  “Wait,” Grizzly says, voice low, glancing across the porch to Brat, who is rocking Charlotte back and forth trying to get her to sleep. “It’s not like that, Slick. Let me explain.”

  Slowly, he stands up. “I need to talk to Slick alone,” he announces. “Wait here everyone.”

  He gestures for me to follow. I do so, and in the house he explains it all to me, explains the danger of the trip, explains the risk, explains the timings, and ten minutes later when we return to the porch, I’ve got a feeling of fierce determination inside of me, revenge aching in my chest, fists clenched, jaws clenched. This will be a huge task for the club, but there’s more to it than that, ’cause it’ll mean vengeance on the men who spent two years torturing me, it’ll mean obliterating the Masked Man and all his sadistic bullshit.

  “I’ll go to Seattle,” I say, clicking my neck from side to side. “I’ll deliver the damn package.”

  “You will,” Grizzly agrees, patting me on the back.

  “Wait!” Bri whispers urgently, as though she wants to shout but can’t because Charlotte is finally asleep. “What are you doing—going back there? You can’t go back there, Slick! Think what happened to you last time! Think about how long you were gone. Do you really want to miss out on two more years of—” She cuts herself short, looking at her father, but I know what she was about to say. Do I really want to miss out on two more years of our daughter’s life?

  The answer is no, and the question makes me want to turn away from the life and run into the mountains and make a nice, quiet life with Bri and Charlotte. But then I remember the pain, and the heat, and the blades, and the hate. I remember hunching in wintertime over a book so cold the pages were icy to the touch. I remember my piss freezing in the bucket they gave me instead of a toilet. I remember the night of blood, and how something died inside of me. I remember riding with them, being forced to betray my father’s legacy. All of this, none of which anybody but me knows, comes to me, and I know I can’t refuse this task.

  “I have to do this, Bri,” I say, all too aware of the men around us, judging us, especially Grizzly. He doesn’t look too pleased that I’m even talking to his daughter, let alone in such an intimate way. I shrug, and go on in a sterner tone, “The club is the most important thing. It was the most important thing to my father, and it’s the most important thing to me.”

  “Be at the club tonight; they’re expecting the package late tomorrow. You’ll have to ride all night and all the next day, it’ll be tough, but I know you’re up to it.” Grizzly drops into his seat, and that ends the matter.

  I head to my bike, and Bri heads to her car, but Clint and his goons stay behind to settle some business with Grizzly. So when Bri signals to me that she’s pulling over with her blinkers, there’s no one around to stop me from joining her. She climbs from the car, face red, and waits for me to join her. Charlotte is in the back, in her car seat, swaddled with what looks like a thousand belts. When I reach her, she makes as though to slap me across the face. I catch her wrist.

  “You’re going back!” she hisses, voice breaking. “After everything that happened to you over there—”

  “You don’t know what happened to me over there!” I growl, dropping her hand and taking a step away from her. “Nobody but me and the fucks that did it knows what happened to me over there, Bri, and it’s them I’ve got a meeting with.”

  Traffic whizzes by us so that Bri has to shout, her voice whipping in the wind. “Do you know how much I missed you when you were gone, Slick? Every single night I dreamt of you!” She flushes, but presses on: “Every night I dreamt of you! Every night I was never sure if you were going to come back to me! Every night you were gone, a piece of me died. Every night you were gone, I felt myself turning to—turning to dust!” She stops, panting, words failing her.

  “This is for the club,” I say, turning away. “This is for the club and those fucking bastards up in Seattle who tried to take the club away from me.”

  “Wh
at’s in the package, Slick?” she calls at my back.

  “Death,” I mutter, climbing on my bike and ignoring the way she stares at me, arms at her sides, like she expects me to be the hero and climb off the bike and go to her and wrap my arms around her and make everything okay.

  When will she realize that I’ve never been the hero?

  I kick my bike into life, and ride away.

  Chapter Twelve

  Bri

  I tell Heather that I may be away for a couple of days, give her money for daycare, and then wait on the outskirts of the club on my motorbike, helmet visor pulled down, wearing dark plain leathers which will, hopefully, hide my identity. The sun is setting as I sit here, waiting for Slick’s bike to race by, a pit in my stomach. I don’t want to leave Denver, leave my daughter—and Heather gave me hell about it—but I won’t let Slick go to Seattle all over again, not alone. If the Flaming Skulls take him captive, this time there needs to be a witness; this time we need to get him free immediately, not after two long years.

  Soon, Slick’s bike zooms past, going at least eighty miles per hour. I kick mine into gear and growl after him. I stay a few cars behind him on the freeway, head low, watching as he weaves between the traffic. The night is bright with stars and moonlight, and pretty soon I get the feeling that Slick knows he’s being followed, though not by whom. If he knew it was me, I doubt he’d be ducking and weaving like he is, giving me a good chase, making me exercise my biking muscles. I ride between trucks, duck behind cars, bob in and out of lanes, keeping up with Slick every step of the way. He keeps this performance up well into midnight, and then slows down and cruises. Perhaps he no longer sees me—I’ve dropped far back, keeping him just within my view—or perhaps he just doesn’t see me as a threat. I smile to myself, despite the danger, wondering how he’d react if he knew that Brat was keeping up with the master courier.

  I may keep up with him, but I get a whole new respect for him as we ride. Night deepens, and he doesn’t stop, doesn’t even look like he might stop. Then, as though minutes not hours have passed, the sun is rising and still he doesn’t stop. I suppress dozens of yawns, telling myself I can ride just as well as him . . . and then for the rest of the following day, he keeps on, non-stop. I begin to get tired, but I tell myself that if I stop, and if he gets taken, it’ll be my fault. Nobody will know; I won’t be able to bring the cavalry in. So I keep on, gritting my teeth, feeling myself become the tomboy I was for so long, when Slick and I used to ride dirtbikes and quadbikes around the mountains, danger and tiredness the furthest things from our mind.

  Time seems to bend as we ride, midday coming and then afternoon and then evening again, and I’m so tired and so determined that I barely notice any of my surroundings. I don’t notice the change in the roads, or the cars, or the road signs. I just keep my eye on Slick, promising myself I won’t let him out of my view. And then, somehow, it is almost midnight again and we are stopping near Seattle’s docks.

  I pull up out of view, six or so warehouses down from where Slick stops near the water. When I step from the bike, my legs, my back, my arms—everything in my body screams out its punishment. Everything in my body tells me I’m an idiot for following the Road Rage’s best courier. But still, aching body or no, I have to admit I’m proud. Once I’ve worked the kinks out of my body, eaten a couple of energy bars and washed it down with bottled water, I crouch down behind a crate and watch Slick.

  The docks are dead this time of night, the moon reflecting off the torpid water, a deep night-blue. Slick stands on the edge of the water, a suitcase in his hands, rolling his shoulders and shaking out his hands. Slick has always had an animal look about him, but now it is exaggerated. He looks like a lion about to make a kill, the way he shifts his muscles, the way he moves. I can’t see his face from here, but I can imagine the intensity of it. Throughout all his movements, however, he is careful with the suitcase, so careful that I begin to wonder if there’s something dangerous in there . . .

  “A bomb,” I whisper. “God help me, don’t say it’s a bomb.”

  Slick turns at the sound of somebody’s voice. Men spill onto the dock, dozens of men, and I creep closer, from my hiding place to another hiding place about a dozen yards ahead: a pile of discarded netting, heaped up, which I lie down behind.

  “Look who it is,” a man is saying, a man with a vicious, mean voice.

  “Oh, wow . . .” Another man sniggers. “It didn’t take you long to return, did it, Slick? Did you really miss us so much?”

  “I want to say one thing to all of you,” Slick says, his voice dark, his tone steady.

  “What?” a man snaps. “What you talkin’ about? Are they the diamonds?”

  “You tried to break me,” Slick says, in that same intense, calm, deadly voice. “And you failed. You tried to warp me, and you failed. You tried to turn me into a monster, and you failed. Now—”

  “What the fuck’s in that package you son of a bitch—”

  Suddenly, the sky blazes orange-yellow, a plume of light blotting the stars. The sound is like the world breaking in half, the wood of the dock shattering, and the smell of smoke and flesh reaches me, dim from my place over here, but definitely there. I place my hands over my ears, wincing at the sound of the explosion, and bury my face in the netting.

  I close my eyes to the explosion, as the dock is torn near in half, and as men die screaming and roaring in agony. To my side, a man sprints, spouting flames and charging madly for the water, only he must now be blind, because he charges straight into an old broken crate instead. I crouch away, shimmy along what remains of the dock, and peer through the devastation. My ears are ringing, my eyes stinging and red with smoke, my face warm as though I have sunburn. Parts of the dock hiss as they crumble into the water, their flames dying.

  I should be running. I should be thinking of my daughter and sprinting as fast as I can away from this mayhem, not toward it, but I keep thinking of Slick, keep wondering if one of these pieces of severed flesh belongs to him. I can’t bear the thought, and so I find some bravery in me I didn’t know I had. Or maybe it’s stupidity. I’m not sure. Whatever it is, I move through the smoke, calling his name over and over. “Slick! Slick! Slick!” I step on mulchy, bloody patches of what used to be Flaming Skulls, have to jump more than once to avoid falling into the sea, and choke on the smoke, wheezing with each breath. “Slick! Slick—” I keel over, coughing, as a spot off to my left goes up in flames. Whoosh , and a tower of fire rises into the air.

  I have no choice but to back away, but backing away means leaving Slick behind, backing away means leaving the father of my child behind. I think of him, not just how he is now but how he was as a kid, the older kid with the bright blue eyes and the protective attitude, taking me into the mountains to ride and play like a boy. Now he might be lying here, facedown, as dead as the Skulls are dead. Tears sting my eyes, slide down my cheeks, and I know it’s not just from the smoke. I want to collapse to my knees and weep—and maybe I would, if Charlotte was not waiting for me—but instead I turn around and stumble away from the smoke, back toward my bike. The further I get away from the heart of the destruction, the more my vision clears, until I am standing on the opposite side gasping in breaths and watching as one remaining man stumbles in a circle, confused, dazed, burning.

  “Slick!” I shout, voice hoarse. “Slick! Please, Slick!” Through the hissing water, the spitting flames, the moaning dying, I am sure I hear the dim ringing of sirens, growing louder. Soon, they’ll be here, the flashing lights my family has ignored for as long as I can remember. They’ll question me, which might lead to the club, and eventually my daughter . . . I can’t let that happen. I am crying openly now, as I limp toward my bike, images of Slick’s fire-charred exploded body forefront in my mind. I have to go, though; there’s no other choice. I’m not sure if that’s true or if it’s just what I’m telling myself.

  I’m about to climb onto my bike when I see it: a Slick-sized blur of shadow, a few yard
s out in the water, swimming toward the docks. I know it could be my mind playing tricks on me, and I know I should just go, but even the remote possibility that it might be Slick is something I can’t ignore. I kick my bike alive, and cruise to the edge of the dock.

  “Slick?” I call uncertainly.

  “Bri—Brat—Bri!” Slick calls back, gargling water.

  “Slick!” I scream, kicking my stand and jumping from my bike. “Are you hurt?”

  “Just a headache,” he calls up to me. “I jumped, before it exploded, but—A bit of shrapnel or somethin’. Can you help me up? I feel like a fuckin’ twelve-gauge just went off next to my goddamn ear.”

  I lie flat on the dock and reach my arm into the darkness below. The flames have died down now, providing no light. Slick’s hand is wet and cold, but it’s the sweetest thing I’ve ever touched. Going from assuming he’s dead to knowing he’s alive in the space of a few minutes is enough to make me want to burst into tears all over again. But the sirens are blaring, and we need to go.