A Life's Morning

by George Gissing

  The five Misses Cartwright did not greatly relish the change; they were disposed even to resist, to hold their ground on the verge of St. Luke’s, to toll their father that he must do his duty and still maintain them in that station of life for which they were clearly designed by Providence. But Mr. Cartwright, after many cries of ‘Wolf,’ found himself veritably at close quarters with the animal, and female argument had to yield to the logic of fact. ‘Be thankful,’ exclaimed the hard-driven paterfamilias, when his long patience came to an end, ‘that we haven’t all to go to the Union. It ‘ll come to that yet, mark my word!’ And, indeed, few people in Dunfield would have expressed surprise at the actual incidence of this calamity. Mr. Cartwright was ostensibly a commercial traveller, but obviously he must have joined with this main pursuit many odds and ends of money-making activity, seeing that the family kept out of debt, and still indulged themselves in extravagances which many substantial households would have declared themselves unable to afford. If the town were visited by an opera company, or by some dramatic star going the round of the provinces, the Cartwrights were sure to have prominent seats, and to exhibit themselves in becoming costume. If a bazaar were held, their ready-money was always forthcoming. At flower shows, galas, croquet parties, they challenged comparison with all who were not confessedly of the Dunfield elite. They regularly adorned their pew in the parish church, were liberal at offertories, exerted themselves, not without expense, in the Sunday school feast, and the like. How—cried all Dunfield—how in the name of wonder was it done?

  We are not concerned to probe the mystery; suffice it that the situation be exhibited as it appeared to the eyes of the world. When the afore-mentioned crisis declared itself, though every one enjoyed the opportunity of exclaiming ‘I told you so!’ there were few who did not feel really sorry for the Cartwrights, so little of envy mingled with the incessant gossip of which the family were the subject. Mrs. Cartwright was held in more or less affection by every one who knew her. She was a woman of fifty, of substantial frame, florid, and somewhat masculine in manner; a thorough Yorkshire-woman, her tone and demeanour were marked by a frank good-nature which often exaggerated itself into bluffness, and was never consistent with the delicacy of refined taste, but which unmistakably evinced a sound and benevolent disposition. When her sharp temper was stirred—and her daughters gave it abundant exercise—she expressed herself in a racy and vigorous vernacular which there was no opposing; never coarse, never, in the large sense, unwomanly, she made her predominance felt with an emphasis which would fain have been rivalled by many of the mothers of Dunfield. Lavishly indulgent to her girls, she yet kept them thoroughly in hand, and won, if not their tenderness, at all events their affection and respect. The girls themselves were not outwardly charming; Jessie, the youngest but one, had perhaps a certain claim to prettiness, but, like all her sisters, she was of coarse type. Their education had been of the most haphazard kind; their breeding was not a little defective; but a certain tact, common to the family, enabled them to make the very most of themselves, so that they more than passed muster among the middle-class young ladies of the town. As long as they sojourned on the borders of St. Luke’s, nothing was farther from the thoughts of any one of them than the idea that they might have to exert themselves to earn their own living; it was only of late that certain emphatic representations on the part of their father had led Mrs. Cartwright to consider which of the girls was good for anything. Amy, the eldest, had rather a weak constitution; it was plain that neither in body nor in mind could she be called upon to exert herself. Eleanor who came next, had musical faculties; after terrific family debates it was decided that she must give lessons on the piano, and a first pupil was speedily found. Barbara was good for nothing whatever, save to spend money on her personal adornment; considering that she was the plainest of the family—her sisters having repeatedly decided the point—her existence appeared on the whole singularly superfluous. Then came Jessie. Of Jessie her father had repeatedly said that she was the only girl of his who had brains; those brains, if existent, must now be turned to account. But Jessie had long since torn up her school-books into curl-papers, and, as learning accumulated outside her head, it vanished from the interior. When she declared that arithmetic was all but a mystery to her, and that she had forgotten what French she ever knew, there was an unprecedented outbreak of parental wrath: this was the result of all that had been spent on her education! She must get it back as best she could, for, as sure as fate, she should be packed off as a governess. Look at Emily Hood: why, that girl was keeping herself, and, most likely, paying her mother’s butcher’s bill into the bargain, and her advantages had been fewer than Jessie’s. After storms beyond description, Jessie did what her mother called ‘buckle to,’ but progress was slight. ‘You must get Emily Hood to help you when she comes home for her holidays,’ was Mrs. Cartwright’s hopeful suggestion one night that the girl had fairly broken down and given way to sobs and tears. Emily was written to, and promised aid. The remaining daughter, Geraldine, was held to be too young as yet for responsible undertakings; she was only seventeen, and, besides, there was something rather hopeful going on between her and young Baldwin, the solicitor, who had just begun practice in Dunfield. So that, on the whole, Geraldine’s lot looked the most promising of all.

  In previous years; the family had never failed to betake themselves for three weeks or so to Scarborough, or Whitby, or Bridlington; this year they had for the first time contented themselves with humbler recreation; Mrs. Cartwright and four of the girls managed a week at Ilkley, Jessie was fortunate enough to be invited to stay for a fortnight with friends at the seaside. She was the latest to return. Emily being now at home, there was no longer an excuse for postponing study; books were procured, and Jessie, by way of preparation, endeavoured to fathom the abysses of her ignorance.

  We have heard Emily’s opinion as to the possibility of studious application in the house of the Cartwrights. Her own visits thither were made as few as possible; she declared that she never came away without a headache. In spite of restricted space, the Cartwrights found it impossible to relinquish the habit of universal hospitality. As if discontented with the narrow proportions of her own family, Mrs. Cartwright was never thoroughly at ease unless she had three or four friends to occupy every available square foot of floor in her diminutive sitting-room, and to squeeze around the table when meals were served. In vain did acquaintances hold apart from a sense of consideration, or time their visits when eating and drinking could scarcely be in question; they were given plainly to understand that their delicacy was an offence, and that, if they stayed away, it would be put down to their pride. It was almost impossible to hit an hour for calling at which the family would be alone; generally, as soon as the front door opened, the ear of the visitor was assailed with laughter loud and long, with multitudinous vociferation, Mrs. Cartwright’s rich voice high above all others. The room itself was a spectacle for men and gods. Not a member of the family had the most rudimentary instinct of order; no article, whether of ornament or use, had its recognised station. Needlework lay in heaps on table, chairs, and floor; you stretched out your legs too far, and came in contact with a casual flower-vase, put down to be out of the way; you desired to open the piano, and had first to remove a tray of wineglasses. To listen to the girls’ conversation for five minutes was to understand their surroundings; they were hopelessly feather-brained, they chattered and gabbled with deafening persistency. If there was no good in their talk, there could scarcely be said to be any harm; they lived so completely on the surface of things that they impressed one as incapable even of a doubtful thought. One reason why Geraldine was the only one who had yet definitely attracted a male admirer might lie in the fact that there was no air of femininity about the girls, nothing whatever to touch the most susceptible imagination; a parcel of schoolboys would have been as provocative. And this notwithstanding that they talked incessantly of lovemaking, of flirtations, of the making and breaking
of matches; it was the very freedom and shallowness of such gossip that made it wholly unexciting; their mother’s presence put no check on the talk—she, indeed, was very much like her daughters in choice of subject—and the young men who frequented the house joined in discussion of sexual entanglements with a disengaged air which, if it impugned their delicacy, at all events seemed to testify to practical innocence.

  Those young men! Dunfield was at that time not perhaps worse off in its supply of marriageable males than other small provincial towns, but, to judge from the extensive assortment which passed through the Cartwrights’ house, the lot of Dunfield maidens might beheld pathetic. They were not especially ignorant or vulgar, these budding townsmen, simply imbecile. One could not accuse them of positive faults, for they had no positive qualities, unless it were here and there a leaning to physical fatuity. Their interests were concerned with the pettiest of local occurrences; their favouritisms and animosities were those of overgrown infants. They played practical jokes on each other in the open streets; they read the local newspapers to extract the feeblest of gossip; they had a game which they called polities, and which consisted in badging themselves with blue or yellow, according to the choice of their fathers before them; they affected now and then to haunt bar-parlours and billiard-rooms, and made good resolutions when they had smoked or drunk more than their stomachs would support. If any Dunfield schoolboy exhibited faculties of a kind uncommon in the town, he was despatched to begin life on a more promising scene; those who remained, who became the new generation of business men, of town councillors, of independent electors, were such as could not by any possibility have made a living elsewhere. Those elders who knew Dunfield best could not point to a single youth of fair endowments who looked forward to remaining in his native place.

  The tone of Dunfield society was not high.

  No wonder that Emily Hood had her doubts as to the result of study taken up by one of the Cartwrights. Still, she held it a duty to give what help she could, knowing how necessary it was that Jessie should, if possible, qualify herself to earn a living. The first thing after breakfast on Tuesday morning she set forth to visit her friends. It was not quite ten o’clock when she reached the house, and she looked forward with some assurance of hope to finding the family alone. Jessie herself opened the door, and Emily; passing at once into the sitting-room, discovered that not only had a visitor arrived before her, but this the very person she would most have desired to avoid. Mr. Richard Dagworthy was seated in conversation with Mrs. Cartwright and her daughters or rather he had been conversing till Emily’s arrival caused a momentary silence. He had called thus early, on his way to the mill, to inquire for Mr. Cartwright’s present address having occasion to communicate with him on business matters.

  The room was so small that Emily had a difficulty in reaching Mrs. Cartwright to shake hands with her, owing to Dagworthy’s almost blocking the only available way round the table. He stood up and drew back, waiting his turn for greeting; when it came, he assumed the manner of an old friend. A chair was found for Emily, and conversation, or what passed for such, speedily regathered volume. The breakfast things were still on the table, and Miss Geraldine, who was always reluctant to rise of a morning, was engaged upon her meal.

  ‘You see what it’s come to, Mr. Dagworthy,’ exclaimed the mother of the family, with her usual lack of reticence. ‘Jessie can’t or won’t learn by herself, so she has to bother Emily to come and teach her. It’s too bad, I call it, just in her holiday time. She looks as if she wanted to run about and get colour in her cheeks, don’t you think so?’

  ‘Well, mother,’ cried Jessie, ‘you needn’t speak as if Emily was a child in short clothes.’

  The other girls laughed.

  ‘I dare say Emily wishes she was,’ pursued Mrs. Cartwright. ‘When you’re little ones, you’re all for being grown up, and when you are grown up, then you see how much better off you were before,—that is, if you’ve got common sense. I wish my girls had half as much all put together as Emily has.’

  ‘I’m sure I don’t wish I was a child,’ remarked Geraldine, as she bit her bread-and-butter.

  ‘Of course you don’t, Geraldine,’ replied Dagworthy, who was on terms of much familiarity with all the girls. ‘If you were, your mother wouldn’t let you come down late to breakfast, would she?’

  ‘I never remember being in time for breakfast since I was born,’ cried the girl.

  ‘I dare say your memory doesn’t go far enough back,’ rejoined Dagworthy, with the smile of one who trifled from a position of superior age and experience.

  Mrs. Cartwright laughed with a little embarrassment. Amy, the eldest girl, was quick with an inquiry whether Emily had been as yet to the Agricultural Show, the resort at present of all pleasure-seeking Dunfieldians. Emily replied that she had not, and to this subject the talk strayed. Mr. Dagworthy had dogs on exhibition at the show. Barbara wanted to know how much he would take for a certain animal which had captivated her; if she had some idea that this might lead to an offer of the dog as a present, she was doomed to disappointment, for Dagworthy named his price in the most matter-of-fact way. But nothing had excited so much interest in these young ladies as the prize pigs; they were in raptures at the incredible degree of fatness attained; they delighted to recall that some of the pigs were fattened to such a point that rollers had to be placed under their throats to keep their heads up and prevent them from being choked by the pressure of their own superabundant flesh. In all this conversation Dagworthy took his part, but not quite with the same freedom as before Emily’s arrival. His eyes turned incessantly in her direction, and once or twice he only just saved himself from absent-mindedness when a remark was addressed to him. It was with obvious reluctance that he at length rose to leave.

  ‘When are you all coming to see me?’ he asked, as he stood smoothing his felt hat with the back of his hand. ‘I suppose I shall have to give a croquet party, and have some of the young fellows, then you’ll come fast enough. Old men like myself you care nothing about.’

  ‘I should think not, indeed,’ replied Barbara the plain. ‘Why, your hair’s going grey. If you didn’t shave, you’d have had grey whiskers long ago.’

  ‘When I invite the others,’ he returned, laughing, ‘you may consider yourself excepted.’

  Amid delicate banter of this kind he took his departure. Of course he was instantly the subject of clamorous chatter.

  ‘Will he really give a croquet party?’ demanded one, eagerly.

  ‘Not he!’ was the reply from another. ‘It would cost him too much in tea and cakes.’

  ‘Nonsense!’ put in Mrs. Cartwright. ‘He doesn’t care for society, that’s what it is. I believe he’s a good deal happier living there by himself than he was when his wife was alive.’

  ‘That isn’t very wonderful,’ exclaimed Amy. ‘A proud, stuck-up thing, she was! Served him right if she made him uncomfortable; he only married her because her people were grand.’

  ‘I don’t believe they ever go near him now,’ said the mother.

  ‘What did they quarrel about, mother?’ asked Jessie. ‘I believe he used his wife badly, that’s the truth of it.’

  ‘How do you know what the truth of it is?’ returned her mother, contemptuously. ‘I know very well he did nothing of the kind; whatever his faults are, he’s not that sort of man.’

  ‘Well, you must confess, mother, he’s downright mean; and you’ve often enough said Mrs. Dagworthy spent more money than pleased him. I know very well I shouldn’t like to be his wife.’

  ‘You wait till he asks you, Jessie,’ cried Barbara, with sisterly reproof.

  ‘I don’t suppose he’s very likely to ask any of you,’ said Mrs. Cartwright, with a laugh which was not very hearty. ‘Now, Geraldine, when are you going to have done your breakfast? Here’s ten o’clock, and you seem as if you’d never stop eating. I won’t have this irregularity. Now tomorrow morning I’ll have the table cleared at nine o’clock, and if you
’re not down you’ll go without breakfast altogether, mind what I say.’

  The threat was such an old one that Geraldine honoured it with not the least attention, but helped herself abundantly to marmalade, which she impasted solidly on buttered toast, and consumed with much relish.

  ‘Now you’ve got Emily here,’ pursued Mrs. Cartwright, turning her attack upon Jessie, ‘what are you going to do with her? Are you going to have your lessons in this room?’

  ‘I don’t know. What do you say, Emily?’

  Emily was clearly of Opinion that lessons under such conditions were likely to be of small profit.

  ‘If it were not so far,’ she said, ‘I should propose that you came to me every other day; I should think that will be often enough.’

  ‘Why, it’s just as far for you to come here,’ exclaimed Mrs. Cartwright. ‘If you’re good enough to teach her—great, lazy thing that she is!—the least she can do is to save you all the trouble she can.’

  ‘I’ve got an idea,’ observed Jessie. ‘Why shouldn’t we have lessons in the garden?’

  ‘That’s just as bad. Emily ‘ll have the same distance to walk. Don’t hear of it, Emily; you make her come to Banbrigg!’

  ‘I don’t in the least mind the walk,’ Emily said. ‘Perhaps we might take it in turns, one lesson in the garden and the next at Banbrigg.’