Destiny's Love: A Wolf Shifter Mpreg Romance (Savage Love Book 1)

by Preston Walker

  “There’s no doubt in my mind that you’re pregnant, but we have to confirm it. We’ll get you a test, and you’re going to take it. When we know for sure, we’re going to get you to a doctor so they can tell us everything we need to do. I’m not an expert, but I think there’s going to be a lot.”

  Dusty, admitting that he’s not an expert on something? That hardly ever happens.

  Smiling a little at his own thoughts, Markus cuddled a little closer to his mate. He found that he wanted to feel warmth now instead of cold.

  Although Destiny had almost certainly overheard his thoughts, he continued speaking as though he hadn’t. “And then, you and I are going to buy a house. Not some apartment. We’re going to get a house, we’re going to live together, and we’re going to have this baby. We’re going to raise it to be a fine member of society that wants nothing to do with motorcycles, and then we’re going to unleash them upon the world. Then you and I are going to sit back and laugh, and live out our golden years arguing and farting until we die in bed. The end.”

  “That seems a little morbid.”

  “Is it?” Destiny actually sounded surprised. His lips curved against the top of Markus’ head, moving into the shape of a sheepish smile. “I was actually looking forward to it. Do you not want to grow old with me?”

  “Of course I do!” Markus wrapped his hands around Destiny’s shoulders, holding on tighter. “I want to be with you forever to make up for all the time that we missed out on.”

  “Well, you would only need to be with me for about five years to do that.” Markus tightened his grip a little more, past the realm of need and into the territory of painful. Destiny winced. “Okay. I get the point. I won’t tease you anymore about that. Sorry, muffin. Really, tell me what’s on your mind.”

  Markus didn’t even really know what was on his mind. There was just a sort of feeling deep inside him that was bothering him, an emotional variety of nausea. He let his cheek loll against Destiny’s chest, trying to grab hold of the words that kept slipping out of his grasp like he was trying to hold onto baby eels.

  “It scares me, a little. That the rest of our lives are going to be defined by something that we didn’t even plan for. And we only just got back together, we’re already mates, and now there’s a baby inside me. Isn’t it all going too fast?”

  “I think it’s always going to be like that,” Destiny replied. His voice was very quiet, very contemplative. “Don’t you remember going to sleep one night as a little kid and waking up already in high school? Then you blink and you’ve graduated. Another blink, and you’re suddenly the leader of an entire pack where everyone is depending on you and you have very little time to yourself.”

  “I thought you were talking about me,” Markus said.

  “That means you understand. Don’t you?”

  He did. Each year that he was alive seemed to glide by faster than the previous one. Things felt so long when he was going through the day, but when he looked back he was always shocked to realize that a month had gone by, or a whole fucking year. Where was the time going? Would it only keep speeding up, faster and faster with every year until suddenly he was on his deathbed wondering where all the time had gone?

  His trepidation suddenly took a hard turn into the realm of fear. He could hardly breathe. It felt like air was getting lodged in his lungs whenever he tried.

  “That all just means that we need to take our time and slow down when everything is going too fast,” Destiny murmured. His hands swept soothingly up and down the length of Markus’ spine, easing tension away with each rub. “We might live to be 80, or even 100, or more. That’s a really long time. So much time. Anything could happen. We could do anything, be anything. Whatever you want, baby.”

  Baby was the operative word, wasn’t it?

  “We’ll still have the kid to think about.”

  “Yeah, we’ll be parents. But we’ll love that little fucker, won’t we? It came from me and you. It can do anything with its life, too. We’ll be able to watch it become its own person, discovering itself. Won’t that be something, Markus? Don’t you want to do that with me?”

  Markus hesitated, his thoughts whirling around inside his mind. He couldn’t catch onto them, couldn’t form a coherent sentence.

  Slow down when everything is going too fast.

  And that was what he did, pulling in a deep breath and letting it out again. He closed his eyes and pushed all his thoughts away, focusing only on what was going on around him. The coldness of the edge of the bathtub beneath his bare ass, the lines of the surface embedding themselves across his cheeks. His chest, rising and falling with his breath. Destiny’s body doing the same. His heartbeat. Destiny’s heartbeat. Strong arms around him, fingers gliding over his skin. The scents of alpha, hand soap, and foamy toothpaste. The way the stubble on his chin felt when it rasped over Destiny’s broad shoulder.

  How their thoughts touched, like fur brushing against fur.

  His tiredness, the fading echoes of nausea. The dizziness, which still wavered around the edges of his vision. The sensation that he had ignored for much too long, that he was suddenly more than himself.

  Gradually, he felt his thoughts start to slow down until they had finally come to a standstill.

  Destiny was right. This pup growing inside him, no more than a miniscule blob of cells at the moment, was created from their love. It would emerge out into the world, small and blurry-eyed and oh-so-new. A blank slate. A universe’s worth of potential. As it grew, it would not only discover itself as a human but also as a wolf. Alpha, omega, or beta, finding its own place, discovering what it could do. The ABCs, counting to ten, building skills on top of those, and honing the ones that mattered most to it. Growing, learning, developing, someday to have a family of its own that it would watch do the same things that it had.

  Markus let out a soft sigh, then nodded against Destiny’s chest. “Okay.”

  “Okay what?”

  “Let’s have this little fucker.”

  Destiny laughed and kissed him, then took him to bed where they made love so sweetly and slowly that the clock on the nightstand turned over from one hour to the next. Pleasure came in little waves, a sustained force that eventually rose to a crescendo.

  Replete, Markus lay on top of Destiny’s chest and allowed himself to fall asleep to a play of gentle images of the family they would be in a few months.

  The night was peaceful.

  The morning was chaos.

  13

  Destiny looked through the open doorway of the YMCA apartment that he shared with Markus, not sure whether to be just surprised or absolutely astonished at the sight before him. It was only the day after he discovered Markus was pregnant, and he had been expecting to have much more time to feel peaceful and wonderful about the news.

  But seeing Cain and Brock standing shoulder-to-shoulder in the hallway outside his apartment was not a peaceful or wonderful thing.

  His hackles went up, and he couldn’t help it. Squaring his shoulders, he glared at both men and waited to see what the hell they could possibly want from him.

  “We need help,” Brock said. His eyes slid up to look at Destiny right in the face, and they were glassy, empty, and hopeless.

  Destiny nearly went reeling from the blank gaze. He felt somehow extremely shitty after locking eyes with Brock, as if he had seen straight through to the wolf’s core and found absolutely nothing. That was not at all how things should have been, not when Brock was one of the most solid and composed people that he had ever known. Brock’s solidity often infuriated him in the past, that he could be so utterly fucking clueless about the reality of things going on around him; the absence of it made him wish to have it back so that he could get mad and pretend everything was normal.

  “Please,” Brock added.

  Destiny nearly swooned, because Brock never said please in his entire life. The disparity between what he knew and what was happening now was like vertigo, a dizzying sense th
at something had gone completely and utterly wrong when he wasn’t looking.

  “Come inside,” Destiny said.

  He was full of misgivings about this. He probably wouldn’t have allowed Brock to come inside if not for the fact that Cain was with him. Cain possessed his own astonishing level of stubbornness, though this had been tempered a great deal after mating with Ralphie and having their child together. Since then, his instincts had grown gentler, and he thought things through with more clarity, almost as if he and his mate were rubbing off on one another so that they acquired some of the other’s traits.

  Cain wouldn’t have agreed to come along unless there was a very good reason for this, one that he believed in himself.

  So, Destiny would allow them inside.

  He stepped back away from the door so that the other alphas could come in.

  The pair hesitated, glancing at one another as if trying to decide who would go through first.

  Brock lowered his head, gesturing for Cain to take the lead.

  Holy shit.

  Brock never willingly took second place for anything.

  Taking a closer look at the two men as they entered the apartment, Destiny started to see things that he had missed. Brock’s hollowness wasn’t limited to his eyes. It showed in every part of his being. He was thinner than he had been, and his muscles no longer seemed as impressive because of the limp way he held himself, like the only thing holding him together was his skeleton. His shoulders drooped. He slouched. His hair even seemed patchy.

  No. It was patchy.

  He’s been pulling it out.

  Cain looked even worse, though in a different way. He was used to leading the pack and taking charge, what with the fact that he was second-in-command and often gave out orders and guided the members of SC whenever Destiny was absent. However, he hadn’t ever had to do that for longer than a few hours at a time, and now he had been at it for almost a month.

  His handsome, strong face had acquired a gaunt look from stress. His eyes were haunted. His movements were twitchy, jumpy, and sudden. He fiddled around with his hands, a decidedly nervous habit that he had never had before. While he hadn’t gone as hollow as Brock, he did have a certain aged look about him. Everything about him, from his eyes, to his skin, to his stature, looked as if it had been put through the wringer and hung up wet. He could have announced that he was having his 50th birthday today, and it would be believable.

  The two of them were united in a single, horrifying way. They both reeked of blood, though they were more or less clean right now.

  If there was anything Destiny knew, it was that the coppery reek of bloodshed hung around long after it was washed away.

  Of the two wolves, only Cain looked around the little apartment. There really wasn’t much of it, since it was smaller even than the room where they had stayed at the Days Inn. The only decorations were what had come with the place when they rented it out: a few mirrors, some furnishings. Nothing else.

  Everything else here had been bought out of necessity, including some food in the cupboards, some plastic utensils and dishware, a laundry basket, and a coffee pot. The two of them also had some clothes and a few other personal belongings that Cain had fetched for them.

  Markus was sitting in what could be called the living room, idly browsing through a newspaper. Both of them had gotten very big on the news, since it was now their only connection to the outside world, except for what Cain could tell them.

  “That today’s paper?” Cain asked.

  Markus glanced up over the top of the paper and blinked rapidly. He stood up, approaching a little. “Brock? What are you doing here?”

  Cain looked at Destiny before anyone else spoke, pressing his eyebrows together in a silent question.

  Cain had been through the whole pregnancy thing with Ralphie. He knew what he was looking at when he saw Markus, knew how to identify the pregnancy by scent alone. Right now, he was asking Destiny what was going on with that.

  Reluctance prickled at Destiny’s spine. Momentarily ignoring Markus, he shook his head at Cain. He felt Markus’ annoyance—and his understanding—and saw Cain fight to smooth out his features again.

  “No,” Markus said after a moment. “It’s yesterday’s.” He turned back to his brother, as Brock continued to stare at the floor. “Bro? What’s going on?”

  Brock didn’t reply. It almost seemed as if he couldn’t, as if he had gone mute with shame in the presence of his younger sibling.

  Cain cleared his throat. “There’s something you haven’t heard about. It just happened.” He looked up at the ceiling, at the fan slowly rotating up there, and a sound like a whine rose up in his throat.

  “What haven’t we heard?” Destiny commanded. “Cain, Brock. Sit down, both of you. Tell me what’s going on, and how the hell the two of you can be standing in the same room without ripping each other apart.”

  But he knew. He didn’t have the specifics. Didn’t need them. It was the message in their scent, that bloody reek uniting them. That was how they could stand to be near one another, how they seemed to almost be supporting each other. He had the sudden, eerie feeling that if he ushered Cain out in the hallway again, Brock would drop down to the carpet and start weeping.

  Cain and Brock went over to the couch in the living room. Their combined weight made the cheap piece of furniture creak and groan, sloping heavily downwards in the middle. They might even have damaged it permanently.

  Striding over to the armchair where Markus was sitting, still holding onto his newspaper, Destiny leaned one hip against it. He didn’t want to sit down, didn’t feel like he would be able to stay seated after hearing what these two had to say.

  Cain glanced over at Brock, who was slouched down so far on the couch that he looked like a lump of meat. Sighing, Cain fiddled restlessly with his hands in his lap. His throat worked, Adam’s apple bobbing wildly up and down. He licked his lips, wetting the cracked surfaces.

  Can’t rush him. Just gotta let him get it out on his own.

  After about a minute of mental preparation, during which Cain started to churn his hands together as if he was trying to wash off a particularly disgusting substance—blood perhaps?—the alpha finally spoke. “There’s been an attack.”

  Even though Destiny had known more or less what this was about, he still felt the news strike right through him like a jab from a sharp spear. Reaching out, he wrapped one arm around Markus’ shoulders. “Okay. Who’s dead?”

  “Who isn’t dead?” Brock muttered. He started to weep, tears sliding down his hollow cheeks. They were the large, burning tears of a tired child who doesn’t know what else he’s supposed to do.

  Destiny felt another jab from that spear. “Okay,” he said, almost a sigh. Memories of poor Stacy rose from the back of his mind like the tide coming in. He clenched his fists, struggling not to let his fear show. “Okay. Tell me. All of it. Now, please.” Markus leaned closer to him, and they clutched at each other.

  Brock was beyond speaking, so Cain went at it. His hands churned and churned, already rubbed raw and red. Pretty soon he would only be making more of what he was trying to get rid of. “You were right, Destiny. With what you said about that third pack. They must have been spying because it was like they knew that they couldn’t keep playing the subterfuge game. No more pretending to be from one side or the other so that we’d fight each other.”

  I don’t think they’re that clever.

  He didn’t say this out loud, but he was pretty damn sure that that ragtag group of filthy alpha males wouldn’t have needed to do any spying. They had to have seen it in the newspapers, on TV, or just plain overheard it. The fact that a large number of bikers had been injured in a fight where no one wanted to press charges. That would have been hint enough to them their plan had worked, probably much faster than they expected it to.

  God, how little it took to upset the balance of everything.

  “They attacked. Hard. All over the west. Yesterday. We
don’t know when it started. Police are still trying to sort everything out. Must have come out of the fucking shadows or something. Knuckles is dead. Crow is dead.”

  Remembering those two, the alphas who were secretly in love, sent fierce pain through Destiny’s stomach. He couldn’t breathe. They would never have their chance now.

  “Warhammer is dead. Salty Sue is dead. Tiny is dead. Bacco Bart is dead. The Shepherd is dead.”

  And on and on and on. A list that numbered in the dozens, as many as 30. Cain recited them all in a hollow monotone, a brief pause punctuating the list with each name.

  Destiny saw them all in his mind’s eye. Warhammer, that nerdy beta who only rode his motorcycle when he wasn’t playing computer games. Salty Sue, the alpha female with a chip on her shoulder. Tiny, who really was tiny, a little omega girl who rode her father’s cruiser to keep his memory alive. Bacco Bart, who was never anywhere without his disgusting chew; he left brown globs of spit behind him like a trail of breadcrumbs. The Shepherd, who was religious as hell despite being an avid gambler who was known to spend his winnings on prostitutes.

  He knew all of them. He had spoken with all of them, argued with them, instructed them, fought at their sides, listened to their grievances. He had done his best by each and every one of them.

  Now they were nothing but bodies in a morgue.

  The pain didn’t stop there. They had left behind families. Loved ones. Salty Sue’s girlfriend had killed herself. Tiny’s mother would be beyond devastated, having now lost the last thing keeping her connected to her deceased mate. Friends would feel their absences for the rest of their lives, always aware that something was missing.

  Then Cain was done. He had simply run out of words. A third of Shadow Claws, obliterated in less than 24 hours.

  That was only the beginning.

  Brock spoke through his tears. His voice was nasally, clogged with mucus. “Reuben is dead,” he started. That was the only name that Destiny knew, followed by a list of biker monikers so long that he lost count. The leader of Lethal Freedom must have talked for almost five minutes before he quit.