Espresso Tales 4ss-2

by Alexander McCall Smith

  Will kept his counsel. His eye had been caught by a bottle standing on a nearby shelf. Could it be? Was it possible?

  “Yes,” said Bruce jauntily, noticing the direction of his host’s gaze. “Petrus. Would you like to take a look?”

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  “It’s a very fine wine,” said Will. “Many people would say that it’s the finest wine there is, you know.”

  “Oh, I know that,” said Bruce. “That’s why I got in a supply.”

  “A supply?”

  Bruce affected nonchalance. “Actually, I bought three cases for that new business of mine. I thought that Edinburgh being the sort of place that it is, there might be demand for it. There are a lot of wealthy people who live here, you know – people who will be prepared to fork out for this sort of stuff.”

  “Oh, I know that,” said Will. He peered at the bottle on its shelf. “Would you mind if I took a look?”

  “Of course not,” said Bruce. “In fact, how about a glass?”

  Will raised an eyebrow. “That’s very generous of you,” he said. “I wasn’t . . .”

  “Of course not,” said Bruce, rising to his feet. “I’ve been looking forward to trying it myself and who better to share it with?”

  He crossed the room to take the bottle from the shelf. Then he handed it to Will, who examined it closely.

  “Lovely year,” said Will. “I take it that you know that this is pretty valuable?” He hesitated. “I suppose that you must know that, if you bought three cases of it.”

  Bruce was not giving anything away. “Yes,” he said, smiling.

  “This wine isn’t cheap, by any means. But what’s the use of having the stuff if you aren’t prepared to have the occasional glass?”

  He reached for a corkscrew and passed it to Will. “Care to do the honours?”

  Will carefully exposed the cork and looked at the top of it.

  Then, as Bruce fetched the glasses from the cupboard, Will gently twisted the screw into the cork and drew it up the neck of the bottle. It emerged with a satisfactory pop and he immediately sniffed at it and smiled.

  “So far, so good,” he said. “Now if you pass me the glasses, we’ll see what we have here.”

  Bruce’s expression was anxious as he passed over the glasses.

  This, he thought bitterly, is the moment of humiliation – the crowning humiliation, in fact, coming on top of everything that had gone wrong for him in recent months – that business over 294 Self-assertiveness Training for Civil Servants that stuck-up American girl, the loss of his job at that pathetic firm of Macauley Holmes Richardson Black, and finally that terrible betrayal by George and his haggis-like fiancée. He closed his eyes briefly, hardly daring to look at the dark red liquid which Will was now sniffing at and swirling round his glass.

  He watched in fascination as Will took a sip of the wine and moved it about his mouth, drawing in air through the lips.

  Nervously, he raised his own glass and sipped at the wine. It tasted all right to him – rather good, in fact – but then, in a rare moment of honesty, he said to himself: what do I know about this?

  Will looked at Bruce. “What a stunner!” he said.

  Bruce looked startled. “Stunner?”

  “A beautiful wine,” went on Will. “So supple and ripe – yet it has elegance and length. One can understand why this is seen as such a great wine. One really can.”

  Afterwards, when Will had left the flat, Bruce went into the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror. His face was lit with triumph, and in his ears rang Will’s parting words. His visitor had explained that he thought there would be no trouble in entering the remaining wine, now reduced to thirty-five bottles, but still a very impressive quantity, in the wine auction that was due to take place in a few days’ time. And then he had said: “And I suspect that you’ll clear at least thirty thousand for the lot, once commissions are taken.”

  Bruce looked back into the mirror and smiled at himself.

  “You’re a stunner yourself,” he said in self-compliment. “A human Chateau Petrus!”

  90. Self-assertiveness Training for Civil Servants It was about this time that the Scottish Executive decided that all civil servants above a certain level of seniority should receive self-assertiveness training. The reason why this training was offered only to those in more senior positions was simple: there appeared to be no need to increase the self-assertiveness of the Self-assertiveness Training for Civil Servants 295

  more junior civil servants, whose confidence generally exceeded that of their superiors. Indeed, greater self-assertiveness in the higher echelons of the Executive was thought to be the only way in which policies could be implemented in the face of opposition from below. And in due course, it had been announced, ministers themselves would receive self-assertiveness training to assist them to assert unpopular policies in the face of widespread public opposition and thereby to force their acceptance. (This is not to say that these policies were bad. Indeed, many of them were good; it’s just that the public cannot always be trusted to recognise a good policy when they see it.) Stuart had signed up for a personal assertiveness workshop that would require him to spend two hours alone in the company of an assertiveness counsellor. He was looking forward to this, as he had gradually been reaching the conclusion that whatever level of assertiveness he managed to achieve in his working environment, this was far from adequate at home. In particular, he had concluded that if he was to do anything about his relationship with his son, Bertie, then he would need to stand up to Irene.

  And that was an alarming thought. It was all very well to have scored a minor victory with Bertie’s attendance at Tofu’s bowling party, but it would be quite another thing to achieve the goal of getting Bertie out of psychotherapy, of relieving him of the need to attend yoga lessons in Stockbridge, and to dismantle, as far as possible, the remaining planks of what Irene called the

  “Bertie project”. And yet he owed it to his son. He had vowed that he would not let the little boy down: he would restore to him the tiny pleasures and idle moments of a happy boyhood.

  He would make his life whole again.

  Stuart sat in Meeting Room 64A/3B/4/16 (west) in the offices of the Scottish Executive, awaiting the arrival of the assertiveness counsellor, who was already ten minutes late. Stuart passed the time reading a newspaper, and was immersed in an editorial when the door was opened by a slight man in his early thirties, wearing jeans and an open-neck shirt.

  “You’re Stuart Pollock?” asked the counsellor, glancing at a clipboard in his hand.

  296 Self-assertiveness Training for Civil Servants Stuart replied that he was, and extended his right hand to shake hands. The counsellor seized his hand and squeezed it tightly.

  “Good to meet you, Stuart!” he said. “My name’s Terry. You got a problem with that?”

  Stuart blinked. “No,” he said hesitantly. “Of course not.”

  “You see,” said Terry, “some people think that the name Terry is a bit effeminate. Know what I mean by that?” Terry fixed him with a stare. “You don’t find me short, do you, Stuart?”

  “Not at all,” said Stuart.

  “And would it matter if you did?” asked Terry aggressively.

  “What exactly is wrong with being on the short side?”

  “I didn’t say anything was wrong with it,” said Stuart. “You raised it, not me. And, anyway, I don’t think your name is effeminate, Shorty . . . I mean, Terry. And your height is neither here nor there as far as I am concerned.”

  Terry continued to glare at him. “All right, let’s sit down. I’m going to take this chair, right? This one here. That’s my chair.”

  “That’s fine,” said Stuart.

  “But what if you really wanted to sit in that chair?” asked Terry. “What if you wanted my chair?”

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  “I don’t think that I would make a fuss
about it,” said Stuart.

  “It’s exactly the same as this chair over here. All the Scottish Executive chairs are the same, actually.”

  “And that worries you?” asked Terry. “Have you got a problem with the Scottish Executive, Stuart?”

  Stuart took a deep breath. Terry was extremely irritating, and they had had only five minutes of the two-hour session. He wondered whether he would be able to survive the full time; would it be entered in his file if he failed to complete the course?

  Would the conclusion be drawn that he lacked the requisite degree of assertiveness needed by a competent modern civil servant?

  “No,” he said in reply to Terry’s question. “I have no problems with the Scottish Executive. The only problem I have at present is a slight irritation with you.”

  Terry clapped his hands together. “That’s the spirit, Stuart!

  Well done! That’s exactly what I wanted you to say. I wanted you to assert yourself.”

  “Well, there you are,” said Stuart, relaxing visibly. “And I suppose, if I were to be completely frank . . .”

  “Always be frank,” said Terry. “Tell it how it is, Stuart. Don’t conceal. Get it out.”

  “Well,” Stuart continued, “I suppose that I do have a bit of a problem with my wife. She herself is rather on the assertive side.”

  “Assertive!” exclaimed Terry. “I bet she’s assertive! She’s emasculating you, Stuart. I’ve never met her but I can tell what’s happening. I see it all the time. Virtually every man I meet in this job has been emasculated by some woman. It’s endemic these days, absolutely endemic.”

  Stuart was surprised by the force with which the counsellor issued this judgment. By his own admission he did not know anything about Irene, and so how could he possibly judge her in such extreme terms? On the other hand . . .

  “Is it that bad?” he asked mildly.

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  space before it’s too late and they become the new victims, just as women used to be the victims of men. We have to fight back.”

  “So what should I do?” asked Stuart.

  “Tell her what you plan to do,” said Terry. “And if she objects, just ignore her. Leave the house. Women don’t like that. They don’t like it if you leave the house.”

  “Is that what you do?” asked Stuart.

  Terry thought for a moment. “It’s what I would do,” he said.

  “If I had to, that is. You see, I’m not heavily into relationships.

  I live by myself. I’m a relationship-free man. It’s the new thing.”

  “I see,” said Stuart.

  They talked for some time after that. There were exercises in self-assertiveness which Stuart was required to do – including assertive telephone techniques – and there was a lengthy discussion about assertive report-writing. And then, at the end, Terry placed an arm over Stuart’s shoulder and wished him good luck.

  “Do you feel better?” he asked.

  Stuart thought for a moment. No, he did not feel better. He felt, if anything, more afraid. It seemed to him that the odds had suddenly been seriously raised. It was not just Bertie’s future that was at stake – it was his own.

  91. Stuart Paints Bertie’s Room

  Stuart finished his self-assertiveness workshop at four in the afternoon. He decided to leave the office immediately, rather than wait until five. This was assertive, but not unduly so. He had arrived at work early that day and in terms of hours he was well in credit. So he left the office and made his way to a hard-ware store that he had walked past on numerous occasions but of which he had never taken much notice. It sold paints and paint brushes, he knew, and it was bound to have what he wanted

  – a large paint-roller and two tins of matt-finish white paint.

  He bought the supplies, thanked the shopkeeper, and began the journey home. He felt excited and anxious – in the same Stuart Paints Bertie’s Room

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  way as a schoolboy would be filled with a mixture of thrill and dread when planning some transgression. This, he thought, is how criminals must feel as they travel to the scene of the crime: hearts racing, mouths dry, every sense at a high pitch. And what he was proposing to do was, for him, almost criminal. He was planning to paint Bertie’s room, unilaterally, without consulta-tion, in complete defiance of Irene’s wishes. It was she who had chosen the existing colour-scheme, opting for pink because of its alleged calming properties and its refutation of the culturally-conditioned assumptions about the preferences of boys. Boys don’t like pink, was the conventional wisdom. Well, we would soon see about that! There was no reason why a sensitive boy, a boy brought up to eschew the straitjacket of narrow gender roles, should not approve of pink.

  Stuart knew that Bertie did not like his room – or “space” as Irene called it – to be pink. He had told him as much and had also said that as long as his room remained pink he could not possibly invite any friends to the flat, not that he had any friends, of course.

  Stuart had listened sympathetically to his son. “But you must have some friends, Bertie,” he said. “What about that boy, Tofu?

  Isn’t he your friend?”

  Bertie looked doubtful. “I’m not sure about him,” he said.

  “He may be my friend, but I’m not too sure. He keeps asking me for money and food – he’s a vegan, you know. I think that he may like me just because I can give him the things he wants.”

  “Some friends are a bit like that to begin with,” said Stuart.

  “But then they change after a while and become real friends –

  friends who like you quite apart from anything you can do for them.” He paused. “And what about that girl, Olive?”

  Bertie shook his head. “She thinks I want her to get lockjaw,”

  he said. “And I don’t. I don’t want anyone to get lockjaw, Daddy.

  I really don’t.”

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  like to get lockjaw, which he imagined was the only way, even if somewhat drastic, of getting them to keep quiet. But such thoughts were uncharitable.

  Now, climbing up the stairs to the flat in 44 Scotland Street, Stuart looked at his watch. Irene would be out, he thought, as she was taking Bertie to his saxophone lesson and they were both going to an extra yoga session after that. They would not be back until well after seven, which would give him a good two hours in which to paint Bertie’s room. It was not a big room, and paint-rollers covered a lot of wall in a very short time. By the time Irene and Bertie returned, then, they would be faced with a fait accompli.

  He let himself into the flat. To verify that the coast was clear, he called out to Irene. There was silence; just the ticking of a clock and the humming, somewhere in the background, of a fridge. Stuart deposited the tins of paint and the paint-roller in Bertie’s room and then went to change out of his office clothes. He knew that Irene did not like him to leave his clothes lying on the floor, and so he tossed his shirt down onto the bedside rug and threw his dirty socks into a corner.

  As he did so, he thought of Terry, and of how proud he would have been of him to see this. He was sure that Terry left his clothes on the floor of his flat; mind you, being a relationship-free man, Terry would not have had anybody to object to the practice.

  Once changed, Stuart went back to Bertie’s room. He moved around the pink walls, taking down the pictures which Irene had pinned up. A poster proclaiming the merits of Florence, the periodic table, a picture of Mahler. He sighed as he took them down and, on sudden impulse, rather than fold the periodic table away for putting back up once the new paint had dried, he tore it up
and tossed it into the wastepaper bin. Then, with the walls bare, he opened the first can of paint, poured it into a tray, and dipped in the paint-roller. Then he set to work.

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  paint which were appearing on Bertie’s carpet. From time to time he looked at his watch, and listened for any sound from the hall. But no sound came, and he continued with his work until the entire room had been transformed. No pink was to be seen. It was gone. Now Bertie could bring any friend home and he would never suspect that anything was amiss.

  When he had finished, Stuart tucked the empty tins and the painting equipment into a cupboard. Then, having made a not altogether successful attempt to clean the paint off the carpet, he returned to the main bedroom and changed. The paint-spattered clothes he tossed to the floor in a heap. Then he went to the kitchen and poured himself a large whisky.

  There was the sound of a key in the front door and voices.

  “And remember, Bertie,” said Irene, her voice drifting in from the hall to the kitchen where Stuart sat. “Remember that you’ve got extra Italian this week. That nice story about a little Italian boy who . . .”

  There was a sudden silence. Stuart looked into his empty whisky glass. It would have been reassuring to have Terry with him at the moment, he thought.

  92. Discussions Take Place Between Irene and Stuart The silence was broken by Bertie. “My room!” he shouted.

  “Look, Mummy! My room’s turned white!”

  The joy in Bertie’s voice was unmistakable and indeed became even more apparent with his next exclamation. He did not use Italian spontaneously now, but this was an occasion, he thought, when Italian seemed more eloquent than English. “Miracolo!”

  he shouted. “Miracolo!”

  Irene, standing at the door to Bertie’s room, surveying the transformation, was momentarily lost for words. But then she found her voice.

  “What on earth has happened here?” she said. “Somebody has painted . . .”