Fall in Love

by Anthology

  Why—so the shock of the water hurts more?

  I have to release my breasts anyway to ditch the thong. At least I can see my bra, shining like a beacon in the night—like a lighthouse for crazy females about to skinny dip in frigid water. I know where to toss my undies.

  Clouds part above me and shafts of silver-blue moonlight fall on us and the water.

  “Mia—” Ryan’s voice, deep and sexy and low, stops abruptly. Nineteen—like me—Ryan possesses the hottest voice of any guy at Hubert J. Rory High. Baritone tones and a deep, throaty laugh. The first time I heard him read a section of Shakespeare in English class, I swear I almost had a climax on the spot. And that was for Macbeth.

  I turn quickly. A spike of fear—this is going to be it. We’re going to be a thousand miles apart. He’s going to break up with—

  I forgot I’m naked. My breasts swing, nipples perky, the curves limned with silver. But I’m staring at Ryan. Seriously, I’ve seen David Beckham’s underwear ads, and Becks didn’t begin to look as good as Ryan. Bulging muscles define his straight shoulders, and his chest is broad and bronzed from the sun. A tattoo of a dragon perches on his left pectoral muscle. Just looking at his arm muscles makes me feel a tug deep inside. A hard, visceral tug telling me how much I want to wrap myself around him and take him deep inside me.

  It is more intense when you’re in love. Now I know. The jolt of desire is so strong my legs shake. My gaze coasts down his amazing gut. His stomach is a flat plane, with an eight-pack instead of a six. Who knew there were that many muscles?

  I let my eyes go a little lower—

  “Mia, you’re beautiful.” Awe fills his voice. Awe that wraps around my heart and makes it feel warm and soft, like it did when I signed for my perfect rose.

  He laughs. A rough, totally masculine chuckle that sends shivers through me.

  “I—I’m freezing. You, however, are completely gorgeous.” It’s on the tip of my tongue to compliment him more. To say he’s huge. To gasp, or take another furtive look between his legs and marvel as if I’ve never seen a guy’s cock before.

  I’ve never seen one like Ryan’s, I have to admit. It’s perfectly straight and points toward his navel. Blond hair skims down his stomach in an arrow and cuddles the hilt of his erection with crisp curls.

  He laughs, then sobers. “Do you really want to do this?”

  I don’t know what he means. Get naked? We’ve just done it. Have sex? Oh God, yes I do. After all the times I’ve shut my eyes and pretended things weren’t happening, this time I want to open my eyes wide and savor every wonderful moment with Ryan.

  “Are you sure you want to go swimming?”

  Swimming. Oh yeah, almost forgot about that. “You did dare me,” I hedge. “I never turn down a dare.”

  “That was something I never expected about you,” he says. “You look too serious and smart to give a crap about dares. But you’re crazier than me.” He grins, showing his dimples. “So you aren’t going to back down?”

  “If you don’t want to jump and you want to let me win, I’m good with that.”

  He holds out his hand. “No way, babe. We’re in this together.”

  My heart gets utterly squeezed. Every girl loves Ryan’s hair, which is now buzz-cut short since he’s going to military college. It looks soft as velvet and every female in senior year wants to find out for herself by stroking it. I can’t resist standing on tiptoe to try to run my palm over it now.

  That lifts my breasts upward and he groans.

  “I think I’m going to need to hit that cold water.”

  No, I want to say, you don’t.

  Ryan is like no guy I’ve ever known. We’re standing in front of each other naked, and he still is not completely certain this is going to lead to sex.

  Sometimes I used to cry myself to sleep. I used to think: what if I meet a nice guy, the kind of guy who would be wonderful and romantic and who you’d want to be married to forever? How can I have that nice, perfect, beautiful guy after what I’ve done?

  Now I think I can—as long as I don’t ever tell the truth.

  Standing beside Ryan, I stretch and dip my toe in the water off the edge of the dock. I scream. “Oh my god, it’s freezing!”

  I try to haul my toe out fast and I’m so stiff with cold I lose my balance. My arms flail. My heart stops beating—as if in preparation for the pain I’m about to endure. Ryan grabs for me. His fingers graze my arm and he tries to catch my wrist but my arms swing wildly, out of his reach.

  For a moment, I hang in space, then icy water slaps my back, wraps around my arms and legs, and sucks me into the cold, black depths. God, it feels like my lungs seized and my heart really did stop, and I suck in water in a silent scream.

  A splash beside me and a rush of bubbles. Strong arms wrap around me and I’m being lifted to the surface. It’s Ryan; he’s jumped in after me. I can swim, but when I hit the cold, it was like I forgot how to do it.

  We burst through the surface. Ryan treads water, drawing me against him, my back to his chest, so I can cough out water and breathe again. “Thank you.” He jumped into icy water to help me, without even thinking about it. That thought warms me. Also, my extremities are going numb.

  The dark grey clouds part and let moonlight spill down.

  His arm is around me, strong and secure. “Are you okay, Mia?”

  I tread water too. My ass bumps his cock, which is soft now. I imagine his balls must be sucked up tight in this cold. He leans back, pulling me with him. Powerful kicks glide us through the water to the ladder that hangs down the dock. My fingers are so numb I can barely make them curl around the sides. I start pulling myself out. A breeze rushes past. My nipples tighten so fast they almost jump off and run away.

  Ryan’s hand is at my waist, helping me up. He cups my butt, giving me a push.

  “Stop pushing,” I say. “You know what we forgot?”

  “Our brains?” Ryan asks. “I did a polar bear swim up here one drunken night in February and I swear the water was warmer than this. Come on, Mia. Get up the ladder and let me out of here.”

  “We forgot towels.”

  He curses, something Ryan almost never does. Unlike most guys, who swear in front of females because they believe it makes them sound cool (really, they should hear my mom when she’s stuck in traffic), Ryan refuses to use what he calls ‘profane language’ in front of a woman.

  He swims to the side of the ladder, puts both hands on the dock and pushes himself out of the water and onto his knee on the boards in one smooth, efficient motion. This makes his triceps bulge—he has amazing, huge triceps. They are bigger than my biceps, far bigger. His hips come out of the water, then his tight butt. Water runs down him, making him look as sleek as a seal. His short hair is plastered down, a caramel color in the darkness.

  Two fast strides take him to his pile of clothes. He picks up his plaid shirt and he comes back to me. Taking my hand, he literally hauls me out of the water and he wraps his shirt around me.

  “Ryan, I can’t take this. I’m soaking it. Anyway, what about you?”

  “I’m okay.”

  But I pad over, half hunched over to desperately use any body heat I have. I pick up my t-shirt and pull it on. It’s tight and sticks to my wet body. I hand Ryan his now wet shirt and he puts it on. I cuddle up against him, trying to warm him up. It’s a way of thanking him. The top of my head reaches his collar bone and I lick the cold water off his smooth pecs with my tongue. His shirt is open and he closes it around me. We’re sharing warmth—or we would be if we had any actual heat to share.

  “You know what we should do to warm up?” I tip my head up and whisper it. Not brilliant, but I can’t think of a smart way to ask for sex.

  “I can run up to the cabin and get you a towel,” he says.

  He’s amazing, still not getting what I’m talking about. With his muscled body—he’s incredibly well developed for nineteen—his gorgeous face (a sensitive, stunning Orlando Bloom sort of f
ace)—he could get laid anytime he wanted just by smiling. Almost any female would follow him home. Yet he’s not like that.

  “I was thinking of something else.” I don’t know what to say. I tend to be shy and trip over my tongue or not be able to think of anything brilliant to express all the emotion in my head and my heart. That’s happening now. So I have to act. I peel off my t-shirt. I press against his body, my bare breasts pushing against his chest. I put my mouth—hopefully warm—to his pecs. Planting a kiss there, I stick out my tongue and lick him, tasting the wet saltiness and Ryan-flavor of him, savoring the velvety texture of his skin against my tongue.

  For weeks, I’ve dreamed of this. But I’ve been too scared to go there. Too terrified I would scare Ryan away by revealing I wasn’t the ‘nice’ girl he believes me to be.

  He sucks in a deep breath, so loud and sharp I hear it. I’m playing innocent, but I know what to do because I’m not. I just have to do it right—so he won’t guess there’s anything more to my past than what I’ve told him: that I don’t have one at all. I give him a flirtatious look and run my tongue down over the plane of muscle until I reach his puckered nipple. Guys have no idea how sensitive they are there, I’ve heard.

  Ryan is no exception. Strumming my tongue over his nipple makes him go tense in surprise. Then he kind of melts, relaxing, and he moans huskily. “Oh Jesus,” he mutters.

  I suck, drawing his small, hard nipple between my lips. I love the way my mouth is making him groan. Love knowing I’m arousing him—I can feel his cock swell and push hard against my tummy.

  Gazing up at him, hoping I look sweet and beautiful under my lashes, I stroke my teeth lightly on his left nipple and pinch the right. His cock tries to move—I can feel it pulse against the skin of my bare abdomen. It’s hot too, hot and as hard as an iron bar. Suddenly, my stomach feels a little damp and sticky. He has a dribble of pre-coital fluid, getting him lubricated and ready.

  I am so ready.

  What I can’t get over is that he hasn’t pressed any advantage. He hasn’t grabbed my breasts and tried to push his incredibly upright erection between my legs.

  A stupid voice inside my head asks: what if he’s not doing it because he’s not really attracted to you? Or he doesn’t really like you?

  Stupid, stupid, because logically I know you can never measure how much a guy likes you by how much he wants sex. It doesn’t correlate. And if you fool yourself and think horniness means something, you always lose.

  I draw back. By instinct I search his face. I don’t see raw lust, or triumph, like some guys would reveal. His lashes are dipped over his large, beautiful eyes, and he looks like I’ve just shown him something amazing.

  “I thought you might like that,” I say. Perhaps too cocky.

  Ryan stares at me, his gaze confused and intense. He’s thinking and my heart sinks. He must be wondering how I knew to play with his nipples. How I knew it would arouse him so much. In the dark, his eyes look almost black—like the midnight sky—instead of their usual sapphire blue. “Cosmo,” I say casually. Then explain, “Cosmopolitan’s last issue. Fifty Steamy Moves to Blow His Mind.”

  “Cosmo is that…uh…kinky?”

  “You have no idea,” I say.

  “Which move is that? Out of fifty?”

  I giggle. “Number twenty-six. And the list gets way kinkier from there. I don’t even know if forty-five is physically possible.” I’m joking to distract him, and his blond brows shoot up high.

  “What is it?”

  “Later, maybe I’ll show you.”

  He bends a bit and his lips take mine. I love how Ryan kisses. With no sex to shoot for—because getting me into bed wasn’t something he was hustling to do—Ryan would kiss me for hours. Endlessly. Just his mouth on mine, his tongue teasing mine, changing angles, changing the way our tongues play. Ryan turned kissing into something glorious—I never knew kisses could be like that. I’d discovered that kissing finished fast when a guy’s end game was sex. Eventually even the sex got reduced to mere minutes because most of the foreplay had already happened in the guy’s head.

  I have to fight to forget the past while I’m attempting to seduce Ryan, but I’m determined to do it. I don’t want to do what I always do—when I’m intimate with anyone I feel like I’m floating above me and the person, looking down and watching, but not feeling a thing.

  This is Ryan. I want to feel every moment of this.

  I slide my hands up to his wide shoulders. My fingers touch the amazing muscles that define his huge straight shoulders, the smaller ones that slope into his strong, gorgeous neck. His arms wrap around me and he lifts me off my feet. His heart pumps hard and I can feel that strong, pounding heartbeat where my breast is pressed tight to his chest.

  Up go my fingers to the strong line of his jaw. I cradle it, letting my fingers stroke the defined ridges of his cheekbones. I thread my fingers in the silkiness of his hair. I play like this while he makes my knees go wobbly as jelly.

  I want more.

  And I’ll only get it if I do something daring.

  This is our last weekend, maybe forever, and even if I scare him away, it will be worth it.

  I reach down and wrap my fingers around his cock. I’ve seen a few of these. Some big ones—on guys who are so proud of them they love to strut around when they’re hard, swinging their erections around. But size really doesn’t matter when it comes to pleasure. What does? Desire—maybe love. I wouldn’t know because even though I’ve slept with guys, I’ve never had an orgasm with one.

  Ryan’s cock is beautiful: straight, but with a slight list to the left. They always point a certain way. Ryan’s points toward his heart, I notice. His shaft fills my fist, getting so thick at the hilt my fingers barely meet around him. I slide my hand down, feeling the ridges of the veins, the way the velvet skin slides over the hardness underneath. I rub his prick along my palm. I stroke my fingers in his thick, blond pubic hair, slide them up the shaft, and fondle the head, which is adorable. There’s a small brown spot, a sweet little freckle. Holding him at the base, I bend over and plant a kiss on the cute head of his prick.

  “Mia, what are you—oh God,” Ryan groans. My lips part and I take the head inside, sucking hard. My cheeks draw in. I want to stun him with this. I strum my tongue over the head, then, keeping up the tight pressure of my mouth, I plunge down on him, taking him in until I can’t do more. I’m about half way down his thick shaft.

  First I bob fast, giving him intense sensation. Then I go slowly, holding my lips tight to his satiny skin.

  He lets out a deep, hoarse moan. His legs shake. I plant my palms on his bare butt and suck him without using my hands. His skin tastes slightly salty—actually warm, if that’s possible. He tastes so good. Fluid dribbles out of the head, touching my tongue. Slightly sour. I swallow it, then stop and glance up at him.

  “That was amazing. Would you—want to do more?” He asks it so hesitantly, looking hopeful. My heart tugs.

  Slowly I lower to my knees. The boards of the dock are wet, cool. I have to act like I’ve never done this before. Shyly, I look up at him, brushing back some of my hair. “Did you like it?”

  “Oh yeah.”

  I giggle. I suck him more, trying every trick I’ve ever heard of. I fondle his balls while sucking him. I run my tongue down the back of his cock, down the seam in the sac that holds his balls. I take one of his balls and hold it gently in my mouth, stroking with my tongue. I feel the long, soft hairs. I’m tempted to lick that little bridge between his testicles and his ass, but I don’t want to go too far.

  I take his cock in again, watching him, under my lashes, trying to look sweet and innocent while my tongue strums the frenulum—the little bridge of skin between the head and the shaft.

  Suddenly he stops me. He withdraws, his prick jolting upward.

  “I’m going to—I’m not going to last.”

  “Then come down here. Make love to me, Ryan. I want to.”

  He gets onto hi
s knees, facing me. Sometimes I can’t believe how beautiful he is. Broad shoulders. Those muscles in his biceps and triceps I didn’t even know existed. Solid, sexy forearms that make me shiver and melt at the same time. I can’t believe he’s mine.

  “You’re so beautiful,” he says softly. “There are times…I can’t believe you’re with me.” He grins.

  I’m stunned—he feels the same about me as I feel about him.

  He kisses me, and he lies back on the dock, pulling me with him. He reaches for his jeans, drags them over, all the while kissing me.

  I reach down, grasp his hard-on, and direct him to my already drenched pussy. I shouldn’t take charge, I guess, but he did put me on top. Probably so he’s on the hard boards, not me. I want this to be like a fantasy come true for him.

  “Wait,” he murmurs against my mouth. “I have to do this.”

  Something scrapes against my leg. The corner of a foil condom package. He puts all his attention on opening it. He fumbles with it, trying to get the reservoir right, and seems so sweetly inexperienced at putting on a rubber that my heart twists. We’re so different. But I’m never going to let him know.

  I’m on the pill but I know I should have safe sex. Just with him, with wanting him so much, I almost forgot.

  The instant he rolls the condom down to the hilt of his thick erection, I put my hand around his rigid shaft. Holding his cock high, the bubbling tip pointing toward the stars, I get up on my knees. I’m shaking with anticipation, with excitement, something that’s never happened to me before. A deep ache shoots through me, low in my belly. I need him inside. I want him to fill me, because it physically hurts now.

  Ryan reaches down. His strong fingers slide through my strawberry-blond pubic curls and I’m breathless at the sight. His long fingers, his masculine hand, the veins on his forearm—all add up to mind-meltingly sexy. Gently, his fingers part my pussy lips, and there’s a flood of juices, wetting his hand.

  He looks at me in sheer amazement. His blue eyes glow with their own fire. Lust. On Ryan, lust is so hot and beautiful. I push the taut head of his prick to my pussy and slide him back and forth to make him wet. Agony shows on his face; he moans and groans.