Back to my Roots (Montana Roots Book 1)

by Tessa Elaine

  “Are you happy, darlin’?” I need to know she has no regrets.

  “Completely,” she says breathless. Music to my ears. We finish up before I take her again against the shower wall. We get back to bed and she curls up in my side and I wrap my arms around her. I will die a happy man as long as this is my life every night.

  I run my fingers down her side. “Sleep darlin’. I love you.”

  “I love you too,” she whispers.

  My phone wakes me before the sun comes up and I reach over to see its Wyatt. Panicked a little I answer.

  “Is everything okay?” I ask him.

  “Not really, there's a problem with the last-minute job we picked up. Sorry to call so early man. How’s your girl?” Wyatt loved Elena like a sister, we all grew up together.

  “She's great man, thanks for asking. You can call anytime, walk me through what’s going on.” I say while getting out of bed to let her sleep a little longer, but she wakes for just a second.

  “Go back to sleep baby, it's just Wyatt about one of the jobs.” I kiss her forehead and she snuggles back into bed. I walk to the kitchen to talk on the phone.

  “Okay, talk to me.” We talk for an hour and decide I need to come home. I really don't want to leave her, but I have to have an income if we are going to start our lives together. I climb back in bed and pull her close.

  “Darlin’,” I whisper hating that I have to wake her. “Elena, baby.”

  “Hmm...” she says pushing back into me. Damn this woman.

  “Elena, I have to head back to Eureka.” That has her jumping up.

  “What?” she asks “Is everything okay?” I'm glad she's not mad, just worried, but I assure her everything is going to be fine.

  “It's just this last-minute job we took. The guy wants to make some major changes and it will push us past our deadline. I really don't want to leave you, but Wyatt needs me.” She runs her hand over my jaw and kisses me.

  “Go be the boss, I will be home before you know it.” I close my eyes taking in her words I will be home before you know it, God I love that.

  “Say it again.” She smiles at me.

  “I will come home to you as soon as possible.” I kiss her hard.

  Pulling back I whisper, “Not soon enough.” I have to force myself out of bed and to grab my bags, she gets up to walk me out and I stop at the door.

  “I'm going to miss you, I wish I could just take you with me now.”

  “Me too,” she says.

  “Call me when you get there and we can talk every night.” She tells me.

  “We better talk every morning and on your brakes too.”

  “You are needy.” She laughs.

  “Damn right women, I have to go two weeks without touching you.” She smiles sadly and holds on to me so tight I think she might not let me go.

  I kiss the top of her head. “Once I get you home we will never be without each other, I promise.”

  “I love you, Lucas.”

  “I love you too, darlin’.” I kiss her and say goodbye, leaving her was hard as hell.

  I make it back to Eureka in record time and it's only two in the afternoon. I meet up with Wyatt like we had planned so we can go over the changes and see if they are doable.

  “I'm sorry you had to come back so damn early. Did she come with you?” I shake my head at him.

  “No, she had to stay in Seattle.” His brows furrow and he looks confused.

  “I don't understand. Is Elena staying in Seattle? Are you fucking moving?” Wyatt looks a little worried now.

  “We talked about it and she doesn't want me leaving my family or the business. We decided she’s moving in with me. She's not sure what she wants to do with the ranch yet.” God, I haven't even been gone twelve hours and I already miss her like crazy. I'm a little worried with me not being there she might change her mind. I don't want to be that insecure guy, but with her running she has shown me how easy it is to lose everything.

  “Shit, don't you think that's a little fast? You know you guys living together after seven years.” I thought the same thing, but the thought of her sleeping somewhere else kills me. I know this is right, deep down in my bones I know we belong together.

  “We have been heading in this direction since we were kids. It just took us a little longer to get here. No worries man, we are all good. She’s finally coming home.” Wyatt smiles and nods his head. He knows how much she means to me, this is exactly what I’ve wanted.

  “Now let's talk work, shall we?” I say getting back to the reason I left my girl. We spend the next few hours going over the plans and we think we have come up with a solution.

  “Want to grab some food?” Wyatt asks at the same time my phone rings. I look at it and smile so big my face hurts. Wyatt sees me and laughs.

  “Talk to your girl then we will grab some food.” I answer and walk outside.

  “Hey beautiful, you miss me?”

  “You said you would call me when you got there.” Shit I totally got lost in this mess with work.

  “I'm sorry baby. As soon as I got to town Wyatt met me at the office and we have been at it since.” She is laughing.

  “It's fine I'm just giving you a hard time, and yes I miss you already. How are things going with work?” This woman is too sweet, worrying about my company.

  “I think we got it all worked out, we will go over it with the owner and see if it will work for him. Hopefully we can stay on schedule. How was your day, darlin’?” I'm really loving this domestic conversation. I never thought I would have a relationship where I would look forward to hearing about their day or coming home to them. Now I can't wait for it. I want her in my house and in my bed now.

  “I'm really going to hate sleeping in my bed without you.” I tell her.

  “You can call me and we can talk until you fall asleep.” She's laughing again, I love that sound.

  “Are you laughing at me woman?”

  “Yes” she says giggling. “Aren't I the one that's supposed to be all mushy?” Yeah, she's probably right and if Wyatt heard me right now I would catch some shit, but I don't care. I miss the hell out of her right now, I can't imagine how I will be in two weeks. I might go fucking nuts.

  “I don't think I can do this.” I tell her

  “What?” I hear the panic in her voice.

  “I'm driving back to Seattle tonight, Wyatt can deal with this shit.” I hear her sigh and feel bad for wording it like I did. “I can't stay away from you this long.”

  “You say the sweetest things, Lucas, but Wyatt needs you and I can't have your best friend resenting me for you leaving him.” I hear the smile in her voice. My sweet Elena always thinking of others.

  “Never” I say. “He could never resent you, he's just happy we are finally together.” She's quite then finally whispers, “Me too.” It warms my heart to know we are on the same page.

  “Baby, I hate to cut this short, but Wyatt is waiting on me. Can I call you back later?”

  “You better” she says.

  “Love you, darlin’.”

  “Love you too, Lucas.” We hang up and I walk out to my truck where my best friend is waiting for me. He shakes his head laughing.

  “I wish you could see your face while you talk to her.” He says.

  “You go as long as I have in love with a girl you can’t have. How would you look if you finally had what you have been dreaming of?” Wyatt's expression changes instantly. He looks sad and a little pissed.

  “Yea, I wouldn't know what that's like.”

  “You okay man?” I ask.

  “Yep, just need some damn food.” I shrug it off and climb in the truck.

  Chapter 20

  Elena

  This week has gone by so slow and I'm just ready for next week to be over, I miss Lucas more than I thought I would. Going seven years without him and then having him back in my life for a few days. I'm starting to wonder how I went so long without him, it's only been four days and I feel
lost. We talk everyday all day and I think that makes me miss him more. Falling asleep to his voice and then waking up to it hurts because I can't be in his arms. Work is still the same, but it will be bitter sweet to leave and start over.

  Lucas said the job they are doing is coming together nicely and I'm starting to feel like things are falling into place. It's Friday evening and I just got off work. I have decided to pack my stuff all weekend and maybe that will keep my mind off of tomorrow, I doubt it.

  I wish Lucas was here, he promised I would never have to go through this alone again, but I understand why he had to go back home. His family and his company count on him, he has so many that depend on him. This is so new I can't ask him to put me first.

  I stop at the store on my way home to grab my favorite ice cream and some beer. I'm really dreading tomorrow; the nightmares have been every night. Lucas said to call when I needed, but I don't want to bother him in the middle of the night. Telling him I'm fine every morning is starting to make me feel bad. I just don't want him to worry more the he has been. He is the most caring man I have ever met.

  When I make it to the apartment my phone starts ringing in my purse, but my hands are full so I can't answer. I unlock the door and walk in when my phone starts ringing again, I have a pretty good idea who it is. I put my bags down and fish my phone out of my purse to answer it. I'm not fast enough. I see both missed calls are from Lucas, so I call him right back. I know he hates us being apart when things are so new and we are just getting to know each other again. Lucas worries too much.

  I'm looking forward to starting a new life with him, but I'm also nervous about returning to Eureka. After seven years I'm not sure how living in my home town will go. So many memories of my past, all good except one, but hard to deal with. It will be the biggest change I have made since the accident. I just have to keep telling myself everything will be okay with Lucas in my life.

  He answers on the first ring and that makes me smile.

  “Elena, baby, are you okay?” I hear the concern in his voice and it makes me feel loved.

  “I'm fine just had my hands full when you called.”

  “I'm sorry, I just hate being away from you.” It's like he is reading my mind, I know exactly how he feels.

  “One more week and we won't have to be apart again.” I tell him. He groans and makes me laugh.

  “I can't wait another week, darlin’. I'm going crazy over here, I need you in my arms.” The smile on my face grows, I would love nothing more.

  “I know babe, I feel the same way. Soon we will be around each other so much you will be sick of me.”

  “Never.” Lucas always knows the right things to say.

  “Elena?”

  “Yes...” I ask, knowing the next thing he's going to ask.

  “How was your day, darlin’? You doing okay?”

  He knows the next forty-eight hours are going to be hard for me. My birthday has not been a good day for me since the accident. Losing your parents on your birthday tends to take the celebration out of you every year. So, every year I do the same thing, sit in my room alone and cry myself to sleep. I thought this year would be different, that I might not have to spend it alone. Looks like it's another long and lonely day.

  “I'm doing okay, I stopped at the store on the way home to pick up my weekend supplies. I plan on packing some things up. Maybe that will keep my mind on something positive.” Moving in with Lucas is the one thing I have to look forward to. I know it seems super-fast, but when something feels this right you just go for it. So all in it is.

  “Baby, you don't have to tell me what you think I want to hear. I want to be there for you through everything. It’s me and you against the world, you can tell me how you really are.” That makes my chest tighten and I try to swallow the lump in my throat. It takes a second to answer, but I can't keep pretending everything is okay. He can see right through it.

  “Maybe I'm not exactly doing okay. I really haven't had that much sleep and tomorrow is going to be another year without them, so there's that. But I also miss you, it's been really hard to be away from you after getting you back.” I hear him groan again and I just stay silent waiting for him to talk.

  “Baby, I am so sorry. I hate that I wasn't there this week to hold you. I feel like such an ass for leaving like I did. I will make it up to you I swear.” Lucas should not feel guilty about having to leave. He had responsibilities before we started our new relationship. He can't help that his employees and his company needed him.

  “Lucas, you have nothing to be sorry about. Without you I would not like to see where your company would be.” Since his father's retirement Lucas has taken over the family business and has done amazing things with it. I am so proud of him.

  “Darlin’, you give me too much credit.” He says with a laugh.

  “So how was your day?” I ask.

  I have been imagining coming home from work, sitting down with Lucas for dinner, discussing our work day, then falling into bed and doing it all over the next day. That sounds divine.

  “Just another day of paperwork. Had to cut checks today, but I managed to get it all done.”

  We talked for a little while and I finally had to tell him I needed a shower and would call him back. We say our goodbyes and I head to the bathroom. The hot water feels great on my achy muscles. I have been so exhausted, I wake up every couple hours because of the nightmares.

  I start to wash my hair when I hear the bathroom door open. I didn't think Aubrey would be home tonight. She had a hot date with the new guy in the apartment down stairs. I told her it was a bad idea, dating someone that lives in our building, but she doesn't listen to me.

  “Hey hooker, I thought you were going out tonight.” She doesn't answer.

  “Aubrey?”

  I rinse the soap out of my hair so I can see then pull the curtain back. I scream and jump so hard that I almost lose my footing and fall in the tube. That is not Aubrey, that is the most glorious naked man I have ever seen. My heart starts racing and I am so excited to see him I am shaking.

  “Hey darlin’, there room in there for me?” Lucas asks, I feel the tears start to fill my eyes and I try to blink them away.

  “Those better be happy tears, Elena.” He says as he steps under the water with me. He pulls me close and I wrap my arms around his waist, holding on as tight as I can.

  “They are definitely happy tears.” How could they not be? I have missed him so much.

  “God, it feels so good to hold you in my arms.” I start kissing his chest and up his neck.

  “Mmmm...” He tastes amazing.

  Lucas cups my face in his hands and brings my eyes to his, looking up at him all I see is his love for me. He leans in and takes my bottom lip in his. I hum at the contact, this is what I have been thinking about every day since he left. The kiss starts turning into something more, like he's claiming what is his. I love it. He pulls back just a breath away and whispers into my lips.

  “Baby, I can't be without you another week.”

  I kiss him again but this time it's hard and hot, tongue licking into his mouth. I try to put all my emotion into it so he can understand how I truly feel. He pushes me against the cold shower wall then picks me up so I can wrap my legs around his waist. He is buried deep inside me before I can even take a breath. I gasp at the fullness he makes me feel when he is inside me.

  “I don't think I can be gentle right now, darlin’.”

  “I don't want gentle, Lucas. I need you.”

  He pulls out slowly and then slams back into me, over and over he keeps this pace. My head falls back against the wall and my eyes roll back into my head. He feels amazing.

  “Harder, please.” I tell him.

  “Anything you want.”

  And he does, pistons in and out of me so hard I reach my peak in just a few minutes.

  “I'm close” I tell him.

  “Me too, come for me baby.”

  And just like that, like he ha
s complete control over my body. I scream out his name, my pussy clenches around him and I feel his body start to jerk and with a groan he cums inside me. He slows his motion and presses his chest to mine as our breathing levels out. I shiver from the intimacy I feel with Lucas, he has this way of making everything right in my world. Lucas leans back just a little and places soft sweet kisses all over my face.

  “My beautiful, smart, sexy women, how did I go so long without you in my life?”.

  “I was asking myself the same question today.”

  We dry off and dress for bed, I keep catching him watching me with a look that says he wants to devour me. It sends a thrill through my body straight to my core. Even though we just had each other I'm wet and wanting more just from a look. I bit my lip and look down at his cock, he's growing harder by the second. Just when I'm about to drop to my knees and take him into my mouth he pulls me from my thoughts.

  “Wasn't sure if you had eaten yet, so I brought dinner.”

  “Always looking out for me.”

  “I always will.” He smiles and winks at me.

  We make our way to the kitchen and talk about our week as we eat. He tells me how the job is going and I tell him about work. I ask how everyone is doing and he tells me Sarah is seeing someone. I'm really surprised it's not Wyatt, but I don't tell Lucas that. I don't think he is ready to know his sister is in love with his best friend and his best friend shares the same feeling.

  Those two have been dancing around each other since we were kids. I wonder if it's because Lucas would be upset or if it something else entirely? I just hope Wyatt doesn't regret letting her slip through his fingers one day.

  He tells me his parents are doing well and his dad is watching my family ranch. I'm still debating on what I want to do when it comes to that place. I can't bring myself to sell it. I thought getting rid of it would be easy. I could just sell and move on, but it makes me feel like I'm selling the last piece of my mom and dad. That ranch holds so many great memory's. It's all I have left of my parents.

  I keep thinking I could have what they had one day. The family I have always wanted, the legacy my father left. I would love nothing more than to work with horses, it's something I dreamed of as a little girl. What would life be like if mom and dad were still here, what would I be doing? The what ifs are always on my mind. I can't help but always think about how much better my life would be if they were still here.