SIDECHICK: CATCHING FEELINGS

by K NICOLE

  Zeus was spending the night with me at my house. I kept shit for him over my house while he kept things I needed as well at his. I was loving this relationship thing with him, but I did not want to be put in the same place as Diah ever again. If we were to ever be cool, she would have to know but I was not coming to her as a woman. Hopefully Roman and Zeus could keep their mouths closed, but I knew that would be too much like right. Eventually the truth would come out.

  Zeus parked behind my car at my house and he grabbed the food as we exited the car. I yawned. The shrill screams of thousands of kids at the party wore me and my ears out. I was going to eat, shower, maybe have some sex if I wasn’t too tired, and then go to sleep. We could always make up for it in the morning when we wake up. I’d wake Zeus up with some head if I woke up before him. This nigga, I could fuck on all day and night. He was far from selfish in bed. His mouth and dick took care of me, and I always reciprocated it back.

  “Ouuu this BBQ is so good,” I closed my eyes and sucked sauce off my thumb.

  “Roman was on the pit,” Zeus mumbled.

  By his tone, I could tell his mood had shifted and it bothered me. Him and Roman were close until we met. It had me kind of feeling some type of way because I felt like he was.

  “Are you good?” I asked him, needing to know we were good.

  “I’m straight,” he answered.

  We ate in silence until my phone rang. It was Wes. I would call him back after I eat, shower, and get in the bed. It was until he called me a second time was when I knew it had to be something serious because Wes never called me back to back. We only called each other a second time if it was an emergency. Quickly wiping my hands on a napkin, I picked up.

  “Bitch. I'm on my way to your house. I damn near killed Paul. This nigga had the nerves to put his hands on me because I'm fucked up behind his ass cheating. He is cheating on me Perri! Ima go to jail tonight!”

  I could hear how angry and hurt my friend was, but I would hate for him to go to jail behind Paul’s ass.

  “Don’t do no crazy shit, Wes. Fuck him and come on over,” I told him. “Do I need to come to you?”

  Zeus’s brow rose out of curiosity.

  “Nah bitch here I come,” he told me. “If you touch my shit Ima come back and kill yo’ white ass!” he yelled at Paul. “Nah, don’t touch me. I’m done with yo’ ass. Go be with whoever that bitch ass nigga is in your phone! Perri, he had the nerves to have pictures of him sucking someone else’s dick and the dick ain’t as big as mine is!”

  “Woah,” I chuckled. “Wes TMI. Just bring your ass on,” I said, ending the call. I then turned to Zeus. Guess I wasn’t going to sleep anytime soon or getting any dick. “Wes got into it with his boyfriend, so he is coming over here to crash.”

  “Wes is?”

  “My gay best friend. My only friend.”

  I had forgotten I had never talked about Wes to Zeus, only about Zeus to Wes, so I wasn’t sure how he felt about being around a gay dude.

  “Does that make you uncomfortable,” I questioned him. I took the last bite of my food and pushed the plate away. Taking a sip of my drink, I eyes Zeus.

  “Listen,” he started, gaining my full attention. “I don’t have issues with gay dudes, because I’m very confident in myself and I know I love my women. I have a cousin who is gay, and I still love him the same. As long as the nigga doesn’t push up on me, I’m good.” I stood and walked over to Zeus and sat on his lap. He wiped his hands on a napkin and looked up at me.

  “Wes talks a lot of shit, but he doesn’t mean any harm. He appreciates a good looking ass man and well... you’re a good looking ass man,” I grinned hard.

  “Maan, do I need to go home. I don’t have a problem with gay nigga but you not gon’ come at me sideways either.” Zeus’s face was twisted up and I had to let out a giggle. I had to send Wes a text letting him know not to try Zeus because he was crazy and then ran to the room to throw on some clothes. Gay or not, Zeus was not going to allow me to walk around half naked around Wes even though Wes done seen me naked plenty of times.

  A few moments later there was a knock on the door, and I pecked Zeus on the lips and trotted towards the door to open it for Wes. Wes was so dramatic in his oversize shades and fur coat in eighty degree weather.

  “Not you about to melt in that fur coat,” I teased him.

  “Bitch, he wasn’t taking this back from me. This is my favorite coat. He can go play in fucking traffic,” Wes sighed.

  “Did you get my text?” I asked him, closing and locking the door. Wes waved me off.

  “Girl, I ain’t studdin’ that fine ass man.” Zeus came into view, cleaning off the table. “Good god. He’s even finer in person.” I nudged Wes as Zeus mugged him. I gave Zeus a look that read, ‘behave’.

  “Zeus, this is my bestie, Wes. Wes this is my man, Zeus.”

  Zeus tossed his head back at Wes and Wes gave Zeus a girly wave. I could have killed him. Zeus left to go to the bedroom, and I sat down in the living room with Wes.

  “What happened?” I asked, getting comfortable on the sofa with one foot underneath me. Wes popped his lips before telling me the story.

  “Paul went to shower, and I went through his phone. I know he gets booked all the time, don’t get me wrong but lately he has been supposedly getting booked, booked. He was working Perri, but another nigga was going with him every single time. There were so many pictures in his phone of them in positions bitch. I should have sent them all to you.”

  I held my hands up, disgusted. “I’m glad you didn’t. That’s something I would rather not see.”

  Wes let out a long sigh and kicked his long legs in the air, barely missing my coffee table. I gave him a ‘if you break my shit, Ima break yo ass’ look.

  “I guess I’m single,” he smacked. “I need to find a place and get back up on my bullshit. Ima miss that big ass house. Ugh, I have to find a job. I might just go crawling back to his ass tomorrow because this shit right here is ghetto.”

  I snickered. “You gotta be kiddin’ me. You know you can stay with me until you find you something Wes.”

  “Girl, no. That’s how friends get into it. Ima go to my damn daddy’s house for a while. I’m like you. I kept putting money to the side for rainy days bitch and I have like half a mil in my account that Paul didn’t know about. His ass got, got. Not me.”

  ZEUS

  After listening to Perri and that dude gossip for about thirty minutes after I had showered and got comfortable, I turned up the volume to a rerun of a basketball game and rolled up. It had just turned 11 P.M. I had business to handle early this morning and my ass was tired. If Perri didn't bring her ass in here, she was getting any dick. Once I closed my eyes, that was it.

  I fired up the blunt the same time she walked in. Even in a t-shirt and sweats this girl was fine. My dick bricked up on its own. Perri headed straight to the bathroom, and I planned on waiting up for her now. My dick had the last word.

  My eyes were low as hell when she finally entered her bedroom that was decorated in like three different pinks, but it looked real good. Perri climbed in the bed and then straddled me. Once her mouth hit my neck, it was over. I put the blunt out and pulled her panties down. I slipped a finger between her already soppy wet fold and the moan that escaped from her mouth was music to my ears. Perri crushed her mouth against mine and she got that finger action while our tongues danced with each other. I slipped another finger and Perri leaned forward and bounced on my fingers. She was a real freak.

  “Damn, you like the shit shorty?” I asked her, sticking the tip of my tongue in her earlobe, causing her ass to shudder. I removed my fingers and licked her juices off my fingers while eyeing her with my heavy, hooded ones. Perri nodded. I pushed my briefs down and my dick sprang out. Perri didn’t waste any time going down, grabbing that big muthafucka and putting her mouth on it. My toes curled instantly.

  “Shit bae,” I groaned, grabbing a handful of her hair. She let go of my dick an
d ate my shit with no hands as I guided her. I had to grab a pillow and bite that hoe just so that nigga out there wouldn’t hear me crying out like a little bitch and get off on that shit. Perri definitely understood the assignment of giving head, because she mastered that shit. The way her tongue glided up, down, and around my dick man…fuck! She was about to have my ass shootin’ in her mouth. I gently pulled her head up by her hair and she gave the head one last suck.

  Perri climbed back on top of me and attacked my neck while grabbing my dick from behind her and sliding down onto it. Her walls sucked my shit right in and choked it.

  “Mmmm fuck,” I whispered. I wrapped a hand around her throat as she began to bounce on my dick. Perri was so fucking wet and juicy, I was ready to beat it up. The light coming from the TV allowed me to watch her tuck her bottom lip in and contort her face as my dick filled her up. Every now and then I would thrust upward and she moan out. Fuck it. That nigga was just gon’ have to hear this shit because Perri wasn’t trying to keep it on the low. I just didn’t want his ass to be thinking about my damn dick. “This pussy good ‘n wet.”

  “Only for you,” she called out, rolling her hips.

  Lifting up, I rolled over to where Perri was now on her back. I tossed her arms above her head and removed the shirt, freeing her pretty titties.

  “It better be all for me,” I advised her, filling her back up and thumbing her clit.

  “Ah shit. It is. Oh my gosh. Fuck!”

  After feeling Perri’s pussy without a barrier, I couldn’t go back. Knowing this shit was mine and only mine, I felt like we could fuck without one, but I kept in mind to pull out. She could always get on birth control, but that would be up to her.

  Hooking my arms under her legs, I pulled her closer to me and fucked her while holding her in that position. Perri was now screaming loudly and squirting her juices out. Shit was splashing all over my abdomen and chest. She was getting that work.

  Letting her legs go, I leaned over and sucked one of her nipples in my mouth. Perri arched her back and spread her legs wider, allowing me to go in deeper. Allowing me to damn near touch her soul.

  “Zeuuuus,” she called out, scratching my shoulder. “Fuuuuuck,”

  “This my pussy,” I whimpered. My shit was building up and I was on the verge of releasing. I quickened up my pace, making sure to hold off until Perri orgasmed, and I pulled out the same time my cum was oozing out of my dick. I closed my eyes and said a prayer, hoping I pulled out just in time.

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  This morning, I had to meet Roman and a few of our runners and dope boys at the warehouse. Some needed to reup. One of us could handle it on our own, but just in case one of them got out of hand, we made sure we both were present.

  Perri was still asleep, ass naked. Once we showered, she moisturized her body and climbed in bed as is. The light pink sheet fell off her back and I pulled it back up to cover her. I knew once I made a move and she felt this bed dip, she would wake up. Knowing I couldn’t just lay in the bed all morning and look at her, I sat up and she stirred.

  Without opening her eyes, she croaked out, “Where are you going?”

  “I have business to handle this morning and then I’m gon stop by and check on my T-Lady. You want to meet her?” I tossed my head back and laughed at the frightened expression Perri had given me. “Too early, huh?”

  “Yeah, way too early. Meeting someone’s mom is scary and makes everything so real,” she yawned.

  “You sayin’ what we have ain’t real shorty?”

  “No,” she smirked. Perri sat up and inched over to me. Morning breath and all, I allowed her to peck my lips. “This is all real. I just think it’s too early to meet your mom.”

  “I agree. That lady has my heart and before I bring anyone to her, I have to make sure she’s the one. I’ve never taken a female over to meet her. They were bed material, but not wife material,” I honestly let her know.

  “What am I?” she asked. I stood up and shrugged.

  “That’s still pending, but you’re more than bed material since I’ve taken you around family and friends already. Go brush yo’ teeth.”

  Perri tossed a pillow at me, and I ducked it.

  ROMAN

  I was late meeting up with Zeus at the warehouse for business thanks to Celeste having a fever all night and it finally broke this morning. Just so my wife could get some rest, I stayed up with the baby. Diah refused to take her to the doctor because she knew they would just tell her to alternate between Ibuprofen and Tylenol. She had been through the same shit with the other kids, so my wife knew.

  When I pulled up to the warehouse, I ashed the blunt I had been smoking and turned the car off. Of course, Zeus was already here. We weren’t expecting anyone to pull up for the next thirty minutes. The area was secluded and surrounded by a lot of tall trees. Zeus and I both had a camera app on our phones that watched our homes, our warehouse, and our traps. We knew what went on at all times because we couldn’t be at every single place at once.

  I opened my car door and just sat there for a moment. It has been awkward as fuck around my lil’ brother all behind a bitch he had no business touching. That was code unless we were running a train on a bitch like the old times. Perri switched up on me fast and who was to say she wouldn’t do that to Zeus. The day she did, I would get the laugh fucking laugh.

  Stepping out, I closed and locked my car door. It was warm already and that was expected in Dallas. Texas period. My ass couldn’t wait for winter. That was my season. Big ass coat and Timberlands.

  Zeus was already busy unpacking the load and separating the pills, coke, and weed. We sold everything and we were on top – quietly. We both had nice houses and vehicles, jewelry and clothes, but other than that, we weren’t flashy, and we knew how to walk around bragging about shit. We didn’t club and buy the club out or spend bands on bottles. Our bank accounts were millionaire status and we were still humble. I had a separate account that Diah didn’t know about that I had allowed Perri to splurge with. When all this shit happened with her and Zeus, I closed that shit right on up, but knowing Perri, she had stacked a couple of thousands. Every day it seemed as if she was taking a few hundred off and I never thought anything of it because Perri loved to shop, and I had the coins. Never thought she was saving up for life after me. Damn.

  With a closed mouth, I started opening up boxes and separating the drugs too. Zeus didn’t acknowledge me, and I wasn’t going to speak first. I knew one of us had to be the bigger person one day, and even though I was big bro, it wasn’t going to be me. He did me foul, not the other way around.

  An hour later, the runners and dealers pulled up and we were handing them their reups. This was the only time me and Zeus spoke to one another because we had to communicate on what was going out and the money that was coming in. Other than that, we acted like either existed.

  My phone chimed, and it was Diah letting me know the kids were going to her parent’s for the night and she was going to the shop to do some work. Usually when I didn’t have kids or a wife to go home to, I would spend time with Perri. I would have still popped up on her if she wouldn’t have already moved out of the house I had her in. Maybe I could have changed her mind about being with Zeus. What did she see in him that she didn’t see in me? I chortled just asking myself that question. Of course, he didn’t have the wife or kids, but I was still that nigga that would give her anything in this world if she would have asked me. I was weak as fuck behind Perri.

  After business was handled, me and Zeus counted money in the money counter and then split it between the two like we normally did after putting money back to cop more from our plug. Then we headed out the warehouse at the same time. I overheard his phone ring and him picking up smiling bigger than I’ve ever seen him smile. Perri.

  __________

  Angry and needing something to take it out on, I went back home, dressed in some workout clothes and headed to the gym near the crib to punch on the punching bag for
an hour. I imagined the bag was Zeus and Perri and put in work. I was drenched with sweat after that hour, but I felt good, like a lot of weight lifted off my shoulder. The problem was still there, but in the meantime, I felt like I had beat the fuck out of the both of them.

  Diah was home when I arrived back at the house. She was in the kitchen cooking. I knew I had to appreciate her more than I had been lately. The cheating had to stop. I could tell myself that over and over, but that shit was hard when pussy was everywhere. Beautiful women and pussy.

  “Hey,” Diah spoke, without looking up from the pots and pans. I sauntered up behind her and hugged her from the back, pressing my hard dick into her ass. “Move Roman.”

  “I love you girl, you know that?” I mumbled in the crook of her neck, placing soft kisses on her neck. Diah let out a moan that bricked my shit up even more. I didn’t even know that was even possible. Diah turned her head towards me and eyed me closely.

  “Why are you saying that like right now? Are you in trouble? Are you cheating?” she asked, watching me. I swallowed.

  “I’m sayin’ it because I love the fuck out of you. I shouldn’t have a reason to tell you how I feel about you. I know I’ve probably been a little distant lately, but that’s just from work.”

  “Oh…ok. Well I love you too,” Diah responded, but I could hear a hint of uneasiness in her voice and I wondered why.

  DIAH

  Yeah, okay Roman.

  Just because we were back having sex and loving on one another, that didn’t mean that I wasn’t still suspicious of the way he had been moving lately. A woman always knew when her man was cheating. You get that gut feeling and it doesn’t go away until you find out the truth. I know shit comes to the light in due time, but I go to the light. Fuck waiting. I need to know if Roman has me out looking dumb because I am not one of them. I’m not.