Tales from the Shadowhunter Academy

by Cassandra Clare

  He almost said he was going to their wedding, but even that felt cruel. Mark could not go to his own sister’s wedding. He had not been invited. He had not even been told.

  Mark did not seem angry or hurt. He smiled, softly as a child being told a bedtime story, and leaned his face against the bars of Simon’s cage.

  “Sweet Helen,” he said. “My father used to tell stories about Helen of Troy. She was born out of an egg, and the most beautiful woman in the world. Being born out of an egg is very unusual for humans.”

  “I’ve heard that,” said Simon.

  “She was very unhappy in love,” Mark continued. “Beauty can be like that. Beauty cannot be trusted. Beauty can slip through your fingers like water and burn on your tongue like poison. Beauty can be the shining wall that keeps you from all you love.”

  “Um,” said Simon. “Totally.”

  “I am glad that my beautiful Helen will be happier than the last beautiful Helen,” said Mark. “I am glad she will be given beauty for beauty, love for love, and no false coin. Tell her that her brother Mark sends her felicitations on her wedding day.”

  “If I make it there, I will.”

  “Aline will be able to help her with the children, too,” Mark said.

  He was paying very little attention to Simon, his face still wearing that fixed and faraway expression, as if he were listening to a story or recalling a memory. Simon feared that stories and memory were becoming much the same to Mark Blackthorn: longed-for, beautiful, and unreal.

  “Ty needs special attention,” Mark went on. “I remember my parents talking about it.” His mouth twisted. “I mean my father and the woman who sang me to sleep every night though I was not of her blood, the Shadowhunter I am no longer allowed to call my mother. Songs are not blood. Blood is all that matters to Shadowhunters and faeries alike. The songs matter only to me.”

  Blood is all that matters to Shadowhunters.

  Simon could not remember the context, but he could remember the constant refrain, from people he loved now but had not loved then. Mundane, mundane, mundane. And later, vampire. Downworlder.

  He remembered that the first prison he had ever been inside was a Shadowhunter prison.

  He wished he could tell Mark Blackthorn that anything he said was wrong.

  “I’m so sorry,” he said.

  He was sorry for not listening, and sorry for not caring more. He’d thought he was the voice of reason in the Academy, and had not realized how complacent he’d grown, how easy it was to hear his friends sneer at people who were—after all—not like him anymore, and let them get away with it.

  He wished he knew how to say any of this to Mark Blackthorn, but he doubted Mark would care.

  “If you are sorry, speak,” said Mark. “How is Ty? There is nothing wrong with Ty, but he is different, and the Clave hates all that is different. They will try to punish him, for being who he is. They would punish a star for burning. My father was there to stand between him and our cruel world, but my father is gone and I am gone too. I might as well be dead, for all the good I am to my brothers and sisters. Livvy would walk over hot coals and hissing serpents for Ty, but she is as young as he is. She cannot do and be everything to him. Is Helen having difficulties with Tiberius? Is Tiberius happy?”

  “I don’t know,” Simon said helplessly. “I think so.”

  All he knew was that there were a bunch of Blackthorn kids: faceless, nameless victims of the war.

  “And there’s Tavvy,” said Mark.

  His voice grew stronger as he kept talking, and he used nicknames for his brothers and sisters rather than the full names he had worked so laboriously to remember. Simon supposed Mark was not usually allowed even to speak of his mortal life or his Nephilim family. He didn’t want to think about what the Wild Hunt might do to Mark, if he tried.

  “He is so little,” said Mark. “He won’t remember Dad, or M—or his mother. He’s the littlest thing. They let me hold him, the day he was born, and his head fit into the palm of my hand. I can still feel its weight there, even when I cannot grasp his name. I held him and I knew I had to support his head: that he was mine to support and protect. Forever. Oh, but forever lasts such a short time in the mortal world. He will not remember me either. Maybe Drusilla will forget as well.” Mark shook his head. “I do not think so, though. Dru learns everything by heart, and she has the sweetest heart of us all. I hope her memories of me stay sweet.”

  Clary must have told Simon every one of the Blackthorns’ names, and talked a little bit about how each of them was doing. She must have let fall some scrap of information, which Simon had discarded as useless and which would be better than treasure to Mark.

  Simon stared at him helplessly.

  “Just tell me if Aline is helping with the younger ones,” said Mark, his voice growing sharper. “Helen cannot do it all by herself, and Julian will not be able to help her!” His voice softened again. “Julian,” he said. “Jules. My artist, my dreamer. Hold him up to the light and he would shine a dozen different colors. All he cares about is his art and his Emma. He will try to help Helen, of course, but he is still so young. They are so young and so easily lost. I know what I am saying, Shadowhunter. In the land under the hill we prey on the tender and new-hearted. And they never grow old, with us. They never have the chance.”

  “Oh, Mark Blackthorn, what are they doing to you?” Simon whispered.

  He could not keep the pity out of his voice, and he saw it sting Mark: the slow flush that rose to his thin cheeks, and the way he lifted his chin, holding his head high.

  Mark said: “Nothing I cannot bear.”

  Simon was silent. He did not remember everything, but he remembered how much he had been changed. People could bear so much, but Simon did not know how much of the original you was left when the world had twisted you into a whole different shape.

  “I remember you,” Mark said suddenly. “We met when you were on your way to Hell. You were not human then.”

  “No,” said Simon awkwardly. “I don’t remember much about it.”

  “There was a boy with you,” Mark continued. “Hair like a halo and eyes like hellfire, a Nephilim among Nephilim. I’d heard stories about him. I—admired him. He pressed a witchlight into my hand, and it meant—it meant a lot to me. Then.”

  Simon could not remember, but he knew who that must have been.

  “Jace.”

  Mark nodded, almost absentmindedly. “He said, ‘Show them what a Shadowhunter is made of; show them you aren’t afraid.’ I thought I was showing them, the Fair Folk and the Shadowhunters both. I could not do what he asked me. I was afraid, but I did not let it stop me. I got a message back to the Shadowhunters and I told them the Fair Folk were betraying them and allying with their enemy. I made sure they knew and could protect the City of Glass. I warned them, and the Hunters could have killed me for it, but I thought if I died I would die knowing my brothers and sisters were saved, and that everyone would know I was a true Shadowhunter.”

  “You did,” said Simon. “You got the message back. Idris was protected, and your brothers and sisters were saved.”

  “What a hero I am,” Mark murmured. “I proved my loyalty. And the Shadowhunters left me here to rot.”

  His face twisted. In the depths of Simon’s heart, fear twined with pity.

  “I tried to be a Shadowhunter, even in the depths of Faerie, and what good did it do me? ‘Show them what a Shadowhunter is made of!’ What is a Shadowhunter made of, if they desert their own, if they throw away a child’s heart like rubbish left on the side of the road? Tell me, Simon Lewis, if that is what Shadowhunters are, why would I wish to be one?”

  “Because that’s not all they are,” Simon said.

  “And what are faeries made of? I hear Shadowhunters say they are all evil now, barely more than demons set upon the earth to do wicked mischief.” Mark grinned, something wild and fey in the grin, like sunlight glittering through a spiderweb. “And we do love mischief, Simo
n Lewis, and sometimes wickedness. But it is not all bad, to ride the winds, run upon the waves, and dance upon the mountains, and it is all I have left. At least the Wild Hunt wants me. Maybe I should show Shadowhunters what a faerie is made of instead.”

  “Maybe,” said Simon. “There’s more to both sides than the worst.”

  Mark smiled, a faint terrible smile. “Where has the best gone? I try to remember my father’s stories, about Jonathan Shadowhunter, about all the golden heroes who have served as shields for humanity. But my father is dead. His voice fades away with the north wind, and the Law he held sacred is something written in the sand by a child. We laugh and point, that anyone should be so foolish as to think it would last. All that is good, and true, is lost.”

  Simon had never thought there was much of a silver lining about his memory loss. It occurred to him now that he had been shown some small accidental mercy. All his memories had been stripped away at once.

  While Mark’s memories were being torn at and worn away, sliding from him one by one, in the cold dark under the hill where nothing gold lasted.

  “I wish I could remember,” Simon said, “when we first met.”

  “You weren’t human then,” said Mark bitterly. “But you’re human now. And you look like more of a Shadowhunter than I do.”

  Simon opened his mouth and found all words wanting. He did not know what to say: It was true, as everything Mark said was true. When he’d first seen Mark, he’d thought faerie, and felt instinctively uneasy. Shadowhunter Academy must have been rubbing off on him even more than he’d thought.

  And the environment Mark was in had changed him, too, changed him already almost past reclaiming. There was an eerie quality to him that went beyond the fine bones and delicately pointed ears of faerie. Helen had possessed those too, but ultimately she had moved like a fighter, stood tall like a Shadowhunter, spoken as the Clave and the people of the Institutes spoke. Mark spoke like a poem and walked like a dance. Simon wondered, even if Mark found his way back, if he could possibly fit into the Shadowhunter world now.

  He wondered if Mark had forgotten how to lie.

  “What do you think I am, apprentice Shadowhunter?” Mark asked. “What do you think I should do?”

  “Show them what Mark Blackthorn is made of,” said Simon. “Show them all.”

  “Helen, Julian, Livia, Tiberius, Drusilla, Octavian. And Emma,” Mark whispered, his voice low and reverent, one Simon recognized from the synagogue, from the voice of mothers calling their children, from all the times and places he had heard people call on what they held most sacred. “My brothers and sisters are Shadowhunters, and in their name I will help you. I will.”

  He turned and shouted: “Hefeydd!”

  Hefeydd of the purple ears sidled back into view, back from among the trees.

  “This Shadowhunter is my kinsman,” said Mark, with some difficulty. “Do you dare to insist you have a claim on a kinsman of the Wild Hunt?”

  That was ridiculous. Simon was not even a Shadowhunter yet, Hefeydd was never going to believe— Only here was Mark, Simon realized. A faerie, to all appearances, and a faerie somewhat to be feared. Even Simon had not known if he could lie.

  “Of course I would not insist,” Hefeydd said, bowing. “That is—”

  Simon was watching the sky. He had not even realized he was doing so, that he had been scanning the skies since someone had dropped from them, until now.

  Now that Simon was watching, he could see what was happening more clearly: not someone falling from the sky, but a wild sky-bound horse charging for the earth and letting fall its rider. This horse was white as a cloud or mist given proud and shining shape, and the rider who hurtled toward the ground was in dazzling white as well. He had cobalt hair, the dark blue of evening before it became the black of night, and one gleaming-jet and one gleaming-silver eye.

  “The prince,” whispered Hefeydd.

  “Mark of the Hunt,” said the new faerie. “Gwyn sent you to find out why the Hunt had been so disturbed. He did not suggest you delay the Hunt yourself by tarrying a year and a day. Are you running away?”

  The question was asked with emotion behind it, though Simon could not tell if it was suspicion or something else. He could tell that the question was more serious, perhaps, than the asker had meant it to be.

  Mark gestured to himself. “No, Kieran. As you see. Hefeydd has caught himself a Shadowhunter, and I was a little curious.”

  “Why?” asked Kieran. “The Nephilim are behind you, and looking behind causes nothing but broken spells and wasted pain. Look forward, to the wild wind and to the Hunt. And to my back, because I am like to be before you in any hunt.”

  Mark smiled, in the way you did with a friend you were used to teasing. “I can recall several hunts in which that has not been the case. But I see you hope for better luck in the future, while I rely on skill.”

  Kieran laughed. Simon felt a leap of hope—if this faerie was Mark’s friend, then the rescue mission was still on. He had moved unconsciously closer to Mark, his hand closing on one of the bars of his cage. Kieran’s eye was drawn to the movement, and for an instant he glared at Simon with eyes gone perfectly cold: shark-black, mirror-shard eyes.

  Simon knew, with absolute bone-deep certainty and with no idea why, that Kieran did not like Shadowhunters and did not wish Simon any good.

  “Leave Hefeydd with his toy,” said Kieran. “Come away.”

  “He told me something interesting,” Mark informed Kieran in a brittle voice. “He said the Clave voted against coming for me. My people, the people I was raised among and taught by and trusted, agreed to leave me here. Can you believe that?”

  “Can you be surprised? His kind has always liked cruelty full as much as justice. His kind have nothing to do with you any longer,” Kieran said, voice caressing and persuasive, laying a hand on Mark’s neck. “You are Mark of the Wild Hunt. You ride on the air, a hundred dizzy wheeling miles above them all. They will never hurt you again, save that you let them. Do not let them. Come away.”

  Mark hesitated, and Simon found himself doubting. Kieran was right, after all. Mark Blackthorn owed the Shadowhunters nothing.

  “Mark,” Kieran said, a thread of steel in his voice. “You know there are those in the Hunt who would seize any reason to punish you.”

  Simon could not tell if Kieran’s words were a warning or a threat.

  A smile crossed Mark’s face, dark as a shadow. “Better than you,” he said. “But I thank you for your care. I will go with you and explain myself to Gwyn.” He turned to look at Simon, his bicolored eyes unreadable, sea glass and bronze. “I will come back. Do not harm him,” he told Hefeydd. “Give him water.”

  He nodded toward Hefeydd, slight emphasis in the gesture, and nodded toward Simon. Simon nodded in return.

  Kieran, whom Hefeydd had called a prince, kept his grip on Mark and turned him so that he was facing away from Simon. He whispered something to Mark that Simon could not hear, and Simon could not tell if the tight grasp of Kieran’s hand was affection, anxiety, or a wish to imprison.

  Simon had no doubt that if Kieran had his way, Mark would not come back.

  Mark whistled, and Kieran made the same sound. On the wind, as a shadow and a cloud, came a dark and a light horse swooping down for their riders. Mark leaped into the air and was gone in a flicker of darkness, with a cry of joy and challenge.

  Hefeydd chuckled, the low sound creeping through the undergrowth.

  “Oh, I will give you water with pleasure,” he said, and came over with a cup fashioned out of bark, filled to the brim with water that seemed to shine with light.

  Simon reached out through the bars and accepted the drink, but fumbled it and spilled half the water. Hefeydd cursed and caught the cup, holding it to Simon’s lips and smiling a darkly encouraging smile.

  “There is still some left,” he whispered. “You can drink. Drink.”

  Except Simon was Academy trained. He had no intention of acceptin
g food or drink from faeries, and he was sure Mark had not meant him to. Mark had been nodding at the key dangling from one of the long sleeves of Hefeydd’s cloak.

  Simon pretended to drink as Hefeydd smiled. He slipped the key into his gear, and when Hefeydd trotted away he waited, and counted the minutes until he thought the coast was clear. He slid his hand through the bars, slipped the key into the lock, and swung the cage door slowly open.

  Then he heard a sound, and froze.

  Stepping out of the whispering green trees, wearing a red velvet jacket and a long black lace dress that turned into transparent cobwebs around the knees, in boots and red gloves that Simon thought he might remember, graceful as a gazelle and intent as a tiger, was Isabelle Lightwood.

  “Simon!” she exclaimed. “What do you think you’re doing?”

  Simon drank her in with his eyes, better than water from any land. She had come for him. The others must have fled back to the Academy and said that Simon was lost in Faerie, and Isabelle had gone charging into Faerieland to find him. First out of anybody, when she was meant to be getting ready to attend a wedding. But she was Isabelle, and that meant she was always ready to fight and defend.

  Simon recalled feeling conflicted when she had rescued him from a vampire last year. Right now he could not imagine why.

  He knew her better now, he thought, knew her all over again, and knew why she would always come.

  “Er, I was escaping my terrible captivity,” said Simon. Then he took a step back from the cage door, met Isabelle’s eyes, and grinned. “But, you know . . . not if you don’t want me to.”

  Isabelle’s eyes, which had been hard with worry and purpose, were suddenly glittering like jet.

  “What are you saying, Simon?”

  Simon spread his hands. “I’m just saying, if you came all the way here to rescue me, I don’t wish to appear ungrateful.”

  “Oh no?”

  “No, I’m the grateful type,” Simon said firmly. “So here I am, humbly awaiting rescue. I hope you can see your way clear to saving me.”