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Caine, Rachel-Short Stories

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by Rachel Caine


  "The bar — " He closed his eyes and remembered. "There were patterns drawn on the floor — "

  "Veves," she said. "To invoke the loas. I know the place you went. A dark société, not for someone like you. The Carrefour opens the road, the Huntor plays to invoke the spirits. And sacrifices are made."

  John thought about the young sax player, crying bloody tears, now lying dead.

  "You made a sacrifice," Vivyan said. She opened her hand, and in it lay a gold necklace with a crescent moon, a fleck of white crystal for a star, a boat sailing beneath.

  "I’m sorry."

  "This wasn’t the sacrifice, it’s only a charm, freely given." She held it out to him, and he took it, settled it warm around his neck. The warmth seemed to sink deep into his muscles and wrap him in its embrace. "You made the sacrifice to the loa Carrefour. You know what it is?"

  It came to him in a rush and made him dizzy and weak. He hadn’t seen Sam move, but the man was there, helping him to a chair, pressing a glass of water into his hand. The water tasted like brass and music, sweet on his tongue. It washed out the lingering trace of whiskey and despair.

  "I gave him the music," he said. "Didn’t I?"

  "Oui."

  "How do I get it back?"

  Vivyan sat very still, watching him. For the first time he realized that he was standing on a rug with pale white lines that looped back on each other in infinite scrolling circles. A blue rug, the color of the sea.

  Veves.

  "You go into darkness," she said to him. "I set my hand on you, Evangelist. You go into darkness, but you do not go alone. Wear the charm, and believe. There is power in your music, too."

  "I can’t play."

  She smiled. "Of course you can. Play for me."

  He took out his trumpet and started with scales. C major. C sharp. D. D sharp. Up, up through the entire range of the instrument, the metal dead and unresponsive under his fingers, his lips clumsy and uncertain with the notes.

  "Keep playing," she said when he stopped, sweating. He did.

  After an hour of painfully slow progress, he began to feel the echoes of his gift, like whispers from a party miles away.

  After four hours, he was playing. He didn’t stop. Sam left, and still he played, played until Vivyan’s warm hands closed over his from behind and her body pressed against his.

  "You’ve come far," she whispered. "But you must come farther."

  He turned toward her, saw sparks around her like circling suns, and terror spiked in him, then disappeared in a tide of wonder.

  "How — " he breathed. She held up a hand that glowed like dawn, placed it against his lips and put the taste of light into his mouth.

  "There are other kinds of music," she said, and began to show him the dance.

  He had no trouble finding the bar. It stood waiting for him, and this time when he looked at the name over the entrance it shifted and blurred and changed until it read Petro.

  John took hold of his horn case and went into the dark, smoky embrace of the left-hand path.

  Carrefour was on stage, playing accordion; Huntor hammered the piano. A half-dead guitar player twitched and jerked with the music, and even though John couldn’t see it, he knew there were threads between the three of them, and those threads were blood-red.

  He looked at the crowd with fresh eyes and saw that they were dancing to a purpose, tipping back rum like consecrations, dancing the veves inlaid in the floor. Dancing up the power, to welcome the loas.

  Erzulie’s necklace hung heavy around his neck. He took a deep breath and tasted music, blood, rum, drugs, the violence lurking just out of sight in the smoke.

  "Rum?" A waitress was at his elbow, tray ready. A glass already filled waited for him.

  Liquor opens the doorways. That had been his last mistake.

  He pushed past her and walked to the stairs, mounted the steps to the stage. The guitar player watched him with dull graying eyes, sucked empty of music and life, just conscious enough to be terrified and desperate.

  John fitted the mouthpiece to his horn and began to play. Not the wild, powerful scream that poured out of Carrefour's accordion and Huntor’s piano.

  He played Amazing Grace.

  It was drowned in the roar of the wild music at first, but he kept playing, sweet and controlled, feeling his own power trickle back. Carrefour’s music tugged at him, demanded to be played, but he shaped each note, placed each accent as carefully as if he’d played in the crystal silence of a cathedral.

  And though he blew no harder, the trumpet rang louder. When he opened his eyes he saw thin threads stretching from him out to Carrefour, thin threads of clear sky blue that pierced Carrefour like thrown knives. Carrefour turned, snarling. Nothing human in those eyes. Nothing sane. I can die, John thought. They can spill my blood to feed the loas.

  He played. He had no real choice.

  The guitar player stopped and slipped the strap of his instrument over his head. He dropped it with a discordant jangle of strings and staggered drunkenly off the stage. With luck, he’d make it. He’d live. He’d play again, someday, because music wasn’t a God-given talent, it was a God-given obsession.

  John played louder. The sky-blue threads wrapped Carrefour tight, pinned his arms to his sides, made the accordion squeal into sudden silence. Huntor’s piano seemed tinny and lost, and then it faltered into silence.

  John played Amazing Grace until it was the only music in the room, until he had taken all that he’d lost from Carrefour and Huntor and felt the power coiled inside him like white fire. Then he stopped, and the sky-blue threads binding Carrefour turned gray and faded, and the loa of the crossroads turned on him with claws outstretched to spill the offering blood.

  Sam stepped in between. Carrefour’s eyes met Sam’s, and widened.

  "Ogou!" he said.

  Sam’s hand closed around his arm and held him still. "Brother," he rumbled. "Time to go home. Leave the dancers to dance. Renvoyer. Return the ti bon angle to this body and go to your place."

  Carrefour bared his teeth in what was almost a smile, and said, "Blood and music, Ogou. Thick enough to taste in the air. Don’t say you aren’t tempted."

  Ogou’s hand touched his forehead and pushed. "Renvoyer."

  Carrefour’s body twitched and convulsed, a puppet on jerking strings. He fell to his knees.

  When he looked up, his eyes were still blue, but they were confused.

  They were human.

  Sam turned and looked at John. After a moment, he held out his hand. John took it carefully, but it felt like a human hand. Stronger than his, but human.

  "Keep playing, Evangelist," Sam said. "Maybe someday you learn to let the spirits in, oui?"

  "Maybe," John said. "Mostly, I think my job will be to keep them out."

  Sam smiled. "Not all of us," he said, and turned and walked away, straight out through the crowd, out into the street and the night.

  Monter le tête, John thought. I had a saint with me tonight.

  He saw Vivyan smiling from the back of the room, no loa in her now, just the woman. He took up his trumpet and began to play Basin Street Rag.

  And he led the people out of the Petro, into the street, where the night was full of color and light and the possibilities of grace.

  When he looked back — just the one glance — he saw the sign change again over the door. It no longer read Petro.

  It read Closed.

  Vivyan’s hand closed around his arm, warm and satin-soft.

  He was home.

  Cold Moon

  An original short story by Rachel Caine

  Outside my window, the moon rides a tide of mist. It is the color of pearl, that moon, full and lustrous, nestled in the gauzy breath of the sea.

  That moon knows my name.

  Some days I woke to the sound of my mother screaming, but not that day. I stayed very still in my bed and listened to the chirping of birds in the world beyond the window. Dust motes circled, lazy and golden
, and I waited for the sound of doors slamming, footsteps creaking, voices murmuring. I wanted to throw off the clinging warmth of the covers, clatter downstairs, bother Cook for a hot pastry fresh from the oven, but there was no smell of food in that quiet, waiting house.

  The sun crept slowly over the floor like a cat stalking a mouse.

  Don’t be a baby, I told myself at length. They’ll all be waiting for you. Mother will be so annoyed.

  It was the thought of Mother that at last drove me from the bed. I dressed carefully, a clean white dress with a wide blue ribbon, short rolled stockings, a pair of shiny black shoes.

  The sound of my footsteps on the wood was like a stranger knocking.

  The hall remained shadowed, no windows to let in the sun, but as I descended the stairs I saw that the curtains in the drawing room were open. The day spilled like satin over a hunchbacked chair and a long scarlet divan. Father was usually there, but today the door was open and the room deserted. I paused there, breathing in the comforting smell of his tobacco and old leather boots, and then continued down the hall.

  Someone had picked fresh roses from the garden; they lay haphazardly on the hall table, one precarious on the edge, another fallen in a burst of red. The smell clung to me as I turned toward the dining room, where breakfast should have been waiting. In all the time I could remember, breakfast had always been upon the sideboard in silver trays, the edges fogged with steam.

  It was empty and waiting, and smelled of nothing but dust.

  In the hall, a grandfather clock ticked away minutes and, as I counted my breaths, chimed eight o’clock. I did not want to push open the swinging door to the kitchen. I wanted to run back up the heavy curving stairs to my room, throw myself beneath the coverlets, cry for someone to come reassure me. Papa would come. Even Mama.

  I am too old to be a baby, I told myself. I would go forward and I would push open the kitchen door, walk into silence, and see what was to be seen. I would do that.

  And so I did.

  That is the last I remember of that morning; the heavy wood cool under my palms, the sigh the door gave as it opened, the dazzle of light behind.

  That is the last I remember.

  The moon floats higher and higher; the mist cannot hold it. As it rises, it tangles in the branches of the tree opposite my window. Stars glimmer like tears around it, and I wonder if I should not go outside and shake the tree, shake the moon free so that it can soar again.

  Bradford House was a quiet place, and in time I became happy there; I studied hard, and did well on my tests. My teachers found me a studious, serious child, given to moodiness and strange fancies. Aunt Faith came often to visit, offering me packages of nuts and fruits and candies, packages of teas and biscuits.

  She came on the day of my sixteenth birthday, bringing me a pretty shawl of oriental silk, a tea set of the finest delicate porcelain, and a letter. She wasn’t aware that she had brought me the letter; it fell from the tea set box as I carried it to my room. A plain envelope, with my name in an ornate, careful hand.

  The violet-scented card within read, Happy Birthday, my dearest child.

  The sight made me weak in the knees, and I sat down where I was on the steps, my head ringing, spots dancing before my eyes. As I reached blindly for support, I overset the box next to me; it tumbled down, broke open and spilled fragments of porcelain like teeth out over the polished floor.

  There was not one cup unbroken.

  It was that night, at long last, that the moon called me with a rush of blood that soaked my gown and the sheets and made the matron tsk at the mess.

  I did not care. I washed myself and arranged the rags, sat in the window and looked out on the porcelain stillness, and thought, Now I shall go home.

  They don’t like me to watch the moon; it brings on strange fancies, or so Doctor Bannerman says. I think he is even odder than his friend Herr Doktor Freud, the Viennese man who came to talk to me in the garden last month. Doktor Freud seemed to me a grave, kind man, with eyes like the void between stars. Doctor Bannerman was most upset with his friend for speaking with me; I think Freud must have done it against his wishes, possibly even in the face of direct orders. I wonder what a Viennese doctor would smell like, if I put my nose close to him. Cinnamon, I imagine, and tobacco, and perhaps a fine whiskey. I can remember these things, if I try; they come to me like ghosts, drifting through the silence. As I watch the moon, I think of cinnamon and nutmeg and ginger, and I imagine, for a time, that I am home eating pastries and sitting on the cold white steps outside the kitchen, the moon flying like a ghostly ship.

  I remember the taste of those pastries so vividly that I cry.

  I left the school in the company of a pinch-faced biddy unaptly named Purdy; she had family near London, and would see me safely to Aunt Faith’s before she went on her way. Young ladies of sixteen were not allowed to ride alone on the railway, to rub shoulders with tradesmen and low company. My allowance was enough to travel first class, and I graciously allowed Purdy to share the opulence of a sleeping car.

  I killed her in the night with a hatpin through her ear. I raised a terrible hue and cry when I discovered her in the morning, her mouth agape, her eyes rolled back to look forever into darkness. I found rescued from distress by a gentleman named Ballard, a young man of kind and sunny disposition with the most remarkable dimples. He was, he said, traveling to London on his father’s business, but he would be most happy to see me home. I felt nothing for him. He could never know that feeling of belonging to the vast silent sea of women, sharing tides and phases. He was as alien to me as insects grubbing in the dirt.

  Dear Ballard gave me kisses sweet as summer, sun to my moon, heat to my chill. I suppose I should have killed him. He slipped into my tides, and should drown as unlucky sailors do, at the mercy of moon and sea. I went to the window and looked, looked and looked and looked, but the pearl of night was hidden behind clouds, its whisper muted, its brilliance dimmed.

  I bled that night, long threads of darkness down my thighs.

  I left the train before Mr Ballard woke to claim me for the sun. I slipped away into fog and phantoms, moon and mist. I left him the sweetest of all gifts, the sheets stained with blood as dark as the heart of a rose.

  The moon shakes free of its captor, rises like a frozen fire. The stars pale in her wake. I have always wondered that so many say they see a man’s face; to me there is clearly a woman, her head turned a little to regard me, a deathless smile on her lips. She consumes stars, summons us to her side with a pull stronger than flesh.

  The tide of blood flows strong toward her, rising like the lusting sea.

  I reach out my hand, past bars of chilly steel, and touch the face of eternity.

  The manor was empty, the windows blinded by shattered glass. Rats made residence in Father’s study, amid the gnawed ruin of books. Thieves had carried away the furniture, the paintings, elegant vases and silver trays. No grandfather clock ticked away minutes; the house had ceased to count time. Like poor Miss Purdy, it had turned eyes into its own darkness.

  Upstairs I found that my room had not been spared. Rats squirmed in the dry ribs of the mattress, living busy rat lives that had nothing to do with me. I let them be and descended the dusty, hollow stairs, into the heart of the house.

  The table was gone, the floor scarred by careless thieves. I spied the tailing of a candle in the corner, next to a long-dried clump of human droppings. Tramps had enjoyed my hospitality. I wondered if they had slept here, and if they did, if they heard tides echoing in their heartbeats, felt phantom aches in their dark centers. I remembered Mother, her breath warm on my ear, saying, I have always loved that color on you.

  The kitchen door remained as it had been, closed like a stubborn mouth. I set my hands to it and heard the hinges sigh a long, anguished protest.

  The kitchen.

  No rats came here, no tramps. The stove remained, a black squat idol in its sacrificial niche.

  Blood lay in a rich
black stain. The heart of it was thickly red, the edges turning dark like a winter-burned rose. I sank to my knees beside it and pressed my hands deep into its sticky, cool center.

  I lifted my bloodied fingers to my lips and sucked at them as I would a wound, to take away the sting.

  Mama —

  In the doorway, a little girl with long blonde hair who might have been me, and might not, her mouth open in a silent scream, shaped the word.

  Mama —

  We shall be women together Mama had told me, brushing my hair, brushing and brushing until it shone like sunlight.

  Mama, don’t —

  "Only daughters." The voice came from behind me, and the sunlight through the windows turned to ice. I tasted cold copper.

  Hands as chill as shadow rested on my shoulders. She pressed herself to my back. I saw her reflection in the blood, and she was pale and beautiful, the queen of night.

  The liquid rippled. In that reflection something lay stillborn, something pallid and quiet, and I remembered the sigh of the kitchen door opening, eyes staring, so many eyes, Cook’s, Father’s, Mama with her bloodstained lips and hands and the small thing in her hands —

  I have only daughters, she had said.

  Father had named him Andrew.

  "Only daughters," Mama said soothingly, and stroked my face with wetness.

  I put my back to the stone wall and hugged my knees to my chest, and for a while we were a family again, a small, quiet family of ghosts and shadows.

  That was how they found me, the next day. In the kitchen, rocking, in the room where we had all died.

  Herr Doktor Freud cannot take me back to that place. I have stepped over the threshold into the dark mysteries of women, and moons, and blood. He tries to ask questions, but the words are noise, sea-tides rising and falling.

  Sometimes he tells me stories, of Medea and her children, of Maenads running like a pack of wolves. He tells me that a man caught so would be destroyed.

 

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