Hometown Hope: A Small Town Romance Anthology

by Zoe York

  Wishful thinking.

  As soon as she hopped out of the Howards’ truck she saw him across the clearing. He was hauling sandbags out of his own truck and stacking them next to a big water barrel.

  He waved and she returned the gesture, butterflies rioting in her belly. She needed back-up. Her sister-in-law answered on the first ring. “Dani, you need to come to Scott Turner’s bonfire tonight.”

  A groan warned her this conversation wasn’t going to go well, as did the protest that followed. “No. No, no, no, no, no.”

  “Jake isn’t here.” Olivia looked around, hoping that was true. She was the only person in Pine Harbour that knew about Dani’s secret crush—she’d found out after the divorce, but even if she was still with Rafe, she’d have kept that news private. Nothing good could come of the Minelli brothers finding out their sister wanted their best friend.

  “Why are you there?” Dani asked, dodging the rarely discussed but ever-present reality that she avoided any event where she might see Jake Foster tangled up with a woman. Olivia understood exactly how Dani felt, and suddenly felt foolish for thinking she could brass out a get together with Rafe. Seeing him at the diner was one thing—she was working, he was eating, and most importantly, that was before they kissed. And tangled in the woods. Cuddled on her couch. She groaned at the raft of fresh memories of his warm Adonis body wrapped around her. Dani correctly interpreted the groan as being related to her big brother. “Walk out to the road and I’ll pick you up.”

  “No, I want to stay.” Olivia tracked Rafe as he finished unloading the truck. He hopped into the cab and pulled it away from the bonfire area, parking it a safe distance back. He dropped the tailgate, spread out a blanket on it, and headed in her direction. Yep, she definitely wanted to stay. Crap.

  “Don’t do anything with my brother.”

  “I won’t.” He walked leisurely, giving her plenty of time to start moving in another direction. She stayed where she was.

  “You will. You still love him and he’s an idiot who will never be good enough for you.”

  “I won’t, I don’t, he’s not, and that’s not what this is about.”

  “What is this about? We live in a small town, honey. Everyone will know what you guys do tonight.”

  “We’re not going to do anything.” Rafe stopped in front of her, a wicked grin slicking across his face as he caught her last words. Dani? he mouthed. She wouldn’t talk about him with anyone else. She nodded and licked her lips. “He’s my friend.”

  He gave her a decidedly heated look that peeled away at the statement, revealing it as mostly a lie. They were friendly, for exes, but at the first whiff of him moving on she’d lost her mind. They weren’t friends. Not really.

  “Maybe you two should just fuck and get it out of your systems. Lord knows you aren’t getting it anywhere else.”

  “You’re one to talk, D.” Olivia was just dragging the conversation out now, but she was enjoying making Rafe stand there and wait for her. It was a harmless game that she’d never indulged in when they were together, but she liked feeling his eyes on her.

  “Oh look at the time, I have to go wash my hair.”

  “Come on, don’t leave me—”

  “I’ll pick you up if you want to head out, but I’m not traipsing around in the woods like a teenager.” Jeez, Dani had such an old soul for a twenty-five year old. She’d chosen the wrong career—she would have made an excellent schoolmarm.

  “No, I’m good. False alarm.” She hung up over the protests of her former sister-in-law and her pounding heart. Two steps forward, one step back. Nope, that would mean some progress. One step forward, two giant flirting steps back into the arms of her sexy ex-husband. Today those arms were wrapped in a white cotton long-sleeve t-shirt and a red flannel over shirt. She just might combust from the hotness. “Hey.”

  “I wasn’t expecting to see you tonight.” The sun was setting, but he was close. Really close. And his eyes were bright and interested. “This is a nice surprise.”

  “I didn’t know you were going to be here.” Strictly speaking, that was true. Knowledge and hope weren’t the same thing.

  “How’ve you been?” The past week had been the longest they’d gone without seeing each other since his tour of service in the Middle East.

  “Well…” She shoved her hands in her pockets to keep from reaching for his forearm and squeezing. “I’ve got some news. Good news,” she hastened to add as the happy look dropped off his face. “I have a new job, one that will keep me around for the next six months.”

  Her heart twisted at the eager enthusiasm on his face. Telling him was a mistake. Loving him was a mistake. Every conversation they had proved it was an impossible task, truly leaving Rafe Minelli. Too bad staying with him had been impossible too.

  “What kind of job?”

  “It’s a long story…” She let him guide her over to his truck as their host lit up the carefully assembled giant pyre in the middle of the cleared field. A few coolers of beer were set up at the edge of the circle and he grabbed a bottle on the way past and lifted another in offer for her. She shook her head. She’d have a drink in a bit, but she didn’t need alcohol right now. She needed calm, cool, friendly distance.

  They wandered over to his truck and sat on the blanket spread out on the tailgate. She told him about the job, and he asked a bunch of questions, all of which she could answer. “You aren’t curious about what the movie is called?”

  He laughed. “Can you tell me?”

  “Nope, I don’t know myself.” She sighed. “You’re good at not being nosy.”

  “I’m curious. Really. I want to know everything you can tell me. But I get that there are some things you just can’t share, and that’s okay.”

  It was a part of his job she’d always struggled with, that confidentiality. “So I guess I shouldn’t ask how work is going for you?”

  “You can ask.” He gave her a look she couldn’t decipher in the half-light surrounding them. “I just can’t tell you much.”

  “Crime still alive and well in Bruce County?”

  “As ever.”

  They continued talking, exchanging platitudes, but the flirting tone set with her call to Dani had slipped away while they talked about work. That was for the best, she told herself.

  “I’m proud of you, Liv. Maybe this will turn into something you can do again.”

  “Yeah, maybe. Let’s see if I still like it in the spring.”

  He cleared his throat and looked at the ground. “You’re still thinking about leaving then?”

  She nodded. “This doesn’t change anything. I want a fresh start.” Beside her, he was frozen, like a wall of granite, and she forged ahead. Rip off the bandage. “It gives us more time to settle everything with the house, but it doesn’t change—”

  “Don’t sell the house.”

  “I need my half of the equity in it when I move.”

  “I’ll buy you out.” He stared straight ahead, his jaw set.

  “Why would you want to do that?”

  “I miss having a yard.” That was a total lie, and a trickle of fear rolled down her spine. No good could come of Rafe wanting to hang on to a part of her.

  “It would be better for both of us if we had a clean break,” she whispered.

  “Don’t tell me what’s better for me,” he muttered. “You lost that right with the divorce decree.”

  “I never had that right when we were married.” God, she hated that whiny edge to her voice. “Now I can say whatever I want. Up to you if you hear it or not.”

  Rafe obviously decided to be a diplomat and changed the subject. “There are a lot of good memories in that place.”

  Sure, when he’d been there, they’d been happy. It had been when he was away—long shifts, weekend exercises with the Army, the constant tug from his family—that sadness had flowed through the rooms. Longing for her husband that was never fully satisfied when he was home.

  “I’m not
moving for a while yet. Let’s revisit this conversation in a few months.” She reached for the beer bottle and their fingers brushed. A shiver danced up her arm at the rough slide of skin on skin, igniting way too much desire. A simple, accidental touch and she was squirming in her seat. Right after talking about moving on.

  “You cold?”

  She gave him a pointed look through narrowed eyelids. “Don’t you dare offer me your shirt.”

  He gave her an innocent who me look and she laughed. “What? You look cold!”

  “Here’s how that plays out,” she said, tipping the last of the bottle back. She licked her lips, enjoying the last drops of his beer, then pointed her finger firmly in his direction. “You wrap it around me, taking the opportunity to be all close and big and strong. Show off your muscles. Then I’m actually surrounded by your yummy smell, and now you’re cold, so you stay close. Put an arm around me. All in the name of warmth, of course. And then all of a sudden, your hand is on my ass, your tongue is down my throat, and everyone is talking about Rafe and Olivia making out in the back of a truck at a bonfire.”

  He stared at her for a minute, then bit his lower lip and nodded. “Right. K. Well, I’m gonna grab another beer.”

  He hopped off the tailgate and unbuttoned his shirt. She gasped as he tossed it into her lap before he ambled over to the cooler.

  Between the moon overhead and the orange glow of the bonfire, it was almost like he had a spotlight on him. And from her perch on the back of his truck she felt like she could watch him safely from the darkness. Without anyone else noticing her hunger for his broad shoulders and long legs. His strong arms and tight butt. Even with the warm flannel that she greedily wrapped around her body—and it did in fact smell yummy—he still sent shivers down her spine. From thirty feet away. The man was dangerous.

  He stopped to talk to a couple people on the way back, then handed her the beer before continuing to the cab of the truck. He returned wearing an OPP sweatshirt and she was absurdly disappointed that he’d gone and covered up most of the muscles she’d just complained he might show off to tease her.

  He hopped back up next to her, leaving a solid six inches between their thighs, and smirked as she stared at the blanket between them. “Miss me?”

  Like you wouldn’t believe. “Nope.”

  “Can I have a sip?” He nodded to the beer, and it dawned on her that he’d only brought one bottle back from the cooler. The first one had been shared…well, sort of by accident. But he could have brought two back and he didn’t.

  The hoodie, the space…that was for her. The public show of Rafe and Olivia just being friends. But the single bottle of beer, passed back and forth? That was something else. She twisted the cap off and drank first, then quietly handed it over. He kept his eyes locked on hers as he tipped the bottle back, his lips where hers had just been.

  When he handed it back again, she reached across her body and took it with her right hand. Leaving her left hand pressed on the itchy blanket between their bodies. He slid the bottle into her grasp, then dropped his hand on top of hers.

  They sat there for another hour, sharing that bottle and then another as many revellers took their leave. Rafe didn’t drink much of the last one, just holding it on his turns.

  “Are you driving?” she finally asked.

  “Hmmm?” He’d been staring at the fire for a few minutes. He slid her a curious look.

  “You’ve stopped drinking.”

  “Oh. No, Dean drove my truck. I’ve got the second row of seats, so we can take more people back.”

  Leave it to cops to have a responsible bush bash.

  “Can we give you a ride home?”

  “I came with Ryan and Lynn, but…”

  “Who’s driving?”

  “Lynn, I think.”

  His jaw clenched. “You’ll come home with us, okay?”

  “Rafe?”

  He rubbed his thumb over her knuckle and stretched his neck left and right before answering. “She disappeared into the woods for a bit. I wouldn’t be surprised if she had a joint on her.”

  Olivia sighed. Her friend should know better than to bring drugs to a party at Scott Turner’s farm. Or anywhere in public, but especially around cops. Jeez. And driving… “Yeah, I’d love a ride home. Thanks.” She pressed her lips together, not sure how to ask the next question.

  “I’m not going to do anything about it,” he said roughly. “I didn’t see anything and I’m off duty. Plus she’s Ryan’s wife, not that I’d let that stop me if—”

  “She’s a mother of three.”

  “Do you think she ever smokes up before she drives them around?”

  That silenced her. Ugh. Maybe she should talk to Ryan. She looked around for her friend but couldn’t see him. All of a sudden she didn’t feel like drinking any more. She tucked the bottle against the wheel well behind her and lifted her legs up, wrapping her arms around them making a Livvie-ball, as her father used to call it.

  “What are you thinking about?” His voice was quiet. She didn’t look over at him again, keeping her gaze trained on the moonlit tree line instead.

  “How we’re too old for bush parties,” she admitted. “And my dad…I miss him. That he’s gone now makes me feel old too. Like…I should have done more, ya know? I don’t have much to show for someone my age. This job is fun, but it’s yet another temporary gig, ya know?”

  * * *

  — —

  * * *

  He craned his neck at her in surprise. She felt old? She was three years younger than him and he felt like their lives were just beginning. He reached out and tugged at her ponytail. She turned her face back in his direction and dropped her cheek to her knees. She looked exactly the same as she did the night he met her at a house party in Woodstock. Fresh, innocent, and beautiful. The urge to kiss her was overwhelming.

  Instead, he pushed off the truck bed and moved to stand in front of her. “You want to dance?”

  Someone had rigged up an mp3 player and a pair of portable speakers. A slow Guns N’ Roses power ballad floated around them. She slowly unwound her limbs and looked around.

  “We’re among friends here, Liv. Dance with me.” Let me take us back in time six years and start over again. He wanted nothing more than to pretend he hadn’t fucked up the better part of her twenties. Flirt and touch and tease like they really could build a future together instead of having a history so tainted that his beautiful wife thought she’d missed out on something good.

  She nodded and eased against him, her arms going around his neck and her head onto his shoulder. He slipped his hands under the borrowed shirt and found her waist. She giggled quietly against chest. “Your hands are cold.”

  “You’re soft and warm. I’m not moving them.”

  “I’m not asking you to.” They shared a long, warm gaze.

  “Good.” If this was the reward he got for going slow, he’d pace his win-Liv-back plan out over the entire six months reprieve he’d been granted. They swayed back and forth in the shadow of his truck, even after the song ended and something faster set the tempo for the rest of the party. Laughter and jeers filtered through the dark as people got a little silly around the fire, but all he cared about was the woman he held in the circle of his arms. “You having a good time?”

  “Mmm-hmm.” She wiggled closer. For warmth, he told himself, but his dick paid no attention to the caution. He knew the moment she found him hot and ready for a laundry list of bad ideas because she froze, then eased away just enough to pretend she didn’t know how much he was enjoying having her up against him.

  “There’s a stag and doe next weekend,” he offered after he found his voice again.

  “Yeah?” She sounded skeptical, but tempted. In the country, the pre-wedding fundraisers were often the only real opportunity for dancing. If he was flooded with memories of slow dancing, maybe she was too.

  “We could meet there or something.”

  “Are you asking me out on a dat
e?” She tipped her face up to his and smiled. “That’s a terrible idea.”

  “Don’t call it a date. We could accidentally run into each other.”

  “And share a few beers? Maybe have a dance or two?”

  “Would that be so bad?”

  “Is your mom going to be there?” He heard the edge to her voice.

  Hell no. They weren’t fighting about his mom tonight. “Not her scene.”

  “We’re not dating, Rafe. I’m leaving town in six months. And when I do, it’s going to suck. Let’s not make it worse.”

  “If leaving would be so awful, don’t leave.” There, he’d said it. Don’t leave. Pathetic begging, something he’d promised himself he’d never do.

  “Do you want to do this now?”

  Listen to her list all the reasons why they don’t work as a couple? It was a short list of two razor-sharp points, but Liv had a way of exponentially expanding the list until it filled hours of endless, torturous fights. They always started as conversations but devolved quickly into sniping matches. “Let’s skip to the end where I’m an asshole.”

  She stiffened against him, and then shrank away. Fuck. “You’re not an asshole, but you are a workaholic. And you come with a family that’s…overwhelming, to put it mildly. And you shut down when I ask you for even a little bit more. More time, more attention—”

  “You have my attention. All of it. All the fucking time. I can’t get you off my mind.” Why wasn’t that enough?

  She pinched her eyebrows together. That made two of them that found this frustrating as fuck. “For now, sweetie. But not forever. You live a life best suited to a single man. There’s a reason why soldiers had to ask their officers for permission to marry way back when.”

  He rolled his eyes. “This isn’t way back when. Guys in the army are married.”

  “Soldiers and cops?” She snorted. “I think the divorce rate is pretty high in both professions. Mix them together and you’re better off in a relationship like Dean’s. Something easy. No strings.”

  A spark of something stupid and awesome came to life in the back of his head. An idea that he was surprised neither of them had suggested yet. “Let’s do that.”