Falling Blind: The Sentinel Wars

by Shannon K. Butcher

  Chapter 10

  Rory was used to visions, but what she was seeing now was way more than that. There were sounds and smells to accompany the sights she witnessed, as well as a low vibration of emotion coming from those she saw.

  Cain had said not to be afraid, and that was the only thing that kept her from freaking out.

  She stood in a bedroom she didn’t recognize. It was dark, but somehow, she was still able to see. Cain lay asleep in a big bed, his body sprawled beneath a sheet. There had been lots more leaves on his tattoo then, which meant he must have had some removed.

  Something about that conclusion was wrong, but she didn’t waste time questioning it. Not when she saw the huge, furry monster slinking across his carpet.

  Rory screamed at him in warning, but he didn’t so much as twitch. The monster came closer, moving as silent as a thought. She tried to pick up a book and throw it, but her hand passed through, reminding her that this was all a vision, albeit a fucked-up one.

  The monster pushed itself upright, standing at least eight feet tall. It pounced on the bed, digging its claws into Cain’s chest.

  He woke on a bellow of pain and rage. His fist slammed into the monster’s jaw, but it did little good.

  “Sibyl!” he shouted. “Run!”

  The word was barely out of his mouth when the demon picked him up and slammed him headfirst into a wall. He bounced off, hit the floor and didn’t move again.

  But the demon didn’t stop. It dug its claws into Cain’s unconscious body and flung him across the room. Blood sprayed over the bedding. A lamp toppled and shattered.

  Over and over, the demon tossed him about, slowing only to slide its blistered tongue over Cain’s bloody body before each vicious attack. Then suddenly, the monster’s muzzle lifted as if it had heard something. It dashed off through the door, leaving Cain in a puddle of blood and broken glass.

  The whole thing had taken only seconds, and in that time, Rory had grown cold and nauseated. She’d been helpless to stop the demon, forced to witness the brutal display of violence and power.

  People rushed into the room and went to work healing his injuries. She wanted to stay and make sure that he was safe, but the vision shoved her out of the room into a different one. This one was filled with frills and pastel pink. A child-sized bed sat under a canopy near the shattered window. The covers were streaming through the ragged opening as if someone had ripped the child from her bed.

  A porcelain doll sat on the floor, its glassy eyes staring at the ceiling. There were no signs of a struggle here. No blood. No toppled furniture. Only the broken window and empty bed.

  Rory felt like there was something here she was supposed to see, but she had no idea what it was. Her fear for Cain was still pounding through her, making it hard to concentrate. She knew he was alive and well—he’d told her not to be afraid, but that was easier said than done.

  She forced herself to take a step, and then another, scanning the room for whatever it was she needed to see so that this blasted vision would end. The tiny table and chairs, set with a china tea service held no interest. The looming bookshelves were stuffed full of textbooks and stories way too adult for this room’s occupant. Sitting on one of the lower shelves, lovingly framed in silver, was a single photo.

  Rory bent down to look at it. Cain was there, smiling so big his fatherly pride shone through all the way to his eyes. On his lap sat a little blond girl with the cutest ringlet curls Rory had ever seen. Her cheeks were round and pink, and her blue eyes were the same color as a cloudless summer sky. She wore no smile on her face, only a lonely, haunted look, as if some vital person was missing from the photo.

  Once again the vision shifted and Cain stood in the same bedroom alone. The air in here was different now. Heavier, darker. Grief and guilt hung on him, bowing his shoulders with their weight. Tears hovered in his eyes, but did not fall. He made a slow circle around the room, touching things here and there, as if each one held some importance or precious memory. As he came across the photo, he picked it up, his hands shaking visibly. He cradled the image with a kind of reverence reserved for priceless, irreplaceable things.

  His obvious pain and grief burrowed into Rory, filling her with the need to make it stop. He’d lost his little girl, but Rory could think of no way to bring back the dead. She’d lost Nana, but this was different. Nana had been ready to go. It had been her time. The girl in that photo could not have been more than eight or nine. There was nothing natural about her death.

  Rory stepped forward to wrap her arms around him, only to find herself standing in her own living room once again. The sun had begun to set, leaving a golden glow over her familiar surroundings.

  Cain stood in front of her, filling her line of sight. There were no hints of weakness about him now—only the solid, unyielding strength she’d come to recognize. But now she saw something she hadn’t seen before, or maybe she simply hadn’t recognized it. Sadness hovered over him, shadowing his eyes. Once again, the urge to rid him of his pain crashed into her, sending her into a tailspin.

  Rory wasn’t used to feeling such things. She hadn’t been around people enough to even know how to see what made them tick, much less patch up whatever damage had been done to them.

  All she knew was that the man standing before her now was the same one she’d met last night, but she could no longer see him in the same light. He wasn’t simply some crazy stranger who turned her on and made her visions go away. He was . . . real. He hurt, he grieved, he bled. Cain was such a formidable-looking man that it had been easy for her to assume he had no weakness.

  And yet she’d seen exactly how grief-stricken and devastated he could be.

  “You had a daughter.”

  Cain’s face crumpled for a moment before he regained his composure. Sadness poured out of him, chafing against her skin. His voice was a low, quiet rumble, like distant thunder. “She was my ward, but she’d been with me for a long, long time.”

  “But she was only a child.”

  His words came out slow and unsteady, as if each one had been ripped from a place down deep, leaving a ragged bleeding hole in his chest. “Sibyl was more than a child, and while she was not mine by birth, she was my greatest joy.” His lips pressed together as if he was trying to hold back words he didn’t want to say. “She was cursed to appear as a child even though her mind was anything but. Her small size and weakness made her vulnerable. She needed me.” He said those last words as if Sibyl had given him some kind of gift—as if her need for Cain was something precious to him, rather than a burden, and now that need was gone.

  Rory remembered the way he cradled the photo, anguish twisting his features. There had been guilt there, too. Based on what she’d seen—the demon attack, the broken window and empty, child-sized bed, Cain’s torment and guilt—she knew how the story ended. “I’m so sorry you lost her.”

  “It was my fault. Had I been more careful, she never would have walked away. But I failed her, and now she rarely calls or writes.”

  “She’s alive? I saw the broken window, saw that she was gone.”

  Cain nodded as he pushed out a rough sigh. “So that’s what the luceria chose to show you, is it? My failure?”

  “Failure? Hardly. I saw a monster attack you in your sleep.” Even now the memory of that vision had the power to make her fingers and toes go cold with fear.

  His mouth tightened in frustration. “The night Sibyl was taken, I didn’t even hear the Synestryn coming for her. My only job was to ensure her safety, and I failed. It’s no wonder she left.”

  “I’m sure she’ll come back.”

  He sounded doubtful. “She left me for a reason. She grew up and needed to become the woman she was born to be. Sibyl was always smarter than I was. She knew that if she stayed with me I would stifle her. After centuries of being trapped inside that small, vulnerable body, unable to take care of herself, when she finally grew up, she needed to spread her wings and fly—go somewhere where no one tr
eated her as a child.”

  “Where did she go?”

  “Africa. We have a stronghold there that was attacked a few months ago, and she went to help them rebuild. And maybe to find a man who can give her the kind of power she needs to prove to herself that she’s no longer weak.”

  “You don’t sound too happy about the idea.”

  “I don’t like the thought of men pawing at her, especially when I’m not there to force their good behavior.”

  “Is that what they’ll do? Paw at her?”

  Cain’s shoulder twitched in a slight shrug. “It’s unfair of me to think such things, but I can’t seem to help it. All I can do is try not to think about it.”

  Rory wasn’t exactly helping him on that front. Time for a change of subject—anything to rid him of that guilt that robbed his eyes of their usual brightness. She hated seeing his pain, and the idea of distracting him from it was a compelling temptation.

  He hadn’t looked at her since she’d come out on the other side of those visions. His gaze went past her, focusing on the wall behind her, or the floor, as if he was ashamed. It struck her that she missed the way he looked at her, seeing beyond the superficial. Part of her reveled in it, but the rest of her was freaked out that he’d completely ignored her armor. His scrutiny was usually too intense, but now that it was gone, she missed his directness.

  Rory stepped away from him, putting some distance between them. A flash of someone browning hamburger in a pan shoved its way in her head, shocking her. Her neighbors were too far away for her to pick up on what they saw, and yet the image of Mrs. Wittle’s gnarled hands was unmistakable.

  She swayed in shock, gripping the back of a dining chair to steady herself.

  “Are you okay?” asked Cain.

  He took a step toward her, but she held up her hand to hold him off. “Fine. Just not used to all of this magic junk.”

  He stayed where he stood, but she could feel him looking at her again, seeing her. She tried not to squirm, but there wasn’t a thing she could do about the blast of tingling heat that cascaded down her body in a slow, lingering caress.

  “I’m sorry you had to suffer through the vision. I never would have asked you to witness that part of my life. Why the luceria chose to show you that is a mystery.”

  “The luceria chose . . . ? You make it sound like the thing has a mind of its own. It’s just a piece of jewelry.”

  “It’s much more than that.” His gaze lingered at her neck, and she saw the faintest flickering of hope light his green eyes. “It has the power to change lives, to bind people together irrevocably.”

  “So does a wedding ring, but it’s still just a piece of jewelry.”

  Cain glided toward her, his body moving too smoothly for his size. She wanted to retreat, but her pride held her in place and forced her chin up to meet his advance.

  “Can a wedding ring do this?” he asked.

  A second later, Rory felt a shimmering curtain of energy streak down from her throat, caressing her skin as it went. Her nipples beaded up, and a shiver of pleasure shook her all the way to her bones. It felt too good, and she was unable to stop the audible moan that fell from her lips. She sagged under the weight of so much sensation, not caring whether or not she landed on the floor in a sloppy pile of quivering delight.

  Cain’s hands gripped her arms to hold her upright. She swayed toward him, drawn by a magnetic force she was too weak to resist. Her forehead hit his bare chest, and she swore she could hear the creak of branches moving along his skin. He radiated living heat. His scent filled her head, warm and delicious—familiar, though she couldn’t put her finger on what it was about him that made her feel like she knew him.

  With so much naked male skin at her disposal, she had to resist the crazy need to press her lips to his chest. Kissing him seemed like the height of stupidity, and yet she couldn’t think of anything else at the moment, not when her whole body was trembling in the wake of whatever he’d just done.

  “What was that?” she finally managed to ask.

  “My power, flowing into you through the luceria—a small pulse of it meant to show you what’s to come.”

  Rory’s knees went soft, and she steadied herself, pressing her hands against his hot, naked chest. “If that was small, I won’t survive anything bigger.”

  His voice was rough, deep with a hint of amusement. “Perhaps not at first, but soon you’ll be able to take much, much more. As much as you need.”

  She wasn’t sure if he’d chosen his words to paint vivid, arousing images of the two of them, bodies entwined, but her pesky imagination was running wild, like some drunk frat girl. “What would I need it for?”

  “To find the person who stops your visions. That is what you want, isn’t it?”

  Visions were the last thing on her mind right now. She couldn’t think straight so close to a man like him. He made her too hot and achy to concentrate while simultaneously drenching her in thrilling, heady excitement. She wanted things she had no words for—things that sparked to life within her chest, tiny and quivering with possibility.

  “Yeah,” she said, hating the vapid, breathless quality of her voice. “That’s what I want.”

  His body shifted slightly, the movement so minute she could hardly feel it. Even so, his entire demeanor changed. He held her tighter, nearly lifting her from her feet. A fervent energy spilled out of him, and his voice dipped low, coming out in an almost inaudible whisper. “You don’t have to find this person. We could work together to find a way to block the visions. With my power at your disposal, there’s nothing the two of us can’t do together.”

  Oh, man. Not fair. He was intoxicating her with his sexy voice, with his touch, with his scent. His entire presence wrapped around her and held her captive, making her yearn for things she knew better than to want.

  She’d been so lonely since Nana had died. His companionship was a welcome respite from the daily grind, like a patch of sunlight in an endless sea of cold fog. She wanted to snuggle right in and take what he was so eager to give her, but nothing this good could be true. His eyes made promises that no one person could ever be powerful enough to fulfill.

  “But you said I had to word my promise to you carefully. If I don’t find the person who stops my visions, then what happens?”

  His finger traced the necklace she now wore. It jumped in response to his touch, shivering and humming against her skin. “My luceria stays fixed around your neck.”

  “For how long?”

  “You know the answer to that.”

  She did. She felt the knowledge shimmering inside her mind—like some dormant, forgotten memory suddenly sparked to life. “Forever.”

  He nodded, his throat working as he swallowed hard.

  “You don’t even know me. Not really. How can the idea of us having this weird, magical connection not freak you out? For all you know, I’m a serial killer.”

  “The luceria would have shown me that had it been true. It didn’t. I saw other things, though.”

  “Are you saying that this necklace showed you something from my life?”

  “That is the way it works. I show you mine. You show me yours.”

  In an embarrassingly swift rush, her mind went to a naughty little place where the two of them were naked and pressed together as close as two people could get. It was a silly, immature thing for her to imagine, but she couldn’t stop herself from feeling a giddy rush of girlish excitement all the same.

  “What did you see?” she asked, looking at her toes because she was too afraid to see any hints of mockery on his face.

  “Bits of your life. Your grandmother. Your isolation.” He tipped her chin up with his finger. “It doesn’t have to be like that now. You’re not alone anymore.”

  Tears burned her eyes as a wave of unwanted emotions swept over her. She was ashamed of her weakness, embarrassed by her affliction and the loneliness it caused. But mostly, she was relieved to be able to be this close to another pe
rson again. She hadn’t been able to see through Nana’s eyes for some reason, and Cain was like that, too—at least when she touched him. He made her feel normal, rather than like the fucked-up freak show she really was.

  With him, it was easy to pretend that everything really was going to be okay, and that her life wouldn’t be a constant struggle to keep the visions away.

  And that was the problem. With him it was pretend. Not real. Not permanent.

  Sure, he said pretty words about forever, but that wasn’t the way the real world worked. Sooner or later she’d piss him off, or he’d irritate her and they’d go their separate ways. And that was assuming he didn’t simply grow bored with her. A man built like him could have any woman he wanted. Sooner or later, that woman would walk into his life and leave Rory looking like a dirty, wet sponge by comparison.

  “I need to finish what I started,” she told him. “I will find the person who makes my visions go away and figure out how they do it. Hope said that it might be as simple as finding a magic ring or something.”

  That little spark of hope that had lit his green eyes was snuffed out. He nodded and let his hands drop to his sides, leaving a cold wedge of air between them. “If you want to find this person, then it’s time you learned to use my power.”

  “How is that going to help?”

  “Because you may be able to use magic to aid your search.”

  “Really?”

  “Really. And even if you can’t use it in that way, you need to learn how to protect yourself.”

  “I have a gun. I know how to use it.”

  “That will do little good against most demons.”

  One part of Rory thrilled at the idea of learning how to use magic, but the more reasonable side of her was cautious. Having something that cool in her life and losing it was too hard. She’d already lost too much, and maybe in this case it was better to never know what she was missing. “I think I’ll pass on the magic stuff. But thanks anyway.”