by J. L. Ostle
We all deal in our own ways.
I head back into my room and sit on my bed and start writing out lyrics. Xander is building a recording studio in one of the rooms and I can’t wait until its ready. I need to focus on my music and that’s it.
I played for Xander and he loved my voice. The following day he had plans made to build a room where me and my band can rehearse and also record if we wanted to. He even offered to put my name out with some of his contacts but I declined, wanting to do it on my own.
I never told Karen since I know she would kick my ass for turning down such an offer. I want to see if we can get there on our merits though, not just through who we know.
The rest of the night I pour out my heart in a song.
Sasha
It’s the day of the wedding and I am standing there in a long lilac dress, my hair in waves flowing down my back. I look in the mirror and see the now black hair. I dyed it two days ago, wanting a change. Mom almost had a heart attack, saying I ruined my beautiful, mousy brown hair, but I told her due to all the changes, I needed a change myself.
“We are ready for you,” the wedding planner, a woman who looks about fifty, her hair already gray, says. She has been lovely and kind and gave my mom everything she wanted.
“I can’t believe I’m doing this again,” Mom says, sighing.
“You look beautiful.” She really does. She is wearing a long, white lace dress, hugging her perfect body.
“So do you. Thank you for being so understanding. You have been amazing.” I give her a weak smile. I hid my tears, my pain. Nothing can be done so why say something? It wouldn’t change anything. It would just make things weird.
“Let’s go get you married.” She squeals and I head to the door and when the wedding planner gives me the signal, I start to walk slowly down the aisle. I look straight forward and I gasp when my eyes land on Colin. He is standing right next to his dad.
My eyes are on him as I walk down. His jaw is set tight as his eyes bore into me. When I get to the front, I step to the side and when I look to him, his eyes are still on me. I look away when the marriage march comes on.
I watch my mom walk down with the biggest smile on her face. Xander looks so proud. I am happy for my mom, I really am. She deserves happiness, especially after losing her first love.
I watch as they share vows. I watch as they place the rings on their fingers. But when they kiss, announcing they are now husband and wife, it's then when it really sinks in. Colin is now my stepbrother. I look to him and no emotion is showing. I see anger in his eyes but that’s because I know him.
Knew him.
Getting the photos taken was the worst as they wanted to focus on us as a family and when I think that we are finished, the photographer wanted ones of the new stepsiblings, making Colin and I stand side by side.
“You two look like stone. Relax.” The photographer laughs. “Sweetie, place your hand on his chest and both face me.” I groan and do as I’m asked.
Once my hand is placed on his chest, I feel his body tense at my touch. We both smile and when I’m about to step back, Colin places his hand above mine, stopping me. I look up at him and he looks down to me.
“You look really beautiful.”
“Thank you,” I whisper. “You look really handsome.” He touches my hair.
“You look so different.” His eyes are sad.
“Things are different.” We both just look at one another.
The party is a hit. Everyone is laughing and having fun. The meal was amazing and now me and my band are playing since Mom begged me to be the band for their wedding. How could I say no? The party is being held outside and with the sun setting, it looks perfect. I played all their favorite songs, including Bryan Adams ‘Everything I do’ for their first dance.
I decide to to play ‘If We Hold on Together’ by Diana Ross. It’s a song Dad used to sing to me when I was a kid before bed. It was one of the first songs I learned to play. I play it and Mom looks to me with tears in her eyes and I give her a watery smile.
I close my eyes as images of my dad enter my head. Seeing his smile, our tickle fights. Dad buying new water guns and sneaking into the kitchen and squirting Mom as she did the dishes. He really was a great dad. I know he would approve of Xander. I can see how much Xander adores my mother.
I open my eyes and Xander and Mom are dancing. Xander holding my mom as tears fall down her cheeks. He looks to me and I give him a smile and he smiles in return.
“Okay, we are now taking requests.” Everyone runs to the stage, shouting out song names. I chuckle to them. “One at a time, please.” But they are still shouting out names.
“Ed Sheeran ‘Thinking Out Loud’,” Colin shouts and I look to him.
“Ed Sheeran?” He nods. “Okay.” I look to Karen and she shrugs.
I start to sing and soon the words hit me. He watches me sing, not looking away. The line saying people fall in love in mysterious ways, even by a touch of a hand, sends a searing pain through me. He chose this song for a reason.
Is he trying to hurt me?
I continue with the song and once I’m finished, I let everyone know we are taking a break and they applaud as I jump off the stage and head inside, running up the grand stairs towards the bathroom. My hand is on the door when I feel my body being pushed inside. I turn to see Colin standing there.
He looks angry with me. I am the one who should be angry. Making me play a song about love. Yes, it’s a wedding but he shouldn’t have requested it. I am about to give him a piece of my mind when he charges at me, his lips on mine. Lifting me, placing me on the bathroom counter, spreading my legs apart and standing between them.
He devours my mouth and I am pulling his hair, pulling him into me. I wrap my legs around tighter. Feeling his erection press against me causes me to groan into his mouth. I feel his hand slip between us, gliding along my thigh until he pulls my panties to the side and starts rubbing my clit.
My mind is so foggy that I don’t know what’s happening. I’ve missed him so much. I missed this. I pull his hair tighter and he rubs faster. My eyes are rolling back when there is a knock on the door and we both stop. My body is frozen to the spot.
Someone is on the other side of the door and my now stepbrother has his thumb on my aching clit.
“Honey, are you okay?” Panic surges through me.
“Yes, Mom, I’m fine. I’ll be down in five minutes.” Colin doesn’t move.
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
“Yeah, I’m fine… just time of the month.” I lie.
“Oh okay. Just making sure. You are playing so beautifully. Dad would be so proud.”
“Thank you, mom.” I hold my breath as I hear her footsteps walk away. I look to Colin and he won’t even look at me. I push his chest and stand. I adjust my dress and look in the mirror, making sure I look like I haven’t been messing around with my stepbrother.
“I need to go,” I say, walking around him.
“I’m leaving,” he blurts out and I turn around.
“What do you mean you’re leaving?” My heart is in my throat.
“A football scout wants me to start next month, so after graduation, I’m gone.” Tears prickle my eyes.
He’s leaving me.
“So, what was this?” I point round the room. “A quick fuck before you go? I thought I meant more to you than that. I guess I really am just another one of your whores. A quick fuck in a bathroom.” I place my hand on the door and he pulls me back to him. My back to his front.
“You were never that to me,” he breathes into my ear. “I just wanted to be with you one more time.” I turn and push him away.
“Our parents just got married today. It’s different now!” I shout at him. “I hope you have a nice life, Colin.” I walk out and slam the door behind me. I look up to the ceiling, begging the tears to not fall. I try and calm myself and walk back to the wedding. I get back to the stage and Karen runs to me.
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��What happened? I saw him run after you.”
“He’s leaving. He’s moving away after graduation.” I put the guitar strap over me.
“Oh, babe…” I put my hand up, stopping her.
“Don’t. I’m finding it a little hard to stay strong right now so, please, we can’t talk about it, not now.”
“Whatever you want, babe.” She gives a look to Brady and Leo.
“Hi everyone, we are back. Ready for some more music?” I take in a deep breath and let my fingers work their magic.
Sasha
It's graduation and I should be happy. I basically got all A’s in my classes. I got accepted at C.L.A. University with Karen, Leo, and Brady. We are all going together. I turn and see Mom and Xander smiling. Mom waves at me, holding a camera and I wave back. I look to my side and see Colin sitting next to me with his arms crossed.
Of course, we both had to have the same last initial.
What happened in the bathroom wasn’t the last time we came close to sleeping together. With his room near enough to mine, there were times we uninvitedly entered each other’s room. It was like a pathetic game as we would turn the other down if it was them who was asking.
He leaves tomorrow morning and I will be spending the summer with my friends, Mom, and Xander. Xander has been nice towards me and very sweet to my mother but he treats his son so poorly. He acts like he’s more of an inconvenience than a son.
I spoke to Mom about it and she told me it wasn’t our business to comment. He won’t tell her how to raise me and it worked vice versa, even though I know my mom would love to say something about it.
I listen as some rich guy goes on and when it’s time to stand to get our diplomas, I feel the excitement course through me.
High school is over. I can’t believe it.
I’ve only taken a few steps when I accidentally stand on my gown, causing me to trip, and I’m about to fall backwards when arms wrap around me, pulling me back up. I look up to Colin smirking at me.
“You do have ways of getting in my arms,” he jokes and I laugh.
“What can I say? I like falling for you.” As soon as the words leave my mouth, I wish I said something else. It really was a bad joke.
“I’m going to miss you, sweets.”
“I’m going to miss you, too.” He keeps me in his arms. “Stay in touch, okay? I’ll try and follow all your games.”
He gives me a small smile. “I’m sure I will be hearing your music on the radio soon.”
“Fingers crossed.” I show him my crossed fingers and he laughs.
“Don’t change, okay?”
“I’ll try, but you know what fame is like; sex, drugs, and rock ‘n’ roll.” I flick my hair.
“Come on, let’s go, graduate.” He starts walking and I follow suit. I wait as the student’s names get called out and when I hear Colin’s, I can’t help but cheer and he turns around, smiling hugely at me, shaking his head.
When my name is called next, I walk up and shake Mr. Atkins hand and turn to see my Mom cheering and taking photos. Colin jogs up in front of me then, lifting me up and placing me over his shoulder.
“What are you doing?” I squeal.
“For old times’ sake.” He walks me down back to our seats and when I am seated, I hit his arm.
“You had to make a scene.”
“Come on, that was funny. Did you see a few of the people’s faces?” I look around and see a few of the students point and whisper. They know that we dated and they know that we are now related. I’m surprised that our parents never heard; if they did, they probably thought it was a pile of crap.
After the last student got their diploma and we all cheer, we walk to our parents and get pulled in for hugs. Well, Xander shook my and Colin’s hand, congratulating us.
“I can’t believe my baby has graduated. Going to college in a few weeks.” She starts to cry and Xander places his arm around her waist. “I just have one thing to ask.”
“What’s that, Mom?”
“If you make me a grandmother anytime soon, I will kick your ass.” I look to her, my mouth hanging open and Colin and Xander laugh at me.
“Mom, I can’t believe you just said that.” She is smiling at me.
“Oh, come on, that was funny. You should have seen your face.”
“Are you twelve? That was so embarrassing.”
“No, embarrassing would be that you would run around naked and shake your bum-bum when…” I quickly cover her mouth with my hand.
“You finish that and I will purposely get knocked up.” The look she gives me isn’t funny.
“Now that isn’t funny.” I cross my arms.
“You are such a spoilsport. I want to know what you did shaking your little baby butt.” Colin walks to my Moms side.
“Wait until she’s asleep then I will fill you in on the dirt,” she whispers in his ear but loud enough for me to hear.
“I heard that.”
“You were meant to.” I stick my tongue out at her.
“What did I marry into?” Xander teases.
“The Addams family,” I joke back and he bursts out in laughter.
“I enjoyed those movies. We need to have a movie night.”
“You’re on. We should do it tonight. One last family night,” I say with hope.
“Don’t you have like a million parties to go to?” Mom asks me.
“I rather be with my family.” I look at Colin and his eyes are on me. I’d rather it be just us four then a house full of drunk people. “But if none of you can…”
“I’m in,” Colin says, interrupting me.
“I guess I can take time away from work for family night.” Xander says. Mom beams at him and I shriek, jumping up and down.
We all head home and once I’m inside, I head to the kitchen getting myself a smoothie that’s already made up in the fridge. I sit on a stool and look out the window into the garden. I sigh as I think how quickly time has flown and how much things have changed.
Roughly two months ago I had a boyfriend, a person I was falling in love with.
Now I have a stepfather and brother.
It’s weird how things turn out.
I am deep in thought when I feel that hum fill me; even after all this time I still sense him.
“You seem lost in thought,” he says softly next to me.
“Yeah, was just thinking about the past.” I look to him and he is staring at me.
“About us?” I nod. “I think about us at times, too.” I’m surprised since he has gone back to being a man whore. I don’t say anything. “I think, what if our parents never got married? Would we still be together knowing we are going to two different colleges? Would we still be all over each other?” He chuckles.
“I like to think we would still be happy. That we would be strong and that we would fight for our relationship, not letting distance ruin it.”
“I like to think that, too.” I finish my drink and place it in the dishwasher.
“I'll see you later for movie night,” I say, ready to leave.
“I will see you later.” I give him a small smile and head up to my room and when I’m inside, I fall face down onto my bed, groaning.
I prefer him ignoring me than opening up to me. When he ignores me, I can handle it. But when he opens up, it's seeing the boy that was mine. That should have been mine. I decide to take a shower and I’m stripping off when my door flies open. Colin is standing there and I quickly use my hands to cover my personal parts, glaring at him.
“Ever heard of knocking?” His eyes trail over my body and I can feel myself heat up. “Don’t, Colin,” I whisper. He closes the door behind him and walks slowly towards me.
Colin
I watch her walk away and I just sit there feeling sorry for myself. These last few months have been torture, seeing her walk around wearing hardly anything. Her body teasing me, begging for me to touch her.
I have tried to get over her, I have made sure to drink
myself stupid on weekends so I’m too hungover to actually be around her. But the bad thing about being drunk is coming home and trying to pursue your stepsister.
I sit for a few more minutes before I decide to go up and talk to her. I don’t want to leave on any bad terms.
We are family, I think sullenly.
I head to her room and open the door without knocking and my mouth goes completely dry. She is standing naked in front of me, her hands trying to cover her up but failing. Seeing her creamy white skin, I can feel my dick harden just by looking at her.
She is glaring at me. “Ever heard of knocking?” My eyes trail over every inch of her. I need to touch her. I need to taste her or I will go mad. “Don’t, Colin.” Her voice is soft. Looking into her eyes, I know she wants this just as bad as I do.
I close the door and walk slowly towards her. She doesn’t move. Her hands still trying to cover herself. I stand in front of her, making her look up at me. I tuck some hair behind her ear, causing her eyes to close.
I trail my fingers down her arms until I reach her hands. I lift them so they are around my neck and I look down at her perfect body. Her breathing is coming out in pants. I glide my hand from her neck down to her breasts and I touch her nipples softly as she bites her lip.
I’m ready to come right now but I want to do this right.
I glide down her stomach until my fingers are sliding through her wet folds. I groan when I feel how wet she is. I touch her clit and she gasps. I move my fingers, making her whimper and I start walking, forcing her backwards until I lay her on her bed.
I hover over her and start kissing her neck to the top of her breasts and without thinking twice, I bite down hard and see her fist the sheets. I bite and suck, her legs wrap around me, squeezing me. I continue biting and when I pull back, I see my mark that I left her.
I use my tongue to soothe it then I go to her nipples, taking one into my mouth and her body arches off the bed. I do the same to the other, sucking and biting down a little before letting it go with a pop. I trail kisses down her stomach teasingly.
When I get between her legs, I inhale her scent before I take my first lick and, fuck me, she tastes so good. I use my fingers to open her lips a little more and I just start licking until I reach her clit. I put it in my mouth and start sucking and her legs close, trapping me inside but I don’t care.