Until the End of the World (Book 3): All the Stars in the Sky

by Sarah Lyons Fleming

I shove Bits behind me when I bolt to my feet. It’s doubtless a mistake, but I can’t watch this. “Get your fucking hands off her!”

  Boss’s mean eyes slither my way. “Or what?”

  I don’t have an answer. I would rip off his head, disembowel him with my fingers if I could. He works his tongue around his mouth and spits a chunk of food to the floor. “You volunteering?”

  He leaves no doubt as to what he means with the way his eyes slink down my body. If this is what it takes to get his hands off of Ashley, I’ll do it. She’s a virgin. I won’t let this be her first experience with a man. I attempt a breath, but the RV suddenly feels as tiny and stifling as a closet.

  “If you leave her alone,” I whisper. He nods and shoves Ash into the kitchen, where she hits the refrigerator with a moan.

  Auburn’s rifle rises at a gasp from the cabover bed. “Get down here,” he says.

  Penny hits the floor and stands with her shoulders back and lip curled. The only part of her that doesn’t resemble her sister is the hand curled protectively over her belly.

  Boss crooks a finger at me. “Come here.”

  I trip over Hank to get there. The creases of Boss’s face are filled with grime and his hands are filthy. I shudder when I imagine them on me. He leans close, and there’s nothing in his washed-out eyes but a whole lot of crazy. “You fight, you die.”

  CHAPTER 31

  I thought they’d do whatever they’re going to do with me right away. Instead, Boss has shoved me into the dinette across from Maureen while they pick through our food and argue over who gets what.

  They discuss Jay, the man in the bedroom, who’s dying of a gunshot wound. Shawn and Adam got one of them, at least. They must be dead—I know they’d do anything to stop this if they weren’t. I don’t want to see Nelly’s face when he hears about Adam, but I probably won’t be here to see anything. I just need to keep Boss and his friends busy long enough for the others to get here.

  Boss’s eyes land on Nicki’s arm. “Who did that? You said she has a broken arm. Who bandaged her up?”

  We’re silent. Finally, just as he looks about to explode, Jamie speaks. “I did.”

  “Go and look at Jay. One of your men shot him.” It’s accusatory, as if they’d been out for a leisurely walk when we opened fire.

  “If you let me check on the ones outside,” Jamie says.

  “You think you can make a deal?” Twitch asks with a harsh laugh. He’s the first one I’d kill. I’d love to shove a knife through his thin lips. “You’ll look at him if we tell you to.”

  “Let her see her dead men,” Boss says with a shrug. “When she’s done.”

  Jamie sets Nicki on the couch with Penny and the kids. They’re only feet away, and I want to hold them so badly that it might be worth dying for if I wasn’t already doing the one thing that might keep them alive.

  Twitch herds Jamie to the bedroom with his gun in her back. The handheld radio crackles softly from somewhere on the table. If they call when they’re close, these men will be waiting and they won’t stand a chance. I scan the surface and spot the short black antenna peeking out from under a map. I slip the walkie-talkie down by my thigh and lower the volume when the can opener grinds on a can of beans. Maureen watches with round eyes and sags when I succeed without anyone noticing.

  They’ve opened our honey. They chew on uncooked oatmeal. Crumbs fall as they dig into Ashley’s birthday cookies. The kids’ faces are blank. I know they don’t care, but I do. There’s so little left to celebrate, so few presents to give, and these men are taking every single thing we have—Shawn, Adam, and even our fucking cookies.

  I wedge the radio between the seat cushion and wall, looking down quickly to make sure the button is depressed. Maybe they’ll hear us when they get close. But no matter how much they call, the men won’t hear them.

  Boss grabs my arm and bashes my side on the table when he drags me clear. It’ll leave a bruise, but I barely feel it. This is it. “Time to go. Where’re you taking her?” he asks Whit. “Bedroom?”

  Whit looks like the most normal of the bunch, although that’s not saying much. He has most of his teeth, at least. I’d love to curse him, to stand my ground, but I’m scared. Scared of what’s going to happen, scared they’ll hurt someone else.

  Whit grimaces. “Jay’s in there.”

  “So?”

  “The truck.”

  My stomach heaves. I’ve talked myself into believing I can let them take whatever they want of my body and leave my mind intact, but now I’m not so sure.

  “I’ll keep watch,” Auburn says.

  “Remember what I said,” Boss says to me. My head nods of its own accord. “You don’t want to die, do you?”

  I’m probably going to die, anyway. I don’t know why he’s bothering to pretend. I stumble when Bits calls my name. She breaks free of Penny’s arms, face a blotchy mess. She knows exactly what’s happening; she’s lived through this before. This could be the thing that destroys her forever, but I think she’s stronger than that.

  Whit’s fingers dig into my arm and I turn with a scowl. “Let me talk to her.”

  He backs off. I take in Bits’s sweet face, from her small nose to every last freckle. I wonder if her mother wiped her tears away or lied the way I’m about to. “It’ll be all right, sweetie. Listen to Penny and Maureen, okay?”

  They’ll protect the kids to their dying breaths, of that I’m sure. It’s just that their dying breaths might only be minutes away.

  Bits’s head shakes wildly. “Don’t leave!”

  I try to remember every detail of how she feels in my arms and look into her eyes. This has to count. “I love you so much. More than all the stars in the sky.”

  Bits fights when I peel her fingers off my coat, and I fear they’ll hurt her if she doesn’t stop.

  “Stop, Bits!” She jumps, startled. I hate that it’s the last thing she’ll ever hear from me. “I have to go. I’m sorry.”

  Her hands drop and her eyes dull. She does an about-face and walks to Penny as if I’m already gone. I know she’s doing it to protect herself, but it hurts. And I wonder if she’ll ever come back if I don’t.

  CHAPTER 32

  Auburn stands on the RV steps while Whit pushes me to the pickup that’s parked forty feet away. It’s no surprise Adam and Shawn were fooled. What are the chances another pickup was going to pull up when we’ve barely seen anyone for thousands of miles?

  Between the low moon and the light spilling from the RV windows, I make out a dark lump at the end of the RV. I stop with my hand to my mouth. Shawn really is dead. Whit jabs his gun into my back and I trip to the truck. He lowers the tailgate and points to boxes in the truck’s bed. “Take those out.”

  I pull the two wooden crates to the ground, followed by a cardboard box that clanks when I drop it. Whit’s lantern illuminates two bows and a jumble of arrows at the bottom. If only I could grab this and run. Hide somewhere in the grass and shoot them from afar.

  “Get in,” he says.

  It takes me two tries, shaking so hard my bones rattle. I’m not going to fight, like I promised, but I’m not going to help either. He sets the lantern on the ground and climbs up after me, knife out.

  “Take this off.” He yanks my coat zipper, and I let it fall. Jesus, it’s cold out here. I’m going to die in the cold. “Shirt.”

  I pull it over my head and point to my tank top. My teeth chatter from fear as much as the temperature. “C-can I leave it on?”

  He pushes me to the truck’s metal bed in answer. Cold soaks into my bare arms and shoulders and through the thin fabric of my shirt. There are so many stars out tonight. The prairie is a giant bowl of sky. Maybe it’s not such a bad place to die—here, looking up at the stars.

  Whit straddles me, knife hand pinning my shoulder to the steel. He paws beneath my bra and fumbles with his pants. I bite my tongue so hard I taste blood. I refuse to scream—I’ll force myself to concentrate on that velvety black bowl twink
ling with lights. I find Cassiopeia, who was hung in the sky as punishment for her vanity. She might have deserved it, but there’s plenty of punishment in this world for people who don’t deserve any.

  This close, his odor is unbearable and, when he coughs, even the food he’s eaten doesn’t cover the smell on his breath. It makes me wonder where the Lexers are. Where are they when you need them? I would welcome a pod right now. It’d be preferable to die that way, but it wouldn’t do us any good. How you die does matter, and I’ll die doing my best to protect the people I love. I find the Big and Little Dippers—the easy ones—and stare at the north star. Sometimes Pegasus is hard to see, but not with the way the stars gleam tonight. I follow Whit’s instructions to undo my belt and jeans but don’t pull them down. He’ll have to figure this out alone.

  I clench my fists by my side when his hands lower. I can taste the stench coming off him. I think I’d rather die than choke down that so-called food. I know I’d rather die than turn into something sick like these men, if there’s any possibility that’s what made them this way.

  I look for the stars that make up Cetus, the sea monster, and don’t resist when Whit yanks at my jeans one-handed. I’m tired of fighting. Tired of being optimistic. Tired of losing people and living in a world that, quite frankly, doesn’t seem to want us here. I don’t want to worry anymore. If there is a Heaven, we can meet there. Even if there’s not, I won’t have to worry about anything ever again. And I don’t want there to be a Heaven at this moment—I don’t want my mother and father and brother and Adrian to be watching me at my most helpless, unable to come to my aid.

  I find the Andromeda constellation. She was the daughter of Cassiopeia, punished for sins that weren’t her own. Chained to a rock and left to be eaten by the sea monster. Helpless, like me, until she was rescued by Perseus. But Perseus isn’t coming.

  I let my last bit of hope float up to the stars. It’s not so bad. I don’t know why I didn’t give up a year ago, a few months ago. Next world or not, I’m done with this one. I’m done with this body that has always been mine to give and no longer feels like it belongs to me.

  He grunts something I barely register. A scream comes from the RV, loud enough to pierce through the haze I’ve worked so hard to create. I think dimly that they’re supposed to be okay. That’s why I’m allowing something every cell in my body revolts against.

  Whit gets my jeans to my ankles before he loses patience. “Take your boots off.”

  It could be the first time he’s done this. He’s clumsy and unsure, but by the way he breathes I know he has no intention of stopping.

  Ashley howls. Maureen scolds. A faint anger ripples through me. When the chorus of screaming begins and I’m sure that Boss has broken his word, the anger swells to rage. As far as Bits is concerned—as far as I’m concerned—I’m already gone. But I could come back. I just have to figure out how. I take a final look at Andromeda before I sit up. I’m not chained like that poor girl. The sea monster is breathing down my neck, but maybe I can fight him off myself.

  I glance into the shadows for a weapon. He has a gun, but I don’t know where it is. The screams from the RV cut off and my head clears in the silence that follows. I can do this. I can work with what I have. I untie my left boot and then use my left hand to unlace it completely while I work on my right. He can’t see what I’m doing in the dark. I ball the shoelace in my hand and work off my jeans.

  I gasp when my bare legs hit metal. Whit pushes me to my back and my collarbone creaks under the weight of his hand. Now that I’ve returned from the stars I feel every degree of cold, every centimeter of his skin on mine. He growls when he finds that I still wear my new underwear. I’m not making this easy—this is my only chance. I’m going to take it, and I’m going to take it before he gets what he came for.

  “Stupid bitch!” He moves to the side, knocking over something in the process. I kneel as if doing what I’m told and take each end of the shoelace in my shaking hands.

  “Everything all right?” Auburn calls.

  “Fine,” Whit calls back. “Just keep watch.”

  I use the moment his head is turned to loop my bootlace around his neck. He freezes in surprise, which gives me time to pull it into a half knot—the way one begins to tie their shoes, bunny ears or no. His fists flail backward, punching at my ribs hard enough to take my breath away and keeping me from pulling the lace as tight as it needs to be. I need to get him down. I need more leverage.

  Die, I want to scream, Fucking die already. When he doubles over with the effort of drawing a breath, I push him to the metal and scramble onto his back. He kicks his legs, but his feet hang over the edge of the truck’s bed and hardly make a sound. I can see Auburn standing with his lantern forty feet away on the RV steps. If the low noises Whit makes carry that far, I hope he thinks they’re grunts and thumps of pleasure.

  Whit’s knife has landed above his head, just out of his reach as well as mine. It would be a better weapon, but he could get to it first if I let go. And I’m not letting go. I pull until there’s enough slack to wrap the lace around my hands. The deeper it digs into my flesh, the deeper it digs into the soft skin of his neck.

  He jolts under me. I press my knees into his spine. It’s taking so long, or maybe it just feels that way—such a quiet yet violent battle. It’s sweaty and desperate and more horrible than I thought to hold a man down while he struggles for his life. But it’s his or mine.

  Help me, I beg my mom and dad. Help me live. Help me kill him. Maybe a prayer for murder is the wrong kind of prayer, but I don’t give a shit.

  It could take another minute, and I can hold on for as long as it takes. There’s a loud snap and my hands fly out, each holding an end of my broken bootlace. Whit takes a shuddering gasp of air. He’ll be stronger than me in no time. I plant my knees in his shoulder blades and lunge for his knife.

  I’ve sunk a blade into the back of a skull countless times by now. He’s not a Lexer, though, and it glances off the side of his head when he rolls out from under me. He gags and smashes a fist into my cheek. I fall to my side—eye tearing, cheekbone on fire—and scramble to my knees. I clasp the knife over his exposed neck and bring it down two-handed with more force than I’d need to get through skull. And then I do it again.

  I’m used to the grinding of bone and the crackling of gristle, but the blood is new and it’s everywhere. It sprays my arms and body, which are only inches away. The tangy, metallic smell overpowers his rot. My knees skid in its warmth and I topple beside him, blood oozing under me.

  “Hey, Whit,” Auburn calls. “You like it rough?” He laughs at his own joke. After a moment, he calls, “Whit?”

  I get on my hands and knees. He has a gun and I have a knife; it’s no mystery who’ll win that contest. I need his gun for when I go back into the RV. I slip off the edge of the truck and remember the bows when my feet hit the box. I don’t know if I’m strong enough to use them. I drag my slippery palm along my blood-soaked shirt and get enough of a grip to nock the arrow and test the bow. It might be hard to draw under normal circumstances, but it pulls back as easily as a child’s toy in my adrenalized arms.

  I hide behind the tailgate. They may be crazy, but right now I’m crazier. I’m going to take back the things I love. No one’s going to stop me. Auburn is twenty feet away and closing in with a gun and lantern that allows me to see my target. And I need to see. I have to hit his neck or mouth or eye. I can’t give him time to make noise.

  I draw the bow and let the arrow fly. I will it to his throat—at the soft V below his Adam’s apple—because my getting any kind of head shot is unlikely. The lantern clatters to the ground when my arrow hits its mark. Auburn’s eyes widen and his hand goes to his neck, but he doesn’t stop coming. Something low and fast streaks past and I catch a glimpse of golden fur in the rolling lantern before Barnaby hits him head-on and takes him down.

  I run to finish him off, but Auburn is motionless. Barn raises his head from the
dead man and whines into the dark. I spin at the quiet call of my name. The moon is higher now, bright enough to dim some of the stars and to see the whites of Peter’s eyes all around when he grips my arms. “Are you okay? What’s going on?”

  “More inside.” My teeth clack together. “Four more. One’s hurt.”

  “Is everyone okay?” Zeke asks.

  I shake my head and don’t look at Nelly. He’ll know if I do. Zeke opens his mouth and closes it. We’re behind the truck’s cab, but it’s only a matter of time before someone checks on Auburn and Whit. I grab Zeke’s coat when he spins for the RV. If they rush in there, someone’s bound to get hurt. “Give me a gun. I’ll say there are zombies and try to send them out. If they don’t, you come in.”

  Somewhere I’m aware of how wild I must seem, standing in my underwear and a tank top with blood freezing on my skin, but right now all that matters is that every last one of these men die.

  “You can’t kill…” Zeke says. He looks me up and down and hands me his gun.

  ***

  I scream for help and fall through the RV’s door. The plan is to send at least one of them outside to help their friends, but my script deserts me at the sight of Maureen on the kitchen floor in a spreading pool of blood. The tips of her fingers lay limp in the crimson lake. Her eyes are open and an icy, dead blue.

  On the couch, Nicki’s head is buried in Penny’s side. Bits and Hank look almost as terrified of me as they do of the men. Ash and Jamie are missing, as is Twitch. We had a deal, me and Boss: I didn’t fight and he didn’t hurt anyone else. My part of the bargain is null and void.

  “What the fuck is going on?” Boss asks when he sees me. The dark-haired man looks up from the dinette, hand on his gun.

  I keep my arm behind my back, where I’ve tucked the gun in my underwear, and meet Penny’s eyes. “La familia es fuera.” The family is outside. It’s the best I can do, since I cut Spanish class more than I went.

  Boss and Dark-hair look to her in confusion. I could pull my gun and have him lay down his, but it’s going to end with a bullet to his head either way. And I’ve seen enough movies to know that when you give the bad guy a second chance, he takes it.