Shiloh
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"That's pretty good," I say.
"Littlest one, he's nothin' but a trashy dog-- he'll run down most anything 'cept what I'm after.
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Hope the others'll learn him something. And the middle dog, well, she gives a lot of mouth, too. Even barks at dead trees." The dogs were fighting now, and Judd throws his Pabst can at 'em. "You-all shut up!" he yells. "Hush up!"
The can hits the biggest dog, and they all scatter.
"Don't much like bein' chained," Judd says.
"Guess nobody would," I tell him.
I put in ten hours that week, meaning I make up twenty of the dollars I owe him; got one more week to go. When I leave of an afternoon for Judd's, Shiloh goes with me just so far, then he gets to whining and turns back. I'm glad he won't go on with me. Don't want him anywhere near Judd Travers.
Monday of the second week it seem like Judd's out to break my back or my spirit or both. This time he's got me splittin' wood. I got to roll a big old piece of locust wood over to the stump in his side yard, drive a wedge in it, then hit the wedge with a sledgehammer, again and again till the wood falls apart in pieces to fit his wood stove. Then another log and another.
I can hardly get the sledgehammer up over my head, and when I bring it down, my arms is so wobbly my aim ain't true. Almost drop the hammer. This ain't a job for me, and if Dad saw what Judd was makin' me do, he'd tell him it wasn't safe.
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But Judd's out to teach me a lesson, and I'm out to teach him one. So I keep at it. Know it takes me twice as long as Judd to split that wood, but I don't stop. And all the while, Judd sits on his porch, drinking his beer, watching me sweat. Sure does his heart good, I can tell.
Then he says somethin' that almost stops my heart cold. Laughs and says, "Boy, you sure are put-tin' in a whole lot of work for nothin'."
I rest my back a moment, wipe one arm across my face. "Shiloh's somethin'," I tell him.
"You think you're goin' to get my dog just 'cause you got some handwritin' on a piece of paper?" Judd laughs and drinks some more. "Why, that paper's not good for anything but to blow your nose on. Didn't have a witness."
I look at Judd. "What you mean?"
"You don't even know what's legal and what's not, do you? Well, you show a judge a paper without a witness's signature, he'll laugh you right out of the courthouse. Got to have somebody sign that he saw you strike a bargain." Judd laughs some more. "And nobody here but my dogs."
I feel sick inside, like I could maybe throw up. Can't think of what to do or say, so I just lift the sledgehammer again, go on splittin' the wood.
Judd laughs even harder. "What are you, boy?
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Some kind of fool?" And when I don't answer, he says, "What you breakin' your back for?"
"I want that dog," I tell him, and raise the sledgehammer again.
That night when I'm sittin' out on the porch with Ma and Dad, Shiloh in my lap, I check it out. "What's a witness?" I say.
"Somebody who knows the Lord Jesus and don't mind tellin' about it," says Ma.
"No, the other kind."
"Somebody who sees something happen and signs that it's true," Dad says. "What you got in mind now, Marty?"
"You make a bargain with somebody, you got to have a witness?" I ask, not answering.
"If you want it done right and legal, I suppose you do."-
I can't bear to have Dad know I was so stupid I made an agreement with Judd Travers without a witness.
"What you thinking on?" Dad asks again, hunching up his shoulders while Ma rubs his back.
"Just thinking how you sell something, is all. Land and stuff."
Dad looks at me quick. "You're not trying to sell off some of my land for that dog, are you?"
"No," I tell him, glad I got him off track. But I
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sure am worried. Every trace of that deer's gone now. Don't know what Judd done with the meat--rented him a meat locker somewhere, maybe. But there's no bones around, no hide. I report him now, I can't prove a thing.
Next day Judd Travers calls me dumb. Sees me waiting for him on his steps and says I must have a head as thick as a coconut; didn't he already tell me that the paper wasn't worth nothing?
I just look straight through him. "You and me made a bargain," I say, "and I aim to keep my part of it. What you want me to do today?"
Judd just points to the sledgehammer again and doubles over laughin', like it's the biggest joke he ever played on somebody in his life. I can feel the sweat trickle down my back and I ain't even started yet.
Four o'clock comes, and I finally finished all that wood, but Judd pretends he's asleep. Got his head laid back, mouth half open, but I know it's just another way he's got to trick me. Wants me to sneak on home; then he'll say I never kept to my part of the bargain. So I go in his shed, put the sledgehammer back, take out the sickle, and go tackle the weeds down by his mailbox. Work on them weeds a whole hour, and when five o'clock comes, I start back toward the shed. See him watching me. I walk over.
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"Sickle's gettin' dull, Judd. You got a whetstone around, I could sharpen it for you."
He studies me a good long while. "In the shed," he says.
I go get it, sit out on a stump, running the whetstone over the blade.
"Past five o'clock," says Judd.
"I know," I say.
"I ain't going to pay you one cent more," he says.
"It's okay," I tell him. Never saw a look on a man's face like I see on his. Pure puzzlement is what it is.
Thing I decide on when I head for Judd's again the next day is that I got no choice. All I can do is stick to my side of the deal and see what happens. All in the world I can do. If I quit now, he'll come for Shiloh, and we're right back where we started. I don't want to make him mad. No use having a winner and loser, or the bad feelings would just go on. Don't want to have to worry about Shiloh when he's running loose and I'm in school. Don't want to feel that Judd's so sore at me he'll think up any excuse at all to run his truck over my dog.
Only sign in this world we're making progress is the water Judd puts out for me. This day it even has ice in it, and Judd don't say one more word about a
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witness. In fact, when I'm through working and sit down on his porch to finish the water, Judd talks a little more than usual. Only bond we got between us is dogs, but at least that's somethin'.
I decide to say something nice to Judd. Tell him how good-looking his dogs are. Givin' a compliment to Judd Travers is like filling a balloon with air. You can actually see his chest swell up.
"Forty, thirty, and forty-five," he says, when I tell about his dogs.
"Those are their names now?"
"What I paid for 'em," he says.
"If they had a little more meat on their bones, I figure they'd be the best-lookin' hounds in Tyler County," I tell him.
Judd sits there, turnin' his beer around in his hands, and says, "Maybe could use a bit more fat."
I nurse my water along a little, too. "When'd you first get interested in hunting?" I ask him. "Your pa take you out when you was little?"
Judd spits. Didn't know a man could drink beer and chew tobacco at the same time, but Judd does. "Once or twice," he says. "Only nice thing about my dad I remember."
It's the first time in my life I ever felt anything like sorry for Judd Travers. If you weighed it on a postal scale, would hardly move the needle at all, but
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I suppose there was a fraction of an ounce of sorry for him somewhere inside me. When I thought on all the things I'd done with my own dad and how Judd could only remember hunting, well, that was pretty pitiful for a lifetime.
Thursday, when I get there, Judd's meanness has got the best of him again, because I can see he's running out of work for me to do, just givingtme work to make me sweat. Dig a ditch to dump his garbage in, he says. Hoe that cornfield again, scrub that porch, weed that bean patch. But close on to five
o'clock, he seems to realize that I'm only going to be there one more time. I'd worked real hard that day. Did anything he asked and done it better than he asked me to.
"Well, one more day," Judd says when I sit down at last with my water and him with his beer. "What you going to do with that dog once he's yours?"
"Just play," I tell him. "Love him."
We sit there side by side while the clouds change places, puff out, the wind blowin' 'em this way and that. I'm wondering how things would have turned out if it hadn't been for that deer. If I'd just knocked on Judd's front door two weeks ago and told him I wasn't giving Shiloh up, what would have happened then?
To tell the truth, I thin!: Ma's right. Judd would have sold him to me by and by because of Shiloh's
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limp. Judd's the kind that don't like that in a dog, same as he don't want a dent or a scratch of any kind on his pickup truck. Makes him look bad, he thinks. His truck's got to be perfect, to make up for all the ways Judd's not.
The last day I work for Judd, he inspects every job I do, finds fault with the least little thing. Keeps pesterin' me, makin' me hang around, do my work over. When it's time to go, I say, "Well, I guess that's it then."
Judd don't answer. Just stands in the doorway of his trailer looking at me, and then I get the feeling he's going to tell me I can take that paper he signed and use it for kindling. Tell me I can call the game warden if I want, there's not a trace of that deer left. The two weeks of work I put in for him was just long enough for rain to wash away the blood, for the field grass to spring back up again where the deer was shot.
He still don't say anything, though, so I start off for home, chest tight.
"Just a minute," says Judd.
I stop. He goes back inside the trailer, me waiting there in the yard. What am I going to say, he tries that? What am I going to do?
And then Judd's back in the doorway again, and he's got something in his hand. Gomes down the steps halfway.
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"Here," he says, and it's a dog's collar--an old collar, but better than the one Shiloh's got now. "Might be a little big, but he'll grow into it."
I look at Judd and take the collar. I don't know how we done it, but somehow we learned to get along.
"Thanks a lot," I tell him.
"You got yourself a dog," he says, and goes inside again, don't even look back.
I get home that evening, and Ma's baked a chocolate layer cake to celebrate--a real cake, too, not no Betty Crocker.
After dinner, Ma and Dad on the porch, the four of us rolls around on the grass together--Dara Lynn, Becky, Shiloh, and me. Becky tries to give Shiloh her butterfly kiss, but he don't hold still long enough to feel her eyelashes bat against him, just got to lick everywhere on her face.
And long after Becky and Dara Lynn goes inside, I lay out there on my back in the grass, not caring about the dew, Shiloh against me crosswise, his paws on my chest.
I look at the dark closing in, sky getting more and more purple, and I'm thinking how nothing is as simple as you guess--not right or wrong, not Judd Travers, not even me or this dog I got here. But the good part is I saved Shiloh and opened my eyes some. Now that ain't bad for eleven.