Sister Carrie (Barnes & Noble Classics Series)

by Theodore Dreiser

  In this situation her thoughts went out to her sister in Van Buren Street, whom she had not seen since the night of her flight, and to her home at Columbia City, which seemed now a part of something that could not be again. She looked for no refuge in that direction. Nothing but sorrow was brought her by thoughts of Hurstwood, which would return. That he could have chosen to dupe her in so ready a manner seemed a cruel thing.

  Tuesday came, and with it appropriate indecision and speculation. She was in no mood, after her failure of the day before, to hasten forth upon her work-seeking errand, and yet she rebuked herself for what she considered her weakness the day before. Accordingly she started out to revisit the Chicago Opera House, but possessed scarcely enough courage to approach.

  She did manage to inquire at the box-office, however.

  “Manager of the company or the house?” asked the smartly dressed individual who took care of the tickets. He was favourably impressed by Carrie’s looks.

  “I don’t know,” said Carrie, taken back by the question.

  “You couldn’t see the manager of the house to-day, anyhow,” volunteered the young man. “He’s out of town.”

  He noted her puzzled look, and then added: “What is it you wish to see about?”

  “I want to see about getting a position,” she answered.

  “You’d better see the manager of the company,” he returned, “but he isn’t here now.”

  “When will he be in?” asked Carrie, somewhat relieved by this information.

  “Well, you might find him in between eleven and twelve. He’s here after two o’clock.”

  Carrie thanked him and walked briskly out, while the young man gazed after her through one of the side windows of his gilded coop.

  “Good-looking,” he said to himself, and proceeded to visions of condescensions on her part which were exceedingly flattering to himself.

  One of the principal comedy companies of the day was playing an engagement at the Grand Opera House. Here Carrie asked to see the manager of the company. She little knew the trivial authority of this individual, or that had there been a vacancy an actor would have been sent on from New York to fill it.

  “His office is upstairs,” said a man in the box-office.

  Several persons were in the manager’s office, two lounging near a window, another talking to an individual sitting at a roll-top desk—the manager. Carrie glanced nervously about, and began to fear that she should have to make her appeal before the assembled company, two of whom—the occupants of the window—were already observing her carefully.

  “I can’t do it,” the manager was saying; “it’s a rule of Mr. Frohman’s never to allow visitors back of the stage. No, no!”

  Carrie timidly waited, standing. There were chairs, but no one motioned her to be seated. The individual to whom the manager had been talking went away quite crestfallen. That luminary gazed earnestly at some papers before him, as if they were of the greatest concern.

  “Did you see that in the ‘Herald’ this morning about Nat Goodwin, Harris?”

  “No,” said the person addressed. “What was it?”

  “Made quite a curtain address at Hooley’s last night. Better look it up.”

  Harris reached over to a table and began to look for the “Herald.”

  “What is it?” said the manager to Carrie, apparently noticing her for the first time. He thought he was going to be held up for free tickets.

  Carrie summoned up all her courage, which was little at best. She realised that she was a novice, and felt as if a rebuff were certain. Of this she was so sure that she only wished now to pretend she had called for advice.

  “Can you tell me how to go about getting on the stage?”

  It was the best way after all to have gone about the matter. She was interesting, in a manner, to the occupant of the chair, and the simplicity of her request and attitude took his fancy. He smiled, as did the others in the room, who, however, made some slight effort to conceal their humour.

  “I don’t know,” he answered, looking her brazenly over. “Have you ever had any experience upon the stage?”

  “A little,” answered Carrie. “I have taken part in amateur performances.”

  She thought she had to make some sort of showing in order to retain his interest.

  “Never studied for the stage?” he said, putting on an air intended as much to impress his friends with his discretion as Carrie.

  “No, sir.”

  “Well, I don’t know,” he answered, tipping lazily back in his chair while she stood before him. “What makes you want to get on the stage?”

  She felt abashed at the man’s daring, but could only smile in answer to his engaging smirk, and say:

  “I need to make a living.”

  “Oh,” he answered, rather taken by her trim appearance, and feeling as if he might scrape up an acquaintance with her. “That’s a good reason, isn’t it? Well, Chicago is not a good place for what you want to do. You ought to be in New York. There’s more chance there. You could hardly expect to get started out here.”

  Carrie smiled genially, grateful that he should condescend to advise her even so much. He noticed the smile, and put a slightly different construction on it. He thought he saw an easy chance for a little flirtation.

  “Sit down,” he said, pulling a chair forward from the side of his desk and dropping his voice so that the two men in the room should not hear. Those two gave each other the suggestion of a wink.

  “Well, I’ll be going, Barney,” said one, breaking away and so addressing the manager. “See you this afternoon.”

  “All right,” said the manager.

  The remaining individual took up a paper as if to read.

  “Did you have any idea what sort of part you would like to get?” asked the manager softly.

  “Oh, no,” said Carrie. “I would take anything to begin with.”

  “I see,” he said. “Do you live here in the city?”

  “Yes, sir.”

  The manager smiled most blandly.

  “Have you ever tried to get in as a chorus girl?” he asked, assuming a more confidential air.

  Carrie began to feel that there was something exuberant and unnatural in his manner.

  “No,” she said.

  “That’s the way most girls begin,” he went on, “who go on the stage. It’s a good way to get experience.”

  He was turning on her a glance of the companionable and persuasive manner.

  “I didn’t know that,” said Carrie.

  “It’s a difficult thing,” he went on, “but there’s always a chance, you know.” Then, as if he suddenly remembered, he pulled out his watch and consulted it. “I’ve an appointment at two,” he said, “and I’ve got to go to lunch now. Would you care to come and dine with me? We can talk it over there.”

  “Oh, no,” said Carrie, the whole motive of the man flashing on her at once. “I have an engagement myself.”

  “That’s too bad,” he said, realising that he had been a little beforehand in his offer and that Carrie was about to go away.

  “Come in later. I may know of something.”

  “Thank you,” she answered, with some trepidation, and went out.

  “She was good-looking, wasn’t she?” said the manager’s companion, who had not caught all the details of the game he had played.

  “Yes, in a way,” said the other, sore to think the game had been lost. “She’d never make an actress, though. Just another chorus girl—that’s all.”

  This little experience nearly destroyed her ambition to call upon the manager at the Chicago Opera House, but she decided to do so after a time. He was of a more sedate turn of mind. He said at once that there was no opening of any sort, and seemed to consider her search foolish.

  “Chicago is no place to get a start,” he said. “You ought to be in New York.”

  Still she persisted, and went to McVickar’s, where she could not find any one. “The Old Homestead”
u was running there, but the person to whom she was referred was not to be found.

  These little expeditions took up her time until quite four o’clock, when she was weary enough to go home. She felt as if she ought to continue and inquire elsewhere, but the results so far were too dispiriting. She took the car and arrived at Ogden Place in three-quarters of an hour, but decided to ride on to the West Side branch of the Post-office, where she was accustomed to receive Hurstwood’s letters. There was one there now, written Saturday, which she tore open and read with mingled feelings. There was so much warmth in it and such tense complaint at her having failed to meet him, and her subsequent silence, that she rather pitied the man. That he loved her was evident enough. That he had wished and dared to do so, married as he was, was the evil. She felt as if the thing deserved an answer, and consequently decided that she would write and let him know that she knew of his married state and was justly incensed at his deception. She would tell him that it was all over between them.

  At her room, the wording of this missive occupied her for some time, for she fell to the task at once. It was most difficult.

  “You do not need to have me explain why I did not meet you,” she wrote in part. “How could you deceive me so? You cannot expect me to have anything more to do with you. I wouldn’t under any circumstances. Oh, how could you act so?” she added in a burst of feeling. ”You have caused me more misery than you can think. I hope you will get over your infatuation for me. We must not meet any more. Good-bye.”

  She took the letter the next morning, and at the corner dropped it reluctantly into the letter-box, still uncertain as to whether she should do so or not. Then she took the car and went down town.

  This was the dull season with the department stores, but she was listened to with more consideration than was usually accorded to young women applicants, owing to her neat and attractive appearance. She was asked the same old questions with which she was already familiar.

  “What can you do? Have you ever worked in a retail store before? Are you experienced?”

  At The Fair, See and Company’s,v and all the great stores it was much the same. It was the dull season, she might come in a little later, possibly they would like to have her.

  When she arrived at the house at the end of the day, weary and disheartened, she discovered that Drouet had been there. His umbrella and light overcoat were gone. She thought she missed other things, but could not be sure. Everything had not been taken.

  So his going was crystallising into staying. What was she to do now? Evidently she would be facing the world in the same old way within a day or two. Her clothes would get poor. She put her two hands together in her customary expressive way and pressed her fingers. Large tears gathered in her eyes and broke hot across her cheeks. She was alone, very much alone.

  Drouet really had called, but it was with a very different mind from that which Carrie had imagined. He expected to find her, to justify his return by claiming that he came to get the remaining portion of his wardrobe, and before he got away again to patch up a peace.

  Accordingly, when he arrived, he was disappointed to find Carrie out. He trifled about, hoping that she was somewhere in the neighbourhood and would soon return. He constantly listened, expecting to hear her foot on the stair.

  When he did so, it was his intention to make believe that he had just come in and was disturbed at being caught. Then he would explain his need of his clothes and find out how things stood.

  Wait as he did, however, Carrie did not come. From pottering around among the drawers, in momentary expectation of her arrival, he changed to looking out of the window, and from that to resting himself in the rocking-chair. Still no Carrie. He began to grow restless and lit a cigar. After that he walked the floor. Then he looked out of the window and saw clouds gathering. He remembered an appointment at three. He began to think that it would be useless to wait, and got hold of his umbrella and light coat, intending to take these things, any way. It would scare her, he hoped. Tomorrow he would come back for the others. He would find out how things stood.

  As he started to go he felt truly sorry that he had missed her. There was a little picture of her on the wall, showing her arrayed in the little jacket he had first bought her—her face a little more wistful than he had seen it lately. He was really touched by it, and looked into the eyes of it with a rather rare feeling for him.

  “You didn’t do me right, Cad,” he said, as if he were addressing her in the flesh.

  Then he went to the door, took a good look around, and went out.

  CHAPTER XXVII

  WHEN WATERS ENGULF US WE REACH

  FOR A STAR

  IT WAS WHEN HE returned from his disturbed stroll about the streets, after receiving the decisive note from McGregor, James and Hay, that Hurstwood found the letter Carrie had written him that morning. He thrilled intensely as he noted the handwriting, and rapidly tore it open.

  “Then,” he thought, “she loves me or she would not have written to me at all.”

  He was slightly depressed at the tenor of the note for the first few minutes, but soon recovered. “She wouldn’t write at all if she didn’t care for me.”

  This was his one resource against the depression which held him. He could extract little from the wording of the letter, but the spirit he thought he knew.

  There was really something exceedingly human—if not pathetic—in his being thus relieved by a clearly worded reproof. He who had for so long remained satisfied with himself now looked outside of himself for comfort—and to such a source. The mystic cords of affection! How they bind us all.

  The colour came to his cheeks. For the moment he forgot the letter from McGregor, James and Hay. If he could only have Carrie, perhaps he could get out of the whole entanglement—perhaps it would not matter. He wouldn’t care what his wife did with herself if only he might not lose Carrie. He stood up and walked about, dreaming his delightful dream of a life continued with this lovely possessor of his heart.

  It was not long, however, before the old worry was back for consideration, and with it what weariness! He thought of the morrow and the suit. He had done nothing, and here was the afternoon slipping away. It was now a quarter of four. At five the attorneys would have gone home. He still had the morrow until noon. Even as he thought, the last fifteen minutes passed away and it was five. Then he abandoned the thought of seeing them any more that day and turned to Carrie.

  It is to be observed that the man did not justify himself to himself. He was not troubling about that. His whole thought was the possibility of persuading Carrie. Nothing was wrong in that. He loved her dearly. Their mutual happiness depended upon it. Would that Drouet were only away!

  While he was thinking thus elatedly, he remembered that he wanted some clean linen in the morning.

  This he purchased, together with a half-dozen ties, and went to the Palmer House. As he entered he thought he saw Drouet ascending the stairs with a key. Surely not Drouet! Then he thought, perhaps they had changed their abode temporarily. He went straight up to the desk.

  “Is Mr. Drouet stopping here?” he asked of the clerk.

  “I think he is,” said the latter, consulting his private registry list. “Yes.”

  “Is that so?” exclaimed Hurstwood, otherwise concealing his astonishment. “Alone?” he added.

  “Yes,” said the clerk.

  Hurstwood turned away and set his lips so as best to express and conceal his feelings.

  “How’s that?” he thought. “They’ve had a row.”

  He hastened to his room with rising spirits and changed his linen. As he did so, he made up his mind that if Carrie was alone, or if she had gone to another place, it behooved him to find out. He decided to call at once.

  “I know what I’ll do,” he thought. “I’ll go to the door and ask if Mr. Drouet is at home. That will bring out whether he is there or not and where Carrie is.”

  He was almost moved to some muscular display as he thought of
it. He decided to go immediately after supper.

  On coming down from his room at six, he looked carefully about to see if Drouet was present and then went out to lunch. He could scarcely eat, however, he was so anxious to be about his errand. Before starting he thought it well to discover where Drouet would be, and returned to his hotel.

  “Has Mr. Drouet gone out?” he asked of the clerk.

  “No,” answered the latter, “he’s in his room. Do you wish to send up a card?”

  “No, I’ll call around later,” answered Hurstwood, and strolled out.

  He took a Madison car and went direct to Ogden Place, this time walking boldly up to the door. The chambermaid answered his knock.

  “Is Mr. Drouet in?” said Hurstwood blandly.

  “He is out of the city,” said the girl, who had heard Carrie tell this to Mrs. Hale.

  “Is Mrs. Drouet in?”

  “No, she has gone to the theatre.”

  “Is that so?” said Hurstwood, considerably taken back; then, as if burdened with something important, “You don’t know to which theatre?”

  The girl really had no idea where she had gone, but not liking Hurstwood, and wishing to cause him trouble, answered: “Yes, Hooley’s.”

  “Thank you,” returned the manager, and tipping his hat slightly, went away.

  “I’ll look in at Hooley’s,” thought he, but as a matter of fact he did not. Before he had reached the central portion of the city he thought the whole matter over and decided it would be useless. As much as he longed to see Carrie, he knew she would be with some one and did not wish to intrude with his plea there. A little later he might do so—in the morning. Only in the morning he had the lawyer question before him.

  This little pilgrimage threw quite a wet blanket upon his rising spirits. He was soon down again to his old worry, and reached the resort anxious to find relief. Quite a company of gentlemen were making the place lively with their conversation. A group of Cook County politicians were conferring about a round cherrywood table in the rear portion of the room. Several young merrymakers were chattering at the bar before making a belated visit to the theatre. A shabbily-genteel individual, with a red nose and an old high hat, was sipping a quiet glass of ale alone at one end of the bar. Hurstwood nodded to the politicians and went into his office.