Freshman Firsts (Connerton Academy Book 1)

by Cassie Hargrove

  “Fine. But I want ice cream too.” She mumbles, making me laugh.

  “You got it.” I lean down and kiss her softly one more time before I get up and leave. Looking back at her before I close the door, I can see she’s already fast asleep.

  12

  Colten

  Where the fuck has she been?! I haven’t seen her in almost three days, and I don’t like it. I don’t like the fact that Brian is still everywhere, but she is nowhere to be seen. I don’t like the constant look of concern on his face or the way he disappears at lunch every day to go see her.

  It’s not like I can just come right out and ask where the fuck she is either though. He wouldn’t tell me shit and I can’t exactly blame him. They both hate me. I wanted it that way.

  Well I thought I did, but the more time I spend watching her, the more I feel drawn to her. I don’t know what it means, and I don’t exactly want to dive into those feelings either.

  Ha! Feelings. Now I’m sounding like a little bitch boy instead of a fucking terrifying demon. This won’t do. She’s fucking with my head and it needs to stop before she changes me. I don’t want to change. Fuck that shit. I like being the heartless asshole I’ve always been.

  I don’t feel things for people that aren’t family. I don’t date, and I sure as fuck don’t care about some chick disappearing for a few days.

  I’m Colten fucking Connerton. There’s no way in hell one woman is going to change me. It’s just not fucking possible.

  “Yo Colt!” Ugh fucking asshats. I hate these people.

  “What’s up Pete?” I lift my chin in his direction momentarily. Always playing the part of the legacy on campus. I hate it and I hate all of them. Everyone but her.

  “Where’s your newest play toy? Haven’t seen her around lately.”

  I glare at him as the group laughs. I need to stop drawing attention to her when they’re around. I’ve been trying and mostly succeeding, but they still see me talking to her all the time when I corner her and Brian, trying to get a reaction from her.

  I just need to always be near her, even if it means pissing her off in the process.

  “Fuck if I know, nor do I care. Why?” I try to keep my voice as even and nonchalant as possible but it’s fucking difficult.

  “Because man, she’s hot.” I try my best not to growl at him, but it doesn’t stop me from giving him a death glare.

  “I told you to leave her the fuck alone. She’s my toy to play with. You deciding to ignore me now?” The look I give him is daring him to challenge me. I need a good fucking fight to blow off some of this excess emotional energy I seem to have caught like a bad fucking flu.

  “No. Sorry dude. I won’t mention her again.” They’re all looking at me like I’ve lost my mind. I don’t get like this over anyone and especially not chicks. I fuck them and move on, never hitting the same one twice.

  Unlike my parents, that love shit isn’t for me.

  “Good. See that you don’t.” I look back down into my textbook, not really paying attention to the shit on the pages, but it’s enough to keep them from fucking talking to me so it’s worth it.

  Before long the bell rings as a warning that class is starting in five minutes, but I’m seriously done with today. I get up and leave the group without a word, not that they will give a shit. They hang out with me for the status. They couldn’t give a fuck about how I act as long as they can claim to be friends with a legacy.

  I don’t even realize where my feet are taking me until I come face to face with Brian as he’s leaving the dorms.

  Fuck this shit. I need to know where she is, and I need to know now.

  “Where the hell is she?” I snarl at him and he glares back at me.

  “None of your concern.” He looks at me pointedly, almost bored.

  “Let’s just say I’m making it my concern. Where.Is.She?” I grit out.

  “Why do you care?” He’s being infuriating. Looking at me like he would rather knock me out than answer me.

  Fucking angels.

  I get it. She’s his, I’m not supposed to care. But guess what? I do care!

  “No answer? Shocking. You just want to know everything that happens at this school and it’s eating you alive that she wants nothing to do with you.” He goes to step around me and I stop him.

  “Let’s pretend for a minute that I’m not the all encompassing asshole you think I am. I am, but let’s say I do care.” I take a deep breath to keep my anger under control. “Where is she?”

  He stares at the hand I’m using to hold his arm then looks up to my eyes. I think I see a brief flash of understanding, but I refuse to think he knows more about me than I do myself. Angels always have to know fucking everything.

  “She’s asleep.” I scoff at him but the look on his face says he’s being truthful. She can’t be asleep. Not for days.

  “Asleep.” I repeat and he nods before his gaze goes back to the hand on his arm and I release him. “She’s been asleep for days?”

  Brian sighs at me like dealing with my ass is the very last thing he wants to be doing in this moment.

  “Colten, I’m only going to say this once.” He looks at me, his arms crossed over his chest and his stance wide. I want to laugh because really, he’s an angel. They don’t fucking scare me, but something in his face has me pausing.

  “You hurt her, and I will personally make sure you never take another fucking breath and are damned to hell for all eternity. You will never get to walk this earth again.” Whoa angel’s got threats.

  “Ignoring that threat for the moment.” I give him an icy stare. “What the fuck are you trying to get at angel?”

  The look he gives me is one I don’t like. It’s filled with knowing and realization and shit and I don’t want to deal with.

  “You’re drawn to her.” I scoff but don’t meet his gaze. He can’t possibly know that. “You are. I know. I’ve been watching you and I know her.” I turn my head back to meet his gaze quickly and he smirks.

  Asshole.

  “Yeah, thought so. But hear me on this. She is my fucking heart and if you hurt her, I will make it my life’s mission to destroy you.” He snarls at me and starts to walk away.

  What.

  The.

  Fuck.

  I whip around to holler at him before he gets too far.

  “What are you saying Brian?” He can’t mean what I think he means. I mean…they are together. Everyone in the school knows it.

  He stops walking to turn back to me, his hands in his pockets as he shrugs his shoulders.

  “I’m saying it’s up to her. She is my heart and I will never leave, but if she chooses to want you around too then I will deal. As long as she’s happy, I don’t care if you’re a part of us or not.”

  And he walks away.

  Harleigh

  Getting back to classes today was easier than I thought. I want to say my attention has improved since I feel rested, but if I’m being honest, I can’t take my eyes off the hotness that is my boyfriend bedside me. Three days is entirely too long without feeling his arms around me and kissing me senseless.

  Gah, I missed him. I bite my lip to stop myself from saying anything stupid for everyone around us to hear, and Bry looks over at me and smirks.

  “Keep looking at me like that beautiful and we won’t make it back to your room before I devour that mouth of yours.” He winks at me and I whimper.

  Fuck me.

  “You’re not being fair.” I hiss at him, but I can’t help but smile.

  “Aww beautiful, you know I love it when you pout. Those plump little lips wrapped around my”

  “Brian! Shut up!” Oh dear God the blush on my face must be insane as he chuckles away like a maniac beside me.

  I turn back to try and focus on what the teacher is saying but my mind is solely on him and his dirty words. I decide to play with him a little and see just how stoic he can be when he’s the one being toyed with.

  Reaching my hand
over, I lay it on his thigh and hear him take a breath. I smirk but don’t take my eyes off the teacher as my hand starts to trail upwards, brushing my fingertips along his thigh as I go, and he hisses.

  “Harleigh...” he says in a warning tone.

  I don’t stop.

  Soon my hand reaches a clear bulge in his jeans and my pussy clenches with want remembering how he felt rubbing bare against my slick folds and we both moan under our breath. I give him a light squeeze as I look over my shoulder at him and he has his eyes closed, his jaw clenched to stop himself from making a sound.

  He’s enjoying the attention and I’m enjoying giving it to him. I give him one more squeeze before the bell rings and I remove my hand with a groan, the sound drowned out by the movement of students getting up to head to their dorms.

  Brian shoots me a devious look before he leans over to whisper in my ear.

  “Hope it was worth the tease beautiful, because when we get back to your room, I’m going to devour every single part of you until you’re screaming my name for everyone to hear.” I involuntarily shiver with anticipation at his words and he laughs before helping me up.

  I am so down for his idea for tonight.

  “Maybe you can finally hear me sing.” He groans but gives me a wicked grin.

  “Fine. If you promise I can hear that beautiful angelic voice of yours, I’m in.” We laugh and step out of the classroom to be met by Darren.

  “Darren, hi.” I squeak out and Brian laughs at my awkwardness.

  “Yeah.” He gives me a side eye like he would rather I wasn’t there. “Can we talk man? I have something I need to add to the drawing before you paint it.”

  Brian nods and looks towards me.

  “Sorry beautiful. Rain check?” He looks just as disappointed as I am, but before I can respond Colten comes up beside me to make a merry little fucked up circle and I groan.

  “Really Colten, it’s my first day back.” I give him a look, but Brian grabs my arm to get my attention. Looking over to him he leans in to whisper into my ear, taking me by surprise with what he says.

  “Give him a chance to talk. Remember what Dad said beautiful. You’re drawn to him so feel him out. You won’t lose me no matter what you decide.” He kisses me softly on the cheek and motions for Darren to follow him, leaving me standing there speechless.

  “I know you just got back.” Colten speaks softly to me, bringing my attention back to him. “Not picking on you made my life kind of boring babe.” I snort at him, all thoughts that he might actually be nice gone as soon as he opened his mouth.

  Brian has to be insane to think I could ever love this jackass.

  “Right. I’m sure you were super bored without little ol’ me around for a few days.” I move to walk away, heading out the school doors and towards the dorms but he keeps in line with my steps choosing to ignore the hint.

  “Look, I know I’m a dick.” I look at him with a duh expression, but he continues. “But can we talk? Alone?”

  I’m about to tell him no when Brian’s words ring back in my mind.

  “Fine. Five minutes Colten. You have five minutes to make me listen.” He nods and we walk the rest of the way in silence.

  By the time we get back to the room, my mind is working overtime to try and figure out what it is he could possibly want to talk to me about that doesn’t involve him just being a dick. I can’t think of anything. I know that makes me sound like a bitch but seriously. The guy has tormented me since day one. He tried to possess me!

  “Okay, we’re here. What do you want to say to me?” I throw my bag on the bed and sit down, too tired to really even think about the message that could be sending.

  He smirks at me before walking over and sitting down beside me.

  “Comfy.” He bounces his ass on it a few times before he settles. “Alright, Brian knows sort of what I’m about to say but it has me feeling all kinds of fucking weird.” He grimaces when I look at him like he’s an idiot.

  “Bry knows what you’re going to say to me?” He nods.

  “Sort of. He knows the gist of it but talking to a guy about that shit is just fucking wrong.” Yeah, I’m lost.

  “Okay…” I motion for him to move this along. Having him sitting so close to me without shooting darts my way is messing with my brain.

  “Okay.” He takes a deep breath and looks me straight in the eyes. “I’m a dick. We both know this.” It takes all I have not to laugh but I can’t hide the smirk on my face, and he grins at me. “See, we are on the same page.” I like this side of him. I think.

  “I know I haven’t been nice to you and you have no reason to really believe me, but I feel a connection with you. I think you feel it too.”

  I just stare at him. I’m pretty sure my mouth is hanging open.

  “Don’t get speechless on me now babe.” He breathes out nervously. “I need the words you so freely fire at me.” I just continue to look at him for a moment, my brain trying to catch up with his words.

  “You, Colten Connerton, king of the holier than thou douche posse, feels a connection to me?” He laughs and scoots his butt closer, shifting the bed.

  “Yeah and you feel it with me too.” I snort at him but can’t meet his eyes.

  He’s right, I do. Not the same way I do Brian, but it’s there. Brian speaks to the fun loving happy parts of me. Colten? He speaks to my darkness. The desires, wants and anger I try to never let out. The part of me that no one ever sees, but it’s just as much a part of me as the happy girl everyone does see.

  “Maybe I am, but you tried to possess me Colten!” I scream at him before getting up to pace the room and put some space between us. “Who the fuck does that to someone for shits and giggles?!”

  “Hey, I told you I was a dick babe. Let’s move past that part of the conversation. I think it’s pretty well established.” He gives me a pointed look and I huff out a frustrated sigh and continue pacing.

  “That doesn’t give you the right to try and possess me! Thank fuck you can’t! I have zero doubt you would have made a fool of me.” He gets up and walks towards me, backing me up until I hit the small kitchenette counter in the room with nowhere else to go.

  “Yeah, I would have. You know why?” He’s towering over me and looking fine as hell, his head dipped down to get closer to me.

  “Why?” I mentally kick myself for sounding breathier than I wanted to. I hate that he’s doing things to me.

  He smirks, catching the sound.

  “Because babe. You didn’t back down or act afraid. You came in here hotter than hell and took my shit and threw it back at me.” I choke out a laugh at him as he smiles down at me, leaning his mouth closer to mine and my breath hitches.

  “I can’t possess you. That means I finally found one person I can be myself around, and that babe, is fucking everything.” He leans in and takes my lips in a rough and hot kiss, his hands landing on my hips and gripping them tight as he pushes me farther into the counter before he pulls back, his breathing starting to match mine.

  “I felt like something rearranged inside me when I saw you.” Kiss. “Like you had come to destroy my entire fucking existence by just being here.” Kiss. “But then I saw you walking around, happy and full of light and laughter,” kiss “not caring that the rest of us around you were miserable.” Kiss. “Then I realized, you may just be the thing that saves me from a life of misery and hell.”

  He’s looking deep into my eyes and I can see the truth in his words. The passion, the desire, the need for me to accept what he’s saying to me. To trust him.

  I want to.

  “There’s a lot about me you don’t know Colten.” I sigh into his touch as he pulls me closer, brushing my lips with his.

  “Baby, I know everything there is to know about you.” He looks thoughtful for a second. “Well, not everything. Actually, you’re kind of a mystery in our world.” I choke out a laugh. Yep, that’s me. Harleigh Roe, the mystery succubus of Connerton fucking Academy.
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  “Well, I’m kind of a mystery to myself so don’t feel too disappointed there big guy.” He chuckles and picks me up, lifting my ass onto the counter so we are eye to eye.

  “There’s a lot I don’t know about who you are as a person Harleigh Roe.” He cups the side of my neck with his hand as the other one grips my hip again, even harder this time. “But I want to. Will you let me get to know you?”

  He searches my face for a moment awaiting my answer.

  I should say no. I should be happy being with just Brian, and I am. But if what his dad said is true, then I owe it to him and I both, to all three of us, to explore this thing between Colten and me.

  I let out a breath. “Okay.” I nod and he captures my mouth again, forcing his tongue through my lips.

  The second our tongues meet, he groans in pleasure, dropping his hand to grip my hips and pull me into him. I lift my arms to wrap around his neck and wrap my legs around his hips on instinct alone.

  His touch is different from Brian’s. More confident and intense. Rough and more desperate with need as his tongue plunges the depths of my mouth and biting my bottom lip making me gasp as I clutch his hair in my fists making him chuckle into my mouth.

  “Baby likes it rough huh?” He teases while lowering his mouth to my neck, dragging his teeth down as he pulls my hips to rock against him and I feel his arousal against mine, his tongue roughly edging against my neck to ease the sting of his teeth.

  I groan as I rock my hips against him. He feels larger than Brian and it sort of short circuits my brain. I want to feel him, so I lower a hand between us to squeeze his hard cock and his ministrations stumble as he groans.

  “Fuck. Me.” He brings his mouth back to mine and bites down hard on my lip making me squeeze his cock harder and his hips thrust forward into my palm as I take his mouth with mine and hold him there with my other hand, tilting my head up to force the kiss deeper. My pussy is drenched with need at the sounds he’s making and knowing it’s because of me.