Rozalyn 2: Vengeance of the Heart (Rozalyn Series)

by Shan

  "So, why we even talking about this then?" asked Brandon.

  "‘Cause I hear you running your mouth to everybody but me about not getting paid after we already talked about the shit and you told me you was good!" Tamar's voice now echoed through the house.

  "I ain't been running my mouth to nobody; but I know whatever Key tell you, you gonna believe it."

  "Nigga keep my name out your mouth!" Keylan stood up from his seat looking like he was ready to pounce on Brandon if he said something else out of line.

  "Fellas look, all this is becoming bigger than what it really is. Bottom line is Rozalyn and Tamarion are now home, P.J. is dead and I say that we squash all of this and move on to the business matters at hand," Dmitri stood in between Brandon and Keylan but it didn't stop the deadly look that they gave each other.

  I had never seen Brandon look this way before; I actually hadn't seen him since I'd made it back to the states. He looked weary, stressed, and like something was bothering him. Even with all that his statuesque frame was still head turning, his high yellow skin, green eyes and low cut fade would put any woman's panties in a frenzy. He grabbed his keys and hat and was about to leave when his eyes met mine; he just stared and so did I.

  "Where are you going?" Dmitri asked.

  "I can't get no love," Brandon held out his hands. I was so glad that no one could see his face but me otherwise they would have seen how sex filled his eyes were. He licked his lips as I walked over to him never taking his stare off my exposed legs. "Damn, I need some more alone time with you. Making my dick hard just thinking about the last time we were together." Brandon whispered in my ear, giving me soft pecks along my neck.

  "Ahem, ahemmm," Tamar cleared his throat then proceeded to walk towards us. "What's good? Why you outta bed?"

  Brandon gave me the once over then winked at me before leaving for the exit.

  "I...I...had bad dreams again," I said unable to look Tamar in his eyes after I just allowed his best friend to mind fuck me.

  "I'll be done in a minute, take your sexy ass back upstairs. I don't need everybody seeing my goods," Tamar walked me to the stairs, then kissed me in the same spot where Brandon had just licked me like a dog.

  "Fuck is your neck wet for?"

  "Told you I had a bad dream, I must've been sweating," I lied wiping my neck dry with the palm of my hand.

  "Yea, I bet. I'll be up in a minute."

  Shit! I thought as I made my way back to Dmitri's guest room.

  ****

  I was sitting in the bed reading a book when Tamar walked in the room two hours later, his eyes were red and low so I knew he was fucked up. He locked the bedroom door, checked on Tamarion whom was in a fold away play pen asleep, then stripped down to his boxers.

  "What you reading, ma?" Tamar asked.

  "Dreamcatcher by Stephen King," I answered glancing up from the page I was on. "Did the doctor tell you that your arm was ready to come out that sling?"

  "Nope, but I'm tired of everybody doing shit for me. It's good though, I can move it without it causing any pain," Tamar sat on the edge of the bed and grabbed my leg pulling me down close to him. He sucked on my inner thighs sending my body into a wave of trembles. His touch felt so good but I wanted him to stop. I maneuvered my body back away from him, not vocally telling him no but it was physically seen.

  "What is it this time? It's been 2 weeks since you had that fuckin’ abortion so I know you not still in pain," he let out a frustrated sigh.

  "You know they told me I needed to wait 4 weeks before I had sex and...."

  "Roz, I haven't touched you in over a year! How much longer do I gotta wait?"

  "I just want to make sure my body is healed."

  "I asked you if that nigga touched you and you constantly telling me no even though your actions show otherwise. You wanna sit here and tell me you don't know how you got pregnant like I'm some dumb ass nigga! It's obvious you don't want me touching you for a reason and I wanna know why?"

  "I....I don't know,” I blinked away tears.

  "Fuck this shit; I want some pussy and not some hand job. Since you won't give it to me then I guess I'll find somebody that will," Tamar stated harshly, picking up his clothes, and putting them back on.

  "Tae, please don't. I'm trying.."

  "You ain't trying shit, every time I ask you about what happened to you, you change the damn subject. But you go running your mouth on the phone with Starr and Brian ass. I’m trying my best to be here for you but you making it hard. You let B feel your ass up more than you let me."

  "No..no I don't," I cried.

  "I'll be back in the morning."

  "It's already 3 in the morning, where you going?"

  Tamar snatched his keys from the dresser then jetted from the room. I jumped up from the bed and followed him, running to the front door, and blocking his way. I wanted him so bad, I wanted to feel him inside of me but I'm just scared.

  "Get the fuck out my way!" Tamar yelled.

  "Tae, I love you please don't do me like this!"

  "Talk to me then! You love me so much then talk to me!" His eyes were filled with so much pain that I didn't realize how much this was hurting him. I wanted to talk to him more than anybody else but I was too scared of losing him after he heard the truth.

  "I can't."

  "Then get the fuck out my way," Tamar grabbed me by my arm that was casted and threw me to the floor; he reached for the doorknob and twisted it.

  Just tell him Rozalyn, tell him and if he doesn't love you afterwards then he never loved you to begin with. I told myself.

  "He raped me....almost every day! He would beat me if I fought him then made me do drugs and drink alcohol so that I wouldn't fight anymore," I said through tears. "Yea, how you feel now since you wanted to know so bad? Knowing I got my asshole busted open, bled for fuckin’ days, couldn't even take care of my son ’cause I could barely walk. I got spit on, pissed on, forced me to stick his dick in my mouth, and swallow his seeds! That's what I went thru every day since you wanna know so bad!"

  Tamar still had his back turned towards me with half his body out the door, I needed him to come to me and tell me that everything was okay but he didn't. He walked out of the door and made me regret ever saying anything just like I knew I would.

  19 KEYLAN

  There’s Some Hoes in Da House

  Let's toast put your cups and your drugs in the air.

  Put your hood in the air make the bitches stop and stare.

  Get crunk put your pistols in the air make 'em pop

  Get buck till the police have to come and make us stop.

  Bun-B and Pimp C’s ‘Pussy, Weed, and Alcohol’ blasted through the speakers. Tamar's condo was like a mini strip club; music blasting throughout the house, a few half-naked bitches walked around flaunting all they had. The place reeked of liquor, various perfume, and some loud ass kush. Nobody had talked to Tae in a week, he shut his phones off and didn't bother letting anybody know whether he was okay or not.

  I was trying to let him have his space but I got tired of Rozalyn blowing my phone up looking for him and even more so that bitch Diamond. Apparently she is unaware that she has even been dumped since she’s been out of town for the past month on family business. When she came to the condo the locks had been changed and for some reason in her head she figured that Tamar was finally moving her to the house that she never seen. Dumb bitch.

  Once making it into Tamar's bedroom the scene was not a decent one; beer bottles was scattered everywhere, and used condoms was almost everywhere I'd stepped. Two fully naked women took turns slobbing on Tamar's dick as he sat at the edge of the bed. Shocking the hell out of me he picked up a straw and sucked up a line of coke through his nose like a human vacuum cleaner. The music was pumping so loud through the house that neither of them knew I was standing in the dark room.

  "That's how we get down now?" I yelled trying to be heard over the music.

  Tamar jumped up reaching for his p
istol that lie dormant on the nightstand, the gun fell to the floor going off.

  POW!

  "Aagghh!" the two girls screamed ducking as if they could get any lower to the floor than they already were.

  Tamar turned around looking at me, apparently whacked out of his damn mind. He put his dick away in his boxers, wiped his nose, and sniffed like he was sick with the flu.

  "Fuck you doing here? Who let you in here?" Tamar slurred.

  "The door was unlocked...say you hoes need to leave! Get your shit and get out!" I yelled. I turned around and walked back to the living room and forced the remaining girls out too. I cut the volume down to zero and opened up a couple windows to air the place out. Smell like some raw pussy up in here. I thought while opening the last window.

  "Man, how you just gonna come up in here and crash my party? Yo, you won't believe the time I had with these bitches. Shit was crazy, my own personal orgy," Tamar laughed.

  "Is you serious? You been MIA for a week, you got Diamond blowing up my phone looking for you..."

  "Fuck Diamond! The bitch should've known what was good when I ain't answer my phone the last thirty times she called," Tamar walked to the fridge and pulled out a beer, popped the top using the edge of the cabinet, then turned it up damn near gulping it down in one setting.

  "Roz has been hitting me up all day everyday too. Dmitri told me about how you left her, is it fuck her too?"

  "Nah...I'm saying why you all up my business like that? Walking up in my shit like you pay rent here or something?"

  "How long you been using Tae?"

  "None of your damn business."

  "What is it the crack pipe next?"

  "Got me fucked up," Tamar downed the rest of his beer then tossed the bottle towards the trash, missing it, and causing glass to shatter all over the floor.

  "Nah, you fucked up if you think just ’cause you putting it up your nose don't make you a crack head. Shit is just the same," I leaned against the couch staring at Tamar like he was not the same person I grew up with. Never would I have imagined that he would stoop as low as using anything more than the typical weed and X that we all indulged in.

  Tamar was a smart ass young man and would never do anything to jeopardize the empire we all worked so hard to build. This was something deeper than what we all could imagine, nobody's probably noticed, hell I hadn't noticed until now; Tamar was suffering from emotional pain. Being the confident, stubborn, cocky muthafucka’ he is; he would never vocally express to anyone that he needed some help dealing.

  "Let's hit the barber man, you look bad as hell," I said.

  ***

  After going to the barbershop and getting faded up Tamar and I hit Chili's to grab something to eat. I was trying to put him in the right state of mind before I let him know that Rozalyn was no longer at Dmitri's house waiting on his return. She claimed to be at her brother's but I know like hell I heard Brandon's voice in the background.

  "Let me get the rack of ribs, corn on the cob, and the loaded mash potatoes," Tamar said as he handed his menu to the waitress.

  "You talk to B?" I asked knowing he hadn't talked to nobody since the meeting at Dmitri's house.

  "Nah, I've been having my phone off since the meeting at Dmitri's the other night," Tamar shrugged.

  "A week ago, you mean?"

  "Shit whatever."

  "What's going on with you and Roz? Is it over with or something?"

  "Nah, it ain't over with. I just needed some time to get my shit together after she hit me with that mess that P.J. did to her."

  "Putting that powder up your nose was the only way you knew to get your mind right?"

  "Look, I quit messing with the shit the day I got that call from Rozalyn after leaving the courthouse. I knew it was the reason I'd been hallucinating; this week was the first time I'd touched it since then."

  "Why you even start doing it in the first place?"

  "I don't even know, so much shit going on at the time, then listening to Diamond tell me it will clear everything from my mind and I just went for it. Needed to be numb, you know?"

  "I hear ya, but..."

  "I don't even feel like a fuckin’ man right now. I got power, money, respect, bitches throwing themselves at me, boss status; it don't mean shit Key; maybe to everybody else but not to me. All I ever see when I look at myself in the mirror is a weak ass nigga that can't even protect home."

  "You shouldn't even feel like that though, you can't be everywhere at once and you can't control the actions of others," I took a sip of my drink.

  "Miss me with that Key; I should've moved straight out the hood after I did them 90 days in jail like Dmitri told me to. Should've hired fuckin’ security when I moved out here like everybody was telling me to; nah I was feeling like it would make me look soft and shit and look where it got me."

  "It was a slip up but you learned from it and you and I both know you'll never let it happen again, at least that's what I thought."

  "Fuck you mean that's what you thought?" Tae asked as if I'd offended him.

  "Where your girl and your son at right now?" I asked.

  "They better be at Dmitri's where I left them."

  "Why would you even think she's gonna stay at a stranger's house without you being there with her?"

  "If she ain't there then where is she?"

  "You know he want your girl right?" I asked seeing if I was the only one that felt that way.

  "That's who she with?" Tamar's veins begin to pop out and his facial expression went from somber to angry.

  "She said she with her brother but I heard B talking in the background, he could be hanging at Ki-Ki's but I seriously doubt it."

  "What did Ki-Ki say?"

  "Ki-Ki said her and Kevin haven't been home all day. She don't know if Roz there or not."

  The waitress came over and sat our food down in front of us, then asked if we needed anything else. Tamar asked if she could take the food and wrap it in to go boxes and bring the check out and she did.

  We both threw down a twenty dollar tip and left the restaurant heading to Kayla and Kevin's. Tamar went to the door and knocked repeatedly but no one ever came to answer.

  "Where you at?" I asked when Rozalyn answered her phone.

  "I'm at my brother's," Rozalyn said.

  "Well answer the door then."

  "Huh? Oh I had came to the store...to get some...some diapers but I'll be back in like fifteen minutes."

  "That's your word?"

  "Yea, Key just give me a few minutes and I'll be right there." Rozalyn stated.

  I hung up the phone then rolled the window down to holler at Tae, "Yo, she ain't here!"

  "Well, where she at?" Tamar walked to the car.

  "Said she at the store," I pulled a blunt filled with kush out the ashtray and fired it up.

  "Damn, I need a charger for my damn phone."

  "She said give her 15 minutes and she'll be here," I puffed on the blunt then passed it to Tae. I wasn't trying to start shit, really trying to nip things in the bud before it even got started. Tamar and I sat and smoked, and chopped it up while waiting on Rozalyn to show. I did everything I could to keep his mind off the time that past but after waiting an hour it was hard to do. Just like I thought Brandon's all-white Range Rover pulled up in front of the house and smoke started shooting from Tamar's ears.

  20 ROZALYN

  Caribbean Life

  "You sure your mama gonna be okay with him?" I asked Tamar as I stood over the balcony staring down at the beautiful Jamaican beach.

  After getting into a big blow up about me being with Brandon, Tamar and I didn't speak for two days but he didn't leave my side. Yesterday morning while I was showering he pulled open the shower door and apologized for walking out on me. Said that he just needed to get his head together to deal with the fact that P.J. hurt me and he couldn't do anything about it. He also surprised me with two plane tickets to Jamaica and said that we would be vacationing there for a month. Then also
told me that his mama would be keeping Tamarion and that didn't make me too happy; being away from my son for a whole month was not gonna happen.

  "Yea, I told you she gonna come out here with us next week so chill out and stop worrying," Tamar made a trail of kisses along the back of my neck.

  "Tae, it was hard enough spending the night without him." I whined.

  "I like that," Tamar turned my body to face his.

  "Like what?" I asked curiously.

  "You being a mother, mother of my child."

  "Mmgh, too bad you felt the need to prove that I was the mother of your child."

  "Who told you that?"

  "It's my damn child, the same way I found out when you tested Jr. You act like you don't trust me.”

  "I have my suspicions but nothing has been proven. I know that I am not the only man you've been with," Tamar pulled the blunt that was sitting behind his ear and lit it up.

  "You are....I mean you know."

  "Nah, I'm not talking about like that. I'm talking about voluntarily," Tamar blew out a cloud of smoke then took another toke off the blunt. "You wanna tell me who that other person or persons is?"

  "Nobody, why would you think that?"

  "If you wanna keep lying about the situation then that's up to you to suffer the consequences of me hearing it from the mouth of somebody else. I've asked you several times and you've told me no so I have no choice but to take your word on it. Just know that the truth will come out ma," Tamar passed the blunt to me and I quickly inhaled the kush. Damn, does he know about me and Brandon?

  "The truth about what? I'm telling you the truth."

  "Roz, please don't sit up here and lie to my face. I'm trying to enjoy the time we got alone a’ight?"

  I nodded my head knowing that I was gonna have to tell Tamar the truth eventually; I just had to figure out when the right time would be.

  Tamar took my bottom lip into his mouth and sucked it, sending a wave of chills down my spine. I'd been back in the states for over a month now and still haven't shared a sexual encounter with Tamar but I knew it wouldn't be long before I wasn't able to resist his touch.