Rowan: A Military Shifter Secret Baby Romance (Alpha Squad Book 2)

by Terra Wolf

Rowan sent me a look and I immediately rushed to answer, not wanting to put him on the spot or have him feel pressured.

  “Oh no, Liam. We’re not getting married. Sometimes mommies and daddies don’t get married but that doesn’t mean that they don’t love their little boys and girls with all their heart. Do you understand what I am saying to you?”

  He took a moment to think it over then said, “I think so.”

  The rest of the day was filled with a happy Liam and Rowan getting to know each other better.

  It filled my heart with joy to watch them together even though I now believed that any hope of a relationship between Rowan and I had died.

  I had ruined it. Last time it was Rowan leaving me, this time it was me pulling away from him.

  Twenty-One

  Willa

  The last few weeks had been life-changing.

  Rowan and I had settled to co-parenting and managed our scheduled so that Liam had plenty of time with both of us. Rowan and I had resumed being study partners. Our bio final was coming up soon and we were hitting the books at his place.

  For once Liam wasn’t around. He and Rowan seemed attached at the hip for the most part but he was spending the night with my parents.

  I was looking down at the text book but was seeing none of the words printed there. All of my senses were wrapped up around Rowan and it was killing me to have him so close yet be unable to touch him.

  We were sitting out our customary study place at his kitchen table. He was next to me and his cologne created a heavy fog around my brain. I could feel the heat coming off his body

  Our relationship now was that of friends. Co parents. Study partners. We hadn’t screwed around at all in the weeks that had gone by. While Rowan’s flirtatious nature was back in full swing, I didn’t allow myself to place hope in it since I thought that flirting was just part of his personality. It didn’t mean anything. Not to him.

  But I meant so much to me.

  I was in love with Rowan.

  It had been a long hard road but I was finally able to admit to myself.

  It hurt every second of every day to keep the knowledge to myself. Having him close all the time and seeing what a great dad he was to Liam had me tied up in knots.

  The silence in the room caught my attention and I looked up from my books to find him watching me.

  He had asked me something and I hadn’t heard a word.

  I blushed and said, “I’m sorry. What did you say?”

  He put the pen he had been holding down.

  “You seem distracted tonight. You all right?” he asked.

  “Oh no, everything is fine,” I rushed to reassure him and move the focus off me and my troubling emotional state.

  “Are you sure nothing’s bothering you?”

  “Rowan, I’m fine, just nervous about the test I guess.”

  He pressed on further, “How are things with James?”

  “Great,” I said, grateful to have focus off me. “He and Dad are trying to work on their relationship. And he’s with that girl, the one he saved from the abusive guy. I’m pretty proud of him after all that.”

  We made some more small talk and I slowly began to relax when the mood suddenly changed with Rowan’s next words.

  “I missed you these last few weeks,” he said.

  I frowned and I said, “I’ve been right here.”

  “I know but I want more.”

  Was this really happening? He stood and pulled me to my feet.

  “You do? But I thought for sure…”

  “I have missed us. Having you close to me and not really having you is eating me alive, Willa.”

  He pulled me close with his hand behind my head and kissed me.

  When he pulled back he said, “I want to be more than just Liam’s dad to you. I want to be your mate. Say yes.”

  He took the words right out of my mouth and I was the one to kiss him this time.

  “Oh yes,” I whispered against him lips, hungry for him.

  He groaned and I clenched my fingers in the collar of tee shirt to keep him where I needed him. His hand pushed my shirt up my back before going back down to dip into my pants, cupping my behind through the lace-trimmed cotton underwear. I kissed along his jawline. He groaned when I nipped his chin.

  “I need to see you.”

  Rowan ripped my shirt from me. The torn material was thrown carelessly to the side as Rowan look at what he had uncovered with heated adoration.

  He stared for so long that longtime insecurities reared their heads for a tiny second before he demolished them with two words. “Fucking gorgeous.”

  His hands kneaded my breasts and he latched onto my nipple through the fabric of my bra. I tossed my head back and held his head to me. He started off slow, his head moving in time with the stroke of his tongue. I felt each tug low in my core. I was unable to keep my hips still.

  He moved to the other peak but pulled the cup down before engulfing as much of me as he could.

  Oh yes! Fire rushed from where his mouth suckled and spread quickly. Colors burst behind my eyelids. The ends of my hair touched my back and I shivered, leaning into the warmth of Rowan’s hands.

  My head rolled back to the front. I opened my eyes. He was looking up at me, those long lashes fanned over his eyes. He pulled stronger on my nipple and I moaned. He let it go with a wet, smacking sound only to flick his tongue in a slow circle.

  Pulling his face up to mine, I pushed my tongue into his mouth. His hips jumped beneath mine and he groaned, matching my aggression.

  My hands traveled down his chest, still disappointingly shirt-clad. I needed to remedy that situation.

  I tore at his clothing and his shirt fell to the floor in no time.

  I didn’t get very far in my unclothing venture because he lifted me and carried me to the bedroom.

  “I need to have you in a bed this time,” he said.

  When we got into the room I switched our positions and got on top of him.

  I copied his growl when the zipper of his full-length jeans didn’t cooperate. Larger hands joined mine.

  I pushed them along with his underwear down his hips when the task was done, nipping at his lower lip before licking it in the process.

  I gripped him. His hips arched off the mattress.

  “Damn, Willa, you’re killing me.”

  I knew what movements made him tremble, which ones made his breath shudder out on a rough praise and I used every one as I stroked him. His head moved back and forth on the wall yet his eyes were zeroed in on me. His hands on my hips clenched and released.

  “Oh shit, baby. I need to touch you, too.”

  His move was too fast for me to intercept, not that I wanted to. My back was against the bed and his large body blanketed mine. I didn’t lose my grip on his cock and continued to fondle him. His hips pushed into mine as he leaned down to engulf my bare nipple while his hands work on unfastening my pants.

  There was a tearing sound as his fingers entered my undies and slid through my wetness. The tightness of the pants restricted his movements. He knelt and pulled my shorts and panties down.

  He didn’t return to his previous position but instead placed his head between my sprawled thighs. He spread me with his fingers and didn’t do anything but look.

  He closed his eyes and inhaled deep. I felt my cheeks blush but it wasn’t embarrassment I felt. There was just heat as I tittered on the edge of something elusive.

  Rowan opened his eyes. “I’ve been dying to do this.”

  His finger brushed against my clit. It was a light touch but my breath whooshed out in a trembling exhalation. Moisture was coating my inner thighs. “You’re so wet.” He repeated his action before his finger sank deep. “And so fucking tight.”

  He stroked my thigh and withdrew. Caressing my slick skin, he gave my clit that same fleeting touch and entered me again. His tongue and mouth were drawing patterns on the insides of my thighs, moving closer and closer to my center as his
finger started a slow rhythm.

  “I can feel you.” His teeth scraped no more than an inch away from my puffy lips. My thighs quavered. “Every time I touch you, your pussy clenches and you get wetter and wetter.” He twisted his finger and he touched a sweet place no other man had. I was rising to meet his fingers. “Do you like that?”

  The words were a hot caress against my skin. I nodded, incapable of speech.

  “Then you’re going to love this.”

  He laid his mouth on me. His eyes closed slowly, a little moan escaping. His tongue found my bud. My breathing echoed around us when he curled his mouth around it, the sucking motion of his mouth concentrated there. His finger felt fuller and I realized he added a second. Together, mouth and fingers dragged incoherent sounds from my throat and involuntary actions from my body.

  “Rowan, please.” There was need in my voice and I was losing all sense of me, falling down a never ending spiral. My hand on his head, I pulled him closer, trying to capture the feeling.

  I exploded with a choked whimper. His hands kept my trembling hips in place as he continued his torture until he rang every bit of the climax from my body.

  Any lingering reservations I had about doing this with him melted in the heat of my desire.

  “I love you,” I admitted.

  “I love you,” he told me right back.

  Epilogue

  Rowan

  We had come a long way since I found out about Liam being my son.

  It was graduation day for both of us.

  I had accepted a residency a couple of hours away from Mountain Creek and immediately asked Willa and Liam to join me. She had agreed, after turning down a residency in the South. Labs and focus was more her thing than patients. She ended up applying to multiple labs nears my new hospital and got to take her pick. She was always smarter than I was.

  And Liam wasn’t a little boy any more, and I think I honestly was enjoying his coming into his own, more than when he was little. He had a funny sense of humor, and he was always messing around with Willa and me. He was also becoming a bit of a bull in a China, shop. I remembered before my first change being the same way. A mess. But I welcomed the challenge. The first time he changed would be something we would remember for the rest of our lives, just like when my father helped me.

  We were out celebrating our graduation at a restaurant in the upper class part of town and the upcoming move with my mom, Willa’s family and of course, Liam.

  The boy gave me a conspiratorial wink and I winked back. He was seven now and growing like a weed, the bear was definitely taking over.

  I got down on one knee and watched Willa’s eyes widen. She covered her mouth with one hand as they grew damp with tears.

  “What are you doing?” she asked from behind her hand.

  I took her free hand in mine and smiled up at her as I said, “Willa, I knew we had a rocky start once we reconnected but these past few years have been the best of my life. You have made me the happiest man alive by giving me the best son anyone could ask for and loving me unconditionally. I love you and the life that we are building. I can’t imagine living without you. I don’t want to. Will you do me the honor of marrying me? Will you be my mate?”

  Tears were freely running down her cheeks by the time I was done and she dropped to her knees in front of me and took my face between her hands. She pulled until our mouths met.

  “Is that a yes?”

  She nodded while laughing around her tears.

  “Yes,” she answered but the word came out muffled against my lips.

  “She said yes!” Liam announced to the onlookers, most of who promptly laughed and applauded.

  “You knew?” Willa asked.

  “Of course. Dad asked my permission,” Liam said, chest puffed up and beaming with pride.

  His smile was infectious and I broke out into a grin too.

  I turned back to look at Willa, “I love you.”

  She smiled, her eyes sparkling with just the mist of tears. “I love you too.”

  About the Author - Terra Wolf

  I love to write about romance that isn’t your typical love story. My books allow my imagination to run free and explore every possible idea I have. That makes writing less like a job and more like a fantasy come to life.

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