by A'zayler
Her eyes went everywhere that wasn’t him. She remained undecided until she somehow ended up back beneath him with his lips on hers. Whether she really wanted him or not, it sure as hell felt like she did.
Prologue Part 2. That Night
It’s now or never, Killian thought as he took the long walk to the hotel room on the left side. It was the last one on the hallway, and luckily, the entire floor was empty. Whether it was because it was in the wee hours of the morning, or because God was on his side, it was working in his favor.
His nerves had been a wreck since making up his mind to indulge in the sinful pleasures that awaited him, but he’d gone anyway. From the moment he’d walked into the party with East, his mind and heart had been on two different pages. One was telling him to love her, while the other was pushing him as far away from her as possible.
It had been torturous trying to figure out which one to listen to, so he’d said fuck it and listened to the one that had been the loudest at the moment. Crazy as it was, it had led him straight to her room door. With his hand raised to knock, Killian took a deep breath and alerted her twice.
Seconds later, the door clicked open, and there she was… in red. Damn, she was in fucking red. That was his favorite color, and she was wearing the hell out of it. Her honey colored complexion illuminated the lace fabric at every crevice and curve. The thigh-high red boots that tied tightly around her soft thighs squeezed just enough skin out to make his mouth water.
Red lips and red nails accentuated the signature blonde sew in she’d been wearing for years, while the seductive smile that curved her cheeks enticed him further. With an outstretched hand, Sheena ushered him inside. A switch he hadn’t seen in her hips in years drew him deeper into her bedroom of sin.
His eyes were so glued to her round backside and the way it sat just below the material of her boy shorts that Killian breathed in deeper than before, hoping to salvage whatever air he had left inside of him.
“I’ve been waiting on you all night.” Sheena looked over her shoulder and batted her long lashes at him. “I thought you might have changed your mind.”
Killian felt his head shaking but couldn’t pull his eyes from her body long enough to utter any words. The sexy mood she’d set had him trapped, and he was in no rush to get out. She was suffocating him, and he was ready to die… slowly.
“I grabbed your favorite.” The short glass of brown liquor was pushed toward him with a smile.
Killian took the glass of what he already knew to be Hennessey and swallowed it before allowing her to remove his shirt from his body. With soft touches, her fingers grazed over his skin, alerting him of her feminine presence, and it was driving him crazy.
To top it off, she rubbed from his shoulders down to his chest and back before squatting in front of him and releasing the buckle on his jeans. Killian watched her, helping her along the way. When he was in nothing but his briefs and jewelry, her eyes twinkled.
“Tell me what you want first, daddy.”
The way her hand circled and pulled softly at his dick made Killian weak in the knees. Sheena was working him over something crazy, and she hadn’t even busted the pussy open yet. From her choice of clothing to the atmosphere of the room, she had him going.
“I want some of this.” His long fingers slid between her thighs dipping into the opening of her negligee.
Her moisture coated his fingertips, dripping syrupy wet remnants into the palm of his hand. Killian’s eyes bore into hers as he fingered her until she was gripping his arms and moaning.
“You been throwing it at me all night. Don’t get quiet now.” He squinted when she clamped her thighs shut. “I know you not bowing out already.”
Sheena shook her head no.
“Look at me then, baby.”
Sheena looked up toward Killian with an innocent expression that he knew to be a lie, but he fell for it anyway.
“Tell me what you want me to do to you.” He pushed his finger deeper. “Let me hear you beg for it.”
Sheena took a step back and pulled his underwear down on her way. Her mouth instantly found his girth. She took it into her mouth, growling hungrily as it slid between her cheeks.
“I can’t beg with your dick in my mouth.” She’d pulled him out long enough to get that out before getting as nasty as she probably could.
It wasn’t much, but he didn’t expect much coming from her. Sheena wasn’t a nasty female. Her mind was always too focused on a man pleasing her to really get dirty the way Killian liked. So, before he allowed her prettiness to ruin his mood, he pulled her from the floor and picked her up in his arms.
Her legs circled his waist as her arms grabbed onto his neck. His first thought was to pull away when she kissed his mouth, but he allowed her that little bit. He was already there, so he might as well make the best of it. They kissed passionately until he laid her on the bed. He was no stranger to the way Sheena liked to be handled, so the moment her legs fell open, he dove straight for it.
His face was covered in her juices before he could take his next breath. Her back arched from the bed right after she grabbed his head tightly. A sexy little howl left her throat as she thrust her hips into his face.
“Oh, Killian, daddy… I love you,” she yelled.
Killian smirked to himself because whenever he topped her off, she told that same lie. While she continued her theatrics, he continued his trip into pleasure world. He ate her until he was full, and she’d rained on him a couple of times. Satisfied with his tongue work, Killian stood to his feet and grabbed his jeans from the floor.
The gold wrapper was torn and discarded before he positioned himself back between her legs. With both of her legs in the crooks of his arms, Killian snatched Sheena to the edge of the bed and allowed the head of his dick to tease her.
“Make love to me, Kill,” she begged with water in her eyes.
The mist of water threw Killian off for a second because she had absolutely no reason to be crying, then again, maybe she did. He had just sucked the soul out of her body. Who wouldn’t cry after losing their soul?
“Tell me what’s wrong with you, boo.”
An inch of dick was fed to her directly after that statement.
Sheena’s hands found her hair as she stared up at him and pulled as if she was losing control of herself. At first, she shook her head from side to side, but the moment he pushed the rest of that dick into her, she got to speaking real quick.
“I love you, Killian. I love you so much, and I’m tired of holding it in.”
Killian closed his eyes as he tried to focus on the feeling of her body and not the words coming from her mouth. He’d been dying to hear those words for years now, and she’d never said them. Why now? Why in the fuck was she coming on to him so strongly now when he had East?
“Fuuuck!” He whined as he thought about his baby East.
That shit hurt his heart for real just then. To think about her laid up in the room he was supposed to be sharing with her, waiting for him while he was somewhere fucking off with another woman pained him deeply. Killian shook his head. He knew better than that.
“Aw, fuck, man. Damn.” He spoke out loud again while pushing inside of Sheena.
“Get it, daddy.” She moaned again.
Killian finally opened his eyes and looked down at her. As long as his eyes were closed, all he saw was East’s face and not her smile. She was crying. Crying, because he’d broken her heart, and it was making his chest constrict.
“Yess,” Sheena gritted out.
Clearly, the way he felt about East was making his dick harder, because every time he thought of her, Sheena would moan again. Killian slowed his pace and looked down between him and Sheena then watched himself disappear into her repeatedly.
“You don’t want nobody to know we’re together?” East’s soft voice resonated in the back of his head.
“Yeah, baby. I do.” Killian mumbled before he could stop himself.
When his ey
es found Sheena’s she was staring at him wide eyed, waiting for him to tell her something that she could run with, but he couldn’t. It wasn’t her that he wanted. It was East.
“Damn.” His head fell forward again before his eyes closed.
“Kill, I want us to be together. I want you.” East’s lips touched his ear as she spoke.
“You don’t want me for real.” Killian smirked before closing his eyes and grinning as he thought back to the sight of East slumped over in his car drunk and telling him all of her feelings. Her voice and presence were so vivid right then, it was like he could feel her.
“I do want you. I’ve wanted you since college.” The tears in Sheena’s eyes slid down her face. “I was stupid, Kill, and now I have to watch you love someone else. I don’t want to do that.”
What the fuck? Killian’s face frowned, and his dick even softened a bit. “What, Sheena?”
“I want to love you, not her.”
“By her, you mean East?”
Sheena nodded while swiping at her wet lids again. For the first time since he’d slid into her, Killian actually focused on Sheena. Her beautiful face was wet, and her eyes were red. She had really been crying and apparently spilling her feelings to him, and he hadn’t heard one bit. Confusion was written all over his face as closed his eyes and pushed harder, feeding her the most of him that she could get.
His dick was all that she could have; anything further belonged to East. Fucking East! Killian’s lips balled into his mouth again as he thought about the way her little body hugged him every time he made love to her. Killian’s eyes squinted tighter as he swore on everything he loved that nothing felt like that. With all his might, he tried to feel it right then, but he couldn’t.
“She can’t make you feel like I do, because she ain’t me.” East’s voice warmed his whole body as he continued stroking Sheena.
“Why not?” he taunted with his eyes closed. This time he even allowed his head to fall back in hopes of fully relaxing in her love.
East’s soft voice crooned in his head. “I’m made for you. Can’t you tell? My spirit’s in you, baby. You’re mine.”
A cocky smile covered Killian’s face as he roughly jerked Sheena to the edge of the bed while thinking of East and sped up his strokes.
“Fucking right. Cum for me, baby girl.”
Sheena moaned loudly before sitting up and pulling him down onto her. Once again, it was as if Killian had been snatched out of another world and brought back into his current one. Realizing that he was once again with Sheena and not East nearly blew his nut, but he was too close to turn back. He exploded into the condom with thoughts of East cradled beneath him.
His body shuddered and jerked from his climax the entire time he pulled himself free of Sheena’s grasp. Still on the bed, Sheena lay breathing harshly, trying to gather herself. Her eyes were filled with whatever she thought she felt for him at the moment, but that wasn’t his problem. She was grown; she’d better handle that shit.
“You leaving?”
Killian nodded while walking back out of the bathroom. He’d flushed his condom and was fastening his pants back up.
“Why? You can’t stay with me?”
“Nah, I got to jet.”
“For her?”
Killian nodded with no hesitation.
“So, what was this for? Why’d you come here?”
“You asked me to. Don’t I always come when you ask for sex?”
Sheena shrank back some, and it made Killian feel a little bad. He was a mean nigga, and always mean to her, but right then it was different. She was in her feelings, and he didn’t want to purposely hurt them.
“Listen, Asheena, you know what it is with us, baby. I’m sorry if it hurts, but this is it. It doesn’t really matter how we feel… we’re ruined.”
“So, you do love me?”
Killian thought about it then went against his better judgment and nodded.
“Well, why can’t we just be together?”
“Because you don’t love me for real, you just don’t want me with anyone else.”
“That’s not true,” Sheena lied through her teeth.
She knew it, and Killian knew it, so he didn’t even bother to address her. Instead, he continued getting dressed and prepared to head to his girl. Hopefully, she was passed out drunk and not up waiting for him. He’d been gone for too long already, and East was no fool.
“You love her?”
Killian shrugged.
“Something like that.”
“Well, if that’s really the truth, then why are you here with me and not there with her?” Sheena was now off the bed and standing in his face.
Her arms were around his waist holding him to her, while he looked everywhere but at her. As bad as he wanted to deny it, she had a point. A point that he couldn’t make sense of right then.
“I’m out.” He pulled out of her grasp and walked out the door without looking back.
The walk down the hallway, the elevator ride to his car, and the entire drive to East, Sheena’s question rang in his head. Why was he with her when he should have been with East?
1.I’m Nobody’s Fool
“Straight up, bruh, I will snap her long ass neck if I see her.” Killian gritted as he pulled himself up for the thirtieth time on the steel bar above him. “I’ve worked too hard and come too far to lose everything I have on a female.”
Onyx nodded while raising the dumbbell in front of his face. “I feel you.” He took a deep breath before raising it again. “I wouldn’t either, especially about that dumb shit. East knew better than that.”
“Same thing I said.” Killian jumped down from the bar and rested his hands on his hips as he paced the floor.
It was nearing six o’clock in the morning, and he, Onyx, and Gabrion were all at his gym getting their workout in before their workdays got started. It was a tradition they’d kept since the grand opening of Killian’s gym and hadn’t broken it since. Due to the horrible hangover Killian had, he’d thought about canceling on his friends but changed his mind.
On top of banging the weights, the atmosphere of his gym and the company of his friends would definitely put him in a better mood. His mind had been doing numbers from the time he’d walked away from East in Las Vegas and not looked back. To see that ring on her finger and his homeboy in her bed did something inexplicable to Killian.
“Have you talked to the nigga Yeshi?” Gabrion stood behind Onyx who’d just taken his place on the weight bench.
“Nah, he hit me up before my flight, but he wasn’t talking about nothing for real.”
Gabrion nodded.
“So, I take it you haven’t talked to East either?”
Killian shook his head at Gabrion’s question. As bad as he wanted to pick up the phone and call her, even if it was just to argue, he’d hadn’t. She needed to learn a lesson about hurting his feelings. In his world, you just didn’t do that shit. He didn’t care how unofficial they were, she knew better than to stand in front of him with that fucking ring on her finger looking like a deer caught in headlights.
Marriage was supposed to be real and sacred, and she’d just taken her ass and messed it up. Killian’s eyes closed as his bare chest heaved from exhaustion and disappointment. Her carelessness for the entire situation was really starting to blow him. Just when he thought he’d finally found it all in her, he was met with yet another disastrous ending.
“And you don’t think talking to her is necessary?” Onyx was out of breath as he placed the large bar of weights back into their holder. “Jay and I aren’t perfect, but we’re damn near close to it because we talk about all of our issues. Even the stuff I don’t want to hear, I just sit my ass there and listen to it.”
“On me, just listen,” Gabrion chimed in. “Women love to come back later with some shit that they could have told you from the beginning.”
Killian, still breathless, stopped pacing in front of his friends. “So, y’all think I sh
ould talk to her?”
Both men nodded.
“Man, hell nah. She should have never even put us in this situation.”
Onyx shrugged. “True, but y’all here now, so you might as well get a handle on it.”
Killian sucked his teeth and walked away. He needed something to drink. His mouth was extremely dry, and he felt like he would pass out at any moment. Luckily, the small refrigerator behind his check-in counter was fully stocked with Gatorade. A small effort he put toward employee appreciation. He did his best to treat them well so they would produce good work.
“It’s good to see you this morning, Killian.” Jaya’s voice made him spill some of his Gatorade down his chest.
Killian and Jaya’s eyes both went to his damp chest where the trickle of yellow Gatorade rolled slowly. Killian’s left first, finding their way to Jaya instead. Like always, she was beautiful with her shoulder length hair pulled back into a short ponytail at the top of her head. The blue shirt and gray dri-fit pants were sinful against her frame and just what Killian was needed to see.
His eyes roamed slowly over her body before stopping at her face again. She’d finally pulled her eyes away from his sweaty physique and was smiling at him.
“So, I’m guessing it’s not that good to see me?” She flirted leaning over the counter.
Naturally, Killian’s eyes went to her backside. It wasn’t the biggest by far, but it was nice and toned. It didn’t poke out as much as East’s did, but it was cute and round.
“It’s always good to see you.” Killian polished off the rest of his Gatorade and tossed the empty bottle into the trash can. “But, I bet you knew that.” He looked her up and down. “You just wanted to hear me say it.”
After winking at a blushing Jaya, Killian returned to his friends. Thanks to the Gatorade, he felt good enough to continue his workout.
“You smashing that?” Gabrion raised his eyebrow and nodded at Jaya.
Killian shook his head casually. “Nah, she married.”
Onyx looked around Killian so he could see Jaya. He pointed his finger at her, not being discreet at all.