A Nearly Perfect Copy

by Allison Amend

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, organizations, places, events, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Copyright © 2013 by Allison Amend

  All rights reserved. Published in the United States by Nan A. Talese / Doubleday, a division of Random House, Inc., New York, and in Canada by Random House of Canada Limited, Toronto.

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  Jacket design by Emily Mahon

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Amend, Allison.

  A nearly perfect copy : a novel / Allison Amend. — 1st ed.

  p. cm.

  eISBN: 978-0-385-53670-7

  1. Art dealers—Fiction. 2. Loss (Psychology)—Fiction.

  3. Self-realization—Fiction. I. Title.

  PS3601.M464N43 2013

  813′.6—dc23 2012020699

  v3.1

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Part One: Spring 2007

  Elm

  Gabriel

  Elm

  Gabriel

  Elm

  Gabriel

  Elm

  Gabriel

  Part Two: Summer 2007

  Elm

  Part Three: Fall 2007

  Elm

  Gabriel

  Part Four: Winter 2008

  Elm

  Elm

  Gabriel

  Elm

  Part Five: Spring 2011

  Elm and Gabriel

  About the Author

  Other Books by This Author

  Author’s Note

  Acknowledgments

  Part One

  Spring 2007

  Elm

  Sometimes when she closed her eyes, Elm could see the wall of water moving toward her. The hissing of the wave’s retraction burned her eardrums, and she shivered as though pinned down again in the wet debris. These were the sensations she returned to, as if by default, the images repeating over and over again.

  At three in the afternoon on a May Tuesday, Elm sat in a meeting with the other department heads of Tinsley’s. It was getting dark; the sun had slipped behind the building across the street and the sounds of traffic below were faint through the double-paned windows.

  “Elm? Elm?” Ian tapped her shoulder.

  “What? Sorry.” Elm sat up straighter and rifled the papers on the conference table before her.

  “Quarterlies,” Ian reminded her softly.

  “Right, well, as you know, the first fiscal quarter,” Elm began, buying time while she looked for her notes, which she’d put in the folder in front of her, she was sure of it. This is what comes from sticking an art history major in a corporate job, she thought; it’s like getting a horse to dance: it might happen, but it won’t be pretty.

  And then her notes revealed themselves, on top, ready for her presentation. She cleared her throat. “The first fiscal quarter,” she repeated, “saw a drop in revenue from last year’s recorded earnings from the same period.” Colette, an associate specialist from the Paris branch of the auction house, was tapping her fountain pen against her paper, her pug nose wiggling in time.

  “How is this possible in the biggest art boom of the century?” Greer asked.

  Elm sat for a moment until she realized the question wasn’t rhetorical. “Well, it’s possible we’re seeing the downside of that boom. The energy crisis—”

  “Yes, but we’re selling art, not pork bellies,” Greer said. “At least, that’s the theory.”

  Greer Tinsley never let pass a chance to upbraid Elm in public, capitalizing on his position as CEO of the auction house, and Elm’s subordinate post as head of seventeenth- through nineteenth-century drawings and prints. They were both the heirs to the auction house that bore their great-grandfather’s name, but the shareholders were in charge now. Though Elm was, in Greer’s mind, one of the inferior cousins, she was a Tinsley, no doubt about it, the chestnut hair that would accept no dye, the birdlike nose that no rhinoplaster had ever successfully eradicated.

  Elm let her hands fall to her sides. She had found that when being confronted by Greer, the best course of action was to take none.

  “I mean, that is the theory, isn’t it?” Greer’s accent was affected, what some might call “Continental” and what Elm’s husband called “international queen.” He was the only man she knew who still wore an ascot, though there were plenty of employees of Tinsley’s who wore pocket squares to match their ties.

  “Yes, it is the theory,” Elm said.

  “I mean, we’re not a museum, are we? Collecting for our own personal edification?”

  He seemed to expect an answer so Elm said, “No, no edification.”

  Greer sighed heavily. “So what plans do we have for improving this trend?”

  Ian stood up, coming to Elm’s rescue. “Well, Greer, we are ramping up our business-getting, which should permit us to move more volume. There are a couple of commissions that Elm has garnered …”

  “Good.” Greer seemed uninterested when the objective was not Elm’s humiliation. “Numbers like this make my—our”—he gestured at Elm without looking at her—“great-grandfather turn over in his grave. Any other business? No?”

  Elm breathed a sigh of relief and began to gather her papers. On his way out, Greer approached her. “Elm, I’d like to talk to you. Can you come to my office in a few?”

  “Sure,” Elm answered, her heart contracting like she was a child in trouble for passing notes at school. She pretended to need to order her papers while she waited until everyone else exited the conference room. Ian was standing just outside.

  He always managed to push the dress code envelope. Today he wore a pink and blue V-striped shirt under a definitely purple suit, though Elm thought it might be able to pass for an iridescent black that had been dry-cleaned too many times.

  “Thanks, I owe you,” she said.

  “I’ll put it on your tab,” he said, and Elm wasn’t sure if he was joking or annoyed. “Did you call that woman back?”

  “Not yet,” Elm said. “Did we determine, is she an Attic?” Attic was their term for an old person, almost invariably a woman, who would insist that her grandfather had been Monet’s gardener and saved a masterpiece. It was up in the attic somewhere, if they could just send some nice young person to muck around in the cobwebs for a couple of days, effectively cleaning out the woman’s attic for her.

  “Probably. Upper West Side.”

  Elm shrugged. Though the really big sales were from major estates and collectors, it was not inconceivable that some rich widow on Central Park West owned a few minor Guardis or Valtats. Enough of those allowed for a comfortable base on which to search for larger commissions.

  “You want me to do it for you?” Ian put his hands on his hips. His jacket neglected to bulge, like it was stapled to his shirt.

  “Thank you, yet again,” Elm said. “You know you’re good with the ladies.”

  “Right. Old ladies and pedigree dogs. Attractive, successful men my own age with a trust fund, not so much.”

  “Where would I be without you?” Elm asked. “What’s more nowhere than nowhere?”

  “The East Nineties?”

  “Ha.” Elm lived on East Ninety-fifth Street.

  Ian’s cell phone sounded. His ringtone was a trumpet calling for the start of a horse race. “Hello? Oh, hiiii,” he drawled, turning down the hall and waving good-bye.<
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  Greer’s office had a magnificent view of the East River. Even on the grayest day it was suffused with light. Elm had learned to make afternoon appointments, as Greer sat with his back to the view, and the strong morning sun blinded those who sat across from him. His office was decorated in the traditional masculinity of dark wood—wainscoting, panels, built-ins—all of it shiny tobacco-brown oak. His grand desk was a nineteenth-century Chippendale masterpiece, Baroque and ornately carved. On its legs were faces, flowers, vines, and, of course, eagle feet gripping balls blunted on the floor. The top was so polished Elm could see her reflection when she leaned over it, and it was devoid of everything except a telephone and a computer—no pens, blotter, photos, in-box/out-box, nothing.

  “Elmira,” he said, feigning surprise at her appearance. “There you are. Will you sit?”

  “How’s Anne?”

  “Connecticut,” he replied, answering a different question. “Putting up the rosebushes or something. Colin?” he asked. “Moira?”

  “Great, both great.” Elm smiled. She knew he didn’t really want news; he was merely being polite. There was a short silence. Behind him, framed by the bay windows, a tugboat trudged down the East River, stacks of used tires on its bow.

  “Elmira,” he said. “I’m concerned.”

  “I know,” Elm said. “You mentioned in the meeting.”

  “No, but I’m very concerned.” Greer sat back, placing his ankle on his knee. He was reminding her with his body language that he was the real Tinsley, she the interloper. There had been a scandal involving Elm’s grandmother’s marriage and since then her side of the family got the smallest cottage on the family compound and saw little of the estate’s large dividends. Elm’s father had made some money in real estate, of all things, which was only slightly better than cleaning toilets in the family’s estimation. But then the social order went by the wayside and the company went public and Greer’s insistence on family hierarchy was sheer snobbery.

  “Elm, please understand you are a valued and respected part of this establishment—”

  “And a Tinsley,” Elm interrupted.

  Greer nodded, pained. “But I don’t think Great-grandfather would have wanted it to be run into the ground for the sake of family loyalty.”

  “I don’t think Great-grandfather, as you call him, would have considered me a Tinsley.”

  “Maybe not,” he said. Elm had found out from Greer’s brother, the sweet and affable, if prodigal, Will, who was now squandering his fortune on snow bunnies in Aspen, that Greer had objected to Elm’s hiring, and was overruled by then-chairman-of-the-board Greer Senior. Elm wasn’t sure now if Greer harbored the same set of prejudices that influenced his opposition to her ten years ago, or if he was nursing new ones. Similarly, she wasn’t sure what the grounds for objection were. The degree from the lesser undergraduate institution (lesser meaning, of course, not Yale or Harvard)? But surely he couldn’t argue with the graduate degree from Columbia. Or the fact that she was considered an expert in her field, the go-to person for a New York Times quote, the one who took big clients to dinner, a member of the board of trustees of two museums and the art consultant to a trendy, invited-members-only downtown social club. Maybe it was just the fact that she wasn’t close family—her blood diluted. It wasn’t worth thinking about. It was impossible to think rationally about irrational thoughts.

  “Maybe, Elm, you want to take some time off.” Greer’s voice rose at the end of the sentence. He was trying to sound nonchalant, off the cuff.

  “To heal?” she asked. She was attempting sarcasm, but she suspected he hadn’t heard.

  “If you like.” Greer looked at his desk, desperate, Elm thought, for something to distract him. Finding nothing, he examined his fingernails. “You’ve barely taken any time since …” He let the sentence trail off.

  “And prints and drawings?”

  “We’ll get someone else to pitch in for a while.”

  Elm stood. “If you want me to leave, then fire me. But stop this passive-aggressive looking-out-for-my-best-interests crap.”

  “Keep your voice down,” Greer said sternly. “Get ahold of yourself.”

  “Right,” Elm said. “The family creed. Do not show emotion. Do not embarrass the family. Grieve your dead son in silence.”

  Now Greer was standing too, shocked by the mention of Ronan, her son. “What do you want from me?” he hiss-whispered; he didn’t want his secretary to overhear them.

  “Nothing,” Elm said. Suddenly, the anger was gone, as though she’d been seized by a cramp and released. These bursts came and went, leaving her apologetic and defensive. “Sorry. I’ll focus. We’ll be back in the saddle by the fall season.”

  “I hope so,” Greer said. “I certainly hope so.”

  At home, Elm’s doorman informed her that Moira and Wania had beaten her home. As soon as she opened the door, Moira yelled, “Mommy​mommy Mommy​mommy​mommy,” and threw herself into Elm’s legs.

  “Hi, bunny,” she said, shuffling forward.

  Wania sat on the couch in front of the television rebraiding a long strand of hair. “Afternoon, Ms. Howells.” She was from Jamaica, and Elm understood approximately 30 percent of what she said. Once she told Elm that the “peenters” had come, and Elm asked, “What?” three times until she pretended to understand. It wasn’t until that evening, lying in bed, replaying the day, that she realized Wania had meant “painters.”

  “How was school?”

  “Fine,” they both answered automatically.

  “Andrew was really funny today, mon.” Moira had picked up Wania’s Jamaican slang. It drove Colin crazy, but Elm found it amusing. “He made this noise in art class like this”—Moira blew a raspberry into her forearm—“and everybody really laughed. Even Mrs. Buchner.” Elm was half listening, flipping through the mail. Bill, bill, package of coupons, labels from the Children’s Aid Society, cable television offer, cable television offer, cable television offer. “And, Mom? It sounded like he farted,” Moira explained, in case Elm didn’t get the joke.

  “Funny,” Elm said, placing her hand on Moira’s snarled hair, a continual struggle. She had practically come out of the womb with a mess of tangles, and no amount of conditioner would keep them from forming. Elm had given up on attempts to brush or braid it, and let Moira attend her tony private kindergarten wild-headed.

  Seeing that her mother wasn’t interested, Moira danced around in circles for a moment, and then settled in front of the television.

  “You know, Wania,” Elm said. “You can go, if you want.”

  “Are you sure, Ms. H?” Wania perked up.

  “Yeah. I’m not going to the gym or anything today. Is there dinner?” Elm lived the ultimate New York stereotype. She couldn’t cook, Colin couldn’t cook, and their housekeeper/nanny couldn’t cook. Instead, Wania bought prepared food at Citarella or Eli’s Vinegar Factory every day.

  “Chicken fingers,” Wania said, pointing to Moira, “and spinach-stuffed chicken breast.”

  “Perfect,” Elm said. “Thank you.”

  Wania stood and went over to the closet. She put on her coat and took out her woven bag. “Is it rah-nig?” she asked.

  Elm couldn’t understand her. “Rah-nig,” Wania repeated. Elm shook her head.

  “Mo,” Wania called.

  “Raining,” Moira said, head glued to the television set, where Dora the Explorer was skipping down the adventure path.

  “Oh,” Elm said. “No, not yet.”

  “See you Mahnday.” Wania stepped around the couch to plant a kiss on Moira’s head. Moira reached around and patted her shoulder without turning. “Bye,” Wania said softly, calling Moira an endearment that Elm heard as “beetle nut.” “Have a nice weekend, now.”

  The door closed. It was quiet except for the overexcited television, but the volume was low enough for Elm to tune it out. She went into her room, and sat on the bed to take off her shoes. She put them away, then undressed completely, leavi
ng her suit on her bed. Moira came in while she was in her underwear. “Mom? Will you play restaurant with me?”

  “Sure. I’ll have the chicken cordon bleu and a Caesar salad.” Moira pretended to write this down on an imaginary pad of paper.

  “And what do you want to drink?”

  “You mean, What would you like to drink?”

  “What would you like to drink?”

  “Cherry soda, please.”

  Moira ran into the living room to whip up the imaginary meal. Elm lay back on the bed, crooking her elbow over her eyes. She needed to get up and start reheating dinner and play with her daughter and figure out how to get her sales figures up and how not to be demoted to some honorary position in her family’s firm, and how to get over the paralysis that threatened to overtake her at every moment.

  But for now it felt so good to close her eyes and let herself be empty. She wasn’t anything, not mom, not boss, not wife, not friend. She was driftwood, a cloud, and she gave herself three minutes of unconsciousness that wasn’t sleep but rather absence until the cordon bleu and cherry soda were ready and Elm flooded back into herself.

  “Where’s Wania?” was the first thing Colin said when he walked through the door. Elm fought a frisson of jealousy.

  “Sent her home,” she said, watching his face, suspicious.

  “Oh,” he said. The little hair he had left, white blond, clung to his head like seaweed. His face was inscrutable. Elm realized he was just commenting on the scene, performing a “find the differences in the two pictures” exercise.

  He popped a carrot stick in his mouth, and then tried to kiss Elm on the cheek clumsily. “Where’s Shrimp Salad?” he called.

  Moira ran out of her room. “Daddy, I asked you not to be so silly,” she chided.

  “Ya did, did ye? Be not remembering that, I wasn’t,” he said, putting on his Irish hillbilly accent. Moira loved it, copied it like a mynah bird. It was almost their secret language. Elm understood it, but was unable to reproduce the sounds or words. She knew she should find it sweet, but she felt left out.

  He picked Moira up. “I’m silly? You’re a silly silleen gob, y’are so.” Colin let her slide down his body to the floor. He asked Elm in his “reg-lar” voice (as opposed to “Daddy” voice) when supper would be ready.