A Most Naked Solution

by Anna Randol

The lines of Camden’s face were stark in the moonlight, his eyes shadowed. “Will you return to me?”

  “I hope so.”

  “I’ll wait.”

  Sophia stood on tiptoe again and pulled his lips to hers for one final kiss. He met it with searing ferocity, his lips branding her. She returned the intensity, marking him as hers.

  Finally, they parted, panting. She trailed her finger across his lips, needing one final touch even as she knew that would never be enough. “Make sure you write me back this time.”

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  Dear Sophia,

  Regarding your recent epistle, yes, I have heard of his works. It is an intriguing notion to use the theorem. I shall have to try it.

  I had a letter from father this morning informing me that Ipswith was not as close to the discovery as he thought. The society meeting has been postponed a month. Which is fortuitous, given that I am no closer either.

  Rafferty enquired this morning why I’ve taken to working in the library rather than at the desk in my study. I simply told him it was far easier to keep my thoughts on my work if I was in the library.

  An equation I was working on the other day had infinite solutions. I found myself wishing I had that many words for telling you of my love, but all I could think of was the soft sigh of your breath against my throat as you nestled on my lap.

  Camden

  “You still have a few minutes, but we will need to hurry if we are to dress for the poetry reading,” Sophia’s mother said. Even though Sophia had been wandering through Frotnam’s bookshop for over an hour, her mother had not fidgeted once. Her younger sister, Claire, on the other hand, had walked up and down every row, pulled out and replaced a dozen books, and quizzed the owner on the best methods for dealing with mold.

  Sophia stood in the first row, reading title after title, her arms still empty. Her finger trailed over the cool, gleaming leather. “I will stay here a while longer.”

  “We can return tomorrow. Or you can have a bit longer if you need and we can arrive late.” Her mother sent Claire a look to silence her groan.

  Sophia rested her hand against the shelf, finding power in the oak. “Please, go on without me. I have no particular fondness for poetry readings.”

  Her mother patted her shoulder. “I’m sure if you come, you will enjoy yourself. You had a lovely time at the musicale last night.”

  “Yes, I did, but I don’t wish to go tonight.”

  “I know you sometimes feel shy, but surely if you tried—”

  Sophia released her hold on the shelf. She didn’t need it for strength. She took both her mother’s hands in hers. “I know you love these events, but I do not. I never have. I do enjoy going and seeing my friends, but it drains me. I find one or two events a week more than enough. Besides, I spent most of the afternoon touring Sir Reginald’s new exhibit at the museum with Bennett and Mari. I haven’t been lacking company.”

  Her mother blinked. “You’d truly prefer to stay home?”

  Sophia nodded, secretly exalted that she’d finally refused, yet bracing for the argument she knew would come.

  But instead, her mother clasped her hands tightly. “I have not done well with you, have I?” Sophia started to speak but her mother cut her off. “No, I haven’t. Growing up with your father and I cannot have been easy. We adore being out in the bustle of society. I thought I was encouraging you to love life as we do. But you have found your own way to love it.” She brushed a light kiss on Sophia cheek. “I will respect that. Come, Claire.”

  Her younger sister was, for once, speechless as her mother dragged her from the shop.

  “I will send the coach back for you.” The bell above the door jingled as they exited.

  She’d done it. She yanked the nearest book from the shelf and clutched it to her chest, the pasteboard corners digging into her palms. She could hear her mother’s coach clattering away down the cobblestone street.

  And she didn’t feel guilty.

  But as she waited, book heavy in her arms, she didn’t feel any different either. A trifle stronger, happier, but not different.

  In fact, nothing she’d done over the past six months had made her different. Her heart had healed more from Richard’s abuse. She’d rediscovered parts of herself, but nothing had transformed her.

  She’d rather thought this step would.

  Yet she was happy. Or at least, content. She didn’t think she’d be happy until she could return to Camden in another three months.

  She stared at the book she had chosen, a treatise on mathematical innovation. Perhaps she could send it to him, although she’d much prefer to read it with him. But that would have to wait.

  She studied the gilt words imprinted on the cover. Were the expectations of society the only reason she was waiting? Why couldn’t she manage to escape them?

  Because that wasn’t who she was.

  She knew in that instant what the flaw had been in her thinking all along. She could grow and strengthen, but in the end she’d always be—herself.

  She selected two more books and then hurried to the counter to pay for her purchases.

  CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

  Camden stood in his father’s crowded drawing room. Ipswith’s success had drawn out members he hadn’t seen in years, curious to see the man’s solution. But Ipswith had kept a very tight rein on his paper thus far. No one had seen it. No one could claim to have verified it.

  Camden almost hadn’t come, but he had to see the answer. True, he’d been distracted over the past six months—checking for the post every hour in case Sophia had replied to his latest letter, beating his butler to the door every time he heard hoof beats—but something about the concept still didn’t fit right.

  A hand clapped him on the back. “If you hadn’t been cork-brained enough to join the army, that could be you about to deliver the paper.” His father’s gut had grown since Camden had last seen him and his jowls hung heavier on his chin, but the look of pious judgment on his face was the same. “Your title didn’t improve your wits, it would seem.”

  The disapproval didn’t sting as it once had. Sophia thought his work noble. Nothing his father could fling at him could touch that. “My mathematics didn’t suffer for my service to the Crown.” It had him stronger, more disciplined, but he kept silent. His father always believed what he chose.

  “What about your well-digging and factory-building? If you’d spent more time pursuing more pure goals, you’d—”

  “Not be the fascinating genius he is now.”

  Sophia.

  She stood beside them, dressed in a lavender gown that skimmed low across her bosom and highlighted a healthy glow in her cheeks. He hadn’t seen her in that color in a long time. It made her appear younger and more innocent. And altogether delectable.

  Camden suddenly realized just how little he cared about this meeting or the fact that the chairmanship was about to go to his rival. His heart hammered against his ribs and he slid his finger along the satin of her cheek to make sure she was real.

  His father drew back shocked, but Sophia smiled, pressing her cheek into his caress.

  “Lady Sophia Harding, may I present my father, Mr. Lucas Grey. Father, Lady Sophia Harding.”

  Sophia dipped into a perfect curtsey, but barely glanced at his father.

  Why was she here? He had three months left to wait. Well, eighty-nine days if he’d been tracking things that closely.

  For the first time that evening, he wished he’d solved the theorem first, so Sophia could have found him in his moment of triumph. But being the loser definitely had its advantages—like being able to leave when he desired.

  Such as now.

  He clasped Sophia’s hand tightly in his and pulled her from the room. After three tries, he found an empty parlor and pulled her into it, shutting the door and locking it behind him. Her hands twined around his neck, her lips seeking his before his hand had left the handle.

  With a groan, he crushed her to
him, running his hands down her back to the soft perfection of her hips. She tasted of sugar and cream and happiness. Her hands clenched tightly in his hair, holding him close. She backed him to the settee, pushing him down. “I missed you,” she whispered, straddling him.

  He clung to his only remaining thread of sanity as he sank into the soft cushions. “Why are you here?”

  She slid off his lap to sit next to him. “I’ve had an epiphany.” A smile curved her lips, tempered with a confidence stronger than when he’d last seen her.

  “Three months early?” he asked, exploring the outline of her lips.

  “That is part of it. I wrote you of that in my letters, my silly explorations.”

  Camden hadn’t thought them silly. He’d cheered, perhaps embarrassingly loud, at her exploits in her letters. Much to the worry of his servants.

  “I found that while I’ll never be the belle of the ball, I’m good at making close friends and keeping them. I found that I like novels but not poetry. I found I like staying in my room with a good book rather than dragging myself to every event my family invites me to. I found I actually like some events if I get to select them.”

  She leaned forward, her hands on his chest, her face hovering above his. A tendril of her hair had escaped her pins and caressed his cheek. “After I left, I kept seeking some great transformation. For the key that would unlock the perfect version of who I should have been.”

  His heart hammered in his chest. He wanted to pull her to him and whisper all the beautiful things about her, but he knew that he needed to be silent and listen.

  “But then I realized, I don’t need a transformation. There is nothing wrong with me. What I needed to discover was the strength to accept everything I am—and am not. What I needed to learn these past months was how to make the right choices for me and not be ashamed of them.” Her lips brushed his. “And you are right for me. And that will be true now. In three months. And forever. I love you.”

  “I. Love. You.” He punctuated each word with a kiss. “Then you won’t leave again? Because I’m not sure I can let you go a second time.”

  “I’m staying.”

  With a growl of triumph, he crushed his mouth to hers. “Marry me?” His heart stuttered as he awaited her answer. He hadn’t pushed her too fast, had he? Perhaps he should have given her a few days. But he’d been waiting six months to say the words and now that she was here, they refused to be constrained.

  Her eyes lit with utter bliss. “Yes.”

  This time his kiss was slow. He feathered it over her lips, her jaw, drawing out this moment now that he had an infinite amount of them.

  But she was mistaken. She was perfect. Her imperfection was perfection.

  Then he stilled, the thoughts that had been disarrayed in his head slowly snapping into place. Perfection didn’t exist within his equation either. That’s why he couldn’t find the solution.

  “Camden?”

  “You are my muse.” He hugged her, thoughts still settling. “Can you help me find paper?”

  She nodded and helped him scour the room until they found paper and ink in a lady’s writing desk.

  He filled the page with numbers. Then another page. He was right. He tossed down the paper. “Ipswith is either a liar or wrong because he didn’t find a generic way to solve the equations. There is no general formula. None. And I can prove why.”

  Sophia handed him a fresh sheet of paper and he outlined his thoughts and evidence, explaining how the lower-degree polynomial equations had a structure to their roots that the quintics lacked. Quintics were a mass of glorious imperfection.

  Through the closed door, he could hear the applause signaling the start of Ipswith’s presentation.

  “Go,” Sophia urged. “Show them.”

  He finally had it. He could stride into the room and make his father and Ipswith look like fools, make himself look like a genius.

  But that wouldn’t change his father’s opinion.

  He folded the paper over, wrote his father’s name on it, and stood, leaving it on the desk. A servant would find it and give it to his father in the morning.

  Camden pulled Sophia to him. “The only solution I care about is the one I’m holding in my arms.”

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  A SECRET IN HER KISS

  CHAPTER ONE

  Belgium, 1815

  The last of the supply barrels thudded into the weathered rowboat.

  The leather-faced sailor tugged at the edge of his knit cap. “Be back for ye and yers in a few ticks, sir.”

  Major Bennett Prestwood nodded, and the man cast off the thick rope securing the boat to the dock. The oars scraped along the side of the boat, then dipped into the water, trailing ripples behind as the sailor rowed the supplies toward the navy frigate anchored in the bay.

  Bennett flicked his hand, scattering two seagulls who’d settled on his trunk. It was perhaps a bit lowering to be loaded after the salted beef, but if it meant passage back to England, he’d be content to be loaded after the wharf rats.

  He drew a deep breath. The docks of Ostend stank. They stank of fish and filth. He inhaled again. But the breeze didn’t reek of decaying human flesh covered in lye. And it didn’t carry the screams of the wounded.

  For a few hours, he was on leave from hell. No graves to dig. No armies to scout. No enemies to kill.

  But when he reached England, his respite would be over.

  Bennett growled to himself, frightening an old beggar woman seeking alms or pockets to pick or perhaps both. He tossed the remainder of his money into her chipped clay cup. He’d be home soon enough.

  Then he’d kill his brother-in-law.

  Bennett’s hand tightened on the smooth leather hilt of his sword, worn down until he could feel the cool metal underneath. He was supposed to be finished with this. He’d intended to leave death buried with the corpses of his fallen men in the muddy fields of Waterloo.

  But then his mother had sent him a letter.

  He rubbed the grit from his face and withdrew the creased paper from his pocket. His mother had chatted on in her charming way about the normal family gossip. His younger brother had been sent down from Eton again. His cousins were leaving on a Grand Tour. His sister, Sophia, had reconciled with her husband and returned to his estate. Bennett’s jaw clenched as he read that final line for the hundredth time. He crumpled the paper and threw it into the harbor. He no longer needed it. The sentence had burned itself into his mind.

  Damnation, why hadn’t he sent her farther away? She’d be better off in the wilds of India than with the bastard she’d married.

  How had her husband forced her back? Another broken rib? A promise he would keep only until he was in his cups again?

  If she couldn’t stay away from him, Bennett would see to it that her husband stayed away from her.

  A large ebony coach rattled to a halt in front of him, blocking his view of the ship. Bennett tensed, his hand again sliding to the sword at his waist.

  The coach door opened. “Join me a moment, Prestwood.”

  Bennett’s jaw locked at that nasal voice. Curse it all, not now. “What do you want, General?”

  “A simple word with you.”

  A lie. General Caruthers was army intelligence; nothing was ever simple with him.

  “That’s an order, Prestwood.”

  Bennett climbed into the dimness of the coach. Caruthers smiled at him, the expression stretching the soft, pasty dough of his face. “Care for a drink, Major?” He pulled two glasses from a compartment in the wall of the coach.

  “No.”

  Caruthers poured some brandy into his glass from a silver flask. “This is why I never st
ole you away from your regiment. No skill for putting others at ease.”

  He didn’t want to be at ease. He needed to be on that ship.

  “But you always follow orders, and that’s a trait I find useful.”

  Dread settled in Bennett’s gut as the general removed a sheet of paper from a folio next to him and smoothed it on his lap with near reverence. He handed it to Bennett.

  Bennett held the page at arm’s length, loath to involve himself with more of Caruthers’s nonsense. Yet the sheet caught his attention regardless. The paper didn’t contain orders. “It’s a butterfly.”

  The general nodded and his jowls bounced enthusiastically. “Exactly! That’s the genius of it. Look closer.”

  A pounding ache built at the base of Bennett’s skull. He wanted nothing more to do with secrets and lies. Yet since the man outranked him, he peered intently.

  Nothing changed. The butterfly was still just a glorified insect, albeit skillfully wrought in ink. In fact, more than skillfully. Bennett held the drawing up in the hazy square of afternoon light that filtered through the thick glass windows. The delicate creature poised on a branch and looked, for all the world, as if it would flutter away at any moment. How had the artist done it? Bennett twisted the paper from side to side and still couldn’t discover the artist’s trick.

  Caruthers smiled smugly. “You’ll never find it.”

  Bennett lowered the paper, grateful for the general’s misinterpretation of his prolonged study.

  Caruthers’s fingers dug indents into his pudgy legs and his eyes gleamed.

  Bennett sighed and ventured into the noose. “Very well. Tell me what is special about this particular butterfly.” He laid the drawing flat on his knee.

  The general traced a small section of lines near the tip of the wing. “It’s in the wings. Here.” He reached under his seat, pulled out a large glass magnifier, and held it over the drawing.

  “Bloody hell.” Under the enlargement of the glass, minuscule lines came into focus, lines that unmistakably outlined the specifications and defenses of a military fortification. “Where is this?”