Coveted (Pandora's Playground #1)

by Alannah Lynne

  She’s his heaven and his hell…

  Muriel Stewart has spent the past year grieving the loss of her husband. Now that time has passed, her inner submissive demands Muriel find a new relationship to fulfill her need to love and serve. But there’s only one man who makes Muriel yearn for the intimate Dom/submissive connection the way her husband did, and that’s his best friend, Mathew Galindo … a man who can barely tolerate her presence.

  Mathew Galindo buried his own heart and needs the day Muriel Stewart married his best friend and business partner. He’s spent the last eleven years keeping Muriel at a distance, tortured by his love for a woman he could never have, and filled with shame for coveting what wasn’t and would never be his. Not even his best friend’s unexpected death could change that fact. Until Muriel decides she’s ready for a new Dom and wants Mathew to fill that role.

  Having Muriel in his life is all Mathew has ever wanted. She’s his heaven and his hell, and could be his salvation if he can get beyond his past, his shame, and the guilt he feels for not having saved Ian’s life.

  Coveted

  Pandora’s Playground Book #1

  Alannah Lynne

  Copyright © 2015 Alannah Lynne

  Smashwords Edition

  www.alannahlynne.com

  www.facebook.com/authoralannahlynne

  Written by Alannah Lynne

  Edited by Cassie McCown

  Cover Design by Novel Graphic Designs

  eBook formatted by BB eBooks

  Published by Alannah Lynne, August 2015

  All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in or introduced into a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form, or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without express written permission of the copyright owner.

  This is a work of fiction. The characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intentional by the author. The author acknowledges the trademarked status and trademark owners of various products referenced in this work of fiction, which have been used without permission. The publication/use of these trademarks is not authorized, associated with, or sponsored by the trademark owners.

  This ebook is licensed for your personal enjoyment only. This ebook may not be re-sold or given away to other people. If you would like to share this book with another person, please purchase an additional copy for each recipient. If you’re reading this book and did not purchase it, or it was not purchased for your use only, then you should return it to your online retailer and purchase your own copy. Thank you for respecting the author’s work.

  North Carolina, USA

  AlannahLynne.com

  Table of Contents

  About Coveted

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Also By Alannah Lynne

  Excerpt from Playing with Temptation

  Chapter 1

  As her car’s brake lights flashed on and off, then disappeared into the nearby parking garage, a spear of paralyzing fear shot down Muriel Stewart’s spine and into her legs, anchoring her four-inch Jimmy Choos to the sidewalk like lag bolts.

  With her only method of escape out of sight, she turned her gaze to the broad steps and heavy wooden doors in front of her, opened her mouth, and drew in a deep breath of cool evening air. She’d gotten used to flying solo over the last year, but the tightness in her chest and the lack of oxygen reaching her lungs proved there were still a few things she wasn’t comfortable doing alone.

  Visiting Pandora’s Playground was apparently one of them.

  “Oh, c’mon, Muriel,” she growled through clenched teeth as she fisted her hands at her sides. “This is ridiculous.”

  Pandora’s Playground had been a second home to her late husband Ian and her over the previous three years—four if she counted the year they spent transforming the old live-performance theater into one of the most exclusive kink clubs in the southeast. All their closest friends were members, and there wasn’t any place she felt more comfortable, or loved, than at the club.

  However, at the moment, she felt like a wild animal: frightened and cornered with no means of escape, even though she stood at the edge of a wide-open street.

  She brushed away a piece of hair tickling the corner of her eye and futilely wished the suffocating panic closing in on her could be so easily swept away. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. She wasn’t supposed to arrive at a club like this alone.

  According to her plans, she wasn’t supposed to do anything alone, but that’s the way Fate played it. She’d learned to adapt since her husband’s death, but waking up and drinking morning coffee by herself was different than… this.

  Dammit, why did I agree to come here tonight?

  Because rather than using his concerned-friend voice to initiate the invitation, Master Lucas had spoken to her like a Dom commanding a sub. “Be at the club Friday night, eight sharp.”

  Before her brain cells established a defensive position and declined the invitation, her compliant, submissive soul stepped forward and spoke on her behalf. “Yes, Sir.”

  She could’ve called him back and told him she had plans she’d forgotten about and couldn’t make it, but the truth was she missed Pandora’s and her friends. She missed her old life… and her old self.

  Following his command, she arrived precisely at eight, but her resident scaredy-cat kept waving her paw, reminding Muriel that while he told her to be at the club at eight, he hadn’t actually told her to enter the building.

  The overhead canopy loomed like an ominous dark cloud, but the embedded lights casting a glow over her no doubt illuminated every fear and worry line creasing her face. She lifted her gaze to the security camera mounted in the corner and stared at it like she could see through the lens and into the eyes of the man she knew watched from inside.

  If she continued to stand there looking desperate and pathetic, would he take pity on her and come to her rescue?

  No, probably not. Lucas Steele was the most patient man, as well as one of the most disciplined Doms, she’d ever met. Even if it took her hours to make up her mind, he would patiently stand in front of the monitor, watching and protecting from a distance, just as he had for the past year.

  The problem was even though she was physically safe and sound, she was an emotional mess. She huffed at the notion that would matter to him. He was a Dom. He thrived on keeping submissives in a state of upheaval, so her emotional earthquake sure as hell wouldn’t spur him into action.

  She chewed her bottom lip and returned her attention to the doors—the ones she’d never walked through alone. The prospect of doing so tonight threw a wash of sadness over her, burning her eyes and causing her to sway on the stilettos Ian loved so much. Without his warm, loving hands to steady her, she was forced to grab hold of the cold, brass handrail and support herself.

  The sight of her bare ring finger intensified the burn in her eyes, and she clamped down on her lip to stop the trembling. As she closed her eyes and drew in deep, calming breaths, she focused on the slow, rhythmic thump, thump, thump of her heart and wondered for the millionth time how hers had continued beating strong and true after Ian’s suddenly stopped that day with no prior
warning.

  As always, a small but emphatic voice inside her head reminded her Ian wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. He would’ve taken her over his knee and spanked her in earnest for spending the past year in seclusion. She thrived on being in the company of friends, and he would’ve been sad, and more than a little angry, to know she’d closed herself off so completely since his passing. And that, more than anything, was why she followed through with her commitment to Lucas and came out tonight.

  “You’re not here to play,” she gently reminded herself. “You’re here to visit with friends. And maybe… possibly… if it feels right… start slowly moving forward with your life.”

  Which meant she needed to start moving in the direction of those damn doors before she got ticketed for loitering. Having Lucas play witness to her chicken-skinned approach was bad enough. She didn’t need the added embarrassment of the valet returning from the garage to find her rooted where he left her.

  With a deep breath, she concentrated on the toes of her shoes as she lifted first one foot, then the other, slowly, cautiously climbing the red-carpeted steps to the club’s grand entrance.

  The vertical brass handles were icy under her fingers and the heavy door seemed to pull against her as she tugged it open. The warm interior of the lobby reached out invitingly, so she slipped through the crack in the doors and stepped inside.

  The theater’s original entryway had been a large, open space that allowed show-goers to congregate and visit before the performance. Ian, Lucas, and Mathew reduced the size of the room to create a more intimate setting, as well as making more space in the interior of the club for playrooms. Even though they redistributed the space, they worked hard to preserve the original ambiance and far exceeded everyone’s expectations, including their own.

  Heavy red velvet drapes hung on either side of the ticket window, which now functioned as the reception area and coat closet. Reproduction wallpaper lined the walls and reflected the warm light cast by the original gas wall sconces. If one closed their eyes, they could almost hear the laughter and chatter of all those who’d filled the room decades before.

  To the left of the coatroom was a modern office, which housed the monitors for the security cameras covering every inch of the club, including the sidewalk out front. She found Lucas exactly where she expected—leaning against the doorway of the office, keeping a watchful eye on the camera monitoring the sidewalk as well as the front door.

  His tender smile and the pride shimmering in his green eyes warmed her heart and soothed the sharp, raw edges of her nerves. “You’re such a brave girl.”

  She laughed and dropped her chin to her chest, hiding her embarrassment at having been caught flat-footed—well, as flat-footed as a girl could get in four-inch heels. “I don’t feel very brave.” She slid her toe through the thick-pile carpeting and twisted her mouth into a pout. “You could’ve come out and gotten me.”

  “I could have.” He shoved off the doorway and closed the distance between them to envelop her in a tight, welcoming hug.

  His arms wrapped protectively around her, as well as the press of his solid body against hers, made her glad she found the guts to shuffle her butt through the door. As a massage therapist, she touched people on a daily basis. But no one ever touched her.

  It’d been a year since anyone held her close, and until this moment, she hadn’t realized how much she missed the physical connection. When he relaxed his grip, she reluctantly followed his lead and stepped away from the warmth of his embrace.

  “You know why I didn’t come for you, right?” His moss-green eyes roamed her face, searching for clues that she understood why he’d left her alone.

  She sighed and nodded. “If you saved me, you wouldn’t know if I’m ready to be here or not.”

  The corner of his mouth kicked into a lopsided grin and his eyebrow rose a fraction of an inch. “I know you’re ready. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have called you…” He let the sentence trail off, allowing her to assimilate the rest on her own.

  She smiled, then nodded and drew in a deep breath. She knew the answer he sought, and she needed a minute to make sure she gave him complete honesty. Lifting her gaze to his, she drew back her shoulders and gave him the most reassuring smile she could muster. “I needed to know I’m ready.” And after nearly a year of grieving her loss of Ian, she figured she was as ready as she would ever be.

  “Brave and smart.” He slipped an arm around her shoulder and dropped a kiss to the top of her head. “You’ll do all right here.”

  Safe and warm, snuggled in his embrace, it was easy to laugh along with him. But then her gaze slid to the heavy wooden doors leading into the heart of the club. By sheer force of will, she’d gotten inside the building, but now, standing close enough to hear the steady bass of the club’s heart’s beat, doubt crept back in on a wave of nervous energy. Her smile froze as her muscles contracted and a chill swept across the back of her neck and down her arms.

  The club’s hostess, a young submissive judging by her dress and the way she kept her gaze lowered, quietly stood off to the side, smiled awkwardly, and fiddled with the registration book on the counter. As if picking up on Muriel’s tension and realizing something needed to be done to break loose her frozen limbs, she cleared her throat and said, “Master Lucas, as your guest, does she need to sign in?”

  Lucas’s carefree laughter filled the lobby and wrapped around Muriel, helping ward off the chill that had grabbed hold and threatened to drag her out of the building. “She isn’t a guest, Chrissie. Not only is Muriel a founding member of the club, but she’s one of my business partners.” His grin widened and he winked at the girl. “I guess, technically, that makes her your boss.”

  “What?” Muriel sputtered. The shock of his statement was enough to break her free of the frozen animation that had captured her, and she whipped her head around to face Lucas so fast she made herself dizzy.

  He cocked his head to the side and gave her a blank stare. “Who”—a shadow crossed his eyes—“who created Pandora’s Playground?”

  “You, Mathew, and Ian.”

  Three men from three very different walks of life, who found each other in college and became closer than brothers with an unshakable bond.

  Lucas nodded and swallowed hard. “Who owns Ian’s shares now?”

  She pressed her lips together and fought the knot filling her throat. In the year since Ian’s passing, she’d left all the legal matters to Mathew, an attorney, because she knew he would take care of things just as Ian had. They never talked specifics, and she never thought about what happened to Ian’s share in Pandora’s, but since all his assets transferred to her…

  “Well, hell.” She gave the girl a whatdya know look. “I guess he’s right. About being an owner, anyway. Forget all that being-a-boss business.”

  Chrissie flushed and dropped her gaze to the counter. “I’m sorry, Ma’am. I didn’t recognize you.”

  “Oh, sweetie.” Muriel reached across the counter and squeezed her hand. “I’m not a Domme, and all this ownership stuff is on paper only. There’s no need to ma’am me. There’s also no way you would’ve recognized me.” She released the girl’s hand and cleared her throat. “I haven’t been here in a long time.”

  Too long, a tiny voice whispered in her ear, while another part of her still questioned if she’d waited long enough.

  She swallowed hard as her stomach pitched and rolled like an angry sea. Nervous and jittery, she turned to Lucas, her only lifeline at the moment. “Walking through those doors is bound to set off an avalanche of emotions. Even though I’m not playing, I’m not sure I’m ready for this.”

  As the words left her mouth, she settled her gaze on the floor so he didn’t pick up on the twisting uncertainty in her eyes. The most important element in any relationship was honesty, and that was especially true of one’s relationship with themselves. If she were to play by the rules and be completely transparent with herself, she might be forced to admit
some of her distress came from knowing she wasn’t playing.

  For the past year, a significant part of who she was as a woman had been locked away. The stifled submissive had been making a lot of noise lately, demanding more and more of Muriel’s attention, but Muriel wasn’t sure she would ever be able to bring her out into the light again.

  She’d never submitted to anyone but Ian. She didn’t even know she was a submissive until he unlocked the hidden door and coaxed her out of the dark into the world. She missed the exquisite bond forged between a Dominant and his submissive and wondered if she would feel complete without it. But the thought of moving on without him left her off balance and riddled with guilt.

  As Lucas continued to study her, no doubt evaluating her body language and facial expressions to figure out where her head was, the outer doors opened and a couple entered the lobby. She recognized the man as Kevin Mazze, the contractor who did the majority of the renovations on the building. Beside him stood a petite blonde, who looked as nervous and conflicted as Muriel felt.

  Lucas leaned in close to Kevin and spoke in a low voice intended for Kevin’s ears only. Kevin responded in kind, then the two men laughed before he took his lady friend’s coat and handed it over to Chrissie. As the couple stepped up to the doors, Muriel gasped with shock at seeing wedding bands on their hands.

  Wow… Wildman, who Ian believed would never settle down, is married.

  As Kevin gave his wife an intimate, reassuring smile, her chest rose and fell with sharp breaths and she latched onto his gaze as if the connection were the only thing keeping her alive. He kissed her mouth, then moved on to the soft skin of her inner wrists. As he slipped on cuffs and buckled them in front, she whispered, “I love you,” then dropped her gaze to the floor.

  The love flowing between them was a living, breathing thing and almost more than Muriel could bear. Her chest constricted and she nearly crumpled with grief for all she’d lost as well as a deep longing for the chance to share that kind of love again.