Year's Best SF 3

by David G. Hartwell

  “What?” said the captain. “Oh, yes, yes. I'll attend to it. I will. Did you see? See Earth go?”

  “I saw it.”

  They walked numbly away from each other. The doctor sat down beside his wife who did not recognize him for a moment until he put his arm around her.

  “Don't cry,” he said. “Don't cry. Please don't cry.”

  Her shoulders shook. He held her very tightly, his eyes clenched in on the trembling in his own body. They sat this way for several hours.

  “Don't cry,” he said. “Think of something else. Forget Earth. Think about Mars, think about the future.”

  They sat back in their seats with vacant faces. He lit a cigarette and could not taste it, and passed it to her and lit another for himself. “How would you like to be married to me for another ten million years?” he asked.

  “Oh, I'd like that,” she cried out, turning to him and seizing his arm in her own, fiercely wrapping it to her. “I'd like that very much!”

  “Would you?” he said.

  The Pipes of Pan

  BRIAN STABLEFORD

  Brian stableford is one of the finest living critics and historians of SF and fantasy (he is the author of large chunks of both The Encyclopedia of Science Fiction and The Encyclopedia of Fantasy) and is another of the leading short-fiction writers in SF in this decade, and a significant novelist. His novels in recent years, such as the alternate universe extravaganza, The Hunger and Ecstasy of Vampires, have had a fantasy cast and have somewhat taken a back seat to his shorter fiction, which is regularly on award nomination ballots and various “best” lists. For most of the 1990s he has been writing stories such as “Inherit the Earth” and in a large future history setting, as yet unnamed, spanning centuries and focusing on immense changes in human society and in humanity due primarily to advances in the biological scie1nces. “The pipes of pan” appeared in Fantasy & science Fiction and is one of these.

  In her dream Wendy was a pretty little girl living wild in a magical wood where it never rained and never got cold. She lived on sweet berries of many colors, which always tasted wonderful, and all she wanted or needed was to be happy.

  There were other girls living wild in the dream-wood but they all avoided one another, because they had no need of company. They had lived there, untroubled, for a long time—far longer than Wendy could remember.

  Then, in the dream, the others came: the shadow-men with horns on their brows and shaggy legs. They played strange music on sets of pipes which looked as if they had been made from reeds—but Wendy knew, without knowing how she knew or what sense there was in it, that those pipes had been fashioned out of the blood and bones of something just like her, and that the music they played was the breath of her soul.

  After the shadow-men came, the dream became steadily more nightmarish, and living wild ceased to be innocently joyful. After the shadow-men came, life was all hiding with a fearful, fluttering heart, knowing that if ever she were found she would have to run and run and run, without any hope of escape—but wherever she hid, she could always hear the music of the pipes.

  When she woke up in a cold sweat, she wondered whether the dreams her parents had were as terrible, or as easy to understand. Somehow, she doubted it.

  There was a sharp rat-a-tat on her bedroom door.

  “Time to get up, Beauty.” Mother didn't bother coming in to check that Wendy responded. Wendy always responded. She was a good girl.

  She climbed out of bed, took off her night-dress, and went to sit at the dressing-table, to look at herself in the mirror. It had become part of her morning ritual, now that her awakenings were indeed awakenings. She blinked to clear the sleep from her eyes, shivering slightly as an image left over from the dream flashed briefly and threateningly in the depths of her emergent consciousness.

  Wendy didn't know how long she had been dreaming. The dreams had begun before she developed the sense of time which would have allowed her to make the calculation. Perhaps she had always dreamed, just as she had always got up in the morning in response to the summoning rat-a-tat, but she had only recently come by the ability to remember her dreams. On the other hand, perhaps the beginning of her dreams had been the end of her innocence.

  She often wondered how she had managed not to give herself away in the first few months, after she first began to remember her dreams but before she attained her present level of waking self-control, but any anomalies in her behaviour must have been written off to the randomizing factor. Her parents were always telling her how lucky she was to be thirteen, and now she was in a position to agree with them. At thirteen, it was entirely appropriate to be a little bit inquisitive and more than a little bit odd. It was even possible to get away with being too clever by half, as long as she did't overdo it.

  It was difficult to be sure, because she didn't dare interrogate the house's systems too explicitly, but she had figured out that she must have been thirteen for about thrity years, in mind and body alike. she was thirteen in her blood and her bones, but not in the privacy of her head.

  Inside, where it counted, she had now been unthirteen for at least four months.

  If it would only stay inside, she thought, I might keep it a secret forever. But it won't it isn't. It's coming out. Every day that passes is one day closer to the moment of truth.

  She stared into the mirror, searching the lines of her face for signs of maturity. She was sure that her face looked thinner, her eyes more serious, her hair less blond. All of that might be mostly imagination, she knew, but there was no doubt about the other things. She was half an inch taller, and her breasts were getting larger. It was only a matter of time before that sort of thing attracted attention, and as soon as it was noticed the truth would be manifest. Measurements couldn't lie. As soon as they were moved to measure her, her parents would know the horrid truth.

  Their baby was growing up.

  “Did you sleep well, dear?” Mother said, as Wendy took her seat at the breakfast-table. It wasn't trick question; it was just part of the routine. It wasn't even a matter of pretending, although her parents certainly did their fair share of that. It was just a way of starting the day off. Such rituals were part and parcel of what they thought of as everyday life. Parents had their innate programming too.

  “Yes thank you,” she replied, meekly.

  “What flavor manna would you like today?”

  “Coconut and strawberry please.” Wendy smiled as she spoke, and Mother smiled back. Mother was smiling because Wendy was smiling. Wendy was supposed to be smiling because she was a smiley child, but in fact she was smiling because saying “Strawberry and coconut” was an authentic and honest choice, an exercise of freedom which would pass as an expected manifestation of the randomizing factor.

  “I'm afraid I can't take you out this morning, Lovely,” Father said, while mother punched out the order. “We have to wait in for the house-doctor. The waterworks still aren't right.”

  “If you ask me,” Mother said, “the real problem's the water table. The aproots are doing their best but they're having to go down too far. The system's fine just so long as we get some good old-fashioned rain once in a while, but every time there's dry spell the whole estate suffers. We ought to call a meeting and put some pressure on the landscape engineers. Fixing a water table shouldn't be too much trouble in this day and age.”

  “There's nothing wrong with the water table, dear,” Father said, patiently. “It's just that the neighbors have the same in-dwelling systems that we have. There's a congenital weakness in the root-system; in dry weather the cell-terminal conduits in the phloem tend to get gummed up. It ought to be easy enough to fix—a little elementary somatic engineering, probably no more than a single-gene augment in the phloem—but you know what doctors are like, they never want to go for the cheap and cheerful cure if they can sell you something more complicated.”

  “What's phloem?” Wendy asked. She could ask as many questions as she liked, to a moderately high level of sop
histication. That was a great blessing. She was glad she wasn't an eight-year-old, reliant on passive observation and a restricted vocabulary. At least a thirteen-year-old had the right equipment for thinking all set up.

  “It's a kind of plant tissue,” Father informed her, ignoring the tight-lipped look mother was giving him because he'd contradicted her. “It's sort of equivalent to your veins, except of course that plants have sap instead of blood.”

  Wendy nodded, but contrived to look as if she hadn't really understood the answer.

  “I'll set the encyclopedia up on the system,” Father said. “You can read all about it while I'm talking to the house doctor.”

  “She doesn't want to spend the morning reading what the encyclopedia has to say about phloem,” Mother said, peevishly.“She needs to get out into the fresh air.” That wasn't mere ritual, like asking whether she had slept well, but it wasn't pretense either. When Mother started talking about Wendy's supposed wants and needs she was usually talking about her own wants and supposed needs. Wendy had come to realize that talking that way was mother's preferred method of criticizing Father; She was paying him back for disagreeing about the water table.

  Wendy was fully conscious of the irony of the fact that she really did want to study the encyclopedia. There was so much to learn and so little time. Maybe she didn't need to do it, given that it was unlikely to make any difference in the long run, but she wanted to understand as much as she could before all the pretense had to end and the nightmare of uncertainty had to begin.

  “It's okay, Mummy,” she said. “Honest.” She smiled at them both, attempting to bring off the delicate trick of pleasing Father by taking his side while simultaneously pleasing mother by pretending to be as heroically long-suffering as mother liked to consider herself.

  They both smiled back. All was well, for now. Even though they listened to the news every night, they didn't seem to have the least suspicion that it could all be happening in their own home, to their own daughter.

  It only took a few minutes for wendy to work out a plausible path of icon selection which got her away from translocation in plants and deep into the heart of child physiology. Father had set that up for her by comparing phloem to her own circulatory system. There was a certain danger in getting into recent reportage regarding childhood diseases, but she figured that she could explain it well enough if anyone took the trouble to consult the log to see what she'd been doing. She didn't think anyone was likely to, but she simply couldn't help being anxious about the possibility—there were, it seemed, a lot of things one simply couldn't help being anxious about, once it was possible to be anxious at all.

  “I wondered if I could get sick like the house's roots,” she would say, if asked. “I wanted to know whether my blood could get clogged up in dry weather.” She figured that she would be okay as long as she pretended not to have understood what she'd read, and conscientiously avoided any mention of the word progeria. She already knew that progeria was what she'd got, and the last thing she wanted was to be taken to a child-engineer who'd be able to confirm the fact.

  She called up a lot of innocuous stuff about blood, and spent the bulk of her time pretending to study elementary material of no real significance. Every time she got hold of a document she really wanted to look at she was careful to move on quickly, so it would seem as if she hadn't even bothered to look at it if anyone did consult the log to see what she'd been doing. She didn't dare call up any extensive current affairs information on the progress of the plague or the fierce medical and political arguments concerning the treatment of its victims.

  It must be wonderful to be a parent, she thought, and not have to worry about being found out—or about anything at all, really.

  At first, Wendy had thought that Mother and Father really did have worries, because they talked as if they did, but in the last few weeks she had begun to see through the sham. In a way, they thought that they did have worries, but it was all just a matter of habit, a kind of innated restlessness left over from the olden days. Adults must have had authentic anxieties at one time, back in the days when everybody could expect to die young and a lot of people never even reached seventy, and she presumed that they hadn't quite got used to the fact that they'd changed the world and changed themselves. They just had't managed to lose the habit. They probably would, in the fullness of time. Would they still need children then, she wondered, or would they learn to do without? Were children just another habit, another manifestation of innate restlessness? Had the great plague come just in time to seal off the redundant umbilical cord which connected mankind to its evolutionary past?

  We're just betwixts and betweens, Wendy thought, as she rapidly scanned a second-hand summary of a paper in the latest issue of Nature which dealt with the pathology of progeria. There'll soon be no place for us, whether we grow older or not. They'll get rid of us all.

  The article which contained the summary claimed that the development of an immunoserum was just a matter of time, although it wasn't yet clear whether anything much might be done to reverse the again process in children who'd already come down with it. She didn't dare access the paper itself, or even an abstract—that would have been a dead giveaway, like leaving a bloody thumbprint at the scene of a murder.

  Wendy wished that she had a clearer idea of whether the latest news was good or bad, or whether the long-term prospects had any possible relevance to her now that she had started to show physical symptoms as well as mental ones. She didn't know what would happen to her once Mother and Father found out and notified the authorities; there was no clear pattern in the stories she glimpsed in the general newsbroadcasts, but whether this meant that there was as yet no coherent social policy for dealing with the rapidly escalating problem she wasn't sure.

  For the thousandth time she wondered whether she ought simply to tell her parents what was happening, and for the thousandth time, she felt the terror growing within her at the thought that everything she had might be placed in jeopardy, that she might be sent back to the factory or handed over to the researchers or simply cut adrift to look after herself. There was no way of knowing, after all, what really lay behind the rituals which her parents used in dealing with her, no way of knowing what would happen when their thirteen-year-old daughter was no longer thirteen.

  Not yet, her fear said. Not Yet. Hang on. Lie low… because once you can't hide, you'll have to run and run and run and there'll be nowhere to go. Nowhere at all.

  She left the workstation and went to watch the house doctor messing about in the cellar. Father didn't seem very glad to see her, perhaps because he was trying to talk the house-doctor round to his way of thinking and didn't like the way the house-doctor immediately started talking to her toys for a while. She still enjoyed playing with her toys—which was perhaps as well, all things considered.

  “We can go out for a while now,” Father said, when the house-doctor had finally gone. “Would you like to play ball on the back lawn?”

  “Yes please,” she said.

  Father liked playing ball, and Wendy didn't mind. It was better than the sedentary pursuits which Mother preferred. Father had more energy to spare than Mother, probably because Mother had a job that was more taxing physically. Father only played with software; his clever fingers did all his work. Mother actually had to get her hands inside her remotegloves and her feet inside her big red boots and get things moving. “Being a ghost in a machine,” she would often complain, when she thought Wendy couldn't hear,“can be bloody hard work. She never swore in front of Wendy, of course.

  Out on the back lawn, Wendy and Father threw the ball back and forth for half an hour, making the catches more difficults as time went by, so that they could leap about and dive on the bone-dry carpet-grass and get thoroughly dusty.

  To begin with, Wendy was distracted by the ceaseless stream of her insistent thoughts, but as she got more involved in the game she was able to let herself go a little. She couldn't quite get back to being thirtee
n, but she could get to a state of mind which wasn't quite so fearful. By the time her heart was pounding and she'd grazed both her knees and one of her elbows she was enjoying herself thoroughly, all the more so because Father was evidently having a good time. He was in a good mood anyhow, because the house-doctor had obligingly confirmed everything he'd said about the normality of the water-table, and had then backed down gracefully when he saw that he couldn't persuade Father that the house needed a whole new root-system.

  “Those somatic transformation don't always take,” the house-doctor had said, darkly but half-heartedly, as he left. “You might have trouble again, three months down the line.”

  “I'll take the chance,” Father had replied, breezily. “Thanks for your time.”

  Given that the doctor was charging for his time, Wendy had thought, it should have been the doctor thanking Father, but she hadn't said anything. She already understood that kind of thing well enough not to have to ask questions about it. She had other matters she wanted to raise once Father collapsed on the baked earth, felled by healthy exhaustion, and demanded that they take a rest.

  “I'm not as young as you are,” he told her, jokingly. “When you get past a hundred and fifty you just can't take it the way you used to.” He had no idea how it affected her to hear him say you in that careless fashion, when he really meant we: a we which didn't include her and never would.

  “I'm bleeding,” she said, pointing to a slight scratch on her elbow.

  “Oh dear,” he said. “Does it hurt?”

  “Not much,” she said, truthfully. “If too much leaks out, will I need injections, like the house's roots?”

  “It won't come to that,” he assured her, lifting up her arm so that he could put on a show of inspecting the wound. “It's just a drop. I'll kiss it better.” He put his lips to the wound for a few seconds, then said: “I'll be as good as new in the morning.”