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Dear Ava

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by Madden-Mills, Ilsa


  Ava laughs, and I guess it’s because Lou has taken over the grill for me.

  Persephone wiggles her way down from Tyler and throws a look around at Leland, still content in Dane’s arms.

  “Leeeeeeee, eat! No nap!” she wails out in a demanding voice, and then he’s straining to get to her—as a good brother should—and does his duck walk in his diaper to where she’s waiting at the door. He hangs on to her shirt, muttering, then dashes ahead, laughing as she tries to catch him.

  “P, P, P, I win!”

  “No!” she cries and runs faster, and dang, they can’t even really run that fast, but we all watch, entranced.

  It’s such a simple thing, really, seeing them and thinking how lucky I am, and the emotion wraps around me, amazement that I hold happiness in my hands, the knowledge that family is everything.

  Everyone files into the kitchen, and I turn to Ava, finding her eyes as misty as mine.

  She jumps at me and I clutch her close. It’s the little things. God, the little things.

  I kiss her long and slow, my tongue tangling with hers, and she melts into me.

  Our lines got a little blurry along the way, through broken hearts and time lost, but in the end, we made a full, complete, beautiful circle.

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  Dear Reader,

  Thank you for reading Dear Ava. I hope you enjoyed Knox and Ava’s story as much as I loved writing it. It was one of the most emotional books I’ve ever written. If you want lighter, check out the short excerpt from my last romantic comedy I Hate You (yep, it really is a romantic comedy), or just head straight to the Amazon store to get the entire full-length standalone novel. It is currently FREE in Kindle Unlimited!

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  Bibliography and Sources

  Bibliography and Sources

  Ehrlich, Susan. Representing Rape: Language and Sexual Consent. Oxford: Routledge, 2003.

  Harding, Kate. Asking For It: The Alarming Rise of Rape Culture—and What We Can Do About It. Boston: Perseus Book Group, 2015.

  Mulla, Samenna. The Violence of Care: Rape Victims, Forensic Nurses, and Sexual Assault Intervention. New York: New York University Press, 2014.

  Schwartzman, Nancy. Roll Red Roll. Sunset Park Pictures and Multitude Films, 2018.

  Todd, Paula. Extreme Mean: Trolls, Bullies, and Predators Online. Toronto: Signal, 2014.

  Excerpt - I Hate You

  I Hate You

  Copyright © 2019 by Ilsa Madden-Mills

  Chapter 1

  Charisma

  There are worse things than seeing your ex for the first time since he dumped you: root canal, hairy wolf spider on your pillow, watching your dad kiss your sixth grade teacher.

  I shudder at those thoughts as I whip my car into the parking lot of Cadillac’s, a local bar and hangout spot. A long exhalation leaves my chest as I turn off the ignition.

  Welcome back to Magnolia, Mississippi, and Waylon University, folks. It’s time to face the music, which is the guy who broke up with me in front of all my friends at my own freaking eighties-themed sorority homecoming party last October. I’d worn a sleek fedora and carried a kickass whip a la sexy Indiana Jones style, and he’d been in yellow parachute pants and a ladies-sized small tank top that clung to every muscle on his chest. We were totally fine—until it all went to hell.

  That was almost three months ago, and I haven’t seen him since.

  But tonight—tonight, I’m going to see him face to face, because I have to prove to myself that I’m over him. I’m not leaving until my eyes meet his and—

  Dang, I don’t know what will happen after that.

  My bottom lip hurts where I’ve chewed on it during the drive from the house to here. Maybe he’s not inside. I picture him laid up in his dorm room surrounded by jersey chasers. They’re probably rubbing him down with hot oil right now, caressing those bulky, tight muscles on his back, most definitely the wiry, roped ones on his forearms—

  Stop. Forget the wide receiver.

  Clenching the steering wheel, I scan the parking lot for his black truck and don’t see it, but the place is packed for a Wednesday night in January. Everyone is back from the holiday break filled with new optimism for grades, social status, and what the future holds. My future? In six months I’ll be out of Magnolia and living a whole new life, one that doesn’t involve smoking-hot football players with rock-hard abs who tell you you’re beautiful but in the end are just big fat liars.

  My eyes land on the door of the bar as a group of students spill out of the entrance. They stumble around laughing and talking, and my heart twinges. That used to be me. I used to be the life of the party—but look at me now, the girl who’s basically been in social hiding since Blaze ended things.

  New semester, new you, I mutter. I’m not going to be the pathetic creature I was a few months ago. No more Wallflower Charisma! Party Girl is back! It’s going to be awesome!

  “Car door is open,” states the snobby car voice lady who lives inside my older model Nissan Maxima, and I realize I’ve been sitting here with one leg in and one out, my mind running. I smirk at the technology that was put into these cars in the early 90s—not at the fact that they were able to crack the code on how to record some British woman’s voice and play it, but how they decided this groundbreaking technology should be used to alert the driver to the most obvious things.

  “Washer fluid is low.”

  “Parking brake is on.”

  If Lady Maxima—my nickname for said un-insightful voice—really wanted to help, she would come up with some better alerts.

  “Don’t chase down the ice cream truck. It’s embarrassing and you’re lactose intolerant anyway.”

  “Don’t screw that football player. He will only break your heart.”

  With a nervousness that makes me annoyed, I take one last look in the rearview mirror to check my hair and makeup. My long, dark hair is braided in two loose plaits, the soft pink streaks peeking out here and there. Makeup is smoky eyes and carefully filled-in brows. Lipstick is dark pink. In a perfect world, I imagine my style gives me a sassy femme fatale look, but the reality is I’m just a short nerd girl with pink in her hair.

  I get out of the car and stop at the heavy wooden entrance. Dread, thick and heavy, stirs around in my stomach as I contemplate how I’m going to react when I see him. No doubt he’ll be with Dani, the willowy Barbie doll creature he picked up with after me. I swallow down queasiness as a chilly gust of wind blows, pushing me closer to the door.

  F him.

  You may not be the most beautiful girl in the room, but that’s not why people dig you. Show them you’re back and better than ever.

  The bustling sounds of the bar fill my head as I enter, people laughing and Pat Benatar’s “Hit Me With Your Best Shot” on the jukebox. Fitting. With tables on one side and pool tables and an arcade on the other, the place is decorated like an old-fashioned diner with black and white floors and red stools at the bar. Vintage cars on neon signs blink on the walls.

  Playing cool and acting as blasé as possible, I take off my coat and drape it over my arm. Tiny beads of sweat form on my face, and I chalk it up to the stares of everyone in the
place. They aren’t looking at me, per se, but they are watching the door, waiting for the football team to arrive. With a deep breath, I inhale the greasy, yummy smell of fried food. My stomach growls, and I tell it to chill out. There’ll be no messy cheesy fries with loads of ketchup and ranch on the side tonight. My black mohair sweater dress is too pretty…and this is business.

  “There she is! Ladies and gentlemen, I give you a person we haven’t seen in these parts in ages. The elusive Charisma Rossi! Give her a hand, y’all!” The announcement comes from Margo, the cardigan-wearing, champagne-drinking president of my sorority.

  Color floods my cheeks. “Stop that. Attention is what I don’t need right now.” I scan the room with lowered eyes.

  She straightens the headband on her shiny, straight blonde hair and gives me a pointed look. “He isn’t here, Charm,” she says, her Southern accent sweet as iced tea. “But he will be.”

  “Who isn’t here?”

  “Don’t play dumb. You’re too smart for it. Nice outfit, by the way. Bold with the red stilettos—makes quite a statement.” She arches an elegant yet somehow condescending brow as she hooks her arm in mine and tugs me toward the front of the bar. Normally, I wouldn’t be so acquiescent to her telling me what to do, but she’s taller than me, and I use her as a shield, hunkering down next to her as we walk.

  She stops at a big table right out in the open with a clear view of the arcade and pool tables.

  Great, just great—right in the middle for everyone to see.

  I sigh. “What time did you arrive to score a front-row seat?”

  “Chi-Os get the best. I aim to please.”

  Margo is a Type A tornado on her way to Yale Law. We’re nothing alike, but we manage…mostly. She thinks I’m a little wild, and I think she has a stick up her ass. I like her anyway.

  My eyes scour the bar again, and I straighten my shoulders. Be carefree. Be nonchalant. BE THE OLD YOU. Right. Only, there’s a pinch on my right big toe from my three-inch heels, and I end up standing on one foot like a flamingo to ease the pain. To make matters worse, both arms itch, and I glare at the fluffy fabric on my sleeves. It was a big mistake to wear this, yet I know where my head was when I picked out the figure-hugging dress. I wanted to look hot. I wanted him to see me, take a good, long, second look, and wish he still had me.

  “You’re scratching yourself. A lot.” Margo squints at me.

  “Dude, I’m fine.”

  But I’m not. My skin, from the top of the neckline to the hem, feels like a million ants have invaded. Mohair, why you killing me? I’m mid-scratch, trying to be discreet as I reach a spot on my neck, when a group of rambunctious partiers pushes past me to get to the pool tables. I stumble in the process, and someone’s cold beer spills down the front of my once awesome but now terrible dress.

  Crap.

  Double crap.

  Well, shit.

  I stare down at my wet chest and let out a wail. At least the coldness makes the itchiness feel a tiny bit better.

  The guy in question utters a half-mumbled apology and takes off for the pool tables.

  “How rude. By the way, I can see your nipples,” Margo says as she takes a sip from her champagne flute.

  “Perfect—a flamingo with erect nipples,” I mutter.

  He isn’t even here yet and this night already sucks.

  END EXCERPT

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  Also by Ilsa Madden-Mills

  All books are standalone stories with brand new couples and are currently FREE in Kindle Unlimited.

  Very Bad Things

  Very Wicked Beginnings

  Very Wicked Things

  Very Twisted Things

  Bad Wicked Twisted: A Briarwood Academy Box Set

  Dirty English

  Filthy English

  Spider

  British Bad Boys: Box Set

  Fake Fiancée

  I Dare You

  I Bet You

  I Hate You

  Boyfriend Bargain

  The Last Guy (w/Tia Louise)

  The Right Stud (w/Tia Louise)

  About the Author

  Wall Street Journal, New York Times, and USA Today bestselling author Ilsa Madden-Mills writes about strong heroines and sexy alpha males that sometimes you just want to slap. A former high school English teacher and elementary librarian, she adores all things Pride and Prejudice; Mr. Darcy is her ultimate hero. She loves unicorns, frothy coffee beverages, vampire books, and any book featuring sword-wielding females.

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