Poser
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POSER
ALISON HUGHES
ORCA BOOK PUBLISHERS
Text copyright © 2013 Alison Hughes
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Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication
Hughes, Alison, 1966-
Poser [electronic resource] / Alison Hughes.
Electronic monograph.
Issued also in print format.
ISBN 978-1-4598-0148-6 (PDF).--ISBN 978-1-4598-0149-3 (EPUB)
I. Title.
PS8615.U3165P68 2013 jC813’.6 C2012-907453-5
First published in the United States, 2013
Library of Congress Control Number: 2012952942
Summary: Twelve-year-old Luke has been a model for as long as he can remember, but all he really wants to do is play hockey and eat pizza with extra cheese.
Orca Book Publishers gratefully acknowledges the support for its publishing programs provided by the following agencies: the Government of Canada through the Canada Book Fund and the Canada Council for the Arts, and the Province of British Columbia through the BC Arts Council and the Book Publishing Tax Credit.
Cover design by Teresa Bubela
Cover photography by Corbis
Author photo by Barbara Heintzman
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For my pack—Mitchell, Kate, Ben
and Sam—and for my parents,
Laurie and Claudette.
CONTENTS
Chapter One: I am Spared at Least One Major Humiliation
Chapter Two: We Begin with Fake-Running (If Your Thigh Doesn’t Burn, You Aren’t Doing it Right)
Chapter Three: Macy Cranks it Up a Whole Nother Notch on Dead End Street
Chapter Four: I Try to Get You on My Side Even Though I Sound Kind of Whiny
Chapter Five: Fake-Skateboarding to the Oldies with Chad and Cody
Chapter Six: Shay, the Art of Bulling and Aglets
Chapter Seven: Leading Us Into (One of) My Biggest Lies Ever
Chapter Eight: I Unleash the Monster Lie
Chapter Nine: Red Plush (A Place. Not, Thankfully, an Outfit I Have to Model)
Chapter Ten: Another Super-Exciting Shoot with Super-Jock Cody
Chpater Eleven: Normal-ish Boy Model Seeks Hockey Team
Chapter Twelve: A Note From the Editor
Chapter Thirteen: In Which My Monster Lie Grows and Lurches Out of Control
Chapter Fourteen: Shay is Interested. Too Interested.
Chapter Fifteen: Heeeeer’s Clarissa, Psycho-Freak Girl Model
Chapter Sixteen: Hey, Sports Fans: Hockey Update!
Chapter Seventeen: Mom and Macy Freak out About the Hockey Right on Cue (Did’t I Predict This?)
Chapter Eighteen: Middle-of-the-Cold-Dark-Night Hockey Practice
Chapter Nineteen: Truth. Hmm, I’m Not So Good at This.
Chapter Twenty: The Fundraiser Day Opens WIth a Bang (Brace Yourself. It’s Ugly.)
Chapter Twenty-One: I Invent a New Version of Dodgeball (All Head Shots All the Time)
Chapter Twenty-Two: I have a Very Clost Shave (And by That I Mean B-a-l-d)
Chapter Twenty-Three: Breaking News: Teacher-Student Hockey Game Ends in Bloodbath
Chapter Twenty-Four: Not Even Lying About Being in the Hospital
Chapter Twenty-Five: Becoming Normal: The Sort-of End of the Luke Spinelli Story
Acknoledgements
CHAPTER ONE
I AM SPARED AT LEAST ONE MAJOR HUMILIATION
I probably shouldn’t start this story with a rant. I probably should try to be dignified, welcome you in and let you get to know me before I start complaining. But the whole argument over the title of this book was just so typical of the kinds of hassles in my life that it’s as good a place as any to begin. It was a close call, but I sort of won.
Now, you might think the title of a book is a smallish thing, just a few words to grab your attention and get you to take it off the shelf. That’s what I used to think. But I’ve discovered that a title can actually be kind of important. In only a few words, it can cleverly summarize the whole feel of the story. Or it can suck and make you look like an idiot.
So here’s the thing: Mom and Aunt Macy (especially Aunt Macy) decided that the book had to be called Beauty Boy. Yes, Beauty Boy. Welcome to my nightmare. “Beauty Boy” (BB for short) has been their nickname for me since I was a fat baby barely holding up my own head and drooling on the props in the infant photo shoots. I’d made the cover of Baby Show and done the Dribbleez Diapers ad campaign by the time I was eight months old. Are you impressed? I didn’t think so. But let me just say that it was a big deal in the baby-modeling industry at the time.
Anyway, Aunt Macy argued long and loud for the title to be Beauty Boy. And believe me, nobody can argue longer and louder. She wore everybody down until we were all ready to agree to anything if she would just stop.
I think that’s a technique actual torturers use.
Anyway, Aunt Macy said the title Beauty Boy would intrigue you, make you curious, make you want to read on. You know: Who is this boy? What’s with the beauty? What can it mean?
I told them they might as well put a FREAK sign on me and parade me all over town. I told them kids would laugh when they saw that title. Or they would feel uncomfortable, or worse, they’d pity me. And pity isn’t supposed to happen until later in the book.
Finally, the editor did something amazing. She took my side! She actually stood up to Macy. She told me I was overdoing it a bit on the pity/humiliation thing, but she agreed that Beauty Boy was too weird for a title. And just like that, unbelievably, I was saved. The title issue was wide open.
I wanted the title to be True Confessions of a Serial Liar: The Life and Lies of Luke Spinelli. That’s pretty good, isn’t it? Dignified. Adult. Gives you some actual info too.
Everyone said it was too many words. Actually, my Aunt Macy said, “Oh, jeez. You ever read a book? How many words you think they can fit on a little cover?” More on Macy later, although that gives you a bit of an idea of her.
So then I thought maybe something like Framed! (maybe with The Luke Spinelli Story in very small print underneath). Short, punchy, bit of a double meaning there. That turned out to be the problem though. While I’ve been “framed” as in thousands and thousands of photos, I’ve never been “framed” as in a crime. Hey, I’m only twelve. Give me time.
Bottom line is that everybody thought Framed! was misleading. Also, between you and me, I could see them doing some lame book cover with me in a fake striped jailbird suit, holding a frame around my face, with sort of “Aw, shucks” look on my face. I would have really hated that.
Anyway, when Macy and Mom shot that one down, I tried Slightly Out of Focus: The Luke Spinelli Story; Forcing the Smile: The Luke Spinelli Story; Say “Cheese!”: The Luke Spinelli Story and a few others I can’t remember right now. Bang, bang, bang. Shot down, every last one of them.
And then, out of the blue, the editor, who was looking very tired by this point and was possibly regretting having agreed to the whole thing, suggested Poser. I jumped at it. A one-word title that isn’t completely embarrassing? Where’s the downside? Mom agreed, and we gradually, eventually, wore Aunt Macy down. Three against one are good odds.
So Poser it is. At least you won’t have to cover it up with
something else when you read it.
You are going to read it, aren’t you?
It’s a good story, and it’s true. Except the parts where I’m lying. But the thing is, you’ll know I’m lying. True stories are pretty rare. So you can safely assume I have no superpowers and that I’m not a vampire, werewolf, extraterrestrial or ninja. There aren’t any intergalactic laser battles or a frantic race to save the world from armies of killer robots.
Actually, come to think of it, maybe the truth kind of sucks.
But hey, nobody dies. I’ll tell you that up front. And that’s a promise. I hate books like that. They get you all attached to this character (like, say, me) and then they kill him off? Or the guy’s mom or buddy or something? What’s with that? Nope, nobody dies. Not even the small-part people, like the shy girl in class or the lady who runs the video store. Nobody. All living, all the time.
And another bonus: there’s no heavy moral in here. No moral at all, in fact. Not even about the lying. In fact, lying saves my life many times in this story, so I’m quite a big fan of it. Anyway, it will become very, very clear to you that I’m the last person you should look to for life lessons.
So here’s a quick plot summary: our story starts out with some minor cringeworthy events, morphs into a gigantic monster lie, and some more humiliation, then there’s a really excruciatingly embarrassing part, and then, just when you have your fingers pressed to your mouth and think it can’t get any worse...well, I won’t give it all away.
I’ve probably said enough. Everybody says I talk too much. Although on the plus side, people also say I get less annoying the more you get to know me.
My friends mostly just tell me to shut up. So, while you’re reading, you can say, “Shut up, Spin” just like they would.
Or how about this: I get annoying, and you just shut the book, count to ten, get a snack or take a break or whatever, then open it up again.
I’ll be here.
CHAPTER TWO
WE BEGIN WITH FAKE-RUNNING (IF YOUR THIGH DOESN’T BURN, YOU AREN’T DOING IT RIGHT)
I spend a lot of my life posing.
I don’t mean the leaning-in-a-cool-way-against-your-locker-to-impress-the-girls kind of posing. I mean actual posing, with lights and cameras and fake smiles.
The fake “just hanging out” hands-in-the-pockets pose, the fake “point into the distance” pose, the fake “aren’t we all having fun” belly-laugh pose, the fake-serious soulful look off to the side, the fake-formal hand-in-one-pocket dress-clothes pose...I could go on and on. I’ve done them all.
The photographers say things like, “Hey, I know, let’s pretend you see something funny over there, and you’re pointing it out to your friend!”
I’d rather they just said, “Hey, kid, fake-laugh and point.” We’d all get out of there a lot quicker.
But in my experience, photographers like to chat, like to feel they’re having a creative experience. Making a real connection. Buddy, you’re shooting a flyer. Somebody, maybe, will glance at it for two seconds, then shove it into a recycling bin. Get the kid models to look cute in cheap clothes. There’s your creativity.
Anyway, the pose I hate the most is the one I’m doing right now. Fake-running.
It’s like this: you’re usually wearing cheap, no-brand athletic wear and ten-dollar runners that are never the right size, you’re fake-grinning at some point ahead of you or over your shoulder, you pretend you’re starting to run, and then you freeze. Just like that.
And you hold it for however long the photographer wants, while you get hotter and hotter and your grin gets stiffer and more fake until it’s more of a grimace than a smile.
Try it. You have to balance on the one leg. No cheating.
I was at the grimacing point. Out of one fake-smiling eye, I could see the girl beside me starting to shake. That’ll happen when you’re new to this. It’s that balance leg; it gives out on you all the time when you’re just starting out.
“Hold the pose, please,” barked the photographer as the girl put her foot down for a second. The one that was supposed to be up fake-running.
This photographer was new. He probably described himself as “good with kids” to get this job. If by that he meant using vicious sarcasm and fake sweetness to try to get us to smile for the two seconds he needs us to, then he’s great with kids.
My leg was starting to burn, too, and they were going to need a no-blur lens the way the girl beside me was shaking now. Hang in there, little buddy, I thought grimly. A second shoot with this guy would not be pretty.
“No, it’s not working,” snapped the photographer, stepping back from the camera. “Just relax for a second; let me think.”
He ran his fingers through his thinning hair, looked around and lit a cigarette.
That, I thought, is against the building rules and against the terms of our contracts. There was a clause in there on secondhand smoke; I was sure of it. But I wasn’t really in a position to argue the man down. Wearing a pink golf shirt and turquoise-and-pinkstriped shorts kind of undermines your authority.
I just wanted this to be over.
“He’s meeean,” whispered the girl beside me, stretching her leg. She was, I guessed, about seven years old underneath her makeup. She was supposed to be my little sister or cousin or something in the shoot, although we looked nothing alike. But advertising is like that. I’ve had “mothers” in a shoot who were blond and barely out of their teens. Very authentic.
I once did a shoot for some real-estate brochure where I was the “kid” to two impossibly young, cute parents. I had to ride on “Dad’s” shoulders while “Mom” flipped her hair and people off-camera tossed fake fall leaves at us. When I told “Dad” he had no hair on one spot of his head (which was the truth), he pinched my leg hard and never stopped smiling. Good, quality fake-family time.
Anyway, I felt bad for the girl beside me now: you could tell her shoes were too tight, she was new to the fake-running pose, and now she had to sit here breathing illegal smoke into her little lungs.
“Yep,” I said, looking at the photographer frantically puffing away, “a real jerk. Nice hair though,” I murmured, and she giggled. The photographer’s hair, what there was of it, was practically standing on end.
He stubbed out his cigarette and walked over to us.
All of a sudden, he was super nice.
“Okay, kids, we’re going to try an over-the-shoulder look. Okay?” He spoke slowly. “Over. The. Shoulder.” He demonstrated, as though he were talking to non-English speakers. “Like you’re seeing something, a balloon or a bird or something, over there. Got it?”
Did I mention I’m twelve? If I didn’t, I’m twelve. And I’m supposed to swivel around excitedly for balloons and birdies? Is this guy serious?
The girl and I both nodded earnestly. Basically, what I’ve learned in this business is to smile and nod. They don’t want input. Nobody cares about your artistic vision. Just put on the cheap clothes and fake-smile over your shoulder. While fake-running.
“This is while we’re in the running pose?” the girl asked. Mistake. This guy didn’t want questions. He wanted smiling. He wanted nodding. I turned to her, smiling and nodding.
“Obviously,” snapped the photographer.
The girl nodded. Quick learner.
The photographer motioned to an assistant who was wheeling in a huge fan and helped her position it. Great. Fake wind too.
Another woman touched up our makeup, then turned to me with a sweater. A pink one.
“Randy says we gotta put this on you.” She tilted her head toward the photographer. “Just drape it over your shoulders, kinda casual and sporty, like...that. Cool! Awesome!”
Here’s a tip. There’s a big difference between what adults and kids think is “cool” and “awesome.” This was seriously lame loser-wear. If I saw a guy on the street dressed like this, I’d think he was a complete freak. I’d feel sorry for him and look away while other people pointed and laughed
.
Nobody’s going to see it, I reminded myself. It’s just a small, local Calgary flyer. Nobody in Edmonton will see it.
So far, nobody other than Mom and Aunt Macy knows I’m a model. That’s exactly the way I want it to stay. Most of Macy’s modeling contacts are out of town. All the local companies and agencies that I used to model for years ago got fed up with being pestered by her. Fine by me. For very obvious reasons, I don’t want people to recognize me/ ridicule me/pity me.
“Okay, guys,” said Randy, his voice extra nice now. You could tell he wanted to wrap this up. “It’s summer. Hot. You’re just playing outside, running and...you know, just running...”
In this, Randy? Are you serious? Have you ever even been a kid?
We nodded, as if pointless fake-running was totally understandable.
“And,” Randy continued, fake excitement lighting up his face, “running behind you is a big, friendly, shaggy dog! So you turn to look at it.” He turned, smiling. When he turned, a roll of belly flab peeked out from under his T-shirt. His teeth were yellow. No dog would trot happily after this guy. We kept nodding.
“Okay,” he snapped, all business now. “Places. Wind. Go.”
We did our best fake-running and fake-grinning at the fake doggie. My balance leg and my strained face were burning when we finished.
I knew from experience that it would all look pretty natural when the flyer came out. Randy was probably better than I gave him credit for. The girl I was modeling with was a natural too. Why did that make me feel kind of sad?
I’m good at this too. I should be. I’ve been modeling for a looong time. Too long. I’m a semiprofessional boy model.
I don’t know what that says about me.
But I’m thinking that you’re thinking it’s probably not good.
CHAPTER THREE
MACY CRANKS IT UP A WHOLE NOTHER NOTCH ON DEAD END STREET
Our end of the street has no name. We live on Cuthbert Street, and we have the address on our bills to prove it. It clearly says Cuthbert Street on the other end of the street, across the main road. But the only sign indicating our end of the street says Dead End. Although I think about it every day, I try hard not to let that mean anything deeper.