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by Howard White


  This went on all winter. In the spring

  they say the first thing that appeared out of the melting snow

  under Purdy’s window was a beer bottle

  and then another, as one by one

  a whole term’s pile of empties was uncovered

  and they say the students called them

  Purdy’s crocuses.

  Since hearing this, wherever I drive

  —west along 17 from Sudbury

  across the Wawa wilderness, or east

  on 16 through Jasper from Tête Jaune Cache—

  I don’t mind so much the dozens of empty beer bottles

  strewn in ones and twos beside the asphalt, sometimes accompanied

  by water-soaked bits of cardboard from their cases

  but mostly not. I like to think

  what the poet planted in Montreal

  has taken hold, spread coast-to-coast

  like a new brand of cigar or rabbits in Australia:

  slowly the shoulders of the main highways, and the ditches

  along every back road in Canada

  are filling with the brown blooms of Purdy’s crocuses.

  Gregory Betts

  Shoulders Descending

  Al Purdy pushed me down the stairs,

  his massive hands, the kind you make

  oversized statues of, warped their vein-

  laden declamation around my once-

  broken collar bone, while his fingers

  caress the ridge of bone. I touch posters.

  Exhale into the open street night below.

  I’ve never seen anything like it, he says,

  as we step down from the Imperial Pub,

  stutter stepping like mournful elephants

  retreating from a burial, bush-whacked

  alligator pie-eyed, stoners from Rochdale,

  his long arms trailing between us, something

  British Columbian, syllables that slur. We kick dirt

  over the evening, his second hand

  ticking into my neck. I’ve been in a lot

  of bars, you know, even poetry.

  I’ve seen fights, seen people fucking,

  I’ve seen poets read essays they had no

  right to read. The freedom to destroy.

  We stumble, I grasp the rail

  (down to its last spike), as we bump and

  plough awkwardly down to Dundas. I am

  supporting too much of Canadian literature

  on my shoulders. There would be consequences

  if I were to slip. Broken bones heal, but

  national literatures are much more fragile.

  Did you know, he says suddenly, that the

  stirrup-shaped bone in your middle ear

  is the smallest one in your body? A broken

  one’s never been found, so small.

  We pause for cadence, as if to listen to

  its lack of size,

  only hear the gentle scratch

  of Dennis Lee signing papers

  back in the bar. Something indelible.

  When we make it to Toronto, his hand

  quickly cups my head. He winks, walks off

  to Halifax in a gale of snow faded caribou,

  a lethal puff of smoke from a diesel thug,

  the city unfolds like a rolled-up mattress,

  folds back up and ferries off the way words

  sometimes hover sometimes disappear altogether.

  K.V. Skene

  As the Days and Nights Join Hands

  after “The Dead Poet,” Al Purdy

  hold onto our self-absorbed selves

  brisk as whisky-jack weather  strong

  as a vagabond’s song  broken

  as last year’s wedding vows

  while our bright little Wi-Fi lights

  wink with the superior insight

  of fraught battles

  and innovative ways of becoming

  and we speak hope in its fullness

  a language of uncertain syntax

  and unsustainable joy

  as if in this one inarticulate moment

  our every word will become

  a light unto the world.

  Susan McMaster

  How I Think of Al

  —as he walked right into it

  in the packed and beery bars,

  as he taunted the young poet,

  why do it, if you find it so hard,

  as he barked his knuckles,

  scarred his hands,

  pulling nails from old planks

  to bang together a home,

  as after four months

  of cold and dirt and dark

  by my own frozen lake

  in my own dank cabin,

  I heard death yodel,

  as he returned time and again

  to the one who let him in

  when his wanderings ran out,

  as I realize on this night

  of dead ashes and yellow moon—

  Al, you’re not my muse.

  But some part of you

  is stuck in my words

  as they rise from the cedars

  with mosquito buzz and night hawk,

  as they fall into my hands

  in the Gatineau hills

  cold and soft as snow.

  I think of you, Al,

  as you go.

  George Bowering

  At the Cecil Hotel

  translation of Al Purdy’s “At the Quinte Hotel”

  I am writing

  I am writing another goddam poem

  about drinking beer

  and it’s clearly obvious that I’m an artist

  And I figure that the bartender is an artist as well

  so I show him my beer poem draft

  mainly the part about the draft

  he poured me that tastes a lot

  like a Milton Acorn poem

  But it seems that the bartender

  is more into nonfiction prose

  the way he turns his back

  and lets out an anapestic fart

  Across the semidark room

  two women with large arms

  and large tattoos on their arms

  are drinking ale and writing poems

  They pay no attention

  to the two bony guys slugging each other

  with grimy fists. “Pat Lane

  couldn’t carry Newlove’s jockstrap!”

  says one bony guy as he slips

  in the beer and blood on the floor

  and the other guy kicks him in the ear

  After a while the guy picks himself up

  and staggers over to his table

  and sits down with a beer and a book of poems

  Now the beer in my belly

  is looking for a way out

  but I have to pass the other bony guy

  on my way to the dimly lit pisser

  I can’t help myself

  being an artist and all

  I told him “Dorothy Livesay could wipe the floor

  with Newlove and Lane and Alden Nowlan!”

  “Wanna come outside and say that?” he says

  so I go outside and say it again

  He takes a wild swing and falls down

  and I sit on his head

  which is face down in the parking lot

  “Out here in Vancouver the poets

  make love, not war!” I instruct him

  He lifts his hand in a peace sign

  and I let him up because I’m an artist

  When we get
back inside

  there’s a guy with a big bony nose

  and a bag full of mimeographed poems

  “A dollar a poem,” he says

  “or I will read you five pages for a beer!”

  I ask him what kind of poems they are

  and he says “Immutable, inscrutable, marsupial!”

  I buy five of them and hand him a beer

  because I’ve heard of this guy

  He rides a bicycle all over town

  and jams mimeographed poems in mail slots

  He has recorded every poetry reading

  ever given in this town

  “Welcome to the Cecil!” he says to me

  “I can tell that you are an artist

  writing poems in a beer parlour—

  you are contumacious, salubrious, bituminous!”

  And he was out the door and off on his bike

  before I could show him

  my latest occasional poem

  with him in it, him and beer and blood

  Now I am an artist without a dime

  an artist without a beer

  and likely to remain that way.

  Inspiration

  F.R. Scott

  This Inn is Free

  I will arise and go now, and go to Roblin Lake,

  To a cottage NORTH OF SUMMER, with PURDY on the door.

  I’ll arm myself with hard tack, some rat-poison, and steak,

  And sleep alone on a hard-wood floor.

  When dawn comes through the window, with bird-song à la crow,

  I’ll rise and light my candle, and search for things I love,

  And wrapping round my blanket, to warm me as I go

  I’ll creep my way to the unlit stove.

  When AL comes down to join me, I’ll greet him with a grin.

  My books will all be ready, my voice will be so sure,

  That though he’ll try reciting before I can begin

  I’ll blast him with my OVERTURE.

  Then will the lists be open, the poems laid on the line.

  Before my EYE OF THE NEEDLE, his skill shall not prevail,

  Though he try to make me sodden with gallons of WILD GRAPE WINE,

  And set his CARIBOO HORSES on my tail.

  Oh I can’t wait to visit the igloo of the soul

  Where Acorns, Birneys, Newloves, and bards of equal fame

  Have plastered both themselves and every leaking hole

  And warmed their hearts at PURDY’s flame.

  Kate Braid

  Say the Names

  after Al Purdy

  Say abrasive.

  Say abatjour, abutment and adze eye.

  Say aggregate and air-dried cement, say

  alabaster anchor blocks, anhydrous lime and

  antemion. Say apprentice, with an arabesque.

  Say arris at the place two edges meet and

  eyes up to the architrave of the door

  and the artisan who built it.

  Say ashlar and auger, avoirdupois and azimuth.

  Now bridge to badigeon and ball peen,

  to beams and barefaced tenons.

  Embrace barefoot joints and bargeboards,

  bezel and batter board.

  Chant bay, bead and reel and bead and butt molding,

  bell-hanger’s bit.

  Belay us a benchmark, bevel to bias.

  Don’t stop now—say bleeding tile, blind mortise,

  block and tackle. Bring on board and batten, bolts

  and bond stones.

  Then there’s buck and built-up beams and

  burl, butt hinge and still

  we’re only on the b’s because this building,

  this building is concrete bloody poetry, please!

  Magie Dominic

  Standing on a Newfoundland Cliff

  (Inspired by “Trees at the Arctic Circle”)

  The breeze had changed to a robust wind,

  I could feel it across my shoulders. It was rushing the clouds.

  Waves below were crashing on ancient stones

  that were long ago torn from the cliffs;

  sea foam littered the beach.

  The sky was bursting with colors I’d never seen in my life.

  Mauve and cerise and splashes of charcoal

  crisscrossed the sky like chalk marks left by a child.

  The air felt like silver.

  Wind raged around me and ripped through the tuckamore trees,

  those swirling dervishes that inhabit the tops

  of Newfoundland cliffs,

  branches and limbs gone wild,

  outliving the elements.

  Tuckamores are unique to Newfoundland;

  they challenge torturous storms

  and the waves crashing below them;

  defy the wind and its violence,

  and when denied the chance to grow upward,

  in an act of survival and daring,

  they simply grow sideways.

  I stood alone at the top of the cliff that day,

  waves crashing below,

  a furious wind engulfing me and the tuckamores,

  and I inhaled their courage and daring.

  I reclaimed a part of myself.

  I devoured a piece of the cliff that day;

  a taste of wildness and strength; of vastness;

  of forest and storms.

  Alchemy.

  Bruce Cockburn

  3 Al Purdys

  Stand in the swaying boxcar doorway

  moving east away from the sunset and

  after a while the eyes digest a country and

  the belly perceives a mapmaker’s vision

  in dust and dirt on the face and hands here

  its smell drawn deep through the nostrils down

  to the lungs and spurts through the bloodstream

  campaigns in the lower intestine and

  chants love songs to the kidneys

  After a while there is no arrival and

  no departure possible any more

  you are where you were always going

  and the shape of home is under your fingernails.

  I’m a product of some parents of the sort that shouldn’t breed

  didn’t get much schooling past learning how to read

  got the poetry bug in some forgotten institution

  when first I did embark on my career of destitution

  the beauty of language set a hook in my soul

  me like a breadcrust soaking soup from a bowl

  You can call this a rant but I declare I declaim

  Al Purdy’s poems are the name of the game

  the winds of fate blow where they will

  I’ll give you 3 Al Purdy’s for a twenty dollar bill

  Porkers in the counting house counting out the bacon

  matter’s getting darker in the universe they’re making

  they love the little guy until they get a better offer

  with the dollar getting smaller they can fit more in their coffers

  and the doings on the corner neither sung nor seen

  they’re circling the shopping carts at Sherbourne and Queen

  I resemble that assembly but I’m not the same

  Al Purdy’s poems are the name of my game

  the winds of fate blow where they will

  I’ll give you 3 Al Purdy’s for a twenty dollar bill

  You can spit on the prophet but respect the word

  I’ve got some lines I want to spin you that you ought to have heard

  the winds of fate blow where they will

  I’ll give you 3 Al Purdy’s for a twe
nty dollar bill

  the winds of fate blow where they will

  I’ll give you 3 Al Purdy’s for a twenty dollar bill

  And after the essence of everything

  had exchanged itself for words and became

  another being and could even be summoned

  from the far distance we chanted a spell of names

  and we said “mountain be our friend”

  and we said “River guard us from enemies”

  And we said what it seemed the gods themselves

  might say if we had dreamed them and they

  had dreamed us from their high places

  and they spoke to us in the forest

  from the river and the mountain

  and the mouths of the ochre-painted dead

  had speech again and the waters

  spoke and the speech had words

  and our children remembered

  Kath MacLean

  Spring at Roblin Lake

  Speaking sharply, her voice rising to a hiss, Wind cursed Spring for her late arrival. All night she wailed. By morning, trees were covered in spit. Buds that might have bloomed, curled into themselves, maples, branches heavy with snow, sagged & leaning towards the little cottage, were suddenly old—

  Caught in the bramble, thorns pricked, lines were drawn; limbs cast about—

  there were casualties, yes. Twigs, leaves, breezy bombs circled round the shed, flung

  the outhouse door open, beat it senseless. Cedars aching with loss bent in prayer, but what to pray?

  Forgiveness,

  mercy,

  Love?

  No man’s land. Raphael wounded, offered no resolution, no comfort, no joy—

  Lilacs, tender & fair, huddled by the drive, quivering, faded from mauve to white. Swans blessed the lake, caressed its silken cheek, then in a flurry of feathers were gone. Dog found curses in the grass, crushed, misshapen, forgotten nuts, dried shells, September’s spent leaves & other mementos of the living dead. Wind swayed, & snapping the tulips’ yellow heads, choked the poetic, strangled Romanticism, blew a breath of beer caps from the Quinte—

  Footnotes to a forgotten story: warmer climes, summer stars, young love, songbirds singing—But robins don’t sing & sparrows choking, cough a note or two. Herons on spindly legs beat their wings against the light until morning’s eyes shine black. The day undone, seeds scatter on the back deck, pods. What might have been long ago, no longer means—

  Horses, dogs, a marten sniffs beneath my window, follows what can’t be seen: messages from beyond, air, a whispering statue, a girl turned stone. Lifting the cottage, separating earth, rock, fall face first into Roblin Lake, surface in the moment, then claw about the edges of shore. Dead, or alive, blessing Night, who gives close encounters, with things, people, things—

 

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