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by Howard White


  Refuse the ending. Tipping the A-frame: water, weeds, fishes, silt—redirect

  heaven & Raphael’s swinging feet—

  Thoughts crawl through the gables, squirrels scratch my wasp-infested skin, everything itches. Barn boards swarm with swallows, old souls, still—longing for voice: alphabet, omega, words might speak to the woman in the portrait, converse with these shadows; whose hand rises, falls, burns this green stick?

  Winter, spring, day, night; the marten scratches at the window. Dog & I asleep in the cottage, in the A-frame on Roblin Lake—this seasonless season; Al smokes a cigar & the war seems endless—

  Lynn Tait

  Challenging the Law of Superimposition

  and I am angry remembering

  remembering the song of flesh

  to flesh and bone to bone

  the loss is better

  —Al Purdy, “Listening to Myself”

  I had no poem to write, nothing to offer,

  though buried speechless in the same landscape

  brought me closer to him.

  In his place, my space, the land speaks—

  childhood memories ingrained with visual clues.

  After a 20-year absence, I walk through woods behind my house,

  find my secret hideaways, the quarry, even the raspberry patch;

  everything as I left it, only taller,

  and I am angry remembering.

  Too young. Too young

  to travel, what seemed great distances alone.

  Family car rides weaving through back-roads—Hastings,

  Prince Edward County—it was all the same to me.

  I was the Canadian Shield—a geological landmark that did not belong,

  leaving chatter marks in places that should not exist,

  a fossil even then, and when I reach his grave site,

  we enter a convergent boundary—two landmasses

  remembering the song of flesh,

  the lyric leaching out,

  purple milk under my skin,

  creeping towards each other

  like his blue heron shifts along thin rivers,

  closer and closer, flesh

  to flesh and bone to bone.

  Reading his poems now, swear I was by his side—

  know his nurse log, have seen the golden apples

  abandoned and white capped.

  And though hear his Nature’s sighs and calls

  and think of death often,

  prefer to remember him hung over,

  slugging back coffee in downtown Trenton,

  rather than a renewable resource.

  The loss is better.

  Purdy Country Literary Festival, 2009

  Steven Heighton

  Maps of the Top of the World

  New moon—a starveling

  curled on blue earth and quickly

  swallowed by snowdrift clouds—

  Late in The Lure of the Labrador Wild

  the solemn falling of snow in the firwood, the

  famine-wood, and before long sly, soft winds,

  till drifts oversift the tomb of the tent

  like an A-frame in a snowbelt storm

  —and inside that canvas husk

  a smaller husk now exempt from struggle, the ardent

  anomalies of consciousness, animal heat

  and shunted blood. Sink now sleep a fugue

  of crackling maps, wistful misnamings echoing

  in talus-grey defiles—

  Providence Point

  Cape Homer

  Homeward Cove—

  of firepits

  once more warmly

  antlered with flame.

  The explorer’s dream

  is just the yearning of doomed

  molecules for eternity, ancient urge

  to impregnate barrens with menhirs,

  cairns and runes, with

  ruins,

  and you there likewise,

  Purdy,

  in your oxygen tent,

  mind off elsewhere

  stumbling in a blizzard

  of drugs—

  you too came this far,

  imprinted the ice shelves and foolscap floes

  of how many blank sheets

  and pharmacy notebooks,

  wanted to “do the country”

  so you kept afoot, always moving

  against the stasis to come, always

  talking back at the silence to come

  and that final forecloser,

  repossessor, who serves the body

  such intimate writs, gives pressing notice

  each breath is borrowed, the warmed and

  wobbling space you occupy

  is leased—

  And maybe all this movement and exploration is really

  in hopes of finding—founding—some new “Vinland

  the Good”

  somewhere out beyond

  all vital eviction, where poets, friends,

  like dogged squatters in life’s rickety A-frame

  vie and recite over homebrew, wild grape wine,

  with invincible livers on a pine-box patio

  that never will sag further than this

  —and the day holds, hovering at the late August hour

  of light’s most inebriate angle, on the relic

  phonograph Paul Robeson revived to the lap

  and backbeat of lake-waves, woodwind breezes

  through the weeping willow’s green marquee,

  and the old rowboat is straked and caulked so that later

  a few might row it across to the brook mouth

  and alongside the pioneer graveyard, knowing

  its bottomless appetite is finally sated

  and the living forever barred….

  He loved the poetry of place-names most

  and set them down accordingly—

  So sink now sleep a fugue

  of crackling maps, wistful misnamings

  signposted in permafrost

  Ft Good Hope

  Mt Somerset

  Pt Victory

  the pit of the belly

  once again warmly

  furnaced with flame,

  and “know where the words came from”

  Christine Smart

  Stone Song

  in the river’s white racket

  the shore trembles

  like a stone song

  —Al Purdy

  A pall descends

  a long shadow without end—

  the slant of light on a mountain,

  a snaking ochre tree, wet with rain

  in the river’s white racket.

  Illumination itself, warm as the sun in summer,

  the body no longer a boat, a vehicle, a fluid

  instrument except for three breaths

  lying still, open and floating

  the shore trembles.

  The river cascades, pain ebbs

  and fades, limbs soften

  and dissolve. The flowers sound

  like bells and I am free

  like a stone song.

  Solveig Adair

  Lament for a Small Town

  in beginning darkness / at the end of hunger

  —Al Purdy, “Lament for the Dorsets”

  they find a small doll

  hand stitched, a roll of copper

  wire cradled by

  a rotting wagon the house

  already sinking

  into the forest’s regrowth

  the plates were on the

  table—food too old to rot

  it was like they sat

  for lunch and were distracted

  by the whistle of

  the train which no longer stopped

  fading out midbite

  disappearing with their town

  no roads on that side

  of the river the
railway

  the artery that

  suddenly vanished, starving

  the town into nothing

  these ghosts, these dead dreams

  appear sometimes in pictures

  people and buildings

  frozen into the land’s bones

  we will not keep them

  in our own dreams and stories

  no thousand years of

  myth to give life to these dead

  the last man in town

  crawled out from his decaying

  house, his decaying

  body to the train that no

  longer stopped they found

  him lying across the tracks

  or so the station

  master says when he’s drinking

  that last man his wife

  and child dead as the old town

  no place to travel

  and the old cart rotting out

  making not a meal

  but a burnt offering to

  empty chairs and hearts

  leaving a small doll against

  the telegraph line

  that never came arteries

  slowly cutting off

  as he crawled out into the

  sun

  Karen Solie

  The Sharing Economy

  This performance of

  “I Want My Fucking Money”

  broadcast live from the street will conclude

  when the last human being on earth

  has perished.

  The Freshly Renovated Bachelor Suite has its ear

  to the ground, has the ear

  of the Paying Guest

  who’s found a bed down there among

  the learning experiences

  and automatic functions,

  decor objects from HomeSense’s

  Blunt Force Trauma Collection

  above which the house hovers like a spaceship

  in a super-convenient location

  and the Hosts walk overland.

  A pilot light flickers

  like an awareness of self,

  chaos whispering through the fittings,

  pipes singing, patterns

  in the textiles repeating, the weeping tile—

  between sound and silence

  is music.

  The Paying Guest rises in the middle of the night

  to turn off the radio where no radio exists,

  a disturbance imminent over the sea—no

  the lake—

  it will come clear in a minute.

  The furnace knocks twice

  then hesitates, and the Paying Guest

  lying in the lettings

  remembers the old joke about the drummer

  and now the Paying Guest is laughing on the inside.

  John Oughton

  Long Reach: Thanksgiving, 2000

  for Al Purdy

  In placed, willow-dragged waters

  of the Long Reach

  a muskrat swims on its back

  human as myself on holiday

  working at doing nothing: it

  is just as true that I, floating on

  my back, water rilling off whiskers,

  recall the muskrat’s

  climbing cells shelved

  in the library of my genes.

  As it drags Quinte Bay water along,

  my course makes the smallest echo

  of a southbound duck flight’s V

  And I backswim 40 years ago

  where no muskrat or man

  in right mind floated here,

  because gentlemanly Bob Hayward,

  clean white shirt and tie,

  was beating back Yankee hydroplanes

  with beautiful Miss Supertest,

  her supercharged 16-cyclinder Rolls-Royce Griffon

  powering polished wood up to 160 mph

  kicking up a rooster tail tall as six-story

  buildings that, thank God, still aren’t

  along the Long Reach.

  Now Miss Supertest hangs

  in the Ontario Science Centre, her roar

  shrunk to a single plaque, memento

  mori of Bob Hayward barrel-rolling to death

  on the Detroit River and

  Supertest gas stations, those odd little castle

  keeps of Canada’s internal combustion cult

  are extinct as Fina, and your body from this life,

  Al Purdy. The mystery of how water becomes fire.

  Some poor dumb herbivorous dinosaur

  two hundred million years ago reached

  for tender branches just a little

  too far over the pond and went in.

  Time cooked her down

  to high-test fuel hammering

  Miss Supertest’s stressed, polished pistons

  rhythmic as big Canadian presses pumping

  out Al Purdy poetry books

  which taught me to see

  timewise, my eye extending

  not only the facts of the past,

  but the emotions that pool in a place

  sung by local ghosts

  buried inside the green dissembling

  of goldenrod, milkweed and

  caterpillar, all of them wanting.

  Wanting made matter

  spell out a nucleus, then gild it with scales.

  Wanting inspired a fish mocked by slimy neighbours

  to go walkabout on fins,

  made me contemplate this

  Long Reach deadhead that becomes

  a muskrat’s head examining me.

  Who is further along the scale

  of evolving? I who want so much

  in both senses—desire and lack?

  This muskrat who wants nothing

  and slips underwater

  before I can interrogate him.

  Just another Hermes in a slinky fur suit,

  one of many messengers the world

  shoves in my face, urging

  “Pay attention, fool!”

  It’s in that silence

  that the 16 cylinders of thought

  power up a rooster tail of words.

  Call it poetry if a term is needed

  or nature talking:

  me just the mouthpiece,

  a ripple on the surface,

  and gone.

  Glen Sorestad

  Cactus Cathedral

  remembering Al Purdy

  The poet betakes himself into the desert

  accompanied only by the morning breeze to enact the daily rite

  of purging his bowels of the previous day’s excesses,

  picking his prudent way amongst a mute choir of cacti,

  diverse in shapes and sizes—barrel, prickly pear, dagger

  and pincushion, lechuguilla and yucca—lurking

  like a minefield to punish his stumble or misstep.

  At the designated site, he locates the technology

  of the desert crapper, seizes in one firm hand the lawn chair

  with toilet seat firmly affixed, while the other grasps

  the long-handled spade, a scepter orbed with a toilet tissue roll.

  Thus equipped, he strolls off to his own seclusion

  to meditate on desert life while the sun creeps above

  the Chisos Mountains. Although the poet is no Muslim,

  nor even a practising Christian, he turns the lawn chair

  to watch the February sun begin its morning crawl.

  He begins his communion with the morning breeze

  in this c
athedral of spines and prickles, but his mind

  fastens on the possibility of lurking beasts—an aggressive coyote

  darting from behind a yucca to snap at his bared buttocks;

  or a cougar come down from the mountains; or a pack of javelinas

  drawn to the noxious fragrance as to one of their own,

  then turning on the intruder like outraged parishioners

  routing out a promiscuous pastor.

  But here, in the Chihuahuan desert, the poet ruminates,

  undisturbed, by anything but his own thoughts, and now,

  his rites concluded, he buries his offering, leaving no evidence

  of his passing, hole filled in, desert left unsullied.

  He returns spade and chair to their former location,

  gingerly picks his way, rejuvenated, towards the climbing sun.

  Kath MacLean

  Too Tall for Antiquity

  Sometimes it just

  rains.

  & the river rising, swells,

  draws in its breath & falling,

  dreams its drowned thoughts.

  Bubbles rise to the surface. Frothing,

  the lake laughs.

  (You are laughing too) I think

  before—

  yesterday’s dandelions breathless

  & seedy, poke about the grass,

  stems of nothing ask

  for a poem as if—

  Listen, I say,

  grass ripples by the lake,

  rocks cradle a ragged shore. Where

  I sleep a kaleidoscope:

  ash & berry branches, leaves

  stroke your face in the bark of a willow,

  watching—

  Weeds rub green to green.

  A mating dance, a swish of swan,

  shade, & feathers beat

  about the beach.

  Pebbles, small thoughts

  from your chair. Rain

  fogs the sky without matches, without

  light. Neighbours burn

  sheaves of poems. Shelley’s wind,

  although well-spoken, doesn’t

  speak to me or

  I don’t listen.

  Careful, mice frantic for freedom;

  cry in their steel traps. I let them

  go and one by one they come back.

  Knives, forks, spoons in the drawers fill

  with their nightly visits. Yours, more

 

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