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by Howard White


  Autumn Richardson

  The Oracle

  Scars, glacial drift, bog-

  cotton, dwarf willow

  nameless lakes—cold has stripped

  all colour from their waves

  there is no compassion here, except

  that which I carry for small things

  yet still I throw lines into water to lure

  what may feed me, bones onto flames

  to see the art that carbon makes

  what I see there:

  this day is a momentary haven;

  an interval between longer notes

  pines are shifting into crows; the wolf

  is a deer’s viscera; each is becoming

  another’s vision, another’s gait

  and so I drink the trees

  soon my salts will feed the next

  short sharp life.

  Susan Musgrave

  Al Purdy Took a Bus to the Town Where Herodotus Was Born

  “The town we visited,” Al says, “remember

  the town—we caught a bus there.”

  Eurithe can’t remember the name of the place,

  either, but she recalls a wake-up call

  and a foreign voice saying “Your cold breakfast

  is coming up.” The last time I made Al

  a birthday cake it fell, but Al was gracious

  enough to say thank you for your largesse.

  There are vast areas of my ———

  that are missing, for instance the name

  of the restaurant in Dublin where each dish

  was an approximation of its ideal,

  or the Christian names of my daughter’s

  school bus drivers I said I’d never forget:

  Mrs. Blood, Mr. Wolf, and Miss Hood.

  I wanted to write a Young Adult book

  about “the late bus,” the one the bad kids

  always took, but I didn’t want my obituary

  ending up in the Entertainment Section

  of the newspaper where I once found a prognosis

  of Elizabeth Taylor’s tumour. I don’t want

  to be anybody’s Smile of the Day

  which is why I’m glad I didn’t shoot myself

  cleaning Henry White’s house on Haida Gwaii

  last summer—my death would have made

  the National Enquirer along with Wife Used

  Cheating Hubby’s Toothbrush to Clean the Commode.

  In Henry White’s house I sucked up a .22 bullet,

  heard a bang, saw sparks, and the next thing

  I remember I was seeing headlines: Woman Shoots Self

  in Head with Vacuum Cleaner. The photograph

  of my sad brain looks like a honeydew melon

  soaked in V8 Juice all night after being run over

  by a train the time I went pub-hopping in Oxford

  and landed in a punk bar eating drugged cookies

  which I worried about later when I started

  hallucinating because I was pregnant

  with Charlotte and didn’t want her to be born

  in the corridor of British Rail while I peaked

  on Peek Freans Digestive Biscuits. Mary Oliver

  says poems are ropes let down to the lost, I wish

  someone would keep that in mind when they ever

  find me. A critic in the Globe asks why

  poets are always losing things, especially

  people, why can’t they find something

  instead, and I believe he deserves an answer.

  “The town where they lost your suitcase,” Al says,

  “remember the town—we caught a bus there.”

  Eurithe can’t remember if her luggage showed up

  but she does recall a wake-up call, a foreign

  voice saying, “Your hour has come,” and the line

  going dead. You cherish people

  then they are gone: what more can be said

  about the ones I’d rather be with,

  the ones I love best.

  I thank them for their largesse.

  Susan Musgrave

  Each Life is a Language No One Knows

  It went well. That’s what the man who helped take

  my friend’s life said after my friend drank a last glass

  of Chilean wine laced with date rape drug

  and then allowed his helper to place an Exit Bag

  from a box marked Party Balloon Kits

  on my friend’s head, and pump him full of helium. It went

  well. That’s what the man said to my friend’s wife

  who waited in the living room, in her dressing gown

  dwelling deeply in her own thoughts and feelings.

  Whose thoughts and feelings—apart from her own—

  might she have dwelt upon? The man said the inflated

  helium bag rose above my friend’s head like a chef’s hat

  before being pulled down over his face. I like to think

  my friend drifted up and away into that unknown country

  he had written about, but death that day

  was the sound of one cold hand clapping as I made my way

  back down my friend’s driveway, which looked as if

  it had been paved recently with crushed bones. It went

  well. A person spends his life saying goodbye

  to other people. How does he say goodbye to himself?

  Tom Wayman

  In Memory of A.W. Purdy

  (d. Apr. 2000)

  Death came for him in the spring:

  a dark crocus.

  For even winter, that emblem of

  age and aridity,

  sickens and dies

  and by that act nurtures

  a different season. The snow, the crocuses

  appear and vanish repeatedly:

  the spinning biosphere they help form

  is bound in turn to a rotating planet

  —on which Al Purdy lived once

  and just once.

  Sid Marty phoned

  from his ranch up Willow Valley Road

  in the Alberta foothills

  to let me know.

  “All the fathers are dying,” I responded

  —my own father, exhausted to the core by a hospital’s

  intrusive and agonizing procedures

  to restore one collapsed bodily system after another,

  had convinced his doctors the previous May to grant

  the peace of the hospice ward

  in which he could sleep his solitary way out of the world.

  “This point in our lives,” I told Marty,

  “must have happened to our fathers, also.”

  “We’ve been able to paddle around,”

  Marty mused, “in the shallows

  as long as they were beyond us out in the open ocean.

  Now we have to voyage

  where they went, onto deep water.”

  I remembered a poem by Earle Birney,

  Purdy’s old colleague, now lost as he under the long swells

  of the expanse with no further shore: That sea

  is hight Time,

  Birney wrote, adopting an archaic tongue,

  we drift to map’s end.

  II

  Purdy shambled across the earth, a big man

  whose hands en route pushed at a taxi meter, at

  pens, at newly manufactured mattresses,

  used books, typewriters, the edges of lecterns,

  case after case of beer.

  As he travelled, he delighted in

  the contours of the l
andscape,

  its swales and bluffs, ridges and

  hollows. He marvelled, too,

  at much he discovered among this geology:

  electrical switchyards, grainfields, magistrate’s courtrooms

  and the men and women who inhabit each region or district,

  with their dogs, flower beds, rusted-out cars.

  On everything Purdy loved most

  he bestowed

  the name of his country.

  Yet he was wrong.

  In the forest that straddles the border here, the firs

  on each side do not clutch

  differing small flags in their twigs.

  The Great Divide, as mapmakers understand,

  occurs along another line.

  Still, Purdy did not know what else to do

  with his huge affection for all he encountered.

  He gazed at what pleased him

  with the proprietary eyes

  of pure joy. He called it Canada, but

  it was Purdy.

  III

  Now the poet lives in his words, which

  as Purdy himself would note,

  is a damn strange constricted airless waterless

  place to live

  —no rhubarb pies or Molson’s Ale,

  no girls in their flirty summer tops.

  And any language can die, or change shape

  until only pedants and their victims

  are able to drudge through it:

  maybe one in ten thousand of these

  feels the neuron’s spark of wit in a phrase

  or description regarded as ironic or humorous by a former time.

  Yet those weakest of constructs—words, poems—

  have endured centuries

  so far, which given the track record of

  most things humans create and believe in

  isn’t shabby at all. So perhaps some of Purdy’s words

  will stumble a little tipsily into the future

  viewing wonders—and possibly horrors—he now

  won’t be able to see for himself.

  His gift to me

  was his rambling: his itinerant lines and

  peripatetic stanzas—apparently relaxed, inquisitive, opinionated,

  exactly like someone talking:

  a conversation with the reader so cunningly shaped

  that the choice of structure or other artistic details

  is not the point of the piece, any more than a news story

  reveals its architecture. His boozy self-confidence

  took poetry to a place nobody else had been.

  Who cares? you say. I care,

  and maybe the eons will. If not, his life and achievements

  were no less futile than those of the rest of us.

  I drive back from town on an asphalt road

  dry in the middle of the lanes now that the rain has passed.

  Over my truck’s speakers

  I hear a guitar chord struck,

  then a second one, and a human voice

  begins to chant a story,

  singing me home.

  Purdy wasn’t a singer, even if a fan or reviewer

  occasionally waxed rhetorical.

  But when he depressed a key

  and the shaft lifted and fell toward the paper,

  that passage of metal through air vibrated like

  two people who argue in bed or

  in a bar, a coyote taunting the Valley dogs,

  the raucous blast of a diesel train engine

  that approaches a crossing, a class of grade twos

  squawking their version of anybody’s national anthem,

  a bellow from a steer in Kooznetsoff’s field

  along the Lower Road, wind

  swooping over tundra.

  And since Al Purdy was at ease

  with the currents and rollers of Time, I’ll add

  that the sound was whatever noise dinosaurs uttered

  in an amorous mood, the skritch-skritch of a quill pen,

  a choir in full flight during a requiem mass

  (okay, maybe he did sing a little),

  a black crocus breaking through soil

  into the light of day.

  John Watson

  Variations

  It’s like coming out of a dark room

  to find yourself

  under the wheat blaze

  of a Saskatchewan sky

  —Al Purdy

  A sky of wheat

  Saskatchewan blue

  Stepping into the light:

  Saskatchewan wheat sky

  To find yourself

  find a Saskatchewan sky

  In 2000 Al Purdy

  comes out of a dark room

  into the wheat blaze

  of a Saskatchewan sky

  Phil Hall

  from An Oak Hunch: Essay on Purdy

  IN THESE PROVINCIAL JERK-WATERS

  turnpiked by eagles

  his carbon & foolscap

  local Legion

  o wouldst thee lyrics

  (stumbling in dark plowed-under cornfields

  widening & falling—in arrogance with flaws

  dismissively monumentous)

  glance against the sublime!

  he discovers sublime limestone

  where all of the old surveys wallow white

  HIS COCKY DEFIANCE DROPS AWAY

  increasingly awe is its own music

  a surety of doubt-tone visits

  after years of homemade laments & elegies

  his Opeongo eyes take in & translate

  a petrified flaming tongue’s filibuster

  when are you coming down again

  how are you getting on with the two new ones

  THE TRAILS HE CHOPPED NORTH FOR OUR COLONIES

  of inattention (Romanticism as History’s axe)

  stop behind us now—hacked markers—a pile of stanchions & cables

  staggered images—almost mayday—perhaps caught

  NOW EVERY JACK LIAR & THIEF

  reflected in the black granite

  gravestone of the voice of the land

  reads “book” as “voice’s tomb”

  & carries home some keepsake

  (a stone or cement chicken)

  the giant & I went way back

  he gave me this before he died

  but thrown stones are talking

  stolen cement chickens are talking

  the land’s voice sacred noise

  thunder & lightning unlike us

  SHOCKED AWAKE

  by a speck of red on a white A

  woodpecker

  on the slushy tin roof of this unfinished A-frame

  wrong with gusto

  now both of us hammering away       damn radio plays

  blood untribalized—territories amplified

  art a quirk-of-patience lingo

  that lifts the tongue of the sky

  there is always a better thunder

  pending than gatling           but gatling pays

  PITY WHAT IS LEFT OF US & OUR COUNTRY

  as we dismantle & burn for cheap warmth

  the guy-tropes he brought forward on his back

  to get us here & past here

  STOP IN A DARK FIELD

  his white shirt—jacklit—glows

  tails out among stones

  a white shirt & a hockey stick

  whacking rocks into the trees

  then stopping to listen

  THE FALL WIND RUSHING THROUGH THE DRY CORN

  in all of the cornfields for miles around here

  the paper applause of an ancient voice

  that has just come around with some news

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nbsp; the roll-your-own salvos of the wind in the corn

  a standing ovation surrounding each farmhouse

  sh bravura sh

  Biographies and Statements

  Milton Acorn (1923–86) was a friend of Purdy’s; their sometimes fractious relationship is captured in Purdy’s poem “House Guest.” Three of Acorn’s poetry collections were edited by Purdy, however. Acorn was a fervent Canadian nationalist; two books of his poems were published by the now-defunct Canadian Liberation Movement. He “was a Communist and a traditional Conservative,” James Deahl writes. “Not at different times; at the same time.” In 1970 a group of fellow poets presented a medal to Acorn, dubbing him “the People’s Poet.” He won the 1975 Governor General’s Literary Award for poetry.

  Solveig Adair has lived in many places, but her body, like her writing, is drawn inexorably back to the small towns of the North. Solveig has been published in a number of journals and anthologies including, most recently, Dreamworks, filling Station and Snow Feathers.

  As someone growing up in a small northern town, there were few voices that spoke in the clear beautiful unforgiving language that I saw reflected in the world around me. As a young teenager, I found a worn copy of Wild Grape Wine and a lifelong love affair was born. Al Purdy gave voice to the people I met and knew. He allowed them to survive long after the communities they established faded back into poverty and obscurity. As for me, what he gave me is perhaps best said by Al Purdy himself. The pictures painted by his poems are etched within me and, as in the closing lines of “The Last Picture in the World,” it occurs to me “that if I were to die at this moment / that picture would accompany me / wherever I am going / for part of the way.”

  James Arthur grew up in Toronto. His first book, Charms Against Lightning, was published by Copper Canyon Press. His work also has appeared in The New Yorker, The New York Review of Books, The London Review of Books, Poetry, Brick and The New Republic. Arthur teaches at Johns Hopkins University.

  During the summer of 2017, I spent two months in residence at the Purdy A-frame in Ameliasburgh, writing. I never met Purdy when he was alive, and never heard him read except on tape—but his poems were part of my education, and I deeply admire his decision to organize his life around poetry, without compromise, and without much encouragement either, at least during those early years.

  I hope that my poem explains itself. I wanted to pay tribute to Al Purdy, and also capture the experience of living in another writer’s house, surrounded by his things, trying to understand one’s own life by understanding someone else’s.

 

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